My LiFe

after knowing how easily is to access to ma blog...i guess i should only write my daily stuf... ^^

well... i fell sick...and i bought a notebook to drote down my interesting journey of life ^^ im gonna combine all puzzle and find the real answers this time! i wont give up... coz...私の使命

i almost forgot why i was born!!! ish! now tat i rmb thanks to roxanne tat triggerred me... i hope... im still in the right path ><

next will be tat i finally bought the shana anime to watch XDDDDDDDDD im waiting for zombie loan bought by kah lee ^^ kahlee... thanks... u let me through the deeper side of u~ ^^ gambatte!

today is a special day for me... when i dunwan anyone to read this or if u can xDDD try it XD coz i wanna test my future self on this ^^

私は心の中で誰かを持っている, 一部の人々が知っているかもしれない, いくつかは... しかし、それは私の心の中にある同一人物ですか？ seriously...when i type mind-it turn out to be heart -.- okie...

しかし...それは大丈夫です...それはだから...私はあなたを好きなら、私は本当にいけない知っている 苦し, 苦しよ...誰が私を助けて！


なぜあなたはそんなに気にする？あなたは私の最初の鎖を断ち切る！
4つ以上残って、それを保つために願っています ... あなたが違反した場合の3つ...
そして... イムが失わ


絶対守る...
私は信じている...
あなたは私に貴重されていること...

ニコル...永々... 私の希望

だって...わかる...アナタの和の琴愛してる

日、私は最終的には再びあなたに会うまで、私はすべての事柄に耐えられることを私の希望 ^^

私が知っている...誰かを愛することは容易ではない... hahaahha im awesome! ^^ however info is soooo kelam kabut... if i hav time then i shall write a nicer one ^^

its been awhile since i update my blog and i feel its miserable... theres sooooo many tat is going on, wats fun and not is all happening right infront of me everyday every minute! how can I just drote down everything and catch up? how can I write everyday and let the old me to read? [If im lucky and could get old tat is XD]

its sooo sad tat i came back looking at my last post is for ASSIGNMENT purposes!!!! T.T i relli wanna cry, where had my passion and exthusiasm went? will it ever come back? more like... blog... is something tat everyone can see... and do I want people to relli check on me? not really, coz most of it is EMO XD happy time had went through together with our loves ones... so wats left to be told normally would be the sad ones...

nevermind those... lol~ my concerns... is tat these days i had very complicated intuition~ or feelings... frequency... wat does it mean? i often hear frequency in my own room... this time is left ear wor... is it tat inside me theres tooo much electrons to be discharge? and tat these electrons actually had outer source connection and cause my left ear to be deaf for a moment? if not then wat? hopefully not tat im sick~ >< if not then... its on the spiritual sense? haiz.... i dun even know wat im saying!

oh well.... staying at my popo house without going bac for weeks has relli changed my lifestyle ... not alot but still.... i have been feeling sienz alot.... and bored and thinking alot!!!! U_ U i dun like thinking because overwhelming my head with info will corrupt my brain esspecially at night! i cant sleep T.T sad la!!!! tak nak!!!

and then.... i wanna say tat i took up a few of my frens' fortune and check them out... it seems tat its normal... since its all phases tat everyone needs to undergo... whether its happy or not. oh well... i guess its like wat in the BTMI [or wat is it called again?] said tat i will sacrifice for wat i wanna achieve for the future~ true... hahah eventhough it semi applied on this last statement only...

to my friends! i wish for the best in you! I wish for the happiest day in ur life!
to my family! i wish for the best for you too! I wish i could do more to make you understand how i really appreciate you!
to the special you! i wish you for the best indeed! I wish i could do something to make you feeel even the slightiest bit of happiness ^^
missing all of u... pray for the best for all of you... be happy~ always be the happiest!

