Wednesday, March 29, 2006
Filler
Sorry for the long absence, been feeling really lethargic lately. Well, I'm finally blogging, while watching Kexin do the first jump quest in sleepywood. I think I'm a freaking sadist, lol. She keeps dropping down and everytime she does that, I have the urge to press the f2 smiley. My results were nothing phenomenal, but I'm glad that at least they are fairly decent! I maintained my GPA at 4.0 this semester! Hohoho. Anyway, university admission doesn't go by GPA.
I'm kinda, just tripping around nowadays. I don't even know what day it is today! Excuse me, I'm kinda high. Really wanted to level up tonight, but some guy was stalking me in Maple. -_-" It has been a pretty eventful day. Okay, will blog soon again. Sorry for it being short. My brain is screaming in pain now. tata.
;I CREATED A SHEEP!
11:37 PM
Monday, March 27, 2006
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4:59 PM
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
Irresponsibility
I hate the SAS system. I'm trying to check my results and its still lagging until now. When they consolidated the SPEED system together with the other enquiry services, they should have ensured that the end result would be better, not worse. I think I'm just going to check my results tonight or something.
While waiting, I read the online newpaper and there was this article about a little boy, only 8 years old, who had to buy drugs for his drug addict of a mother. I don't know why I feel so strongly about it. Its really really sad, the poor boy doesn't even get recess money from the mother. Instead, he has to beg strangers for money to feed his mother's drug addiction or she will beat him. I think the most forlorn part of the entire thing is when he was asked about his ambition, he said that he wanted to be a pilot, so that he can fly away from here and never come back.
What kind of mother are you? He is only 8 years old. What did you even do for him besides give birth to him? How could you do such a thing to your own flesh and blood? He was part of you for 9 months! To treat him this way, its just irresponsible. Just last night, an online friend of mine was telling me some rather shocking details about his family background, which accounts for his independence. He has been working and studying for such a long time now, just to support himself. I salute you people who have the determination to come through ordeals such as this. Usually, in such cases, the child either becomes a social delinquent or a polished star.
I'm thankful for what I have, but I still feel a sort of emptiness in my being. Like something is missing. Why? I have caring parents, a loving boyfriend, close friends and a whole bunch of acquaintances. I met another person in Maple last night. He said I was gullible because I helped everyone in Maple without knowing if they are good or bad. I told him this, "If I think everyone I come across is bad, then I will always be alone. However, if I take the chance and help others, who knows, I may gain a friend in return."
I can't stand people who play games just like how they do in real life. When they meet unreasonable people in a game who spoil their fun, they just shrug it off and say, thats life, its unfair, deal with it. I don't get it. Its a game, an escape from reality. Why the heck do you want to play a game where it mirrors the poor behaviour of real life? Haven't you had enough of such people in real life? Why can't I expect perfection in a game? There are gaming communities who do not have rude and inconsiderate people in the game. Its not merely an impossibility. It all depends on the general mentality of the people in the game. In fact, its people who attitudes like yours that allows these inconsiderate acts to run rampant. If everyone escapes the problem and pretends that its just part of "life", nothing gets done, nothing will change, "life" will still go on. Soon, they will learn to accept the problem, like chronic rheumatism, and shrug it off as something that occurs to everyone as they get old.
Why can't we change the world? All the power in our hands and you people only think about "thats life"? No one said its going to be a smooth sailing ride down the Nile, but is it too hard to even try? Just by changing a mindset, many things will change as well. The power of one isn't much, but if a majority of the community is willing to work towards a common goal, I believe that it still can be done. And I'm not even talking about real life here. Its only the gaming world, a facade of real life. To escape from the problem by ignoring it doesn't make it go away. Its irresponsibility.
Irresponsibility. Its such a big word that even I feel unworthy of using it. After all, who am I to judge others? Seriously, everyone gets judged by each other. The whole "Who are you to judge me" is a hypothetical statement that allows people to feel that they are in control of their own life. However, if you look at it objectively, the way we behave, the clothes we wear, how we present ourselves in public, isn't that just because we don't want to be judged negatively by others? In essence, we already know that we will be judged, because we are also judgemental. Its a sort of cycle, if you get what I mean.
I know I complain a lot in this blog, maybe because I tend to analyze bad things that happened to me instead of the good stuff. Happiness is a blessing, there is no point thinking too much about it, but just to accept it as it comes. Just yesterday, I got so cheesed off by these two service personnel at a shop in Sim Lim Square on the 6th floor. We were looking around for mp3 players and we wanted to listen to a demo of the iPod nano to find out whether it has good sound quality. The shop whom we asked said they didn't have a demo, but we could go to another shop for the demo. Thinking that they were of the same company, Mike and I went up and he asked the staff there. After Mike asked them for a demo and told them that a shop referred us here, the bugger spoke to us in an interrogative tone. That was when I realised that they were two separate companies.
Mike: Hi, I would like to ask if you have a demo if the iPod nano.
Asshole: Why?
(me thinking: duh, cuz we wanna buy one? don't test how to buy?)
Mike: Oh, we want to test out the sound quality and see how it compares to other mp3 players before making a decision. Another shop referred us to you.
Asshole: What shop? Which one? We only do demos for our customers.
(thank you Captain obvious! The moment we walked into your shop, regardless of whether we were referred to you by another shop, WE BECAME YOUR FUCKING CUSTOMERS. )
Mike: I don't know, so do you have a demo or not?
Asshole: If you are our customers we will do for you happily, but why should we do for another shop?
(I don't know whether you are just brain dead now or born stupid really, did I ask you to do it for the other shop? Obviously you don't know how to use an advantage to your benefit. )
Then, I cut in, cuz Mike was being too fucking polite to this asshole and I couldn't stand him.
Me: So, how much do you sell your iPod nano here?
Asshole: $239. What the other shop quote you?
Me: Oh, they quoted $234.
Asshole: Oh, its only a $5 difference. You do realise that demos are not a good representation of sound quality? Like lets say I have a $300 headphone and I listen to a song thats encoded at a higher quality, the sound will be better than normal.
