Wednesday, November 4, 2009
recently...
at the worst of my time,
i meet with him... my new member....
luckily got him..
he let me understand the overall situation thats happening...
he highlighted,
friends will only be friends.... there is always a border between them..
ya.. totally agreed to him....
and.. he also asked me to put myself at the first place and not other people.....
believe in him. i will so as what i was told..
i did my promise... didnt look at him at all.. didnt think about it also.. pretty happy..
but i beleive he would be the happiest one ba.. haha..
in order to hit my sales target, really very very busy recently...
plus all the stupid paper work together, meeting and others.. arh!!! so so so busy... want bang head dy..
""don know what you will choose, but as long u are happy i will give you my support"
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Promise!
i had taken out the first step to solve all these problems.
since its not acceptable,
i decided to give up.
i promised myself not to be bothered about all these problems again.
if i do it again, i will strike by lighting, bite till dead by ants, a lots of road accidents, cross road bang by cars!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
starting from today,
~i got to be strong!
~put money at the first place!
~love myself more than anything else!
~they are just not worth it!!!!!!!!
Apart from work, nothing else i will look for you. i promise and i meant it, and i will do it!
Friday, October 30, 2009
kill me ba..
really don know what to do anymore..
wish to bang myself on the wall and just stop everything around...
pretty stressed up due to my sales target ba..
i know where does all these stress come from.
its from myself... and i really cant control it..
perhaps i really set too high expectation on myself..
trying to make it as perfect as possible.
at first,
never think of trying to achieve my target
but later on, saw a mere chance of it..
so really try hard to fight for it..
actually only fight for 95% of total sale target lo...
if i manage to hit at least 95%, only then i can get my commission...
but at this moment, i realise that i want to go for more.
i want to go for 100%
and i still lack of 100k of sales to reach that...
i believe all the stress come from myself...
haiz..
i told my friend, its not because of the commssion..
i just don want to regret,
i wan to show that although i just joined, but i still be able to show a good report card.
therefore im striking really hard for it..
my friend told me to learn from own mistake only can success.
but my principle does no allowed that.
i only want to learn from others mistake and not my own mistake.
haiz..........
together with this,
having serious relationship problem with friends..
just like im standing alone again..
losing them again...
perhaps its my own problem ba...
being too annoying at most of the time....
let people so dislike me...
can i pass thru all these?
i hope i could...
bless me ba...
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
ending..
just let it end here ba... from where it starts....
friends will only be friends.
member will only be member.
this is fact. a fact that will not change.
its very hurtful to think and say all these. but, i need to be strong.....
good bye everyone.....
changing....
was not very happy today...
can be said as pretty stress ba....
keep thinking about how to reach my target sales only..
overall today achieve almost 200 boxes of Test Strips.
still got 800 more to go. jia you ba..
thank you for all the support from the pharmacy.
well,
i think i really have to change my lifestyle.
putting friends at the first place does not seems to be a good idea.
perhaps, i really lost the ability to draw the line between us ba...
friends are friends, family are family, these are totally two different subject.
really don know why do i have to always dreaming about merging them up? haiz...
im an idiot... yes im...
gotta change my life style..
i know it will be very difficult. but i will do it....
changing to someone that do not put friends at the first place.
changing to be more independent, so that i don friends at all times.
changing to learn how to be alone.
changing to adapt to my current working society.
changing into a workaholic. really hate playful life..
learn to be quiet... so that i won disturb so many people....
been thinking lately, perhaps really feel too boring ba.. trying to call someone, but seems like im always the annoying one... no matter is towards which group of people...
gotta wake up and totally change myself....
3rd post
promised not to think about them... but suddenly saw his profile... makes me feel so sad again lo..
haiz.. thinking whether is the so called brotherhood in the past that we talk about? now call him also like nothing to talk, sms he also no reply, even msn he also don want to reply although its free.
i have pretty strong feeling that once he finish his form 5, we will not contact anymore ba... haiz..
