edited! 3.21pm. im staying at home today. darling is coming over instead. HAHAHA. LAZY ME! LAZY 31st of dec! ;P
HEY ALL! on last day of 2008 today, & i did a sin! I SKIPPED LECTURE! HEHE. couldnt resist the temptation of sleeping in longer. HAHAHA. alrights. im going to pom pom before heading out to darling's place for gym! IM IN SERIOUS NEED TO WORK MY MUSCLES!feeling so flabby. EWWWWWW! but anyway, today is the last day of 2008, enjoy it to the fullest! & be prepared for another hectic year ahead! oh yes. THROW AWAY BAD MEMORIES TOO! :D
anyway, its the last day & i've decided that i shouldnt put up any new year's resolution BECAUSE i dont stick to them. HEHE.
& yes yes yes. i know i've yet to blogged about christmas party with the bunch & the lunch date at sophie's. it will come soon alright! HAHAHA. goodbye!
HAPPY MERRY COUNTDOWN TONIGHT! :D SAYING HELLO TO 2009!
BOOHOO~ today's the last day of my pathetically short 2-weeks holiday! :( i super dread school lo. havent really enjoyed myself to the max this holiday! & new years is around the corner & im totally in the holiday mood! THE MOOD TO HAVE LOTSA FUN! :D:D:D:D:D
URGH! BUT BOO! school starts tomorrow. with 2 finance tutorials! & i have yet to do the tutorials. :( so not in the mood for any work to be done.RAWR!
PHOTOS from Sophie's birthday Celebration. & Cameron Highlands!
firstly, the photos taken during sophie's birthday.
den now, the cameron trip. :D saw numerous waterfalls & tea plantations on the journey up. went to 2 strawberries farm & plucked strawberries. (: had steamboat for dinner on the first night. the feeling was shiok. as i was feeling super cold. my birthday celebration later in the night with a birthday cake which is transported all the way from Singapore. THANKS! :D i shall let the photos do the talking. ;D
this is the last week of my precious 2 weeks holiday. :( SADNESS CAN! havent really enjoyed myself to the max & i have got lots of thing that i want to do, but have no more time to do liao. i want to go sing k (but im having a bad throat infection now), i wanna go cycle (but its seemed like time is running out), i wanna go shopping (this week is packed, no time for that). SEE! URGH. nvm! im super looking forward to the long long holiday after february. :D
alrights. so yes. throat infection. seen the doctor & was given lots of pills again. :( being so easily sick recently have trained into someone who can swallow pills! even big ones okay! i used to be an idiot in swallowing pills. i cant swallow them lo! but im slowly becoming as expert liao larh. URGH. i really must take good care of my throat man!
& i have been busy this week since i came back from cameron highlands. Monday: Went to school for project meeting at 2pm. wasnt feeling very well. Den went to darling's place. darling was running a fever which is 39 degrees okay! :( was darn worried. stayed till pretty late before going back home. was supposed to go for the christmas party over at sean's, but missed it as both of us aint feeling well.
Tuesday: TODAY LO! ohmygawd. i feel like i've already came back for 3-4days. but infact, its only 2 days. HAHAHAH. but anyway, was supposed to be in school by 9am for project. but my headache made me stay at home. :( URGH. woke up & did my part of the project before heading out for my driving lesson. today lesson was a disaster. i totally lost touch on how to drive. LOL. or maybe because i wasnt feeling well. i dont know larh. i need more practise to pass man. :( den bumped into sophie on the train & i went to her place for short while to get the photos taken during my birthday from her & stayed on to play a bit of WII! hahaha. my arms were super tired can! but its darn fun! LOL. den got home & fell asleep while watching tv. HAHA. was supposed to be out with darling, but was cancelled in the end. had dinner with my parents & den to the doctor. Diagnosed: Throat Infection & Slight Fever. the doctor says i've got white patches on the walls of my throat. EWWWW! came home with 4 packs of pills. :(
okay. den track back to last week. Thursday: went for my eye checkup at my uncle's shop while my dad went to collect his specs. i made a new pair of specs. HEES. den off we went to Marina Square for Movie with my brother. Caught Ip Man. it was a super nice show can! give it a 4 out of 5! :D after the movie, we still had to wait for my mum, as she is having some company event nearby. so sat down at the gelare at citilink for dessert & waffles. ;D had a nice time chatting with my dad & listening to his stories. HAHA. see. he can very nice & very nasty too. must see his mood. he really has a lot of funny stories to tell. while some are very meaningful. left soon after our sumptuous dessert & home sweet home, as my mum was done. anyway, bumped into Jessica when i was walking to Marina Square with my dad, cos my brother went over to buy the tickets first, while my dad & i went to my uncle's shop. was quite shocked to see her there lo. :D (SEE JESS! I BLOGGED! HAHA.)
