Ivan & Allison - HIP HOP / RnB
Hey... take a look at this... this is really really good... I'm impressed... anybody wants to go for Hip Hop class?
Thursday, November 30, 2006
Dear Mandy,
Well, the way that I see it, I've got a fair bit of reflection and meditation to do, and I'm honestly looking forward to Encounter Weekend. To my own personal walk with God, and I believe to a certain extent, discover more about myself... my soul, and my heart... and what kind of a person I actually am. And, well, from there, I sincerely believe I'll benefit from everything.
On a separate note, I'm getting kinda worried, because I suddenly can't seem to feel. I'm sort of like reverting back to the days of speaking off the top of my mind, and well, after Gayne's e-mail about reflecting and everything, it sort of affected me to some extent, that much is certain. But of course, I'm still thankful for the openness that we share in our friendship, and perhaps, we're still searching for a foothold to be secure on. I'll take these few days while praying to reflect and meditate on it... and I know that God will be there for me, and He will show the way. I know that He is approving of our friendship, but He's telling me through Gayne that we need to reflect on it to make it stronger, and also, perhaps, to draw clearly the boundaries of our friendship.
I've been thinking a lot lately, about the different types of leadership that people portray, and well, I must say that I'm beginning to find that everyone's style has it's impacts, but I admire those who are easily adaptable... those who can work with almost anybody, and lead almost anybody... I wonder what kind of leadership people envision me as... So far, I've heard of transactional, laisser0-faire, and one more which I can't remember at the moment, and I'm keen on learning more, and seeing more too.
As I prepare to embark on my hectic December schedule, I'm actually looking forward to it. Something to take my mind off everything so that I actually won't need to think too much and unnecessarily... That's always been my flaw... thinking too much... Abby always scolds me when I do that... haha... yes yes... I know, I know... haha. I will think lesser. :)
I love 20th! Haha... I can't wait for our New Year BBQ, I can't wait for Grace, Jenna and Kristy to come back! Missing u... especially my Sweetie! I've got so much to talk to u! And Kristy mei... and Jenna, and twinnie dahling, and Hui Yi mei... ahhhh... EVERYONE!! I MISS U!
Well, the way that I see it, I've got a fair bit of reflection and meditation to do, and I'm honestly looking forward to Encounter Weekend. To my own personal walk with God, and I believe to a certain extent, discover more about myself... my soul, and my heart... and what kind of a person I actually am. And, well, from there, I sincerely believe I'll benefit from everything.
On a separate note, I'm getting kinda worried, because I suddenly can't seem to feel. I'm sort of like reverting back to the days of speaking off the top of my mind, and well, after Gayne's e-mail about reflecting and everything, it sort of affected me to some extent, that much is certain. But of course, I'm still thankful for the openness that we share in our friendship, and perhaps, we're still searching for a foothold to be secure on. I'll take these few days while praying to reflect and meditate on it... and I know that God will be there for me, and He will show the way. I know that He is approving of our friendship, but He's telling me through Gayne that we need to reflect on it to make it stronger, and also, perhaps, to draw clearly the boundaries of our friendship.
I've been thinking a lot lately, about the different types of leadership that people portray, and well, I must say that I'm beginning to find that everyone's style has it's impacts, but I admire those who are easily adaptable... those who can work with almost anybody, and lead almost anybody... I wonder what kind of leadership people envision me as... So far, I've heard of transactional, laisser0-faire, and one more which I can't remember at the moment, and I'm keen on learning more, and seeing more too.
As I prepare to embark on my hectic December schedule, I'm actually looking forward to it. Something to take my mind off everything so that I actually won't need to think too much and unnecessarily... That's always been my flaw... thinking too much... Abby always scolds me when I do that... haha... yes yes... I know, I know... haha. I will think lesser. :)
I love 20th! Haha... I can't wait for our New Year BBQ, I can't wait for Grace, Jenna and Kristy to come back! Missing u... especially my Sweetie! I've got so much to talk to u! And Kristy mei... and Jenna, and twinnie dahling, and Hui Yi mei... ahhhh... EVERYONE!! I MISS U!
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Dear Mandy,
Well, I've been thinking quite a fair bit these last few days, and well, I dunno... It seems to me that I need to really buck up and be more proactive... er... sorry, even more proactive than what I've been so far.
I feel kinda lost. Especially after I realised that I may be unable to make it for the all the remaining choir trainings. It made me think about if I'm leading by example, and everything, despite the fact that technically, it's not really my fault, but I'm trained to believe that as a leader, Command is Total, in the words of the then CPT Ong Wee Kwang, OC, CTW, ETI. I don't know, but I do realise the need to exercise more initiative, to learn everything in the shortest span of time.