Life..
suddenly got the urge to update. although at this time i should be working la.. but will write it fast..
feeling pretty lonely recently. do not know what happened also...
well, in work, i realize that i was the top sales in the whole country. Roughly about 500k. the second price winner is only 300k. hm.. pretty happy for myself as i just joined and i manage to get to the number 1 rank in the whole malaysia. perhaps, i was lucky to have a very Aggressive boss and at a Potential Area ba...
till now, still do not have the intention to leave the company. in the past, only my boss is giving me problems. but recently he become so good. don know what happened to him also.. so, pretty happy with my work now.. start to feel the happiness within it and the authority given by the company. love my company!
but the next month will be very stressful lo....
i still need around 100k to reach my target. only 1 month le.. in normal condition, its impossible to get it. unless my customer willing to help me out by ordering goods for the next few months. hopefully my great services in the past will not gone in vain.
if i manage to get my commission, then my Taiwan Trip will be fantastic! haha...
anything here that im worrying. if i manage to persuade them to order goods for the next few months, and i manage to reach my target, then next year de sales how a? hm... never mind la, since i cannot foresee, just concentrate now ba...
hoepefully i can reach my target smoothly ba.....
TAIWAN! IM COMING!!!!!!!
sensitivity
or.. others are not sensitive enough?
all people seems to be so busy until talk to me also no time..
especially when i needed them the most.
will try hard not to think of these problem ba... haiz..
Monday, August 31, 2009
潇洒走一回
At his funeral, everyone is so sad. there is no laughter, but only tears and sadness.
my tears never stop.... no matter day or night.....
it keep drooping....
and my mother too.... she cant even control her emotion....
she scream and shout!!!!!!!!
why why why........
why all this happen!!!!!!
why...
i cannot do anything......
i can only stand by her side.......
i still remember when my father first came back home,
when she saw the joss paper,
she scream and shout,
"why, why you want to use this type of money??? WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
the pain in her heart... who knows........
everyone.....everyone.... keep crying and crying.....
no one are able to control it..........
at that night, when i suppose to choose a coffin for my father,
i really cant control my emotion,.......... totally out of control.......
my cousin hug me... and we cry together........
in the wake, for that 5 days.......
i don know when is morning and when is night..........
i don know what has happened around me........
i really don know...
a lots a lots of people......
who are they????
i don know.....
i was so blur so blur.......
only tears are with me..........
only tears......
the pain......
until now,
its still there......
my mother's mandarin is not good. but she said,
although he had leave us,
but he never wasted his trip here..
he helped endless of people and gain endless of respect.......
he had 潇洒走一回
for most of you, maybe u all didn't heard of this song before..
this is the first song i sang when i was very very young.....
here i attached with the video clip.........
just want to say,
pa, we really miss you very much..
our life has changed so much....
nothing else are more important then you....
there is no way you can return, and we know that......
but every morning when i wake up,
i still hope that i can see you sitting in the living room...
just like before.......
血债血还
Monday, August 17, 2009
True
the reason here is that im really exhausted with all the things around me. really tired. the stress is too big... i cant really accept all this.
second, i believe you all can do it properly.
third, i start to realize that things i have plan does not seems to be so perfect. something is not right someway...
lastly, pretty disappointed in some of the committee....
so,
jia you ba.
Thursday, August 6, 2009
specially for you
thanks for reading....
BUT WHY NO COMMENT DE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
J.Law and Kirio
a very famous couple in Beijing..
both of them are very good looking actually... i believe the girls must be sad...
anyway, i think we should not have bias on them... they just like something different from us...
so, i bless them all the best, and wish them can be together forever...
ps: the guy who took those picture in the slide show is GREAT!!!!