den friday was my birthday celebration lo. :D
will upload the photos taken during the Cameron Trip soon. & for the post on my birthday, i've finished typing it. but the connection tonight has some problem. i couldn't upload photos & video into the post. so i'll have to try it tml or some other day. will try to post it up asap too. :D
ohyes. santarina VANESSA TAN QIAN MIN came secretly just now. thanks for your candy! MERRY CHRISTMAS TOO! ;D
had fun plucking strawberries in the plantation, listening to another round of happy birthday for myself. :D but the not fun part is I FALL SICK! :( furthermore, the journey up there was torturous. was being thrown from left to right in the car can! 'cos my dad was going at quite a fast speed through the turns & the turns are like 90 degrees lo! but anyway, i couldnt withstand the coldness there cos it was raining on saturday night & i almost froze. got up the next morning feeling super giddy & BOOO! i was darn weak. cant even stand up for more than 5 minutes. :( had the miracle pill panadol. slept a bit & got better. FORTUNATELY I GOT BETTER CAN! if not, my remark for the trip will be nothing. HEES. at least, i got to eat yummy strawberries! will talk more about it when i've upload all the photos. ;D till then!
& now! my day. BIRTHDAY! ;D celebrated on 19th. darling came over at 3plus pm with my present & OREO CHEESECAKE! HE MADE A CAKE FOR ME! HEES! but we finished the cake before i could take a photo of it. YUMMY! ;D & he got me a swarovski necklace. ;D THANKS DARLING! ;D & we headed out for dinner at waraku! HEHE. ate to our hearts' content! & went walking around town looking for gifts & back to yishun to meet the A2 peeps for my advanced birthday celebration. he went off after sending me there.
people presented that night were sophie, wanjun, qinghui, samantha, serchin, kenny, kenneth, zhaoyi, xiangjun, youlun, alvin (came for awhile & left), long seng & two of his friends. so i shared a mango dessert (i forgot what its name is) with sophie as i was still feeling kinda full after the waraku dinner. had lots of laughter & fun. similar to last year, its candles on chewy juniors during the cake cutting time. (sounds spastic. cos there's no cake to be cut. LOL.) ;D & cake cutting will always be followed by removing of candles. den sam ordered the same mango dessert & challenged me to see who can finish it the fastest.
den after the challenge, i almost died can. my stomach almost burst! but i won alright! hahaha. soon they started their plan of asking me to guess where's my present. had a hard time finding out & eventually, i manage to find it, but its just an empty box! so see the video below to laugh. LOL. i was laughing when i see it myself. LOL.
there's one more video to be uploaded. but i have been trying to upload it since morning, but it kept having error. so you guys will have to wait lo.
they got for me a citigems necklace. so i've got 2 necklace to wear now. WOAH! i dont usually wear necklaces okay. HAHAH. this would be a drastic change. LOL. & soon after, we left XinWang, took photos outside before parting our way home. ;D
& so i rushed home, packed my luggage & prepared myself for the cameron trip!oh yes. i think some birthday wishes for me wasnt been able to send to me when im back. SOOOO! THANKS TO ALL WHO WISHED ME! & SORRY IF I DINT REPLY YOU. cos i was away in Cameron Highlands during the actual day & couldnt receive your messages. & when im back, i only managed to receive a portion of them only. SORRY & THANKS ONCE AGAIN!:D
The rules: Bold the statements that are true to you Italise the statements that you WISH are true Leave the Fibs alone Then, stab 5 guys to do the same test. ANYONE WHO SEES THIS & WANTS TO DO IT. :D
I miss somebody right now. - i miss my darling. I dont watch TV these days. - Little nonya is too hard to resist! I own lots of books. I wear glasses or contact lenses. - i'll half blind without them. I love to play video games. I've tried marijuana. - what's that? I have been in a threesome. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. -YUCKS! this kind of people should be bring to extinction. I believe honesty is usually the best policy. -being honest is very important to me. I curse sometimes. - only when im super pissed off. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. -yes. i did. positive changes. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. - this is so psychotic. I'm TOTALLY smart. - AWWWW! how i wish i was smarter! I've broken someone's bones. - EWWW! this is so violent! I'm paranoid sometimes. - yes. totally true. HAHA. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. - will still struggle to get to a final decision. I need money right now. - i mean who doesnt? LOL. I love sushi, but not the weird ones, like octopus and eel. - i love all kinds of sushi. LOL. I talk really, really fast. - sometimes people have to slow me down. ;P I have lost money in Las Vegas. - i wish i did. HAHAHA. I have at least one sibling. I have long hair. - eh. its longer than shoulder length considered long? I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past. -of cos! during prom night. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D. - YES TOTALLY! i wont be able to know who has contacted me. I like the way I look. - everyone should learn to like the way they look! :D I am usually pessimistic. - only when im down, not usually. I have a lot of mood swings. - i know this is bad. but.... sorry! I have a hidden talent.- I hope i have... I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. - depends on the occasion & the company i have. I have a lot of friends. - If the definition is knowing each other, but dont usually talk. I am currently single. - HELL NO! i love mister chua xinglun alright! I have pecked someone of the same sex. - eh. its more than just a peck! hahaha. I enjoy talking on the phone. - Depends on who i am talking to. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants. I love to shop. - which girl doesnt? HAHAHA. I enjoy window shopping. - i cant window shop. i'll die. i hope i can. at least, i can save more $. I would rather shop then eat. - yes. at least, i got new stuff to use & wear. eating only makes me go fatter. EWWWW~ I don't hate anyone. - i wish im so holy. I'm a pretty good dancer. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother. - ohmygawd. anyone who agrees to this is an asshole. I have a cell phone. -DUH! who doesnt? even primary kids are carrying one now. I believe in God. I watch MTV on a daily basis. - i will if i have this channel on my cable. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. - just once. & it was my first time getting drunk. I rejected someone before. - yes. I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life. I want to have children in the future. - Children are soooo cute & adorable! I have changed a diaper before. - never babysit before. I've called the cops on a friend before. I have a lot to learn. - YES! LIFE-LONG LEARNING! :D I'm not allergic to anything. - im allergic to prawn. :( I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger. - NO WAY! I am shy around the opposite sex. - when im interested in that someone. I have tried alcohol before. -DUH! if not, how would i be drunk? I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past. I own the "South Park" movie. I would die for my best friends. - YES! Definitely. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza. I have used my sexuality to advance my career. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all. - EWWWW! so sick. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. - YESYES! hahaha. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it. I have dated a close friend's ex. I am happy at this moment! I'm obsessed with guys. - this is too extreme. HELL NO! I study for tests most of the time. I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met. I can work on a car. I love my job. - I hope i do. being my parents' daughter is tiring. I am comfortable with who I am right now. I walk barefoot wherever I can. - only during certain time. I have more than just my ears pierced. - thinking of getting one at my belly button. I have jumped off a bridge. - I would love to try. HAHAHA. I love sea turtles. I spend ridiculous money on makeup. - i will have a lot of good makeup to use. I plan on achieving a major goal/dream. - but i dont know if i can achieve it. I'm proficient in a musical instrument. - Clarinet! but im afraid that i've lost touch of it. since it has been years since i last played it. I worked at McDonald's restaurant. I hate office jobs. - Office Job is COOL! I love sci-fi movies. I think water rules. I went college out of state. - dreaming about it. MONEY ISSUE. I like sausages. I love kisses. - who doesnt? HEHE. I fall for the worst people. - EWWW! this type of person has such a weird taste for people. I adore bright colours. - YES! I can't live without eyeliner. - i only apply it when i feel like it. not reliant. I don't know why I did this stupid thing. - i dont think this is stupid. LOL. I usually like covers better than originals. I cant pick up things with my toes. - Small things yes. I can't whistle. - have been trying to learn. but i failed. I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake's slither. I have ridden/owned a horse. - during a farmstay when i went to australia. i was only 10 years old. I still have every journal I've ever written in. - Yes. both written & online. I can't stick to a diet. - at times. SO SINFUL! I talk in my sleep. - when im sleeping deeply, i may subconsciously make weird noises. LOL. :X I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. Climbing trees is a brilliant past time. I have jazz in my blood. I wear a toe ring. I have a tattoo. - I think having a tattoo is coolio! I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with. - of cos. you cant possibly like everyone you work with. I am a caffeine junkie. - i dont usually drink coffee. I know what cosplaying is. - DUH! I have been to over 15 conventions. - huh. what's that? I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better. - this is a garang guni man's job! I'm an artist. - Is doodling considered drawing? I only clean my room when necessary. - My dad will kill me if dont clean my room regularly. I like a person of the same sex. - YES! but not one. many. LOVE MY DARLING GIRLS! :D I love being happy. - everyone should love to be happy. I am an adrenaline junkie. - YES YES YES!