Throw in the New Year bash choir... that's another commitment that I have pledged myself to... not saying that it's a chore, though I am kinda unhappy that it's in Redhill, but Rachel's going with me, so yar! Haha... Still not so bad... :P Besides, I believe it's God's will that I partake in this challenge, so there I am! It's not easy... today was the first training session, and I kinda spaced out. They're rushing everything, and it's good and bad, but I'm going to take it optimistically. I believe in the grace of God and the power of the Holy Spirit...
HAPPY FEET IS REALLY NICE! I think I like musicals... this was really like a musical, and now, I'm dying to watch step up.. but I'll patiently wait for the DVD to appear. Hahha... and of course, the up and coming NINJA TURTLES! Ooh.. can't wait...
Well... I really have found myself increasingly to be short of a mood to blog... so yeah... pardon me for slow entries.
Well, I've been thinking quite a fair bit these last few days, and well, I dunno... It seems to me that I need to really buck up and be more proactive... er... sorry, even more proactive than what I've been so far.
I feel kinda lost. Especially after I realised that I may be unable to make it for the all the remaining choir trainings. It made me think about if I'm leading by example, and everything, despite the fact that technically, it's not really my fault, but I'm trained to believe that as a leader, Command is Total, in the words of the then CPT Ong Wee Kwang, OC, CTW, ETI. I don't know, but I do realise the need to exercise more initiative, to learn everything in the shortest span of time.
Throw in the New Year bash choir... that's another commitment that I have pledged myself to... not saying that it's a chore, though I am kinda unhappy that it's in Redhill, but Rachel's going with me, so yar! Haha... Still not so bad... :P Besides, I believe it's God's will that I partake in this challenge, so there I am! It's not easy... today was the first training session, and I kinda spaced out. They're rushing everything, and it's good and bad, but I'm going to take it optimistically. I believe in the grace of God and the power of the Holy Spirit...
HAPPY FEET IS REALLY NICE! I think I like musicals... this was really like a musical, and now, I'm dying to watch step up.. but I'll patiently wait for the DVD to appear. Hahha... and of course, the up and coming NINJA TURTLES! Ooh.. can't wait...
Well... I really have found myself increasingly to be short of a mood to blog... so yeah... pardon me for slow entries.
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Dear Mandy,
It's been some time, haha... but my life of late really hasn't been anything really interesting. Except for perhaps Monday and Sunday... haha... oh well, but it's only fair that I give an update as I go along, isn't it?
Hmm... on Sunday, I went to church, and church as usual, was enriching and very interesting, this time around. We had befriender training, and well, it seems to me that everything has finally began. Our sub groups had a reallocation, and now, the group under me is really a batch of capable leaders, and the challenge has suddenly become more intense. And I'm looking forward to taking this challenge on. Apart from the fact that I'm working with my old Councillors, Sammie and Lynette, as well as previous OGL, Priscilla, I've also got Vanessa Seow, Dawn, the 2 Stevens and Joel Poon... they're all leaders in their own right, and though I'm apprehensive, I will do my best, with God's grace.
On Monday, I CLEARED UP MY ROOM! Hahaha... Take that! It's so neat now, and I actually have space to do work! Haha... yeah man, so proud of myself... haha... Did it in about 5 hrs plus. Nyeh nyeh nyeh... haha... And I think I'm getting fat, but that's beside the point. Haha...
Then, that night, I went to meet up with my beloved 2oth Councillors! Haha... to0 celebrate Siva and Jacob's upcoming birthdays, we decided to go for dinner... in total, there were 14 of us... Zahida, Kristy P, Sharon, Rachel, Melissa, Sangeeta, Siva, Jacob, Sanjay, Edrei, Sanjee, Deepak, Benny and myself... and we had a blast at Fish and Co... honestly speaking, I do miss 20th a lot a lot, but the fact that all of us are at different crossroads of our lives make it so much more difficult to meet up, and I am reminiscent of our times together. Everyone's growing older... and we're already 20! Haha... I wonder what will happen when we're 30? Who'll get married first, and who'll be first to have kids? Anybody of us will enter politics? Be the next President of Singapore? Any of us becoming millionaires? The future's so ambiguous, and it makes me all the more sad, because the older we go, the further some of us will drift, and soon, we'll be like the 14th Council and above during intra council... a meagre 5 to 8 people... that's awfully sad.
Oh well, sad moments aside, we had a lot of fun. I love you, 20th.
On the way home, Deepak, Edrei and I went home together. Felt just like old times, except this time, Deepak asked me about my involvement with Council. When I said it's only unti 23rd step down, he was like "Confirm? Serious? Because you have to come back to 20th. 20th needs you." I was awfully touched. Haha... oh well... :)
It's been some time, haha... but my life of late really hasn't been anything really interesting. Except for perhaps Monday and Sunday... haha... oh well, but it's only fair that I give an update as I go along, isn't it?