Yesterday
the first day to start my work...
morning....
sms with my stupid boss....
telling me this and that...
complaining on my claim...
its true that i accidentally incur my own usage in the claim which is not correct..
but.... actually i cant remember too.. maybe its for company?? im not sure..
but anyway, its just 24 cent.... and he gaduh with me for 1 hours...
make me feel so demotivated for the whole day..
noon....
go to Chungky for my lunch....
become the PR officer there again.. haha
then when i was about to go.....
i saw my bro...
so happy to see them actually..
but when i say hi to him...
his attitude is not that good..
a bit irritate me actually..
so i just left without saying anything....
sad actually..
afternoon....
go to work lo..
that stupid XXXXXX Pharmacy de boss...
so unreasonable..
scold me for nothing..
is not that i don want to change for them..
but i don have the stock with me..
keep blaming me..
say that if like this i don want to sell ur product...
your sales is not that great actually...
and u are so childish...
people at the age of 70... still so childish...
luckily ms lee help me.... lend me her meter....
thanks ms lee.... will give u back asap...
evening...
when to see Dr. Raj for my thesis correction..
really thanks for his advice and guidance.
after finishing our topic on thesis..
we start to have a small chat..
i ask him whether i should further my studies?
he said YES without thinking..
he tole me that a Bachelor Degree cant take me far...
i need a Master Degree for that..
i said i do not have the confident and ability to further my studies..
he scolded me and ask who said so???????
really thanks for the trust u have given...
i will further my study to Master no matter how.
but its just a matter of time....
night....
Aunty 6 is in my shop..
we chat and joke around..
actually thinking of going back home to continue my work...
but stuck there...
then meet up with Dr. Raj again... he come my shop to eat...
his wife also ask me to further my studies lo.. haha
then we go for supper... then sleep............
thats all for he day...
People Came Into Your Life For A Reason
Finally i understand the reason why people come and leave.
this make me think positively about relationship...
i believe i won be so particular in all these anymore ba...
but will this make me have a heart of stone?
i don know...
anyway, thank you everyone that came into my life.
appreciated it.
ICE
I urge all my friends here to key in their phone of their next of kin with "ICE"
copy and paste in ur post, passing this important information out. thanks.
Sunday, August 2, 2009
study...
just finished my Thesis...
really have a hard time with it..
but finally im graduated with a
Bachelor of Arts (Honour) Business Management (Marketing)
hm...
yesterday when to Wawasan Open U with my cousin.. she also want to study... then ask me study together lo..
this U offer Commonwealth Executive Master for Business Administration...
Price: RM16,200
Duration: 2.5 years
every month study one day only...
hm... my cousin ask me go study together so that we can become classmate...
seriously, i like to study. i set my own target that i must get a Master Degree.
but now, due to a lots of factor ie family, work, money, i don know i should go for it or not...
or should wait for a few years??
anyone can give me advice?
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Standing alone
At this point,
facing a lot of problem in life.
Tomorrow is the blood donation campaign. but until now i only know that there are some miscommunication with the venue organizer. now still waiting for the manager call. worried. really worried.
next week having my presentation. until now haven prepare also. don know what to present. problem.
in job, currently not much problem. the main problem here is with my boss. he is so unreasonable!!!! whenever i think of him, i have no mood to work at all. he demotivated me and i really hate him. kill all my confident. stupid.
just like standing alone in no where. no one could help, no idea on what to do, and no confident to continue walking. what should i do? what can i do?
should i resign? i am really not happy with it.. everyday also not happy... really not happy...
if i could find a place to shout, i will shout till a losses all my voice
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
July
need to summit my thesis. really suffer like hell. almost didnt sleep last month.
this month, due to my busy schedule, did not make much contact with others. its like a life without friends and so called "brother". yet, i still live well with it.
had been alone for long in room, and think and think and think... for very long...
i realize that this is not the life i want. im not happy at all. being a leader in st john but all my work is for others. keep helping and helping. no one appreciated at all. the worst is, when i need help, who is there to help me? but this is not a big problem to me actually, i don like to own people anyway. got to cut down all stupid things. i shall put myself in priority. nothing else is more important than that.
had been trying very hard to bring back the relationship to the old self, but if the other party do not do a part, there is nothing i can do also. i had decided to let it be on its way. be nature. let god decide. if you are my bro, we will be somehow.
seriously, it will only be fair if i say this, Big Kok Yuan is the only one who really understand me. whenever im in need of help, he will definitely be there, he will never fail to reply my sms even if its silly and when im sick or not feeling weel, he will there to take care of me. sincerely appreciated. thanks bro.
