Sunday, April 19, 2009

Dear Mandy...

Just today, I was anchored back to the wonderful grace of how God works in our lives.

A lot of people know that I've been rather emotional of late, and well, that's the funny thing. I knew I had no reason to be emotional, and yet I was. I mean... life was going on smoothly, my friendships were intact and great, and I was still walking with the Lord. But WHY was I still emotional?

It took the whole of today to realise why, and make the move out of the emotional factor.

First in Quiet Time, the Lord showed me through Elijah, how his words testify that He is a man of God. Through this, the Lord affirmed me that what I have been doing and saying has shown that I am a faithful disciple of Christ. So this set hte tone for the day... God's affirmation.

Then, during prayer point worship, PS Bel gave 2 verses.. Hebrews 11:6 and Hebrews 12:1-3...

"Without faith, it is impossible to please God."
- Hebrews 11:6

"Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfector of our faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider Him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart."
-Hebrews 12:1-3

Well.. these two verses spoke strongly to me.. because I felt that it was a call to God to exercise my faith in Him, and to run with perseverance what He was planned for me, and to turn my eyes upon Jesus, so I will not grow weary and lose heart.

Then came service... where the songs were strong and spoke to me. Fel prayed for me, and it spoke. And the service by Pastor Caleb on overcoming our fears in the Lord, really spoke to me. Especially when Pastor Caleb started asking questions... I guess I let the tears come. I felt God comforting me, and in His presence, i felt safe... then Yuen Shun prayed for me, and so did Jin Hui.

After that... I cried on Jin Hui's shoulders, and it was quite bad I think. Wei Lin was so worried she came over, and I saw the looks on a few people's faces, and they were really shocked. PS Bel and PS Jim came over as well, and then began the biggg talk with PS Jim.

I realised through the talk with PS Jim, that subconsciously, I had lost my way with God in an area that I thought was pretty alright... I guess that in doing so, I had allowed the devil to grip my heart in that area, and turned myself into a bit of a nervous wreck, emotional, when there was really no need to.

My prayer thus became "Lord, grant me wisdom and peace to handle the situations that come my way." Because when we ask for wisdom, the Lord will give it.. and His peace will be our guide. And such, if we have these two, it is difficult for us to lose our way. It is truly by the grace of God that we can be saved, and that we can do right.

So, thank God for revelation and His divine intervention that really gets us walking right with Him. =)

Saturday, April 04, 2009

Dear Mandy..

Well, it has been a very eventful birthday... and one that I really sense that the Lord is preparing me for something big that He has planned for me. Well, let me just recap... hahaha..

In total, SO MANY PEOPLE TAGGED ME ON FACEBOOK AND SMSED OR MSNED ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY THAT I FEEL SO BLESSED! Haha.. sorry for the caps, but it's really true... I realise how simple these actions may be, but how much it really means to the recipient, because of the heart and the effort to simply go over and tag or take up a phone and sms. It's really a wondrous blessing and gift to have and receive. To everyone who did so, my heartfelt thanks and gratitude for the effort that you've put in! =)

I had dinner with my family at “螃蟹之家", and we had black pepper crab... no picture to show cause I forgot to take. But it was nice. Haven't had such a big family dinner for some time, and though it started off late cause Dad got held up at work, and started off awkward, cause I was feeling tired and irritated... but by God's grace, things got better. While waiting for dinner, God led me to read Ephesians 3... Nothing much really got in at that time, but one thing that struck me was Paul asking "are you saved be faith or by law?" This would prepare me for what I was to read later at night.

Well... I've been blessed.. and I maintained my promise of cutting a cake on my birthday, and sis gave me a really expensive gift. Now I know what was in that bag. Hahaha.. But all in all... it went well... =)

Spent the night chatting on msn, and reading 2 more chapters of Max Lucado's "3:16- The numbers of hope", and the chapters were on the words "perish" and "believe". I guess I was led back to remember that God doesn't want us to do anything to attain eternal life.. He just wants us to believe in Him, and that's that. Of course, the next chapter on "perish" talks of how people just close their doors to the Lord when He comes knocking.. so they make it that choice. But one line really stood out for me... Max Lucado wrote "Even longing for God is a gift from God." That really got me thinking... if a longing for God is a gift, then... does that mean that God has condemned the rest who He didn't bless? But no! Max Lucado explains that God knocks on our doors.. in order to receive the fift from God, we must first be willing to accept God into our lives, and only then can we fully receive the grace and love of God.

I guess we all have a long way to go... but it all begins with my God! =) I believe He'll have a plan for me. =)

Thursday, April 02, 2009

Dear Mandy..

Well... as the big 2-3 draws nearer, I've been really blessed! Everyone knows every year I try my best to be nonchalant as my birthday draws near, and if it's quietly celebrated, even better. I still remember last year when I successfully managed to bluff Joel and Isaac my birthday is in May. Haha... it was thwarted, surprisingly, and this year, the person who thwarted it last year, in some sense also thwarted my attempts this year. But this year was different I guess.

I've been praying about my birthday, as instigated by a few close friends, because of the pending exchange that is coming up in August. They all wanted me to have a proper celebration, but the me being the me kinda disagreed. To the words of those so dear "Go and pray and ask God what He says." Which upon duly charged, I couldn't really refute could I? So I went to the Lord in prayer.

And surprisingly, He wanted me to enjoy my birthday. He said, "Do not worry, my child. Don't fret about your birthday. Just trust that I am in control." So I did.

On Wednesday, ShuXin (Xiaoxin) came to NUS to play badminton, and asked if we could meet up for a while, which I was realy happy to do so. I rarely get to see ShuXin anyway, so I was looking forward to it. That silly girl made me walk from Arts Canteen to Engine Canteen, only to receive a birthday present and this big orange balloon which says "Happy Birthday" on one side and "Daniel is a happy boy" on the other side. Talk about having to walk around school with that BIG ORANGE BALLOON?!! And to make it funny.. the "meet up" with XiaoXin only lasted 7 minutes and she was gone. Hahaha... funny incident, but I felt blessed.

Had a project meeting, and completed some parts, and now it's rush rush rush for Soci of Tourism project... then went down to Parkway for cell.

So at cell we were waiting for people, and then suddenly, ice breaker. And the ice breaker was "Ask Daniel 23 questions" cause PS Jim said they wanted to celebrate my birthday. Haha.. I was bashful I guess.. I mean, it was totally unexpected. And the best part... I got a birthday PIZZA!! I mean seriously... a BIRTHDAY PIZZA! And if you're wondering... yes.. I prefer birthday pizzas to cake, unless it's a too die for cake, and it MUST be chocolate! Hahaha... and it was so sweet actually... because it was all thanks to a close friend, and she tipped them off when they asked about it. Honestly touched.

Then, they prayed for me!! So touched!! U-Jin, PS Bel, PS Jim and Wei Lin took turns to pray for me, and I feel so blessed... Hahaha.. my birthday isn't here yet, and already I feel so blessed.

Thanks everyone, for having made it a wonderful blessing... Thank you to Joel, Isaac, to the 24, to Shuxin.. and to Prisc! =) Haha.. God's blessings all to me! =)