Hmm... on Sunday, I went to church, and church as usual, was enriching and very interesting, this time around. We had befriender training, and well, it seems to me that everything has finally began. Our sub groups had a reallocation, and now, the group under me is really a batch of capable leaders, and the challenge has suddenly become more intense. And I'm looking forward to taking this challenge on. Apart from the fact that I'm working with my old Councillors, Sammie and Lynette, as well as previous OGL, Priscilla, I've also got Vanessa Seow, Dawn, the 2 Stevens and Joel Poon... they're all leaders in their own right, and though I'm apprehensive, I will do my best, with God's grace.
On Monday, I CLEARED UP MY ROOM! Hahaha... Take that! It's so neat now, and I actually have space to do work! Haha... yeah man, so proud of myself... haha... Did it in about 5 hrs plus. Nyeh nyeh nyeh... haha... And I think I'm getting fat, but that's beside the point. Haha...
Then, that night, I went to meet up with my beloved 2oth Councillors! Haha... to0 celebrate Siva and Jacob's upcoming birthdays, we decided to go for dinner... in total, there were 14 of us... Zahida, Kristy P, Sharon, Rachel, Melissa, Sangeeta, Siva, Jacob, Sanjay, Edrei, Sanjee, Deepak, Benny and myself... and we had a blast at Fish and Co... honestly speaking, I do miss 20th a lot a lot, but the fact that all of us are at different crossroads of our lives make it so much more difficult to meet up, and I am reminiscent of our times together. Everyone's growing older... and we're already 20! Haha... I wonder what will happen when we're 30? Who'll get married first, and who'll be first to have kids? Anybody of us will enter politics? Be the next President of Singapore? Any of us becoming millionaires? The future's so ambiguous, and it makes me all the more sad, because the older we go, the further some of us will drift, and soon, we'll be like the 14th Council and above during intra council... a meagre 5 to 8 people... that's awfully sad.
Oh well, sad moments aside, we had a lot of fun. I love you, 20th.
On the way home, Deepak, Edrei and I went home together. Felt just like old times, except this time, Deepak asked me about my involvement with Council. When I said it's only unti 23rd step down, he was like "Confirm? Serious? Because you have to come back to 20th. 20th needs you." I was awfully touched. Haha... oh well... :)
Saturday, November 18, 2006
Dear Mandy,
Hey... just wanted to write down my analysis of the 7th Heaven video I posted... been watching it about 7 times, and trying to come to terms as to why God had me watch this video... what could I learn from it? And then today, I went for the leadership briefing for the Christmas at Orchard, and it struck me that what this particular video is trying to tell me is relatively true... let me evaluate.
The "What Ifs"
Rev Camden talked about a lot of what ifs when he was evaluating with Lucy about all the tribulations she was facing. And the two things that I deduced from this is, firstly, we will have many "what ifs" in our lives... and it's up to ourselves to minimise these "what ifs" by being proactive. But that being said, Murphy's Law still retains, and my only prerogative on this is that we need to act more sometimes, instead of talk more.
The second one, which is the one that I feel is the more important one is that, when we get the "what ifs", we should make them optimistic, then work towards them. Thing is, many a time, we always think towards the pessimistic side, and in a subtle note, Rev Camden gently brings Lucy to understand that we can think optimistically, and though he ends off with a harsh note, by telling Lucy that he has all say in church matters, but his point stands strong. That by being optimistic, and working towards that optimistic "what if", we can make a difference.
Characteristics that are important
Lucy proceeds to talk about how she doesn't want Rec Camden to fight battles for her, and that is independence and responsibility broiled into one statement. Responsibility is further enhanced when she affirms that she takes responsibility in talking about her work, and even more so later, when she shows humility in talking about her admitting that she makes mistakes, and shows openness when she says she wants to learn from them. In one speech by Lucy, she emcompassess all these traits that, believe me, are important in everyday life... in work, in school, or even in the relationships that we hold.
Changing the World
Rev Camden talks about change... and how it starts small. Then he also says this "The only way to change the world is to change ourselves and our relationships with the people around us." Let me explain this to you in what I deem it as.
Firstly, a small effort can make a big change. I don't think that man could ever have stepped on the moon if Armstrong hadn't ventured from the spaceship, and then, perhaps, we'd never have been able to hear these words of "It's one small step for men, and one giant leap for mankind." What I'm trying to say is, change doesn't happen just like that. A chinese proverb says that "A journey of a thousand li begins with the first step." So the question is, are you willing enough, daring enough or courageous enough to take that first step and initiate a change?