(PLEASE. Spare me that crap. The last thing you should ever bloody do is to insult the intelligence of your customers. They want a demo, give it to them or tell them that you don't have it. What the fuck. )
Mike: So are your mp3s encoded at 320 kbps?
Asshole: Ya, we have.. alot of kbps.
( He actually said "alot" HAHAHA. Means he doesn't know whats the maximum. HAHAHAHAHA. )
Me: So, are you going to show us a demo?
Asshole: If you're not buying from us, then we can't.
(Please tell me what kind of reasoning is that? If every shop had a demo and they insisted that once you listened to it, you have to buy their product, then they will be rich. You have no right to insist that I buy your product as long as I listen to a bloody demo tape. It all depends on how persuasive you are as a salesman.)
Me: Okay, thank you.
In all honesty, I don't mind paying $5.00 more, if he gave a good demo since I was quite set on the iPod. Its okay, its just $200 bucks anyway. I'm sure their shop makes a whole lot more money than that based on their lousy customer service. Please tell me why do I want to even give you my business when you speak to me like you are interrogating a criminal? If thats your normal tone of speaking, change it. I don't know who the hell in the world likes to be treated like a bloody criminal when they are the ones giving you the money, not the oher way around. You are not the only shop in the entire SLS who sells iPod nano. You have the authority not to do our business, that much I give you, but you are the one losing out thats all. Its your reputation that suffers, not mine. I don't know why the shop below referred us to you. Take it up with them if you wish, but don't bloody ignore the customer's request. In essence, they are giving you the business. Why would they refer potential customers to you if you are not from the same company as them anyway? Baffling, really.
Hence ends my complaint! Why do I always meet people like this who ruin my day. *sigh* No wonder Singapore ranks so low on the customer service bar. All it takes is for a tourist to walk into a shop like this and get cheesed off by their attitude. Oh wait, doesn't apply to angmohs, because in all probability, if an angmoh walked into their shop, they would probably act like cute little lapdogs who are willing to run around in circles just for the amusement of their targetted customers. Why? US dollars smell better than SGD is it?
;I CREATED A SHEEP!
9:31 AM
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Interlude
Sorry, I have quite a lot of topics to blog about, just, don't have the mood because of certain things. Tomorrow, results will be out, good luck to all of my poly friends! Thanks for just being there these 3 years. Another song for you guys, 我还记得 by 梁静茹.
我还记得
十年后的今天遇见你
年少轻狂已远去
成熟稳重也保持距离
沉默里千言万语
时光回到那年夏天
公车站前你笑容满面
拍拍我的头说“你好吗？“
一句问候甜满清晨
别人的话都听不见
岁月凝结在你的视线
我还记得那年倾盆大雨
狼狈奔跑穿越几条街
握紧的双手为爱的不顾一切
我还记得那年你的声音
耳边回荡那一句誓言
你吻我的脸
都是我心中收藏一生的快乐
渐渐我们都有新朋友
多久不再并肩走
忙忙碌碌看人生匆匆
忘记了年轻的梦
好想回到那年夏天
教室门前你笑容满面
拍拍我的头说 你别哭
考坏一次不是末日
未来还有很长的路
我们要一起去看世界
我还记得那年晴空万里
那一道飞机蕴的弧线
蜿蜒着思念
写下故事的终结
我还记得那年你的年轻
刻在从前最美的时间
在我生命里
你不曾告别
不曾走远
与你重逢前一个夜晚
梦是在梦中上演
重要去体验只是人生的残缺
我还记得那年晴空万里
那一道飞机蕴的弧线
蜿蜒着思念
写下故事的终结
我还记得那年你的年轻
刻在从前最美的时间
在我生命里
你不曾告别
不曾走远
;I CREATED A SHEEP!
9:35 PM
Sunday, March 19, 2006
My Rant about STUPID People
I'm going to rant about stupid people again. If you're not interested, no one is stopping you from clicking the "x" at the top right corner of the window. This is my last warning to you! *bites*
Did it not occur to those stupid kiddies that there are people older, wiser and perhaps 10 times more intelligent than them trying to enjoy the same game? Oh nonono, I've come to realise that its not the kids. Its the bloody parents. Thats right, I hate you parents who can't bloody educate your own children. Instead of taking them in hand, you give them loads of money to splurge on a stupid game. Thanks to your stupidity and inability to properly raise kids, I have to be constantly terrorized by these menaces who think that they own the world.
For the love of god, don't have kids if you can't fucking bother to give them the necessary care and concern. There are such things as birth control devices now you know? Its 99.9% safe (or so they claim) and it cost just $3.00 for 3! If natural selection had its way, Singapore's population will be halved by now. And that includes you stupid parents as well. I don't care if you're a successful big shot engineer/teacher/businessman/hooker/pimp. You are a bloody failure if your kid is one.
In any case, for all aspiring parents, here is a flow diagram to help you come to a decision. drew it out myself leh! Grr..
;I CREATED A SHEEP!
9:21 PM
Friday, March 17, 2006
New Layout
Superstar has left the planet and in its place, nature is revealed! *Ding Ding*
A refreshing change I hope. Kexin the queen of boredom chanced upon this blogskin and thought that it looked pretty funky. Since she has just changed her blogskin and doesn't want to risk to anger of certain individuals, she decided to customize my blog for me. I hate doing the template and stuff, so thanks to her, everything is nice and dandy! All my gratitude in the world doesn't stop me from scolding you though. Get a new hobby! A new hobby like cleaning my room would be nice, hehe.
Tomorrow, I'll probably be going night cycling with the CYAs. We'll be cycling from East Coast Park to Changi Village for Nasi Lemak and gays. teeheheee *rubs hands together in glee*
Sorry, nothing much to post today. I'm having an overdose of writing as I've been busy putting my fiction together. Meanwhile, here is a song which I'm addicted to at the moment. Its not a very new song, but all the same, its still nice. Good night, sleep tight.
;I CREATED A SHEEP!
