Thomas's Innercity

recently found out that Jay's New Album - 魔杰座
has very nice song....

one of it is 稻香 and another one is 说好的幸福呢

说好的幸福呢, is a real nice song.. i really like it very very much...

this song is a very sad songs and remind me of a lot and a lot of unpleasant past..
this remind me of my father.. i don know why.. perhaps, the death of my father is the most hurtful part in my life....

i keep on thinking and thinking, if before my father die,

i chant sutra for him will he survive?
if i accompany him, will he survive?
if i bring him to see doctor earlier, will he survive?

so many and many question..
(picture of my mother and father)

i understood that we cant control a person live or death...
especially after i have handle the case in skudai toll,
so many and many health care professional are there but no one are able to help him..
i felt so lost at the moment..
one guy just died in front of me....
can u imagine?

haiz..
after so many years.. 3 years dy..
the sadness in my heart is still not recover yet..
sometimes, i saw my mother crying also...
i knew that she doesnt want me to see her crying..
hence,
i treat it as nothing happened..

i still remember, after my father passed away, my mother and i,
cried for 3 months..
everyday, every night..
we lost our routine life.. and the most important.
we lost our family member...

my father have so many and many friends....
they are real sad also...
up to now, we still remain his telephone number.. we know that its not rational in doing so..
but we just cant make ourselves to cut off the line....

a very silly thinking...
i still hope that one day, he would use his telephone to phone me..........

up to now, whenever i saw people taking their lunch or dinner with their father,
i felt so happy for them....
yet, the sadness in my heart occur again...........................
if u wish to know how he die, got to the link below...
http://thomasdiary.blog.friendster.com/page/2/

(picture of me and my father awarding the International Dragon Dance World Champion in Taiwan)


while im writing this blog, all my memory came back before the day he die..
when i saw his photo...
my tears ran down..
its funny that an old men like me still crying...
but i just cant control my feeling....


this song (说好的幸福呢) is a real nice song...
if u are free, please listen to it..
it really brought me back a lot of memory........

i would be very happy if u could leave some comment for me..
or, u can leave in my friendster profile... thanks.

friday night, we went to da wei wang (Steamboat) to celebrate ke xin birthday...
picture was not clear due to armpit de skill is not good yet.. hahahaha

the participants was....

thomas, Small Kok Yuan, Leong Yin Kuan, Tiang, Sau Wui, Wan CHien, Armpit, mei Ting, Lixian, an hui, my darling (Sau Yang), Ke xin, victor, and Jun YAng..

well, i was late there, was very late.. around 8pm already.. together with me are ah tiang...
however, i wasnt the latest lo.... hahaha
li xian and victor are later...

as usual, while eating while playing... play until like crazy people.. don know whats so fun also.. but its fun.. haha.....

i was late becasue i went to buy cake for her.. then when lixian came, she brought a cake too..
i was like... oh oh..... 2 cake.. how to eat....??? haha..
luckily the cake she bought was not the same as mine..

then we play and eat and play and eat..

ding dong..
the time to cut cake liau..
this party is to celebrate ke xin birthday, but few weeks a ago, tiang birthday we didnt celebrate for her.. she is having PMR that time and an hui birthday also.. althought her birthday has passed for a month!!! haha.. im wondering how does a mountain pig know about her birthday? or she was lying to us so that we would celebrate for her??? hm.. so many and many question.. haha..