But similarly, this can only be strengthened with belief... Belief that the change that you want to make can only be for the better good of the people around you, for the improvement of society? Faith can move mountains... couple that with the characteristics that Lucy said, with the positive outlook and the initiative to make that difference... you'll find that you've pretty much got the drive and motivation to go far. But you're not quite there yet.
Appreciation
Rev Camden after saying he believes in changing the world, tells Lucy that he believes in her, and even apologises if he had not told her that of late. Lucy says that he's going to make her cry... now, why did such simple words from Rev Camden cause tears to Lucy? Here's my assessment.
Lucy had been going through a lot of obstacles at the moment, because people seem unappreciative of what she has done, and she's finding it increasingly difficult to solve the problems people bring to her. And in such challenges, it's natural to lose motivation and feel lost and helpless... and that nobody believes in her. Sometimes, we all need affirmation that we're doing well... and that's where showing appreciation is important. Give thanks to the small things done, and always praise a job well done by the people under you, or working with you... it'll encourage them to do better. THat said, do give constructive criticisms to where needs improvement. That's also important, but remember to do it tactfully...
Life is Good
Finally, let me end off with this. Life is good... no matter how dire the consequences, or how tough a challenge, life is good... because we are alive... and we have the opportunity to make a difference, and the choice to choose how we want to live it.
That's my evaluation... I hope it's of some inspiration to you, if you're reading this... :)
Finally, if you're wondering what Vee is congratulating me for, it's the fact I got my license! Haha... and I hope that you people can come for the Christmas at Orchard carolling... It'll really be lots of fun!
Today at the leadership training, I learnt a lot, and felt God's immense love for me... I was left helpless many a time, groping for something, but after Pastor Bel prayed for me... I just felt his love wash over me, and I knew that I'd been 'promoted', and that God was telling me through Pastor Bel that He loves me, and He is pleased with me... they were the affirmations that I had been seeking subconsciously, and I'm looking forward to my tasks... thank you Pastor Bel, thank you Lord.
I'll leave with a quote...it's one that I've always lived with ever since I came across it for my speech during sec 4 farewell...
"To achieve great things, we must not only act, but also dream, not only dream, but also believe." -Anatole France
Hey... just wanted to write down my analysis of the 7th Heaven video I posted... been watching it about 7 times, and trying to come to terms as to why God had me watch this video... what could I learn from it? And then today, I went for the leadership briefing for the Christmas at Orchard, and it struck me that what this particular video is trying to tell me is relatively true... let me evaluate.
The "What Ifs"
Rev Camden talked about a lot of what ifs when he was evaluating with Lucy about all the tribulations she was facing. And the two things that I deduced from this is, firstly, we will have many "what ifs" in our lives... and it's up to ourselves to minimise these "what ifs" by being proactive. But that being said, Murphy's Law still retains, and my only prerogative on this is that we need to act more sometimes, instead of talk more.
The second one, which is the one that I feel is the more important one is that, when we get the "what ifs", we should make them optimistic, then work towards them. Thing is, many a time, we always think towards the pessimistic side, and in a subtle note, Rev Camden gently brings Lucy to understand that we can think optimistically, and though he ends off with a harsh note, by telling Lucy that he has all say in church matters, but his point stands strong. That by being optimistic, and working towards that optimistic "what if", we can make a difference.
Characteristics that are important
Lucy proceeds to talk about how she doesn't want Rec Camden to fight battles for her, and that is independence and responsibility broiled into one statement. Responsibility is further enhanced when she affirms that she takes responsibility in talking about her work, and even more so later, when she shows humility in talking about her admitting that she makes mistakes, and shows openness when she says she wants to learn from them. In one speech by Lucy, she emcompassess all these traits that, believe me, are important in everyday life... in work, in school, or even in the relationships that we hold.
Changing the World
Rev Camden talks about change... and how it starts small. Then he also says this "The only way to change the world is to change ourselves and our relationships with the people around us." Let me explain this to you in what I deem it as.
Firstly, a small effort can make a big change. I don't think that man could ever have stepped on the moon if Armstrong hadn't ventured from the spaceship, and then, perhaps, we'd never have been able to hear these words of "It's one small step for men, and one giant leap for mankind." What I'm trying to say is, change doesn't happen just like that. A chinese proverb says that "A journey of a thousand li begins with the first step." So the question is, are you willing enough, daring enough or courageous enough to take that first step and initiate a change?
But similarly, this can only be strengthened with belief... Belief that the change that you want to make can only be for the better good of the people around you, for the improvement of society? Faith can move mountains... couple that with the characteristics that Lucy said, with the positive outlook and the initiative to make that difference... you'll find that you've pretty much got the drive and motivation to go far. But you're not quite there yet.