11:28 PM
Thursday, March 16, 2006
Spring Cleaning Time
Time check: 2.46pm. Great, I just woke up. There goes my spring cleaning plans for the morning! If time could just come to a standstill.. *borrows a timeturner* I hate racing with time, cuz you will always lose. Its so futile. Anyway, spring cleaning is a term that does not exist in my vocabulary, possibly why my room resembles a pig sty that hasn't been washed for a few centuries. Kexin was comtemplating the possibilities of coming over to my house to play Maple. As I nodded away happily, I was panicking like mad inside. Sorry girl, remember the state of my room few months back when you came over? Imagine the same thing, except 10 times messier. Thats the state it is in now. I haven't got the time, or more like, haven't got the mood to pack my stuff ever since the examinations ended. Ya I'm bloody lazy. Look on the right under "Things I dislike". See the word "Sloth"? That, was meant for myself, I hate this aspect about myself but there is nothing I can do without the correct motivation.
Went downtown after the library chat session to get some stuff for someone. On my way there, SOMEONE called and asked me if I wanted to watch a free movie. I snapped up the offer at once and rushed down from Great World City to Shaw Tower. I caught bus 16 when I realised that this bus could go direct to Shaw Tower! As I happily patted my imaginary back, my joy turned to sorrow when I realised that the stupid bus was travelling in the opposite direction. No choice but to execute Plan B, that was to take an MRT to Bugis and run like a madwoman down Tan Quee Lan Street to Shaw Tower. Almost got knocked down by a few cars who honked like anything at me. Hey, blame the LTA for placing the traffic lights so far away from where I am!
Reached the place in one piece or two, if you wanna count my bag and I as separate entities. Kexin and Jan were waiting at Starbucks already. I bought a regular popcorn coke combo before entering this massive cinema with a screen that was too small compared to the capacity. Nonetheless, we sat down and started on the popcorn. I ordered a mix of sweet and salted popcorn as Jan liked salted and I liked sweet. Somehow I kept getting the salty ones, which were, true to their word, really bloody salty. Jan on the other hand, kept getting the sweet ones. We were both complaining about the stupid popcorn when I suggested that since we kept getting what we didn't want, we should exchange. So Jan handed me one that he picked out. It was SALTY. ARGH! Stop fooling around, god! I gave up my elusive search for the sweet popcorn soon after and concentrated on the movie instead.
The movie we watch was 2 become 1, a chinese movie featuring Richie Ren and Miriam Yeung. The movie was a lighthearted comedy with an underlying message about breast cancer, breast size, and all other things to do with the female mammary glands. Being a typical Hongkong production, it had the usual stereotypical storyline, which was tolerable at best. The movie was probably originally in Cantonese and dubbed in Mandarin as Richie Ren 'spoke' Mandarin in this ABC accent. (ABC stands for American Born Chinese btw) An enjoyable movie overall, but I wouldn't pay $9.50 to watch it on a weekend.
Went home to catch 大长今 on Channel U. Missed America's Next Top Model as I couldn't be bothered to watch it anymore. Sean called as usual around 10.30pm. I'm glad that he is happier now, but somehow I'm afraid I don't know how long this kind of happiness lasts or even still, what is the reason for this. I was walking home from Tiong Bahru MRT and on the way home, I really wondered, is happiness such a complicated concept that some people can't find it, no matter how hard they look? I believe that contentment is a sort of happiness, I believe that love will find you if you are not looking too hard for it. I guess its the way chance works. The more you try to look for it, the more it hides from you. At least if I don't expect anything, andif I do get something in return, it will be nice surprise. Learning to let go of everything to gain happiness. Such an abstract concept? I won't pretend that I'm happy, but at least I am not sad. Or am I?
;I CREATED A SHEEP!
2:46 PM
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
Going Out
Its 1.26pm and I'm still sitting in front of the com, teeth unbrushed, hair uncombed and dirty. Gotta go do all these by 1.30pm or I will be late for the 3pm library chat + tea session in SP. I wonder why is it that I'm feeling more relaxed than I have for days. Yes, there are things that are yet to be done, but when I woke up this morning, I just couldn't be bothered with it. Do I need to prove anything to anyone else other than myself? Thats the crux of the inner battle I was having with myself last night. Talking always helps, even if I'm just talking to myself.
Being in a relationship, is it really that important? The imaginary feeling of having someone you can depend on, even though you know it is not true. Being dependent on another. Being weak. Feeling insecure all the time. Is it worth all this anguish? I hate getting phonecalls from you when you tell me about how good other girls are. Do you think I am that secure of myself? Or do you think that you have provided me an adequate feeling of security based on your words and your actions. If you answered "yes" to both questions, then you are sadly mistaken.
I am not as strong as I appear to be. We are both trapped in an illusion, where we have false expectations of each other. Its been so long, I've been so weary of this fear and the comparison. Is it fair to me when you constantly compare me to others? Is it fair to me that I have to be fearful of you finding another? No, its not fair, but life isn't fair. Life is a never ending boat ride down a meandering river. If you are lucky, you get to travel in a cruise, if not, you'll just end up with a sampan. Who is to dictate who gets which? God?
;I CREATED A SHEEP!
1:26 PM
Celebrations and Realizations
Happy Birthday to Twin1 and Twin2! Although it is belated, I hope you enjoyed your birthday celebrations that we had today, just for you okay? Well, the celebrations wasn't very fancy, just a simple dinner and chitchat session later. We had dinner at Ajisen Ramen at Scotts Shopping Centre. Being the cam whore, Kexin was thrilled to discover that the restaurant had an entire panel of mirror on the wall behind where we were seated and that the twins brought their digicam. Experience will tell you that digicam + food = photos of yummy food for future reference. We then proceeded to test out various camera tricks using the mirror. The food was plentiful but since all of us had small tummies, we could not finish it. I was trying my best to finish my stuff because it was so expensive. Or maybe its just the fact that I treasure my money more now that I'm facing a financial crisis. In case you were wondering, nope, didn't make it. *smiles*
Due to all of us being jobless and on a tight budget, we opted to go to Macs for a post dinner talking cock session. We just sat there and talked, mostly about Maple and sex. Someone said something like, SP develops superstars but NYP makes pornstars. Its mean, but it is kinda funny. Okay, I have a weird sense of humour. Whatever the case, I had a great time at Orchard today, thanks guys and girls!
