Keep Living, Flipping the Pages, End this Chapter.

I just posted the water issue to the JJB.

I have yet to hunt for scholarship.

I have new pages for my home page. To keep in touch with the news.

This is the game.

It's a relapse. When you have it, you'll use it. Just like any other electronic devices.

Anyway, I saw DG on fb today and had a little chat with him. He commented that I have the "natural talent and confidence, which is a hallmark quality a great lawyer should possess." He asked me to add it with "passion and dedication" and nothing can stop me from being one of the top lawyers.

I think I've lost my sharp focus. Somehow I just want to slack. I shouldn't. I'm not putting in enough concentrated effort as I'm supposed to. Though I pay 120% attention in class, but when I'm back, I'm tempted and distracted by so many things. I'm not working hard and playing harder. I'm just plain slacking. I SHOULD STOP.

I just talked to HM on Skype. =) SW and her are in London. They might be getting a house next year! So I'll get to have a place to stay in London.

Now I need to focus on my studies, score and get my fat arse there. Find a scholarship if possible. And worry a little on money!

S was really quiet today. Hmm. I think he's very tired. P is opening up a lot to me, which is quite interesting. And I too am letting a little too much for her to know out. C also knows more and more about me.

I'm still doubtful, whether to show everything that I am on fb or not....

What S is trying to say is, "You remind me of myself when I was your age."

He doesn't even know me.

Don't make assumption - quoted by Boss. I live by this now. I don't make assumptions.

He thinks that he's on par with me. He's streetwise, intelligent, resourceful, motivated and hardworking, no doubt about that. But I have networks of my own as well. I have achievements which he would never dreamt to be possible.

I don't want to tell anyone about them. I just want to finish what I've started in this firm, learn as much as I can and ciao. Get good grades for my second year. Be in the active legal field and picking up the legal news/gossips.

I've made great friends in this firm. Moreover, I didn't regret meeting up with BD who made me re-consider large firms. I'm trying very hard not to commit silly careless mistakes. I really don't know whether I'm up for it. But the money would probably be driving me there. I need to make millions in 5-7 years time. If not I can never start my businesses and my non-scalable income plan.

The best way to be low profile is to shut up. And not share anything to a single soul. Well, except to my blog of course. I'll be so dead if anyone of them find out about this.

I have a dream to irrigate Africa. I guess this is where I start.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6jSBW0BOPqM
https://www.wfp.org/donate/1billion

I should also try my best to be more dedicated in Amnesty International.

There is a stark difference between a Cambridge Graduate Federal Scholar and a Brickfields Asia College Student; obviously there is.

I should never go visit Elephant's fb page ever. I don't even like her, why am I even jealous? When I see those prompt replies exchanges and compare it with her (though long) reply in the inbox. I feel very conflicted because, I thought that she was my friend FIRST. (sorry if this sounds extremely childish) And I have no idea why I wasn't invited onboard. Was it because I was busy at that time? Or was it because I didn't explicitly offered and he did?

Why don't I get regular updates to know whether Ele's okay or not? And he does? What if there he gets long replies in inboxes as well?

P.S. it's an ulcer - I shall clean my mouth cleaner.

I still fall for people so easily. But I still make a conscious effort to up my standards. I just got to see a picture of the girlfriend of a colleague of mine. Prima facie way beyond him. I know him, I can tell when she's attracted to him. Another girl-friend of mine just dumped a boy who is way beneath her, yet she felt reluctant and still emotionally attached. I think my ex is right (first one); she told this same girl-friend that "you'll grow over it".

This girl who is always earlier than me, leaves faster than me, has the straightest and neatest hair I've seen. And she dresses up so well; her fashion-sense: amazing for a Malaysian girl. Yet, there was once I saw her waiting for the bus and another time in the same train with me. (deliberate of course)

She doesn't talk to anyone. She pays attention in class. She takes down notes. And she sits up as straight as if allowing her straight hair to cascade straight down onto her back.

I'm raising the bar. I can do better. But she's really interesting, I would love to be her friend. Same old me haven't learnt, I don't know how to start.

It's close to one year now, staying in KL. I did some math the other day. Say for every of the 6 years when I was in Sg, I go home for an estimated 3months every year (which I don't think I do) that's a mere 18months.

Can you believe that my parents only see me for less than one and a half year, for the past 6 years? Quite hard to believe for me. I've also missed out so much on the growing up of my youngest brother as well as the ties which could be better with my younger brother.

So, I'm in my second year now. This year, I choose to do it differently. Actually not that different from my "track record". I've always been busy with everything else except studies. The only difference is that now, the new thing which I am busy with is WORK IN A LAW FIRM, which helps me with my law now.
Besides, there are a lot of other benefits such as pocket money, discipline, maturity, more friends, THE EMPLOYMENT LETTER (which might help me a get a further discount in my chambering)

I really can't wait to go to the UK. I'm so excited.
I don't understand my procrastination on looking for a scholarship/grant. Having in sight and in consideration Dad's state; I really need to. AND it's really really urgent. Somehow, something is stopping me. I don't know what; maybe it's procrastination.

I have a lot of books which I have bought and read half way or haven't even open the wrapper. I should finish them ASAP!

This is the new chapter of my life in a brief. This chapter is a crucial yet fleeting transitional chapter; even the writer looks forward to the next chapter, where he'll be in UK. Crucial chapter, because, this year's results is make or break; this year's financial break is decisive; this year's discipline is paramount due to the workload and lack of time.