Appreciation
Rev Camden after saying he believes in changing the world, tells Lucy that he believes in her, and even apologises if he had not told her that of late. Lucy says that he's going to make her cry... now, why did such simple words from Rev Camden cause tears to Lucy? Here's my assessment.
Lucy had been going through a lot of obstacles at the moment, because people seem unappreciative of what she has done, and she's finding it increasingly difficult to solve the problems people bring to her. And in such challenges, it's natural to lose motivation and feel lost and helpless... and that nobody believes in her. Sometimes, we all need affirmation that we're doing well... and that's where showing appreciation is important. Give thanks to the small things done, and always praise a job well done by the people under you, or working with you... it'll encourage them to do better. THat said, do give constructive criticisms to where needs improvement. That's also important, but remember to do it tactfully...
Life is Good
Finally, let me end off with this. Life is good... no matter how dire the consequences, or how tough a challenge, life is good... because we are alive... and we have the opportunity to make a difference, and the choice to choose how we want to live it.
That's my evaluation... I hope it's of some inspiration to you, if you're reading this... :)
Finally, if you're wondering what Vee is congratulating me for, it's the fact I got my license! Haha... and I hope that you people can come for the Christmas at Orchard carolling... It'll really be lots of fun!
Today at the leadership training, I learnt a lot, and felt God's immense love for me... I was left helpless many a time, groping for something, but after Pastor Bel prayed for me... I just felt his love wash over me, and I knew that I'd been 'promoted', and that God was telling me through Pastor Bel that He loves me, and He is pleased with me... they were the affirmations that I had been seeking subconsciously, and I'm looking forward to my tasks... thank you Pastor Bel, thank you Lord.
I'll leave with a quote...it's one that I've always lived with ever since I came across it for my speech during sec 4 farewell...
"To achieve great things, we must not only act, but also dream, not only dream, but also believe." -Anatole France
Monday, November 13, 2006
Sunday, November 12, 2006
Dear Mandy...
It's been quite a roller coaster Saturday for me, and one that I'm pretty much surprised that I'm taking it pretty easy... I guess to me, it's becoming more and more like I'm trusting in the Lord with what he plans for me... whether it be taking people or things away from me, or challenges that are laid across my path, I'm actually looking forward, for once...
I mean, let's evaluate my Saturday. I went for a cycling trip at Pulau Ubin with my colleagues from 30SCE... Goo, Kevin, LTA Look, Chang Hong were the only regulars, and we topped up the rest with myself, Zhiyuan, Samuel, Yong Cheng, Ervin and Timothy. It was a really fun thing! What with all the cycling through jungle tracks, and the tedious uphills... Gosh, there was one as steep as the initial slope up to Kent Ridge Park! And that was lik
e 300m at least? A lot of us just decided to hop off and wheel up the bicycle in the end... Of course, the immaculate thrill of cycling downslope, feeling the wind in our hair, and the thrill of the moment just made the trip even more so memorable. Then, while we were looking at the quarry, it had to rain. Here are some of the pictures that we took at the quarry just before it started raining.
Imagine the rush back to the jetty... at full speed, regardless of the condition and the fact that we had raindrops that kept batting against us... we were soaked through, to say the least... and my Ipod kinda got wet cause my whole bag was soaked through and it couldn't on. Sigh... was quite upset, but surprisingly, I took it in good stride. After that, we headed off for lunch at Changi Village before I headed back for home.
I went home and tried to salvage my Ipod, but I guess it was a lost cause to begin with... *Sobz* my beloved Ipod... haha... containing all my songs! Haha... but more importantly, I think that it's salvageable as well. So my battered self and my overly sore thighs compelled me to take a nap before I headed off to GB HQ for the carolling meeting. The carolling meeting was a really good one, and I did enjoy myself to a certain extent... The ice breakers, the worship and praise... and then the briefing on HIGH Standards... I guess they all apply to me in one way or another... but I felt that the meeting was not efficient enough... a lot of things could have been simplified. Oh... I dunno... when the actual brief began, it wasn't all that good either, but I do understand that we're working with limited knowledge of the event itself and under finalisation. It was like a Warning Order kinda thing.
When we broke off under our individual clusters, I was quite glad to be under Ah-Ma! We had a short brief, broke off into our individual clusters and then from there, we decided and clarified things... what I felt was the most meaningful was when we all started to pray together. We prayed for the event, for Feli, for ourselves and for our members... when it was all over, I could feel the Lord's presence residing over us... and it was really really good.
When we left, I went home for dinner... at 2200hrs... haha... so interesting... :P MAN U WON BLACKBURN 1-0 through a LOUIS SAHA GOAL!! Take that! HAhaha...
Lastly... to Gayne, I know what you're saying, and I respect your decision and what you're doing. I know that it's not easy, but don't worry about my side... :) What you're doing is for your own good, just know that you're not alone... if you need me at any time, just holler yar? I'll be there for you. Take care!