Speaking of Orchard, I've been going there quite frequently and I'm wondering why are there more people nowadays wearing a disgusting combination of pink and orange? Thats just so totally yuck. Its bad enough that I see an alarming increase in the number of people clad in pink from head to toe and I'm talking about pink hairclip, pink earrings, pink jacket, pink pants (she tailor made it or someone actually retails pink pants?!) pink shoes and pink bag to complete the ensemble. I know my fashion sense is nothing to scream about, but seriously. SERIOUSLY!
Besides my morbid fascination with people and their fashion, I've come to realise that I'm wasting my time this holidays! *sigh* Time to buy newspapers tomorrow and look for a job. Results are coming out on the 22nd. Not looking forward to it at all. I know its a short entry, but my mind is in too much confusion to actually post anything sensible.
To my friends studying abroad and in National Slavery, tonight is a night where I dedicate my thoughts to you. Whenever you're feeling dejected or just plain tired of everything, I hope that you will remember that there is someone here in Singapore whose thoughts will always be with you.
To everyone who has touched my life, classmates, friends and lovers please forgive me for my wrongdoings and lets look onwards towards the future. This is a song that I would like to share with all of you, sing along if you know the tune. The lyrics are especially meaningful. You can listen to the song here:
http://www.haoting.com/htmusic/63323ht.htm
Enjoy.
Our Lives by The Calling
Is it love tonight
When everyone's dreaming
Of a better life
In this world
Divided by fear
We've gotta believe that
There's a reason we're here
There's a reason we're here
'Cause these are the days worth livin'
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
See the truth all around
Our faith can be broken
And our hands can be bound
But open our hearts and fill up the emptyness
With nothing to stop us
Is it not worth the risk?
Is it not worth the risk?
'Cause these are the days worth livin'
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
Even if hope was shattered
I know it wouldn't matter
'Cause these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
We can't go on
Thinking it's wrong
To speak our minds
I've gotta let out what's inside
Is it love tonight
When everyone's dreaming
Can we get it right?
Can we get it right?
'Cause these are the days worth livin'
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
Even if hope was shattered
I know it wouldn't matter
'Cause these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
;I CREATED A SHEEP!
1:16 AM
Monday, March 13, 2006
Limit Break
Gosh, I haven't slept for almost 36 hours and I can't believe that I actually survived going out to orchard for the entire day. Met Kexin in the morning to pass her make up. Unfortunately, Heeren wasn't open yet so the silly girl decided to just change into her t-shirt in front of N.Y.D.C. After changing her clothes, it was time for makeup! Without a mirror however, it was hard for her to do it. In comes the good friend cum awful part-time makeup artist! 2 idiots standing in front of N.Y.D.C, putting on makeup. Hahaha, thank god I'm super thick skinned or I would have bolted long ago.
Soon, Kexin went off to start work and I headed off alone to Burger King at Cineleisure for some scrummyliciously delish croissant'wich with ham. The stupid me forgot to bring BK coupons, so I had to buy the more expensive version with a tiny cup of ice Milo. After eating, I felt so terribly sleepy and attempted to fall asleep, all the while smsing my dear jie Kristy, who wanted to come to town and get her friends some birthday presents. Just went I fell asleep, I felt someone hug me. OMG! Nah, its just jie, who had just arrived. We headed to Long John Silver, where she had lunch, some funny meal with 3 pathetically small pieces of prawn. We went up to "More than Words" to look around. Jie commented that her friend was a really traditional pragmatist, so he asked for a pen, which could be used. Browsing through the pen section, I saw this pink coloured pen with like 8 different colours and a mechanical pencil. Jie decided to get it for him, just for laughs since it was rather cheap. Sadly, she didn't buy the pink coloured one with kitten designs all over but opted for a blue one instead. She got another lovely pair Angel earrings for another friend and then we went off to Marina Square, where we had planned to meet Sue jie.
My shoes were killing me by then, so imagine my happiness when I saw ripple flipflops at Ig's Heaven where we were shopping for gifts. Yeah its the 2nd pair of flipflops I got this week, but you can never have enough flipflops. I could basically hear my feet sighing in relief as we headed over to GV to check out if they had Brokeback Mountain. Hot guy on guy action! Woot! We were disappointed to find out that there wasn't any movies available so we decided to just chill somewhere. There was a nice comfy lounge at GV so we just sat there, watching trailers. The Ice Age 2 trailer was awesome! I just simply love that wacky nutjob of a squirrel and his obsession with his acorn. Hilarious! Needless to say, I fell asleep for almost half an hour, in front of all the movie goers. It wasn't until Sue came when I woke up. Sue was super hungry, so we headed to Genki Sushi downstairs to grab a bite.
Well, lets just say that the experience wasn't very good. First, the lady who served us was kinda rude, her tone seems to be implying that we can't afford to eat here. Then, they forgot our bloody orders. Poor Sue jie was so hungry, she kept on ordering sushi. Naturally, Kristy jie wasn't too happy about it and she told us about stories where she plain terrorized rude staff. I particularly liked the one where she was in the Gold card line at GV and the staff went, "Sorry, this line is for Gold card holders only." Kristy just saw red, but kept her cool and went, "You're right, I don't have a Gold card, but I have a Platinum card and I want to see your manager." Isn't that just SO cool?? Way to go!
We got into our girl talk mode as usual and traumatised the family behind with our sex talk. Hey, your kid will learn about the birds and bees soon, so stop staring at me to tell me to shut up! The topic moved on guys and stuff and having just watched Lovers in Paris, I can't help but feel that every guy should aspire to be an ideal man. But first, what is an ideal man? Ki Joo! Sorry, but its true. *swoons* Okay, I'm officially in love with an on-screen character, somebody please shoot me. I like my man to be assertive, confident, possess strength of character, gentle, gentlemanly and masculine, with just a little touch of shyness. Rich is a plus point, good looks are not necessary, as long as he looks dignified, thats good enough.
