At this rate Imma blog once a year, haha.

I finally have the courage to browse through my 60+ drafts, read a few emotional ones, published a few sharable ones.

I quit. Not a self-defeated deflated exit, but I’m grateful that God has made a way. Much as the nostalgic me can’t bear to leave, the opportunity that came knocking was too timely – my skill sets fit everything they were looking for – and they offering what I was looking for (5-day work week, renumeration & progression, growth in technical skills, near school…).

6+ years – the last one plus year the most gruelling and perplexing due to office politics. I had never bawled in front of anyone before (other than family when I was young). Through working with a manipulative authority, I have learnt how to respect differences – and it is not just an outward behaviour but to watch my inner attitude.

I fell very ill too during the first few weeks of 2020 too – Another humbling experience haha. Acid reflux and heartburn acted up during work, bedridden the next day, high fever the following day, followed by a week of puke-inducing dosages of medicine. Was so ill that Mum had to bring me to the docs – I usually go to the docs myself… I never liked being vulnerable, yet I had to learn to be dependent for that few days.

Still needs some kind of getting used to – Learning to accept love and help, so that I can in turn to the same for others. This pride – I have to lean on God to overcome this huge hurdle.

Back to the paper chase this year – received my first semester exam results in December and it could have been better! Had thought I could continue the distinctions streak since advanced diploma days but nope, it was tough! An ex-colleague asked me if I was going for first class honours. I told him “I wanna be the very best, like no one ever was”, in the words of Ash Ketchum. Hahahaha.

My goal for this new year is to live loved, and also grow in the depth of my relationships with others! Especially with my new connect group, the transition was difficult but I will try.

And also to be less worldly, and care more about the things above (Colossians 3:2). :)