"Sometimes in life, there are realy our bonds formed that can never be broken.
Sometimes, you will really find that one person who stand by you.
Maybe you will find it in a spouse and celebrate it with your dream wedding.
But there is also a chance that the one person you can count on for a life time, a person who knows you, sometimes better than you know yourself is the same person who has been standing besides you all along."
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Astrology-Arien
Aries
The spring equinox, March 21, is the beginning of the new zodiacal year and Aries, the first sign, is therefore that of new beginnings. The young ram is adventurous, ambitious, impulsive, enthusiastic and full of energy. The Arian is a pioneer both in thought and action, very open to new ideas and a lover of freedom. They welcome challenges and will not be diverted from their purpose except by their own impatience, which will surface if they don't get quick results.
Aries subjects are courageous leaders with a genuine concern for those they command, being responsible people, it is rare that they will use their subordinates to obtain their own objectives as leaders, but occasionally it does happen. They do not make very good followers because they are too "take charge". They may be unwilling to obey or submit to directions for which they can see no reason, or with which they disagree. They are much concerned with self, both positively and negatively - self-reliant but also self centered (sometimes) and concerned with their own personal advancement and physical satisfaction. Their immense energy makes them aggressive and restless, argumentative occasionally, headstrong, quick tempered, easily offended and capable of holding grudges if they feel themselves affronted.
As the first sign in the zodiac, you, as an Arian (as you are referred to), is to simply "get something started and lead the way". The Sun in this zodiac position gives your will free rein to express itself. You could be doing this in the form of some leadership role, or by forcing others to look at themselves in a new way. You can accomplish this by knowingly carrying out a deliberate act in the name of some cause that moves you. A negative effect of this sun sign is that you could sometimes unknowingly make it hard for others to relate to you, as you really are.
In your personal relationships Arians are frank, direct and candid, and make enthusiastic and generous friends. You are liable to have a high sex drive and make passionate but fastidious lovers. There is, however, a negative side to your associations with other people. You can easily be irritated by slowness or moderation in your companions and, though yourselves sensitive, ride roughshod over the sensitivities of others. The intensity of your sexual urges can drive you to promiscuity and a Don Juan-like counting of conquests of the opposite sex. It can also trick you into early unwise marriage which may end disastrously. Arians are highly devoted to their children, even to the point of laying down their own lives, so that they might live. You will not find a more defensive and loving parent in all the zodiac.
It is preferable to be aware of your pioneering spirit and not disregard it. For in acknowledging it you not only enjoy life more, but you avoid being pushed around by others. Your nature is usually push or be pushed, with little middle ground. This can at times be objectionable to others, but you must have the freedom to act, rather then just thinking about it, getting pent-up in the process. At all costs you need to avoid negative emotions such as resentment, regret and self-pity, for they would deny you what is essential to your nature: straightforwardness.Mentally Arians are intellectual and objective, but can be in rare situations bigoted and extremist in religion and politics. They are good champions of lost causes and last-ditch resistance. They are quick-witted but sometimes foolhardy and over optimistic, lacking thoroughness and the ability to evaluate difficulties in the undertakings into which they often rush impulsively. The great need of Aries natives is to exercise an iron self-control, to discipline the qualities and tendencies of their character to the advantage, not the detriment, of the society in which they move.
