Keep Living, Flipping the Pages, End this Chapter.

I lied that I am gay, just for fun. I want to see how the conversation goes.

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Google is scary.

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I quit my job already hence the new chapter.

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I wasted enough time already, just for fun, just to relax. Now to serious studying, before I'm tired.

From the sound of the title, you might already guessed that I'm beating myself up again.

I need a to-do-list. For everyday, so that I can slash them out and feel that I am in control of the day.

I need to review my blog & diary every one month so that I remember.

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I've reviewed the blog and put all the things that I have no done down on Stickies. -) I hope I'll do them soon!

Oh ya, that day YuinnYuh's wedding, I was talking to KimUncle, he told me about his church youth helping out at BatuPadang. I think I should join and do more significant things in my life.

I really need this list to REMEMBER.

1) A chauffeur that can fetch people or me from Singapore to KL. Long term cheaper than Bus or Plane.
2) A car for my chauffeur to drive.
3) 100k or more to park around for interest rates.
4) A 3 storey shop at a good location.
5) A PA.
6) 2 iphones (or more); one for my PA one for me.

God says that a wise man will not share his emotions and a fool would blabber everything.

So I shall vent, to make myself feel better, but speak in codes.

LOL. I feel that you should prepare it way in advance. 5 years before I get into univ. Not last minute now. I don't want to be last minute like you EVER. And then hope for silver linings, when you're desperate.

Thank goodness I'm far away. That I don't see you and build up unnecessary hatred.

Last week was the getting people week. Last Sat Jiny's birthday. Last Sunday went to lunch with Mich and WJ spoke about plans. Sunday night Kelly. Monday spoke to Jon and Mahen. Then the whole of last week doing all the necessary arrangements.

I slept at the average of 2a.m. everyday. Mon doing assignment (I think I slept at 4). Tues I spoke to Tee online. Wed I slept. Thurs spoke to MJ online. Or something like that, maybe that explains why I so psychologically drained.

I hope my battery lifespan does not degenerate like my poddie, which can last for 1hr or so. I need a second ipod soon. One that I can organise my podcasts as well.

P.S. M today; M friday night. I hate throwing things away. Especially those things that can be recycled.

I was getting quite tired from the fast paced week and the work obligations.

Now I have all the time in the world (the whole sunday) to REST and NOTHING TO DO. (if I choose so) Yet I feel that I can't rest properly.

I seriously need to start KIV-ing my life. I'm getting too distracted. HOW TO HANDLE MULTIPLE business in the future?!!?!!

Maybe I need my Lemon Jelly (it's a band). Or maybe I need to read the bible.

Looking back at my previous posts, two weeks ago I was still fine and still counting my blessings. Thank God for blogs and my stupid page number which forced me to view my own blog to see which page am I next at. So that RAHHHH only came in late last week.

I just finished my assignment at the last minute. IT WAS MADNESS. I rushed to school to hand it up. Just got to school in time before it rained cats and dogs.

I think it's a sign, a sign that I should stay in college and not go back to work. Then I called Syok to pick me up -) Thank goodness for her, if not I'll be drenched in the rain.

Got back, ate, M, sleep!

I think it's quite a lot of bullcrap. Compared to last year's assignment, this probably feels the closest to my Criminal Law assignment. OH WELL.

I have mixed feelings with Dez, on one hand I'm really happy that we are talking more and more; on the other hand, I feel inadequate, even if I want to woo her, I'm too far away and yes, I feel inadequate. On one more hand, during the yumcha supper talk just now with 2 of the JJB brothers; Rich and Jit, we were just talking about how girls will 'pull our legs' and prevent us from achieving great things. I don't want to miss out the crucial deciding golden age of my life. ANYWAY, I told myself, I'll be back for her after I graduate.

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I really had back to back schedule these ten days in Kuantan. Besides the productive meet-ups, there was also the destructive time wasters that I did. Vowed not to do them anymore. Everyday is a really tough struggle and battle with the man in the mirror; to fight against the original sin, and to dwell with the shortfalls of the flesh.

Ironically, this trip back, I've made friends. And have a better relationship with my already good friends.

I need to start on my land law now. Seems to be a 180 change that I need to undertake now; back to school/work, instead of catch-up with friends and sleep. Also have to turn away from the availability of time to think of what to do for GRETH.

Movie till 4.30am yesterday (I really enjoyed the movie session), and then woke up for Harun's sister's garden ceremony. Was suppose to be there to set-up at 8.00am but I overslept (due to my habitual snoozing and over-confidence that I could wake up after 5 mins naturally - something which I should never do again [ever]). Sped there without my wallet and driving licence. Thank God nothing happened.

Screwed up a little when the yumcha place was not properly coordinated. Harun got quite pissed.

But I was really really really happy as I brought the two main groups together C.C. and us. Really hope that something can be done with GRETH.

Leading worship for church tmr! Better sleep early. Delegated Rong the task of creating my ppt.

1) No prawns
2) No pigs
3) Plan ahead. (detailed to the hour; control your time online and ASLEEP - refer to 2); NEVER EVER DO THINGS LAST MINUTE
4) Make money with the little you have.
5) GOD GOD GOD.
6) serve; charity.
7) always check and check

I can't help but to feel that this year's theme/focus is - KEYS.
Keys that open doors, key that protects contents of a safe.
Today dad locked the sliding door; we went out first, so when we got back, we could not get into the house. We had to go and meet him up to get the keys.
After that when I went to church, Harun forgotten to bring the church keys, so we did not have the keys to the store. Couldn't get the mics and the laptop out. LATE. But I was doing things last minute also.
Because I had dad's key and mum's key, they were both in mum's car as mum and I went to church first. So after that the few of us took Harun's car to TanjLumpur for ikan bakar. So, dad's keys were in the car. Dad had to come and meet me to get the keys for mum's car so that he can have the keys to the house. In the end, I followed them and drove back to TanjLumpur.

KEYS.


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127 days to go.