On the way back, Kexin asked me to bring a change of clothes for her. I reached home, packed everything and fell asleep on the floor. I'm kinda worried for her honestly, cuz staying at Orchard isn't a very safe thing to do, even in a group. I tried calling her to find out if she was still around but she didn't answer my phone at all. Stupid girl, dont know what she is doing. Pick up my phone you baka! Grr!
;I CREATED A SHEEP!
3:13 AM
Saturday, March 11, 2006
Lovers In Paris
I finally got my paws on this korean drama! I know I'm slow and that it is already showing on channel U. However, I prefer to watch dramas at my own time, own target so as to slowly savour the plot and the characters. I've just finished watching the first disc and it has already been very promising, no wonder my aunts and my mum are so hooked on this one. Its even better than Winter Sonata! Hmm, okay, so both are kinda appealing in their own way. I have to say that kdramas have a MUCH better storyline in general as compared to jdrama. I can still remember how furious I was after watching the last episode of Love 2000. On the other hand, kdramas are serious tear jerkers. Another 19 discs more to go! 19 hours more of kdrama marathon! Whee!
Tissue box - checked
Filled water bottle - checked
Back up generator and UPS - checked
Lights off - checked
Pillows - checked
Full blast ahead...!
Okay, I just "scanned" through all 20 discs and as a result, I'm still awake at 6.30am. Well, I did plan to sleep, but as it reached 3am, I decided that I will definitely be late to meet Kexin tmr at 9am. The things I do for my friends! hahaha! So 伟大 right? I will definitely rewatch it properly the next time. *sigh* The story started out great, but once the other guy came in, I just couldn't watch him anymore. I skipped through all the parts that included him and only watched the parts that were more exciting and the Ki Joo - Tae Young moments.
In the entire show, even though it focuses a lot on the love triangle, it just doesn't seem to fit. Compared to Winter Sonata, Lovers in Paris seems more like a normal relationship with an infatuated 3rd party whose sole intent is to sabotage the relationship. Right from the beginning, it was fairly obvious that Tae Young only treated the other guy (Sorry, I dont even remember his name) as a friend. Even when he knew that, he couldn't accept it because hey, it doesn't matter what the girl thinks, as long as I like her, I will fight for her. BULLSHIT. If she doesn't like you, back off. If its not meant to be, it won't be. Too bad life sucks for you. He is a pitiful sort of character, but somehow the way he tries too hard to woo Tae Young puts me off. Since when can you force someone else to reciprocate your feelings anyway? We are talking about the matters of the heart here buddy, not just a game of monopoly.
Basically, this kdrama has almost the same plot and character outline as most of the romantic dramas out there: Tragic female lead, rich male lead, scheming family who usually owns a company, devious 3rd parties for both the female and male lead. Halfway through, I really thought I was watching Stairway to Heaven because the other guy in Stairway is also the son of the company. The scenery was excellent though, Paris is a great place! The music complemented the different scenes perfectly, a total visual and aural enjoyment.
Did I mention that I love the couple! They are cute together, even though the guy isn't the typical boyish looking handsome boy that most kdramas have. He is just so suave and gentlemanly, my mum was right in saying that its a fairytale come true kind of story, because such men don't exist in reality. Oh, and I'm like, really, fascinated with his dimple in one cheek! Everytime he smiles I can't help staring at him. I used to think that dimples weren't such a big deal, but I think I'm half wrong. Its not a big deal for girls, but dimples on guys, now thats a killer. One sided dimples are soo sexy too! Okay, I'm way off track, but can you blame me? He is the ideal guy and I think the majority of females will agree. Rich, smart, a little shy, plucky, cute, suave, gentlemanly... the list goes on. He just oozes this sort of nerdy sex appeal(I know it sounds really wrong).
I don't think I need to add on anything else about the girl since there is nothing not to love about the girl. Even the clothes they wear in the show are rather nice, except for the polka dotted clothes after they got engaged. Looks like what my mum wore back when I was 5 years old. They acted well too, the bad girl managed to get me to hate her, just like the other bad girl in Stairway to Heaven.
The only thing that I thought could have been improved was the interaction between Tae Young and Ki Joo. Even though its part of his character, does he really have to act so wooden around her even after declaring that he is wooing her? I'm looking for more heart wrenching dialogues and more touching words, maybe a few more kisses. And is it just me or what, but their kisses look so fake. Its not really a "kiss" kiss but a "let-me-press-my-lips-on-yours" kiss. Argh! Come on! Keeping it chaste is one thing, but invoking the passion is another. Its a drama! Even anime has more realistic kisses than that. Hence, for the romance factor, I still think the Stairway to Heaven's was way superior.
I think there is something that korean women like about being treated roughly by the guy. Oh, I have stars in my eyes cuz my guy is physically dragging me away from a confrontation. I guess they like their men really manly or something like that. I think its quite nice though, in the case of kdramas, rough men usually are over protective of their girls. How I wish that I was over protected by my bf.. *stares at Mike* There was these 2 scenes in particular where Ki Joo punched two different guys for manhandling Tae Young. Him, a prominent businessman resorting to fist fights just for a girl. In an odd way, I find that really really really touching. *swoons*
Also, the way they proclaim love is super duper cute. I almost died laughing I swear. Maybe its because in Singapore, its something like "wanna be my stead" and the girl agrees. Its just so totally plain, boring, unimaginative and bleh. Yeah, I can just hear you guys screaming, "BUT IT IS NOT LIKE I'M ASKING FOR HER HAND IN MARRIAGE WHAT?" So what? Looking through my rose coloured glasses, that is the perfect love fairytale story. Which, may I emphasize again, will NEVER IN A MILLION YEARS happen, at least to me.
As an afterthought, did I mention that my favourite scene in Stairway to Heaven was when he played his white grand piano in the waters at the beach after she died? My first reaction was, "THE POOR PIANO! The wood is going to get sooo thoroughly soaked." But honestly, it was really good. I even prepared tissues for Lovers in Paris, but my eyes were totally dry throughout. Thats good and bad at the same time I guess. I promised myself I won't cry after Winter Sonata but I broke my promise after that.
