Yes, I tried that too...

Dear Babies.


Last weekend we went to the ranch for family pictures. You guys were the main topic of conversation. Everyone is so excited to meet you! They are so happy for us and I am really happy. Even your little cousins are excited and want to help pick out names. We heard some very funny ones. No, we will not name you Sponge Bob and Patrick. We I drove back, I spent a lot of time talking to you guys about all of the fun things that we are going to do when you get here. Nicknames are another thing up for discussion, peanut, gummy bears, tater tots... we will get ones that fit you when we see you on Thursday. Cowboy (grandpa) can't wait to find out how many ponies he needs to buy and what color to buy the next four wheelers.





I have gotten bigger, but you are still tiny. My jeans are tighter and NONE of my shirts fit. They did the best they could to hide my body behind the fence. We love you and can't wait to see you!! I hope that my change in diet and drinking all of this water is helping you grow big and strong. It is hard to eat when you feel nauseated, my all day sickness is getting to me. I don't mind it though. After all I went through to have you in my tummy, a little vomitting for a few months is just want I wanted!! Love you, Mommy

So, on Sept. 21st, I got a BFP on a HPT. Went in on 22nd for a Beta, came back 71. That is excellent. Went in on Thursday 24th, Beta was 210! Another excellent number. I have been super tired, and a little nauseous. I am taking Progesterone supplements and Estridoil pills twice a day. I can't stop worrying, although I should be thrilled. I went in today for another Beta, at my request. I shouldn't have done that.



My beta came back at 2040. The nurse said that is good, and it is. If it wasn't for the fact that my increase is slowing. If I continued with it doubling every 48 hours, it should be over 3300. I am trying not to panic. I called my family physician to see if I could come in for a Beta there. It is ridiculous for me to do that.



My ultrasound is in almost two weeks. I just worry everytime I go to the bathroom. This is the most difficult time of my life. I worried about getting pregnant, now I worry about staying pregnant.