have been a good girl staying at home for the past few days. or rather tuesday & today(wednesday). but anyways, i should say, im lazy to go out. cos sophie asked me over to her place for WII yesteday(tuesday), i said i'll go over, but i ended up rotting in front of my teevee & lappie for the whole day. HEHEHEH. sorry girl. ;P
as for monday, had to go to school to get some stuff settled. now everything is good, all over again! :D while sunday was spent with my parents. went out with them to comfort delgro's cabbie carnival & bumped into ValeriePoh who is working there. it has been ages since i last seen her & she chopped her hair to a length which is shorter than mine sia. :/ pity ya know.
anyways, im pretty excited about my birthday now. things are falling into place & planners are kinda secretive. ME LOVE SURPRISES! HEHE. it sets the curious-me guessing & getting annoyed of guessing, but will still continue to guess. LOL. yes. i know im kinda paranoid at times. but everyone is larh. right right right. HEES. but anyways, celebrations this year will be kinda different. every year, it will be on the actual day. but now, its countdown! HAHAH. the day before larh. cos i wont be in Singapore on the actual day. so i super looking forward to my birthday now! HEHEHE. but i hope time will freeze when i hit 21. cos i dont wanna go older! besides, my coming birthday is going to be the last teens. AWWWWWW~ :( ultra sadness! so unbelievable. furthermore, some friends will be turning 20 after a few weeks, 2009. :( so fast. GRRRRRRRRRRRR. i would very much want to own a time controller. then, i'll be able to let time slow down or pass faster. HOW NICE WOULD THAT BE HOR?
okay. so much of talking about my birthday. looking forward, with a bit of dreading. LOL. what a weird mix. HEHE.
oh yes. I WANNA SHOP & NEED TO SHOP! cos i got things in mind to get & money to get them now. LOL. anyone available?date me, please... HEES.
just in case, you guys are scratching your head so hard to think of what to get for me for my birthday! here's a list for something to solve your headaches.
here's my wishlist. HEES! 1) HANDPHONE! LG VIEWTY! but im getting this for myself. 2) DIGITAL CAMERA! FUJIFILM -FINEPIX Z20fd 3) WALLET! 4) THAT FOSSIL WATCH! 5) IPOD CLASSIC! 6) Dresses/Shorts/Tops/Footwear. (provided you know my size, of cos.) 7) Bags, Handbag, Totebags. but not backpack alright. ;D 8) actually, anything useful will do. its the thought that counts, but no soft toys please. (quote from sophie)"i'll stuff the soft toy down that person's throat if they give me soft toys as presents." HEES. soooo. dont risk your life yea? LOL.
HEHEHE. i hope this list is enough to solve your question marks on what to get. ;D & for people who dont know when my birthday is! its on the 20th of December. however, i wont be in Singapore that day. will be heading out of town to the Cameron Highlands (Malaysia) early on the 20th morning & will be back prolly during the evening of the 21st or 22nd. ;D my parents have yet to confirm the return dates. so its either of these two days.
mid sems are OVER!yesterday. HEHEH. i can say this is the first time, i really did mug for a exam in my entire poly times till now. but after the paper, i realised i've already got like 7.5 marks gone. but i hope they'll be giving working marks. HOPING VERY MUCH! ;D
so after the paper yesterday, met up with darling for some self-pampering time. HEHE. movie at ehub. caught 'The Day The Earth Stood Still'. i think its a good movie. its inspiring. you guys should catch it too if you havent. i'll give it a 4 out of 5! ;D
anyways, thursday had RHRA & MER paper. i thought it was good. but hell no. made some wrong assumptions can! URGH. but whatever larh. its over. i just hope i dint screwed the paper up further. went to bugis for lunch then studied at the national library. was conducive can. no distraction. HAHAHA. its the only place that will make me wanna study, cos there's nothing to distract me. HEHE. so studied for the entire afternoon before heading to heeren to meet the rest for sophie's birthday celebration! ;D HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST WORMY! ;D anyways, dinner was at shokudo. dinner was sumptuous. company was superb. but the night ended with me, heading home to mug for FOI, while the rest went for movie. just read from their blog, they went to slack at the coffeeshop after the movie. URGH. i so miss those times can! its been sooooo long since i slacked at the coffeeshop with them. URGH. yet i missed it. SHYT! next week next week, my birthday my birthday! HEES. photos will be later. after i get all of them from them. ;D SO BEHOLD!
alrights. supposed to go out with jessica & sotong queen (sophie larh) today. but i was having this splitting headache this morning. so gave it a miss. :( we're actually heading for kbox can. i miss kboxing with them. & i havent went to kbox for months. i used to go for one kbox session per month can. RAWR! that stupid headache. RAWR!