It's been quite a roller coaster Saturday for me, and one that I'm pretty much surprised that I'm taking it pretty easy... I guess to me, it's becoming more and more like I'm trusting in the Lord with what he plans for me... whether it be taking people or things away from me, or challenges that are laid across my path, I'm actually looking forward, for once...
I mean, let's evaluate my Saturday. I went for a cycling trip at Pulau Ubin with my colleagues from 30SCE... Goo, Kevin, LTA Look, Chang Hong were the only regulars, and we topped up the rest with myself, Zhiyuan, Samuel, Yong Cheng, Ervin and Timothy. It was a really fun thing! What with all the cycling through jungle tracks, and the tedious uphills... Gosh, there was one as steep as the initial slope up to Kent Ridge Park! And that was lik
e 300m at least? A lot of us just decided to hop off and wheel up the bicycle in the end... Of course, the immaculate thrill of cycling downslope, feeling the wind in our hair, and the thrill of the moment just made the trip even more so memorable. Then, while we were looking at the quarry, it had to rain. Here are some of the pictures that we took at the quarry just before it started raining.
Imagine the rush back to the jetty... at full speed, regardless of the condition and the fact that we had raindrops that kept batting against us... we were soaked through, to say the least... and my Ipod kinda got wet cause my whole bag was soaked through and it couldn't on. Sigh... was quite upset, but surprisingly, I took it in good stride. After that, we headed off for lunch at Changi Village before I headed back for home.
I went home and tried to salvage my Ipod, but I guess it was a lost cause to begin with... *Sobz* my beloved Ipod... haha... containing all my songs! Haha... but more importantly, I think that it's salvageable as well. So my battered self and my overly sore thighs compelled me to take a nap before I headed off to GB HQ for the carolling meeting. The carolling meeting was a really good one, and I did enjoy myself to a certain extent... The ice breakers, the worship and praise... and then the briefing on HIGH Standards... I guess they all apply to me in one way or another... but I felt that the meeting was not efficient enough... a lot of things could have been simplified. Oh... I dunno... when the actual brief began, it wasn't all that good either, but I do understand that we're working with limited knowledge of the event itself and under finalisation. It was like a Warning Order kinda thing.
When we broke off under our individual clusters, I was quite glad to be under Ah-Ma! We had a short brief, broke off into our individual clusters and then from there, we decided and clarified things... what I felt was the most meaningful was when we all started to pray together. We prayed for the event, for Feli, for ourselves and for our members... when it was all over, I could feel the Lord's presence residing over us... and it was really really good.
When we left, I went home for dinner... at 2200hrs... haha... so interesting... :P MAN U WON BLACKBURN 1-0 through a LOUIS SAHA GOAL!! Take that! HAhaha...
Lastly... to Gayne, I know what you're saying, and I respect your decision and what you're doing. I know that it's not easy, but don't worry about my side... :) What you're doing is for your own good, just know that you're not alone... if you need me at any time, just holler yar? I'll be there for you. Take care!
Friday, November 10, 2006
Dear Mandy...
Just felt like penning a couple of my thoughts down while I'm at it. Been thinking a lot over these last couple of days... and I realise that I cannot really sit dormant for very long.. it doesn't really feel right... and a couple of things have happened over the last few days, that really have made me quite confused...
What's left of me now, is someone who's seemingly lost. Ever since the rug was pulled out from under me for the VJC relief teaching post, I've been listless and lacking of motivation to do anything. I was really looking forward to getting that post.. it was something I'd always wanted... and to have it blatantly taken away from me just left me hanging... Kinda sapped away my motivation and enthusiasm in all... sadly.
But I promised myself this... this doesn't change what I promised to set out to do. I'll oversee 23rd until the end of their term, meaning when they step down.. and what happens for 24th, will no longer be my problem anymore. It's time to move on, and to start experiencing something new. Someday, I hope to return to VJC to be a member of staff, and I pray fervently that that'll happen. Because... hearing a couple of things from my juniors about how things are being run, and let's just say that I'm quite worried for the immediate future of the Council. Not saying that Mr. Goh's doing a bad job.. I think because of him, that's why 23rd can be progressing well... but what's going to happen after him? That's what I'm worried about.
I'm worried about my own working status as well... as comforting as Mr. Tan YH's words are that I'll definitely find a job is, I'm still apprehensive. It's not easy, I feel... and to have had lived a life whereby all my opportunities were the only things I had to fight for... I had a confirmed status... be it student or NSF, and after that, it was up to me how I wanted to make that stage of my life fruitful and memorable... but that status was there... I believe God has his ways, and that I will find a job soon, but it's in this period of not belonging anywhere that makes things a little off... and weird, to some extent, but I'm hopeful.