I absolutely HATE shows that have the main characters dying at the end. Go to hell! I watched this so long just to see the two idiots die instead of living happily ever after? Yeah, I'm the happy ending kind of person. Maybe because I still value the result of the relationship, not just the process. There is no point being so in love with this person, having so many wonderful memories and in the end, she dies. What the heck? If I can live on memories, I can live on air too. Get real, memories hurt much more than the actual thing, because you are painfully aware that these are the only links that you have with her who is currently buried 6 feet under.
I played Maple after watching kdrama with these guys whom I met last night. He is possibly the most mature 17 year old I've EVER came across, not just in Maple but even in real life. For starters, he doesn't tYpE lIkE tHiS. I don't know how did girls get it into their heads that typing like a retard who can't spell is cutesy.
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9:39 PM
Girls Talk
When you're feeling down and out, nothing can lift your spirits up like a good round of therapeutic girls talk. I'm thankful that I have such a great friend that I can share my troubles and joys with. Yesterday, we went down to Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf at Forum, just to sit, chat and talk about everything in the world, including boys, games, relatives, school, future and sex. Haha, well, not really sex as in sex but.. nvm, you get the point. *smiles innocently* She ordered a hot chocolate and a Chicago cheesecake while I took on a large sized Caffe Latte and a raspberry cheesecake. Its amazing how much chocolate powder and milk people put into their coffees. Sitting by the refill station, I was astonished at the amount of sugar intake some people are taking nowadays. *shakes head* Their life I guess, still.
After sitting there for hours, we decided to take a walk down, all the way to Meridian where I bought some green slippers for 13 bucks, which I had initially thought was around 6 bucks. Ah well, doesn't really matter, as long as its below 15, I'm fine. Time flies, and it was not long before I had to go off to pick up my silly cousin, who hasn't learnt to get home from school yet. In all honesty, I really think that she is a little spoilt. It takes time, and a learning spirit. No use complaining, she'll learn, even if it means taking the hard way like I did.
I know that this is kinda random but bear with me. I've been terribly confused, so to speak, about what to do with my life. A million what ifs and only 1 real possibility. Will blog again later, till then.
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12:38 PM
Friday, March 10, 2006
Cheating
Last night, I was kinda bored, so I went around searching and reading blogs of some of my classmates. During which, I found out that some of them were not too happy about the cheating going on in school during our tests and examinations. I found it a rather intriguing topic as they expressed how helpless they felt when the test marks did not accurately reflect the capability of certain students and how unfair it was for those who really wanted to use the test as a gauge of how good they are.
In any case, since when was life fair? I believe many of you have learnt at an early age that life is never fair and in the end, it is what you make out of your life that really matters. I confess, that initially, I was pissed off with the rampant cheating. I have studied so hard for the subject and another person who cheats can get good marks too. What is the point? Well, the point is, does it really matter so much who gets the same marks as you as long as you have done your best and have achieved your set target for the test? Its easy to be discouraged by all the negativity surrounding you, but what matters most is whether you have actually done all that you could to excel in the subject matter.
In any case, I admit that I do participate in these cheating sessions. However, cheating, usually composes of 2 types of people: The ones who copy and the ones who they copy from. As long as I fall into Category number 2, I'm personally not too concerned about the cheating. They can copy from me if they so wish, I studied for the test, I possess the information, I don't mind sharing it. Simple, end of story. In the end, the diploma certificate that is given is still printed using the same type of paper and the same type of ink. The value behind it, however, is something that only you can determine for yourself.
In the end, there is no point bitching or moaning about things like this, cuz everybody cheats, sooner or later. Thats why there are office politics. In a competitive society such as ours, results is all that matters. Thats why they like to parade the top scholars every year like some sort of trophy. Thats why schools are even ranked, in accordance to their performance at the O's or the A levels. A group of people will always have the upper hand. They may have the ability to take away your fruits of labour, but they cannot take away your spirit.
I was talking to Sean on MSN last night and he too, was feeling jaded about the opportunities we have here in this country. He is going into NS next Saturday and he is considering signing on with the army, because armed with a diploma alone, he will probably not be able to find a stable job that pays you the wages which you deserve.
I have to say that I agree with his views. Just look at how difficult it is for poly grads to get into a local University in Singapore. We can never compete with the A level students on the same platform. Why? Because A level students can't go to work with just a A level certificate whereas we diploma holders can. Therefore, they need to give more chances to the A level students. In essence, we have signed our death warrants the moment we decided to sign up with a polytechnic. Should we decide to go to work instead of furthering our studies, we'll still end up below the JC turned University grads on the corporate ladder without the necessary paper qualifications. As I say, there are always exceptions, but how many? I'm bitter about this, because as I get closer to graduation, I can distinctively smell the pungent odour of discrimination in the workplace emanating. During my attachment at an undisclosed local company, we worked together with Uni students. However if anything goes missing, blame it on the poly students. If we're a little too noisy in their opinion, complain about the poly students. Now that is our life. Fairness? An idealistic concept which is used as a benchmark for commoners to find out how fucked up their life really are.
Its hard to keep the depressing thoughts out of my head when I'm living in this kind of environment. Yeah, I know that the discrimination may be 10 times worse in other places and that Singapore is still the best place to live, according to some people. Sometimes I just wonder how many chances are there for people who chose to take an alternate route to go through life. Its astonishing how brand concious people can be. Even academic institutions have brands! When I told them that I was from SCGS, 9 out of 10 people thought that I am definitely the smart type. When I tell them now that I'm from SP, 9 out of 10 people thought, "Oh, just another poly student." So what if you had 266 for PSLE and 18 Distinctions for your polytechnic? Same calibre of results, but brand still matters.
If you were an employer or an interviewer, compare a person who has been through "RGS-RJC" and compare it to "Neighbourhood school-Polytechnic", which of the two would you think is more successful? I think the answer is obvious, even for me, because thats the way it has been brainwashed into our minds since we were wee little kids and thats the way its going to stay. Life is just a farce, so just do your best for yourself. You can do everything in your power to prove it to everyone that you're not a pushover, but ultimately, you are only accountable to yourself.
