unquestionable love

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

unveiling the new blog!

First off, we got the results from the chromosome screening yesterday. I have posted information on the new blog...

Speaking of which...

I heard back from Mel and everything is in order for ICLW and Creme de la Creme, so I can finally reveal my new blog!! I'm excited and have been thinking of fun stuff to blog about. I hope you'll join me at the new and improved unquestionable love:

The Subfertile Frugalista!

Thanks a lot!

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

appt. today to discuss the genetic tests

We have our appointment with Dr. J this afternoon to get the results from the genetic testing. I am nervous and sad, but hoping for some news and a good direction. And I'm looking forward to finding out if it was a boy or girl so we can name it and feel like there is one little bit of closure.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

working on something new

So, I have made no secret that I don't like my blog name. It's just not me. But the meaning behind it does mean a lot to me. Right now, I'm in the process of setting up a new blog and importing all of the posts from this blog, as I don't want to lose 2 years' worth of blog posts. However, after losing the baby, I just feel like I need a new, fresh start. Somthing that's more me. Somthing that I will be proud sharing, and also a blog that won't only be focused on infertility, but also my chronic shopping habit, my love for reading, my adventures in traveling for work and play, my everyday musings. I have my IRL blog and typically only blog on there about stuff that involves J & I together. I feel weird posting about just me...GNO's, my personal volunteer things, etc. SO this new blog will be a way for me to do what I've been doing but also to focus on some of the other non-IF related things in my life, which I feel like I really need right now. I hope to include more pictures, more links and more posts in general.

Just wanted to put it out there and I hope you will consider following me over there. I am working on a few new posts this weekend and will post soon. Not sure how the new blog will work with ICLW and Creme de la Creme...I'm hoping to touch base with Mel on that this weekend, too. Stay tuned! I'm pretty excited!

Friday, January 15, 2010

bright side, where are you?

First, can we get a Cheers! for the long weekend!?

::Cling, Cling::

That's something to be happy about. But overall, I've had a pretty down week. I don't know how well I'm dealing with everything. I get down so easily, which is really unlike me. I'm usually pretty resilient. I guess that's one benefit of a shitty childhood. I think there are just a few things eating at me and as much as I try to snap out of it, I find myself on the verge of tears every evening on the way home. It feels like it's starting to get better. It's got to get better.

So here are some bright side things, things that have brought a smile this week:

I met Bon! We went to a Resolve meeting and got to chat for a bit afterward. She has been through something that I consider to be worse than a miscarriage and she's hanging in there. She's a strong one and you should head over and give her some blog love if you're not already a reader.
Hello, clearance sales! Can I just share that I got 6 sweaters and a dress at Target the other day for $32?! Cardigans are sooo my new blazer. (Okay, not so much new, but they're definitely a fav right now...cardigan, collared shirt, cute belt, contrasting yet coordinating colors...love!!)
6 miles on the treadmill last night...what?!
Good books make me smile...seriously good bookage here lately (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn, amazing, Half the Sky, sooo inspirational) and getting ready to finish my 4th book of the new year.
Called the doc today to confirm that our genetic tests are in and they are. Looking forward to next Tuesday when we get to see the results...and hoping for good news.
Ultimate Love of the Week: Pants on the Ground!

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

de-lurk yourself!

I think I might have missed the de-lurking week, but I would still love to know who is hanging out there. I know I don't have too many readers and a goal of mine is to be more active with the blog...both blogging myself and also venturing out into other people's blogs. I need to clean through my reader and get rid of some of the ones that I don't read anymore but I am looking forward to spending time with ICLW next week and really trying to find some new blogs to read.

Soo.....if you're a reader, I'd love to know you and find out whether I subscribe to your blog. If not, I can't wait to check it out! For fun, and because I'm in need lately of lots of cozy, feel-good downtime, leave your comment letting me know what's your favorite way to get yourself out of a funk, to feel better, to relax, etc.

Me? I always love a good book, rain or storms (but NO tornados) or snow...anything to make me feel like I can't leave the house, cuddling on the couch with my dogs and having a nice cup of hot chocolate! (These things, or a nice big shopping trip or long massage...I'm easy to please.)

Here I am at Max Brenner's in Philly enjoying one of my favorite indulgences. And their hot chocolate comes in this cute little hug mug which makes things even more cozy! Highly recommend!!

Friday, January 8, 2010

4 miles = 3 lbs?

It did last night, at least! I did 4 miles of walking/running on the treadmill and stepped on the scale to find that I was down 3 pounds from my weight yesterday! Sweet! Now I just wish I hadn't fallen off of the wagon with the ice cream last night...oops! Pretty good motivation to get back on there tonight, that's for sure!

Monday, January 4, 2010

back on the saddle

Okay, so that picture isn't technically of me on a saddle, but it's the closest thing I have!

Today I am back to work (clearly, working hard). The initial plan was to start back up on my diet after the first of the year...as in JAN 1. J is doing it, too. But then we both realized that we had 3 more days off and why not just enjoy the rest of our weekend. So we did.

Oh, did we. Have you ever watched Interventio.n when the addict just wants to go snort a bunch of coke before going to treatment? Yeah, that would pretty much sum me up over the past few days. Except take out the coke and insert sweet tea, cinnabons, starbucks, mini snickers bars, ice cream, etc. You get the idea...but TODAY? Today I begin.

It actually feels good. My body needs to detox. So, to recap, my RE has a somewhat unique view of PCOS. Only his view is FREAKING GENIUS and resulted in my ovulating on my own for the first time last year in our nearly 3 years of trying (at the time), and also resulted in our pgcy, which didn't end so well, but I have so much hope. I am 100% certain that this diet along with the glumetza was the reason for our BFP. You can read more about the reasoning behind his opinions HERE and HERE but the long and short of it is that he believes all PCOS patients have a form of insulin resistance, which results in carbs, sugar, etc. turning directly into glucose (sugar) in the body. This only fuels the cysts. By doing this complete detox, my cysts were much smaller and I was able to actually ovulate!

The rules are:

No sugar
No carbs
No vegetables that are grown underground
No wheat, rice, barley, rye or oats

So the rules are pretty simple, it's just following them that's a pain in the ass. But, in the end, a successful and healthy pregnancy will be so worth it! Not to mention, I lost weight quickly and easily when I was doing the diet consistently! I am all for another 20 pounds, maybe even 25! I think I can easily do that in 2 months, especially since I'm planning on getting a good workout in several times a week.

I can't tell you how excited I am to get started! Winter is a great time for this diet because soups and stews are easy, filling and delicious. I snack a ton throughout the day. (Already today...it's 11...I have had a huge apple, some cheese, some soy nuts and about 20 ounces of water. For lunch, I'll have veggie soup (yes, there will be corn, carrots and maybe a few potatoes, but those kinds of bends in the rules are okay...a king sized candy bar, not so much!), peaches and cottage cheese and a string cheese. For my mid-afternoon snack, I'm going to have some almonds, an orange and another piece of cheese if needed.

Sooooo excited! I will be reporting on my weight loss. I'm looking forward to 8-10 pounds in the next week!

This isn't a resolution, by the way. I vowed not to do any this year because I never follow through. This is making decisions to get me closer to a real living breathing baby!