& now, im all alone at home. shall go gossipgirl now! ;D HAPPY WEEKENDS EVERYONE!
alright. there's something like a seize fire with a condition which have never been to my favour. a pay allowance cut. :/ cried the whole morning becos of it. & i seriously hope my dad will just say & not put it to action. im praying to all the gods now. :/ HELP! SOS, PLEASE!
anyway, mid sems is this week. & im having papers only on thurs & fri. & thurs is wormy's big day. URGH. i super hate having exams during birthdays. :( but anyway, im screwed enough i think, havent studied a thing yet. & am sooooooo not in the mood for notes, books & whatever that's studies related. looking for motivation, again, as usual. HAHA.
alright. im thinking of switching my blog to livejournal(as it is more private & i can lock up post to keep it as friends only) or i can change my blog address & only tell whoever i think they should know about it (but i think its kinda mean). HAHAH. but no matter what, its still in the stage of THINKING. ;D so till then. i need to go back to my notes for now. & try to get something into my puny brain. HEES. best of luck to everyone! ;D
& & & its 12 more days to 20th december. HEHE! ;D im not in the mood for any birthdays celebration for me now. all gone. totally. dont even wanna be reminded of my birthday. wish i was never born.
we always hear people saying that your HOME is a place where you can take refute from everything of the outside world. however, my HOME is just another war zone. URGH. i feel so out-of-place at home. feel like a total stranger who is staying in this house. URGH. so lonely.:(
im tired of fighting. can i call for a seize fire? can i strongly request everything to stop at once?
i seriously need a long long break from all these fightings. how i wish someone can really heed to my request and stop. :/
p.s. the above is not refering to darling. we're super fine. ;D its just things at home.
WOOHOO! i feel so accomplished now! i've finally finished compiling the HR report. FYI! i did it on a man show! WOOHOO~ HAHAHA. but credits to my groupmates for being for cooperative! ;D WE'RE GREAT!
okay. happy things aside. i brokedown again, today. a sudden gust of emotions caught me again. URGH. rainy days makes me emo, especially when im lonely & havent been feeling very good. i miss darling. :(
fortunately, things are getting better now in school. but for things at home, i dont wanna bother now. my studies is more important now & anyone who will drift me off my goal will not be entertained. & darling is sick, get well soon darling! loves. loves. ;D
in your eyes, im always bad. always useless. always lousy.
i think my life is an irony. with a dad who says that he thinks he is a good dad, when he hits when he is not happy with me, even till now. & a mum who always loves to put me lower when i just scolded & hit by my dad. no one bothers to care about me. so what if others think that they are giving me a lot for pocket money. but its inclusive of my transportation, all day meals, & phone bill. which means im left with nothing much larh. & my dad will just go berserk & scold me some stupid reasons which doesnt even concern him. & i dont understand why he is so bothered by that issue when it doesnt even affect him. i. really. dont. understand. & he can be so angry & start throwing things around all over again. (he always throws things around when he is angry & going on a fit.) URGH. im just trying my best to please them. but they just have to show me how not supportive they are. calling me useless, calling me stupid. imagine your own parents calling you that. sometimes, i just feel that i shouldnt be brought to this world. i shouldnt be born. why for be born to parents who will call you useless, stupid? my dad was still telling me that its okay if i couldnt get into NUS, NTU or SMU, so long as i tried my best. & when now, im so determined to try my best & pull up my grades. he just needs to come by & push me down. i havent been feeling fantastic lately. im pretty stressed up with school, projects & assignment. but he just have to come & restrict me from everything. from staying up late even though im doing work. from going out. he loves to ground me. i dont understand. cos he dislikes me this much, yet he wants to keep me at home & see me & get angry. how weird. urgh. i feel so fucked up and messed up. i hate my life now. hate everything bad that is going on. i just everything to over. over. OVER!
oh yes. he doesnt allow me to stay up late to complete school work now. even if the submission date is the next day. he said that i must go to bed & not do my things. he said that since i cant finish it before his bedtime for me. den i dont need to hand in. & if my groupmembers are unhappy, they can call him. WA LAO. he thinks he is very big & everyone has to listen to him. & when i say my grades will suffer. den he said that he dont mind wasting more money on my education since he allowed me to waste one year on jc. URGH. how ridiculous can he be? & he still can say he thinks he is a good dad. OHMYGAWD. he is just sick larh. URGH. FUCK.
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