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11:32 AM
Thursday, March 09, 2006
Melancholy
Its 12.42am now, Mike should be somewhere on the plane, waiting for it to take off. Destination Japan. Its times like this where I feel terribly alone. Japan, where technology exists on a higher platform. A place where he is uncontactable without a 3G phone for a whole 10 days. Its like an alternate universe, where time slips past you quietly, yet you're the only one who is painfully aware of it.
The holidays have made me more melacholic and I honestly have no idea why. I've been re-reading my Shakespeare novels and Memoirs of a Geisha. Mapling takes up too much of my time and I really am not in the mood to play MS anymore. I think my priority right now is to get myself OUT of the house for a change. The whole couch potato thing stops right here, right now.
Tomorrow I'm going to swim with Kexin for a while, then go fetch my cousin from school. robably head over earlier to use the gym to do some walking on the tread mill since I've injured my leg and can't do strenuous exercises. My crazy cousin probably brought her bed together with her on her field trip because I don't understand how on earth is her bag so heavy that she can't carry it home alone herself? Ah well, in any case, I get to see and berate her in person. *grin*
I hope I find a job soon anyway! *crosses fingers* Wherever u are, my blogger is always open for you to post >.< I'm waiting..
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11:42 PM
Sunday, March 05, 2006
First Class Honours in Slacking
Examinations have ended on Tuesday and yet here I am on Saturday, room still as messy, floor still as unclean and my dad's car still unwashed. I have been slacking for so many days. I did not even realise that today was Saturday until Michael told me in the early morning that he was coming over and I said "don't you have to work today?" I've felt so tired during the entire semester and now that I have a break, I am really letting myself nua in front of the computer all day long, just like old times. *smiles*
So, who cares if I am slacking right? Well, firstly, I have a couple of activities coming up and I really need to get down to work. I need to find a part time job to cope with my expenses. I need to attend certain discussion and chat sessions to fulfil my part as a "Model Student Award Winner" *yes jewl, stop rolling your eyes* And lastly BUT most importantly, I need to lose weight. *grin*
I guess I'm really a terrible procastinator after all and I just can't seem to learn from my mistakes. Why? Because it is easier this way I guess. I think it is the way I was programmed and it takes too long to debug the system.
Anyway, enough whining! School's out, and I've never felt so free as before! Hail the sweet scent of liberation! I am, from now on, free from the shackles of the education system for the next 3 months at least. Sometimes when I think about how much misery I've been through, I really feel that Singapore isn't where I would like to live in future. I have thought about living in foreign lands, but the fact remains that my family is here. And I am not just concerned with my immediate family. As much as I would like to, I don't want to leave my family alone here in Singapore. Foreign Universities are indeed, pretty attractive to me, but I just don't have the capital to go there. *sigh* Financial difficulties.
Okay, I shall end my post here. Too lazy to blog. No mood. I promise I will come up with higher quality stuff. Bleh!
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12:16 AM
Friday, March 03, 2006
Maple Story and my Thoughts
I've never really enjoyed 2-d games, but alas, due to unforseen circumstances, namely a viral attack on my computer, I am now unable to open certain applications on my PC. The most unfortunate thing is that my game of choice, jflyff, is listed as ONE of those certain applications. (Doesn't life really like to do this to you at times?) Except for DOD and CS, which I am not particularly euthasiastic about at the moment, I am left with nothing to do save for surfing the forums on the internet and miniclips. Out of desperation, I decided to download the popular game known as Maple Story to relieve my boredom during the school holidays.
Anyway, I fired up the program and created a warrior princess who is, at the moment, level 2x. My classmates, major maple addicts, were instrumental in maintaining my interest in this game. Without their guidance and help, I would probably have sank into a depression which would result in getting my computer kicked repeatedly until it resembled a smoking black box with an accompanying orchestra of scrap metal.
Just for the benefit of those who have not touched Maple Story before: This game is FULL OF KIDS. And I do not mean kids as in immature teenagers. I mean kids as in children who have not yet sat for their PSLE examinations. Now, I'm not a big fan of kill stealing, which is why the first thing with irked me incessantly was the rampant killstealing done by both high level and low level characters. Throughout the 3 days which I spent playing Maple, only ONE person had the courtesy to apologize for kill stealing my monster. ONE. Thats statistically like, 0.0001% of the Maple population. I tell you, I almost cried when I saw that, HOORAY! There is hope for humanity.
Don't get me wrong, Maple story is a simplistic game which, if given enough time, I may be able to grow into it. Its just that the general intelligence of the people whom I have had the misfortune of encountering are basically, lazy and thoughtless babies who are not afraid of admitting it. Since when did Singaporean children degrade into such bumbling imbeciles? (Generalization I know, as long as you know that there are exceptions no matter what.) Some interesting things to note: Maple has 20 channels. Changing between channels takes no more than 5 seconds. Yet, why do I still see people invading my hunting spot, killstealing my monsters and telling me to "change channel pls"? Failure to comply with said kid's instructions will result in a slew of hokkien vulgarities that *LOL* isn't spelt correctly.
Just 15 minutes ago, I was happily murdering piggies when a low level guy started fighting alongside with me. I was pissed that he was killstealing me (as usual) so I moved to the OTHER side. After 5 minutes, he came up with this piece of genius:
Kiddo: Pls cc. Can?
Me: Why don't you do it?
Kiddo: I'm hunting for something.
Me: All channels have the same thing.
Kiddo: ... I like this channel.
Me: Aren't you just being lazy?
Kiddo: yea
Me: You know, in the time you took to type "cc pls" you could have changed channels already.
He stuck around a little bit more and then, realising that I wasn't going to budge, he decided to change channels. Personally, I do not mind changing channels, but why should I for your convenience? I was here first and you can either live with it and stick to your part of the map or change channels. And can't you even spell "change channel" instead of cc? How the hell am I supposed to know what's cc? Curry Chicken? Command Console? In true reflection, the failure of children nowadays to differentiate between internet lingo and proper english language marks the extent in which kids are exposed to the evils of the internet. Yes, the internet can be a great tool for research and information. Yet, akin to a double edged sword, there are also no barriers to pornographic material and bad influences. The internet is to be used responsibly for kids who have the right mindset and parents should take that into account instead of allowing them to indulge in their exorbitant net activities.
