tall tales of a foreigner.

morning, i'm still wide awake and it's 7.14 a.m. it's less than 24hours til the end of 2009 and it flew by just like that. i wasted a year of my life like snap, crackle and pop. got no plans for new years. still got a lot on my mind. i'm going through the last thing that's on people's minds. my pasts haunts me. memories flood my eyes. images pop into my head and starts to ricochet. anyways let's raise a glass to the good and bad memories, new and old friendships and last but not least, the cliches of the world that people still believe in to try and make it a better place.

here's a video that i found that couldn't have said what i couldn't in a better way:



These got to me..
"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't ever suppose to let you down, probably will.."

"You will have your heart broken, probably more than once, and it's harder every time.."

"You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.."

"You'll fight with your best-friend.."

"You'll blame a new love for things the old one did.."

"You'll cry because time is passing too fast.."

"And you'll eventually lose someone you love.."

"So take too many pictures, laugh too much and love like you've never been hurt before because.."

"Every sixty-seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.."

eNd.

hello readers, i've been coming up with crappy titles for posts. its because i have no clue what to put down so i just put random shit that pops up into my mind. again there's nothing new here. it is still boring, it still sucks. anyways i'd like to say something if you're trying to hide something make sure it stays hidden and if it has something to do with someone you dislike, its the last thing that you want to know about, am i not right? if you don't understand, then nevermind. i think i'm partly depressed. when i'm down, i'm really on the lowest point. its pretty hard to figure out the reason why i'm like this, you know why? that's cause i tried. maybe i know the reason but i'm in total denial. definitely maybe. there's always that something that pulls me down the next day, its either something i find out on my own or its the typical suspect which is the daily struggles of life. good thing about blogging that i've learnt, it takes away abit of that unwanted feeling that you want to throw away. writing about your feelings does help at times. one last thing before i end this post. " the things that i hide leads to the reason 'your love is fragile' and the things that you hide leads to the reason 'i don't want him to get mad' "

eNd.

lately i haven't been getting any proper sleep at all. i'm dead tired. always sleeping around 5a.m. and waking up at around 8 or 9a.m. the reason behind this is that my parents are on holiday, nuffsaid. everyday waking up cranky like the hulk and you won't like me when i'm cranky :) anyways, i've been playing l4d at night time with my neighbours and brothers just to kill my boredom. i wana go out but i'm just too tired. i need my sleep but i want to go out. i think i'm going to die soon. i feel so dead. ntah eh, i don't know what else to blog about. i just want to burn time so that i can get on with my life :)

can't wait to get my license. it'll kick start my life again. neways, i've said this from time to time again that it is BORING here. since i've got nothing to do i've been thinking nonsense lately. my mind's not straight. i can't have a clear head. i've got to get something to clear my head. this is freakin' depressing. nothing more to say. that's all, goodnight readers.

eNd.

good-evening readers, lately i've been cleaning my room and just working out, hoping to reach my goal of 1,000 push-ups and 10,000 sit-ups by the end of the month. i tried cooking and found out that i don't know how to add flavour to soup lol. epic failed man :S to improve i'm checking out recipes from cooking websites and trying to learn how to make different types of dishes. okay moving away from food now, last night again we cruised around, chilled at the beach and just went home but it was overall a pretty slow yet awesome night to go places like the beach. at the beach, some people were blasting their sound system in their cars and putting on some music to get rid of that awkward silence. i was bored so i danced to some of the tunes that i liked hahaha..and it was dark no one saw me :D it rained for abit but then it went away and thought that it might be a good idea to come another day :D i wish we had more people to bring out as it would be much more fun. well, maybe some people grew out of the habit but it's not time for me yet as i still want to let the night know that it's still young whenever. i have come to an end to yet another post on my blog. adios~

eNd.

i almost gave up. pretty close i might say. i lost it. it wasn't easy but eventually things worked out. it might not be the same but maybe a change is for the best. anyways, last night apparently the fishes won the game against the KL Dragons and gave them a run for their money. wanted to catch the game but couldn't be bothered to go as i was too exhausted from futsal. congrats to the fishes, good job. today, again i did nothing. watched some tv, ate lunch, watched tv again, changed the channels most of the time. i was barely watching what's on. maybe i'll do some workout after this. guess that's that then, more updates later.

eNd.

salam sejahtera and hello viewers of my blog, if there are still any left. anyways, life's been on a stalemate. nothing to do here in brunei. the only things i do are play futsal in the afternoon with friends and cruise around with faz in the middle of the night. my driver just went back to indonesia so i'm stuck, not being able to go anywhere. i always wanted to update my blog but my laptop is currently unable to connect to the wireless and it's at a neighbour's house which i am suppose to pick up but i'm too lazy to go get it. i'm using a pretty bang-ed up desktop at the moment. it'll do the job for now. my relationship's going fine..i think. i guess it is true when they say some things are best left unsaid or left in the dark. oh well, i think it is best for me to take my own advice and not say anything. it's not like its affecting me..much. anyways, i need to get a license to get me around and a job to move me around. i miss brisbane alot. i miss hanging out with my friends there. i miss 412. i miss KG. i miss doing some of the things there. i practically miss everything that is there. i guess that's enough of missing brisbane. moving on to the big events that has happened which was football funday at JIS where i had a really good time playing with friends and the masquerade ball held at Holiday Lodge, Jerudong, where i stayed the night there and had a great time during the event itself. the next big thing on the calendar is the ptem prom next year. it's going to be held at the grand hall at empire. hopefully that's going to be a blast. even being back in brunei for quite a while now, i still haven't got the chance to properly hang out with some of my friends. maybe i'll the chance soon enough. well, i guess that's all for now and next thing to do on my list is: -nothing.

eNd.