i'm very sure that when i can buy my own apartment,
i'll let my dad rot in the old folks home.
i already told my mom about this a few years ago.

i'll never let him step in my way,
disrupting things.
taking away my own future.
thinking that everyone around him is wrong.
never right.

Mr Ang, let me tell you this.
you are the one in wrong!
many people hate you.
its just that everyone acts to be nice in front of you. how i wish i would SLAP you.
but your still my dad.
however you, wanted to slap me
called me to shut the hell up.
called me an outsider.
abusing me when i was in secondary 2.
you, wanted to put in the girls home.
you said you didn't love me.
Well, i not only hate you very much, but don't love you as well.
even if you die one day,
i'll regret , cause there ain't someone who will give me money when i go out and drive me around.
and i'll be glad,
cause no one will rob my future away anymore.
you will not blame people for your wrong doings.
not slapping me anymore.
taking away my money for your own use.
scolding me for talking to guys.
scolding my mom for minor things.
hurting people's feelings with harsh words

on the outside, people think we're a happy family
but when i look at other people's dad, they knows their child's full name.
my dad doesn't.
my dad don't even know that it ain't him paying for my education when he thinks so.
he, doesn't know how much i hate him
he, doesn't know what time my church service starts even though we are in the same church!
he doesn't know what i like or don't like.

guess he is just a father.
but he will never know how to be a father.

i tried to forgive him for who is he.
still, i can't.
too bad.

i'll hate you for life.