One year ago today my life changed forever and will never be the same again. One year ago I lost my mom to a battle with cancer. This last year has been so hard I cry everyday, not all day just when a thought gets to me or sometimes a song, thinking about her is a constant in my life. In a lot of ways this year has been easier than the one before, I have not had to watch my mom suffer and die, but at the same time last year she was still here with us. Two years ago this January will be when she was diagnosed with cancer, it seems like a lifetime ago when we found out. Other days it feels like yesterday when she was normal and healthy, taking care of our family. I can't believe how much this has changed my life, I feel so much stronger now it has taught me humility, strength, patience, and understanding. I am a lot more compassionate now, I cry at everything, it's really kind of embarrassing. I don't think it has gotten any easier over the year and I really don't think it ever will, I just think I have gotten better at dealing with it. My mom was such a wonderful person, and had so many great attributes, I feel truly blessed to have had her for the 25 years that I did. Some things I miss most about having her here are: going to her house and seeing her, her cooking, Sunday dinners, babysitting my kids, her cutting our hair, calling her and asking questions, holidays, being Grandma & Mom, and just Her! I am so grateful I will be with her again through the plan of salvation and that my family is sealed in the temple.