As an Arian, you like a challenge that will stir you to action. This challenge may just be frustration; or at a more controlled level, you may have clear direction and know what or whom you're fighting for. If your direction is not clear, then ask yourself and listen to your inner voice. You will come up with an answer. An Arian without a direction in which to go, or a without a cause to fight for, would be against your nature and make you more a "sheep" then a ram!
Arian, do not be afraid to be forceful, for this is the very core of your nature. If you feel fear in your heart, then look for a history of negative events in you personal history, such as violence or abuse from others. Being fearful may also indicate a household in childhood that negated independence and personal initiative in you. This could have inhibited your natural urge to go forward into life as the leader and champion you were born to be. Conversely, such bad influences could also have led you to be overly forceful, or to be unsympathetic to your own need and sensitivity.
You make good athletes and climbers, doctors, explorers (of new ideas as well as uncharted territory, the latter in these days including adventuring into outer space), soldiers, sailors and airmen, and leaders, though awkward subordinates, in industry and politics.
Much as you are the Ram, there is still the little lamb in you, which means that at times you would attain your goals more easily by gently giving in without resistance to the demands of a given social situation, rather than getting your horns entangled in something larger and more powerful than yourself. This is a talent akin to knowing the difference between what you can change, and what you cannot. This of course takes patience, the acquiring of which is definitely your greatest achievement, along with your sense of your own inner softness.
Team Spirit
This article gives you some ideas how to create and maintain a high team motivation and good team spirit.
So now you have a good team and you all proceed to do the daily job. In the beginning everyone is full of enthusiasm and go to work full of energy. But how do you keep up team spirit after the initial "honeymoon" phase?
Information is one key issue. Make sure to share information in your team! Everyone shall knows what is going on in your business. Regular meetings or telephone conferences are the most obvious ways to exchange information, tips and tricks. Other possibilities are regular information emails, a common bulletin board or a forum. Email, bulletin boards and forum all require computer access for your team members. They are also one-to-many communication, i.e. you do not know that every team member actually receive information and interpret it the way you want.
If you have meetings make sure to have them the same time and place with regular intervals. If you prefer telephone conferences have them on the same time, with the same telephone number and code and at regular intervals. Also remember to send out reminders to everyone.
Make your meetings/telephone conferences interesting! Invite external people every now and then! E.g. someone with experience from your business can tell an interesting story, news or new ideas.
Ask one of your team members to host next meeting/telephone conference! This will make your team members feel important while releaving yourself from the task of planning and hosting the meeting.
Acknowledge team members who did a good work or came up with a good idea! This will boost the spirit of the team member that gets acknowledged and encourage others to do the same.
Set individual goals for team members and have progress reports on the meetings! Nobody wants to report failure to reach a goal in public so it will make your team work harder to reach their goals!
Keep meetings and telephone conferences short and efficient! Let everyone have their say but do not allow prolonged discussions or nonsense talking. To chair such a meeting/telephone conference is a critical task so you had better practice.
A competition with a small price for the team member that achieves best results until next meeting is always a good possibility.
Arrange non-work related activities! Common lunch or dinner, a game of bowling, picnic, visit an exhibition... there are a lot of possibilities! It is much easier to work together if you know each other well and have fun together. This is also a perfect occasion to ask one or more of your team members to arrange next activity!
Remember that you become like the people that surround you and Good Luck with your team spirit!
All Things Are Possible
Teams are potentially the most powerful human resource a company can call to action. when a group of individuals is given the opportunity to effectively merge its ideas, energies and ambitions toward a common vision or goal, anything -- from the most difficult, to the improbable, to the seemingly impossible -- can be achieved.
Reaching this potential in today's corporate environment, however, is no small task. As employees are faced with downsizings, budget cuts, tighter schedules, heavier workloads, greater cultural diversity, and rapidly changing technologies, they find it increasingly difficult to meet responsibilities, let alone become animated and inspired to deliver extraordinary service.
Introducing Team Spirit: A Proven Way To Create New Spirit In The Workplace.