(they looks so beautiful when the smoke passed by)

after cutting the cake, its time to eat lo.. we decided not to cut the cake into pieces but just use spoon to eat lo... then the cake war begin.. as usual, ke xin and small kok yuan is the best player for the cake war.. then the others are just watching..

however, i realise there is a small boy {the most handsome in taman perling~he say de} (in the pic) which are playing a fool too..

i told him not to disturb me.. but he insist.. and i keep on tolerate..
in the end... hahahahaha he kena by me liau!!!!! hahaha serve u right. hahaha...

the cake that an hui hold, in the end armpit smash it on ke xin face.. he use a lot of energy lo... i think he has forgotten than ke xin face is not a plasma flat screen tv.. so kelian..... plus plus... look at those people behind an hui and ke xin... i will describe them in details later.....

when ke xin and small kok yuan play, they accidentally langgar the next table de customer..
they were so fierce and ask us to have some manners..

those people are so ah beng, ugly, fat, short, and disgusting....
the hair doesnt goes well with the head,
the head doesnt goes well with the shirt,
the shirt doesnt goes well with the pants,
the pants doesnt goes well with the shoe,
the shoe doesnt goes well with the face,
the face doesnt goes well with the ear,
the ear doesnt goes well with the mouth,
the mouth doesnt goes well with the watch,
the watch doesnt goes well with the hat,
the hat doesnt goes well with the teeth....

he is totally a monster and is the worst monster in the planet!!!!!
i believe those who has seen him, agreed with me...
(Please comment)

then keep on playing and playing until ke xin and kok yuan look like this.....

after playing, we took photo lo......
below pic is the latest couple in st john lo...
4 couple lo..






















after all the fun,
we have a small discussion on st john committee new system..
this is the prob with us which we can play like hell but in just a few second we can provide very professional attitude!! great men! haha..
we didnt realise that it was real late until my father in law called..
he was so angry lo..
then very fast i send my darling and his brother back lo...


the overall party was great and lots of fun.
but don know why, i still feel that ke xin is not happy..
haizhaizhaiz.. don know what to do also..
haiz... god blessed her with happiness forever....

22 of October....

at that night small kok yuan ask me whether he can come my house to study or not..
well, i was doing my assignment at that time..
to me, i prefer to have somebody studying together with me than doing my assignment all alone.
so, i agree to his request..

around 8pm, i reach his house then bring him to my house..
he said at 10pm have to be at home..

then we study+study+study....
in a very short while, 10pm liau..

then he said, he is angry and we agree to go for supper..
hee hee.. as usually, of course, his gf would want to join us to..
i don want to be a lampost so that i ask kexin out to...
but i have totally forgotten about her birthday..
from her face.. she was quiet sad about it..
seems like no one celebrate for her..
the happiness on her face cant be seen..
well, i decided to buy her a cake...

on the way to bukit indah (Mrs. Low House), i asked kok yuan whether he know how to go to his gf house or not... i went there before but it was long ago.. so i cant remember actually..
then.. went we reach the T-junction near Jusco Bukit Indah, i ask kok yuan which road shall we take? he say turn right... i told him that as what i remember, we should turn left.. however, he is so serious about this matter, i believe in him..

we turn right..


as i go on, i saw the signboard written

Tuas Kuala Lumpur

i was like SHIT!!! we were on the HIGHWAY!!!!!!

i was thinking whether there is a u turn for me or not..
as i go on and on and on....
i reach the toll and i ahve to pay RM2.30 just because i take the wrong road...
after paying, i take a U-turn....
then, i was at the toll again.. and i was forced to pay another RM2.30..

damn shit.. suddenly need to pay so much for nothing..
ok.. turn back dy, we at the junction again..i told him that we should go straight this time.. but he said no... is right.. ok i follow what he said...

AND HE WAS WRONG!!!!!
as i go on, i have reached bukit indah 2...
damn stupid..

i make a u turn again and back to that stupid junction...
in short.............
i took 30-40 minutes from taman sutera to bukit indah.. this is so stupid..


when mrs low was in the car, i told her that i want to buy a cake for kexin.. ask her where to buy...
but ke xin refused.. she don want the cake...
however, we continue our journey to buy the cake
that time was already 11pm... all cake shop was closed..
then we realise that the Island Red Cafe is selling cake and we bought one for kexin..
its a chocolate cake.. as wha she said, its yummy..

then we went a kopitiam to have our supper and celebrate her birthday..