I was browsing the Maple story official forums and I came across people saying that young children are spending hundreds of dollars buying ingame items. Needless to say, I am not surprised, just disappointed in the way some people allow their kids to spend money in such a careless manner when they have not even learnt the true value of money. Naturally, these are the kids who will never need to work for a single cent and will grow up with the mindset of a spendthift. I have always disapproved of my aunt buying Maple story and habbo hotel game cards for my young cousins. Thats because I have been through obssessive gaming before and once they reach that stage, they would no longer be interested in school or something more productive other than sitting in front of a box and staring at their decorated 2 dimensional character.
I can sense the gap between the 85/86s and the 87s. Seriously, it is a scary trend to behold. The IT kids. People who grow up looking at computers instead of books and field trips. People whose idea of entertainment is a PC game and not hopscotch and skipping rope. People who are proud of being lazy worms and would rather not eat than to walk to the kitchen and cook themselves a pack of noodles, all the while complaining to their friends about how their maid and their parents are starving them and neglecting their welfare. I don't care whether it is generalization or not, but kids nowadays like to be waited upon. The presence of maids within the households have intensified that kind of reliance on others, so much that it shows, even when I play with these kids on a multiplayer internet game.
"Hey, I know I got here later but I really am too lazy to cc so would you pls do me the favour?" Fuck off.
Part II
Okay I just got off the game again as I was just bumming around looking at the cash shop for the prices. Then, I decided to head off and get some quest item from some insanely hyper bubble looking monsters. So, as I was training, a level 44 wizard came to me and asked me to party him. After much persuasion, I agreed. I didn't know why the heck he wanted to party me because it doesn't make sense and I'm not accustomed to leeching experience points from others. Anyway, player1 who happened to be in that location as well saw our exchange and begged the highbie to train him as well. That dude, being a nice guy, agreed.
So, we set out on "the quest to leech as much exp as possible while doing as little as we could" player1, lets call him brat, wasn't happy with the places that the highbie brought us to. He kept insisting that highbie bring us to other places. So, after walking for god knows how long and going all the way to Ellinia, he finally decided on a satisfactory place. On the way, he kept hurrying us as he had tuition *smirks* and had to afk for 1 hour.
What is the moral of the story? Brat's behaviour is totally appalling. Someone is doing you a favour, the least you could do is to be less demanding about it. They take the kindness that others offer to them for granted and choose to top it off with their own demands as well. This is why I love to antagonize these kids in the game. Sorry, I am so not the kind hearted person who is subjected to your whims. I'm not your maid, nor your poor mother. In the game, I am at the same level as you and the least you could do is to have some semblance of courtesy. Jesus christ, I shudder to think what do foreigners think about Singaporeans when they play Maple. Seriously, it was fucked up in ROSE to have arrogant Singaporeans around, but this is 10 times worse since its kid haven and by the law of sociology, if everyone is doing it, then it must be right. *rolls eyes*
Then again, I must say that there are also nice kiddos around. Kudos to you, you're minority. I have just lost faith in our education system yet against if these are the calibre of children that is being mass produced from the factory of human resources.
Oh btw, guess what? For 1 hour I gained a miserable 3% exp. I blame it not on the highbie but the @&*!^# brat who was being a total asshole. Yaa I'm elitist, sue me.
Part III
Yo! Its me again. Gosh, this MUST be my longest post yet, but who can blame me? I just realized the reason why I keep playing maple now even if I don't really like the game. Its the kids! Thats right, the very people whom I bitch about all day long (today).
Just to share my most recent encounter today. So, I went back to piggieland after dinner, but I really wasn't in the mood to train because I just died. Changing channel didn't yield any results either as piggieland was jam packed with people. Anyway, I happened to change to Channel 13 and I saw that there wasn't anybody on the left side. As I slaughtered my way through the porkypigs, I saw this magician on the other side. Okay, fine, I prepared to change channels after 1 last kill when suddenly, a magic bolt sped its way towards my pig, frying it to a crisp before my very eyes. *WTF?* I tried another pig. Before I could deal the finishing blow, in came another bolt of magic, turning the pig into another cute piece of ham. I walked towards that guy, and gave him the "-__-ll" emoticon. It was then he said the very thing that I'm hypersensitive to: "cc".
Okaay. So, I'm not really in the mood to play anyway, and I was really quite pissed with this little boy. The following conversation ensued:
Boy: cc
Me: I don't care, I'm not really in the mood to level anyway. I think I'll just stay here to antagonize you since you like to ks so much.
Boy: ...
Me: ^_^ *goes about hitting pigs while he ksed all of them*
Boy: Warrior suck! (yeah yeah whatever!)
Me: ^_^ *lalalalas*
Boy: ... *changes channel*
Damn, he gave up too fast. So, I went back to killing piggies, wondering which channel will he be in. But ladies and gentlemen, thats not the end of the show! After about 15 min, here comes kiddo again! Not one to waste any time, I striked up a conversation with him.
Me: hello ^^
Boy: ... *begins killing pigs but makes sure not to ks me*
Me: You're 12 years aren't you, if 93 in your nickname means 1993.
Boy: 13. you?
Me: I'm 21.
Boy: don bluff. (WTF? Since when 21 yr olds can't play this game?)
Me: Want me to show you IC?
Boy: ... Why are you playing this game?
Me: I dunno, cuz I'm bored?
Boy: Are you really 21 years old? o.O
Me: If you choose to believe me then I am. I am 21, do you believe me?
Boy: ya.
Me: ^_^ *lalalas*
Boy: Can I add you as friend?
Me: haha sure.. Here, take this. Make sure that you don't ks others anymore k? *gives him an ore* I'm going off, bye!
Boy: *continues his mindless slaughter of pigs*
Ahh see? Happy ending! I admit I'm a bloody bitch, but seriously, maple is damn boring if your friends are not online and if there are too many damn kids annoying you. I'm not such a bad person afterall right? Okay, I'm still playing the damn game, so there may be part 4. I didn't level at all today! I'm a good girl. *winks*
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2:12 PM