Team Spirit is a team development process that infuses both new and mature teams with exactly this sense of meaning and purpose. No longer merely functional -- or dysfunctional -- these "spirited" teams operate with visibly greater energy, enthusiasm optimism, persistence, pride and joy. They produce more. They display greater ingenuity. In many cases, they provide a level of service to customers that actually astonishes and delights.
The Secret To Achieving These Qualities?
In a workshop format, Team Spirit presents a simple, intuitive model of how teams actually function and thrive. It then provides stimulating exercises and a practical diagnostic tool that teams can use to keep themselves primed for peak performance. Most importantly, Team Spirit provides a safe, nurturing environment in which relationships can be strengthened, deepened and enjoyed, and powerful creative intentions unified.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
不开心
好忙啊。。。。。。。。。
课业, 工作, 工会,团体,家庭,和金钱.....
突然发现我好孤单哦。。。。。
友情, 到底有多少是真的?
可笑的以为称兄道弟就会变兄弟。。。。
到头来,我们也及时朋友。
失去了笑脸. 不知道何时还能有欢笑。。。。
I am who i am???
我也想。好简单的一个人,应为环境的改变,变到好恐怖。
好像离开这一个地方,到一个没有人认识我的地方,不再回来了!!!
有学会安静,不要说话了!!!!!
好失望。。。。
难道,我真的要变成一个眼里自有金钱的人吗?
放弃友情,放弃爱情,专注在金钱,每天都伪装自己,我会快乐吗??
我不知道。
爸,你在哪里?我的生活好乱哦。。。。
不知道该这么样走下去。。。。。
四年了,我心中的通,有谁知?
心中的怨恨一直都在。杀父之仇,必报!
Monday, July 6, 2009
sad

At this moment...
very very very sad.
feel like crying..
everything is so not in progress.
everything is so bad.
in very big stress.
no one can help me..
just like jj said, he can only say jia you..
yes... no one can help me..
im all alone here. no one are with me...
this is my life.. need to understand.
don worry. sure i will.
trying very hard to do what i promised u.
will not disturb you.
i think i did manage to do it.
hope u live well.
bye
Friday, July 3, 2009
Thesis
but don know why, still wish to blog....
Thesis....
a lots of people don really understand what is this...
hm.. this is basically like a project that i need to do a research in the market.
after completing the thesis, i will be able to get my
Bachelor' Degree of Arts (Honours) in Business Studies specializing in Marketing
so.. really very busy with it..
seriously, i was a bit regret to start my work on Jan. i should have do my thesis before i start working... now start working and i realize that im either physically or mentally exhausted to do my thesis.
Dr. Raj (my professor) is not happy with our progress as none of us has put out time in it.
we actually have 7 months to do it..
but now left 3 weeks.
recently have been very rushing in it lo.
that day went to see dr. raj and finally he approved my research article and he demand that i have to finish up 3 chapter before saturday. so... must jia you lo....
from my forecast, should not be a problem ba..
hm... jia you jia you jia you!!!!!!
got to continue liau...
bye bye
Monday, June 29, 2009
we are just friends after all....
we used to have so much fun time together... almost together everyday.....
he is so important to me its just because when im at the bottom of my life, he stand by me and give me his full support......
when i realize he is trying to hide something from us, my first thought was not to expose him as he must have his own reason for doing so... but after a while, really feel a heart ache in me.... realize that this thing has make me feel so sad...
haiz..
he has his life to go.... he know what is the best for him.....
we are just friends after all.....
will wish u jia you...
understand your intention...
i will not disturb u anymore..
jia you..
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
forget it..
making everyone so unhappy...
and dislike me.....
will stop myself from doing all these....... don worry....
i am a damn stupid fucking asshole nerd bastard........... happy?
giving up
perhaps i have been asking too much from you..
perhaps all this is not what u like..
the love and concern gave to you seems to be nothing at all..
if this is the case,
jia you. wish u all the best. i will not disturb u anymore.
i promise
Monday, June 22, 2009
SMK Seri Perling
tidy up my room and also my pc...