Next, I feel like I desperately need to work out. Haha... this entire week... apart from... er... more like apart from nothing, I've just not ran/ played sports or anything!!! Darn! Hahaa... how? I'm going to get fat at this rate! Haha.. In any case, I need to work out, starting from tmr's cycling trip at Ubin, and then, if they're running on Sunday, I'll join in that as well. It's not much, but it's a start.
Next... just received an official arrow from Joel and my Ah-Ma that I'm co-IC of my cell's caroling team... haha... I think it's an interesting arrow! :) I'm rather looking forward to it actually, so yeah... it's be a good experience, but given my commitments in Dec, I'm a bit unsure too.. sigh. But I'll do my best.. turn myself to the Lord for guidance and trust in His plan for me. I believe I got his arrow for a reason, though I'm unsure as to what the reason is, but I'll keep the faith.
I'm thankful still though... for the friends who still trust me. Sanjay, Tryphena, Gayne, Chiew, Vee. Haha... thanks y'all... for everything... I appreciate everything done for me, especially Tryph and Gayne... :) Gayne tried to evaluate me sometime back... and what she told me is very much true... I'm learning to share... learning to talk about myself... but it's still to a certain few only... so that's a new thing that I'm learning...
I've got my driving practical test next Friday... I pray that I'll do well...
Just felt like penning a couple of my thoughts down while I'm at it. Been thinking a lot over these last couple of days... and I realise that I cannot really sit dormant for very long.. it doesn't really feel right... and a couple of things have happened over the last few days, that really have made me quite confused...
What's left of me now, is someone who's seemingly lost. Ever since the rug was pulled out from under me for the VJC relief teaching post, I've been listless and lacking of motivation to do anything. I was really looking forward to getting that post.. it was something I'd always wanted... and to have it blatantly taken away from me just left me hanging... Kinda sapped away my motivation and enthusiasm in all... sadly.
But I promised myself this... this doesn't change what I promised to set out to do. I'll oversee 23rd until the end of their term, meaning when they step down.. and what happens for 24th, will no longer be my problem anymore. It's time to move on, and to start experiencing something new. Someday, I hope to return to VJC to be a member of staff, and I pray fervently that that'll happen. Because... hearing a couple of things from my juniors about how things are being run, and let's just say that I'm quite worried for the immediate future of the Council. Not saying that Mr. Goh's doing a bad job.. I think because of him, that's why 23rd can be progressing well... but what's going to happen after him? That's what I'm worried about.
I'm worried about my own working status as well... as comforting as Mr. Tan YH's words are that I'll definitely find a job is, I'm still apprehensive. It's not easy, I feel... and to have had lived a life whereby all my opportunities were the only things I had to fight for... I had a confirmed status... be it student or NSF, and after that, it was up to me how I wanted to make that stage of my life fruitful and memorable... but that status was there... I believe God has his ways, and that I will find a job soon, but it's in this period of not belonging anywhere that makes things a little off... and weird, to some extent, but I'm hopeful.
Next, I feel like I desperately need to work out. Haha... this entire week... apart from... er... more like apart from nothing, I've just not ran/ played sports or anything!!! Darn! Hahaa... how? I'm going to get fat at this rate! Haha.. In any case, I need to work out, starting from tmr's cycling trip at Ubin, and then, if they're running on Sunday, I'll join in that as well. It's not much, but it's a start.
Next... just received an official arrow from Joel and my Ah-Ma that I'm co-IC of my cell's caroling team... haha... I think it's an interesting arrow! :) I'm rather looking forward to it actually, so yeah... it's be a good experience, but given my commitments in Dec, I'm a bit unsure too.. sigh. But I'll do my best.. turn myself to the Lord for guidance and trust in His plan for me. I believe I got his arrow for a reason, though I'm unsure as to what the reason is, but I'll keep the faith.
I'm thankful still though... for the friends who still trust me. Sanjay, Tryphena, Gayne, Chiew, Vee. Haha... thanks y'all... for everything... I appreciate everything done for me, especially Tryph and Gayne... :) Gayne tried to evaluate me sometime back... and what she told me is very much true... I'm learning to share... learning to talk about myself... but it's still to a certain few only... so that's a new thing that I'm learning...
I've got my driving practical test next Friday... I pray that I'll do well...
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
Dear Mandy,
As of 6th Nov 2006, I became LTA (NS) Daniel Lim, in other words, Mr. Daniel Lim. ORD LOR! It's so amazing! My journey in the Armed Forces have officially came to a close. And it has been one helluva journey, and one that I won't ever forget.