hm.. to me, she was not happy as a lot of people seesms to forget about her birthday... i felt so bad about it..

ke xin, no matter what happened, PLEASE BE HAPPY!!!!

hm..... this is my first blog in blogspot.com...
(for previous blog, please go to my friendster account, TQ)

it has been 3 days since i promoted to a divisional sergeant...
seriously, i;m quite excited about this promotion as finally i reach my goal.
still remember a few years ago, i set a goal for myself with my ex-gf, saying that
before she graduate, i have to be a sergeant. and i DID IT...

to be frank, before this i was quite scared to be promoted into sergeant..
the responsibility seems to be too big for me...
i afraid i cant do it actually.
perhaps, i have too high expectation for myself and people's expectation i took high
attention into it. since officer promoted me, i shall do my best to show him that he didn't promote
the wrong person.

however, after the highway duty case happened in the Skudai Toll on the 4/10,
i start to have some kind of confidence in my first aid skill.....

hm, in the end, i wore my new rank...

seriously, after wearing the new rank, i do nt find a different when i work together with my own team. however, i felt stress if i need to work with other division member... i seems to have climb to the post of sergeant in too short time.. let me refreash back...

year 2005.. first join st john as the founder of perling division....
year 2006.. joined the adult division (tampoi) as a prebet..
year 2006 (May).. promoted by tee unn to lance corporal..
year 2007.. remaining as lance corporal
year 2008.. promoted to ADJJ corporal by seng chuan...
year 2008 (Oct).. promoted to sergeant..

i mainly took 4 years in st john to my stage now.. i think the most important reason is from my dear Officer Aw Seng Chuan that has been guilding me all the way up to now.. thanks ya!!!

so, in my first sergeant duty, it was a blood donation campaign together with basic body checkup (BMI, blood glucose, BP).....

i felt so anxious about this duty,
first of all, this is my first sergeant duty,
second, i'm the chairperson of this event(from the Foochow Association of JB)
thirdly, we was not well prepared for those who are very new to body checkup....
forth, i always wanted to show my ability of doing things to those aunty and uncles in my hui guan....

finally, the day arrived...
hm... at first i was thinking of giving small kok yuan a surprise that i was already a sergeant and two sergeant are working together for a duty... but, the day before the duty, he called me and says that he is not feeling well and cant go.. seriously, a bit dissappointed in this..

ok.. the next day.. i woke up so early in the morning just to ensure everything run smoothly...
unfortunately... my dear member, L/C Lee Li Xian (tat girl in the pic) was late and we wait for her.. haha...... so many times i went out with her, around 70% she was late.. so i was used to it..

this time, member not only come from my division (ADJJ), but also come from SMK seri perling, and smk sri rahmat.... we have around 30 members gone for this duty... and in fact, it is quiet nice that everyone works together for the same goal...

the event was successfully held and all the aunties and uncles seems to accept my ways of doing things and asked me to organise it again... hm... this is something i felt happy at..

however, as a perfectionist, i think, there are always something that i felt it is not good enough ba.......

1. the adult member was not doing their best for the event. to me, adult member shoudl perform the best, organising, planning and leading the team of cadets member to their excellent performance.
2. the NCO from perling was not doing good too... they didnt control their member well, yet, they play with them together.... hm.. this is something i really don wish to saw it.. i don wish to refer to anyone as i want it to be a group assesment.
3. as for those member, hmm.. most of u are first trial.. good work.. jia you!!!
4. we did not hit our target as our target are 30 packs of blood while we only get 28... very disappointed towards this matter. however, the nurse from the hospital tole us that actually this is a very good try for the first time.. as we organize it annually, we will get better result.
5. none of my friends come and support me....... that's the sadness part of all....

lastly, hopefully, those who didnt do the best in this duty will know why and how to perform better next time. feel free to contact me ya..


the overall rating for this duty is 4 star... its quite fun after all...