Saw Perling st john video...
so many memories start to come back....
show you some of the picture inside...
remember the theme we had before?
"together we are one"
"that's what friends are for"
"making you a life saver for a safer future"
do you remember all these??
we are so happy in the past. no matter what we do, we are still that happy.
i do not blame you all for the change as i believe im responsible for it too.
he often remind me that there is a life cycle for them...
starting from don know each other, get to know, friends, brother, eventually everything goes down... perhaps the day had come yet we refused to admit it... this make us struggling for it..
we used to have nothing. in duty, we always stand behind... until now, we are the top 3 in JB, we have our NCO, great committee support and system... but where is the happiness that we used to have?
don really know what to say or to do to bring all these back.
yet, i believe, all of us changes so much,
but the spirit we had, remain the same,
"Pro Fide, Pro Utilitate Hominum"
"For Faith, For the Service of Mankind"
keep this is your mind, nothing else matters.
look back at those orientation and AGM video...
find yourself back..
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Im Crazy!!
for so long u stil don know what im trying to tell you, what i want from you and what is the problem with u...
im not angry but its heart ache.
after seeing your blog, since im not the one that u will feel happy going out with, then u don have to accompany go out other time!!!!!!!!!
u are driving me crazy!!!!!!!
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Father's Day 2009
still cant forget the day we had before...
learning to accept it..
but its real hard....
don know how are you...
so miss you...
everytime think of you, my tears drop down...
really really miss you.
i got so many things want to tell you..
what i have achieve,
what my boss praise me,
how success i am,
and so many more....
Pa,
you have gone for so many years,
do you know that we have never forget you at all????
mother and i tried very hard to avoid the topic of you...
we know once we start off,
we will break in tears.
pa,
so many people bully mother..
yet i cant do anything...
after you have gone,
i have been building up my own wall to protect the family..
i have not been so happy like before..
thinking that everyone is so good and nice,
yet,
i build up the wall in order to not meet with anyone..
i no longer trust people..
i only trust myself...
pa,
in foochow,
i know its always your dream to make me into the committee sit one day
i did it.
i am the asst general secretary of the youth team.
i am the top 5 committee
but do you know that all your friend has change so much after you have gone?
they become so realistic.
until i don even know how to talk to them....
pa,
mother is very xing ku right now..
we are in very bad situation right now..
i so hope you are around...
there are so many and many things i want to tell you...
i miss you really so much...
i broke into tears when i write this blog....
i rally don know what to do...
i know that i have to learn to take it..
but after so many years,
i thought i made it already..
but i didnt..
the sadness,
the hardship,
the missing,
perhaps only mother and i will understand....
pa, no matter where you are,
i sincerely hope that you are happy forever..
HAPPY FATHERS DAY
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Labour Day~ 1 Day Malacca Trip

the Weather really damn hot... then we saw someone selling cendol... really very nice lo.. i hate cendol actually.. but their cendol with damn thick gula melaka is really nice lo!!!!!!!!

Along the street..... real damn hot weather...
the girls are busy touching up despite the damn hot weather...

the last restaurant tat we go along the joker street... not very nice tart actually... but the 100 plus is like god to us... so hot!!!



after that, we go to have peranakan food again.....

then.... we go to buy the thousand layered cake to celebrate for Wei Ting 21st Birthday!!!

NEXT, THE EYE OF MALAYSIA!!!!


The last dinner of the trip.... SATAY LOK LOK



ok... the whole journey ended here... very very very happy journey.... what u can see is we only eat and play for the whole day. not enough time to use also.. keep on playing playing and playing.. until all battery are flat.. hahahahaaha.....
dear bros, these are my great buddy that i play with them.. don worry bout me lo.. heehee...