On the 6th, I collected my PINK IC!!!! Whoo-hoo!! The elation was exhilarating! Following which, Hui Chai and I went to ACJC, him to the gym, and I to find Gwen. The A level period has been really getting to this mei of mine, and she seemed kinda happy to see me. Hahaha... and what was it about Abel's delivery!! So adorable la, this couple.
I went back for the mess BBQ, albeit missing the mess meeting, and the BBQ was a pretty solemn affair... though everyone was still the same, smiling and all, the impending fact that we were going to ORD just seemed to have an impact on everyone... Found out of some politics going on that I'm not comfortable talking about, so yeah... I ended up downing 3 cans of beer, and eating quite a fair bit as well... haha... THen, after that, Ervin, Samuel, myself, Hui Chai and YC were thrown into the tub of ice cold water as an ORD ritual. Gabriel ran all the way to the stadium, but couldn't escape the treatment. While he was bathing, he got bombarded by toilet rolls, tissue paper, detergent, prickly heat powder, talcum powder, shampoo, ice cold water and medicated oil. Haha... and when he thought it was over, we dunked him in ice cold water. Haha...
On Tuesday, unit PRIDE day, was the day that I left camp. And I was honestly quite sad... Haha... saying goodbye to all my colleagues, seeing their faces, just made things kinda difficult... but in the end, the music has to stop, we take a bow, and then we walk away, with our heads held high and holding on to the memories.
I took a nap, only to wake up and call Mrs. Foo, who dropped the bomb that they have hired a teacher to relief teach Chemistry, so my vacancy has been dropped. Imagine the chagrin. I don't really want to go into details, but I spent the whole day at VJC today to settle this problem. I'm thankful for Mrs. Chan, Mr Tan YH and Jancy... especially Jancy for she helped me check with VS and other secondary schools for relief teacher openings.
I must thank Gayne and Chiew... Chiew because she's always been telling me things cause she cares for me. Always telling me to let go of Victoria, go out and try new things... Thanks dear... for always caring...
Gayne... I know that you're always worried that I'll be hurt, and that's why you always make a conscious effort to remind me to do things, but you still respect me enough to leave it to me to make a decision of whether or not I'll take ur advice... I really appreciate that... you're a wonderful friend... and I really am thankful to have someone like you... :)
As of 6th Nov 2006, I became LTA (NS) Daniel Lim, in other words, Mr. Daniel Lim. ORD LOR! It's so amazing! My journey in the Armed Forces have officially came to a close. And it has been one helluva journey, and one that I won't ever forget.
On the 6th, I collected my PINK IC!!!! Whoo-hoo!! The elation was exhilarating! Following which, Hui Chai and I went to ACJC, him to the gym, and I to find Gwen. The A level period has been really getting to this mei of mine, and she seemed kinda happy to see me. Hahaha... and what was it about Abel's delivery!! So adorable la, this couple.
I went back for the mess BBQ, albeit missing the mess meeting, and the BBQ was a pretty solemn affair... though everyone was still the same, smiling and all, the impending fact that we were going to ORD just seemed to have an impact on everyone... Found out of some politics going on that I'm not comfortable talking about, so yeah... I ended up downing 3 cans of beer, and eating quite a fair bit as well... haha... THen, after that, Ervin, Samuel, myself, Hui Chai and YC were thrown into the tub of ice cold water as an ORD ritual. Gabriel ran all the way to the stadium, but couldn't escape the treatment. While he was bathing, he got bombarded by toilet rolls, tissue paper, detergent, prickly heat powder, talcum powder, shampoo, ice cold water and medicated oil. Haha... and when he thought it was over, we dunked him in ice cold water. Haha...
On Tuesday, unit PRIDE day, was the day that I left camp. And I was honestly quite sad... Haha... saying goodbye to all my colleagues, seeing their faces, just made things kinda difficult... but in the end, the music has to stop, we take a bow, and then we walk away, with our heads held high and holding on to the memories.
I took a nap, only to wake up and call Mrs. Foo, who dropped the bomb that they have hired a teacher to relief teach Chemistry, so my vacancy has been dropped. Imagine the chagrin. I don't really want to go into details, but I spent the whole day at VJC today to settle this problem. I'm thankful for Mrs. Chan, Mr Tan YH and Jancy... especially Jancy for she helped me check with VS and other secondary schools for relief teacher openings.
I must thank Gayne and Chiew... Chiew because she's always been telling me things cause she cares for me. Always telling me to let go of Victoria, go out and try new things... Thanks dear... for always caring...
Gayne... I know that you're always worried that I'll be hurt, and that's why you always make a conscious effort to remind me to do things, but you still respect me enough to leave it to me to make a decision of whether or not I'll take ur advice... I really appreciate that... you're a wonderful friend... and I really am thankful to have someone like you... :)
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