"to be a clown and make ppl happy = suppose to be done, to make ppl feel sad=sin" somehow heard from a radio station AIFM la~

lastly... just to shout to you!!!! 私傾くは今会えて待つ

wat is it? I wanted to remind myself~ today I feel uncomfortable~ as if something? someone is on the other side of me thinkin of me~ im just uncomfortable~ it cause my 7th sense to work[somethign flowin out-sama dgn the time i feel the QI in me~ when i see others aura surrounding them]~ ok this is lame but i saw this small seed floating in between my hands~ its sooo small~ its in a diamond shape~ its semi transparent cause it reflect the colour oof my cupborad~ i know...ask me go write a story right!!!! but who else in this world sense any of this? either u will find me? or will i meet u? U.U who has it! i consider this an inherit sense of reading microexpression, we sense even without reading those think analytic books~ so wat is this? who believe me for wat i say? who will not critisize me n say im crazy? i need to come bac to reality? am i relli SIAO liao? T.T then i think i hav peter pan syndrome XDDD stay in Netherland~ and didnt come bac yet~ SO MATRIX! ok nice!!!

this post... oso duno if its rellii worth to write anymore... i guess i do not have the interest to write down my everyday life liao~ this is me alright. the girl who only hangat hangat tahi ayam for certain things~ nothing relli value much in my life. i am now grumpy and easily agitated over a lil matter~ i wasnt like this b4... geting more n more likt those ppl tat i dun like~ haiz~ kenapa~ i no longer like to admit tat im wrong like i used to~ mayb i admit everything liao , bored with it so i dunwan to anymore? im getting to be bad slowly~ "suo wei xue huai 3 tian xue hao 3 nian" am i going to be bad??? i dunwan to argue with anyone especially my parents but they get on my nerve easily nowadays~ im tired of getting blames and scold~ now tat i grow up, i fight back??? haiz~ BAT HAO A LEI!!! wong lei tai gem duo hou hei, duk gem duo shu, bai shan~ jeng yat sui lui bao -.- hahhhaah oh well~ i guess im goin to hell T.T wats afterlife~ i dunwan to think of death now~ coz im scared~ i heard my frens talk death like they r not scared or care~ they r no doubt brave like when i was young, play with centipete and scorpian???!!! cari maut!!! mei!!!! mana mcm skrg, apa pun takut -.- yat ding bei yan gong fei si dai jek gem dam sai~ feifefei!!! gong dou lei dou~ i must lossssssssssss WEIGHT!!!! aRGH!!! FIGHT WITH U U STUPID FATS!!!!! how can i breath in air oso blh gemuk~ XD go ccari guiness world record la! in this post, i guess m suppose to list down wat i have lost in post for the past few weeekkkkkksssss~ erm.... i relli think alot lo~ but i cant write it all down coz i fogot MUAHAHAH i can just say tat i hav ben busy lo , I was busy passing up final projects~ u,u then suddenly i found my work on galllery screen~ tat shock me most~ i cant even believe i called cheryl tat time~ super shock~ coz i actually dun think it deserve to be there~ it feels like merely forthe sake of needing one saja~ so malu sial~ T.T aku might hav ideas but outcome ~?? HAIZ~ i dun even wanna mention~ brain tak cukup, skill tak cukup~ ISH!!!! anyhow continue after all this is holiday~ travel to penang waterfall gai gai XD and spoil my SD card thnx to u my FATHER!!!! for putting virus into my bro's com! 900++ pic~ argh! i guess i shall do it in coll coz there got mac? hm... thnx yann for trying to help~ rellli paiseh oso~ my post can relllliiiii nvr end~ latr i ent to see doc ... for my yimakuchelaiyestuff and finaly now its hurting n tired like noones business~ mom nvr iv a damn , noone actually pity me coz 1 yr~ now susah!!! u,u strength~ pls come back!!! i need to take in protein n built more muscle!!! i need to FIGHT AGAIN ~ since i cant go weng chun and i dunwan to go back taekwando~ coz malu~ so i gotta practice my own kung fu liao~ haiz~ go buy bat la~ muscle seems to be easier to built i guess than doing exercise~ LOL coz i hate runnin n back ache la~ SADDESSSST!!! backache~ when can it heal??? when??? i wanna go back to flexibility!!! moments~ past few days, i draw a figure of Joelle and i relllli love it~ but they say she doesnt looks like that~ but to me, it was the best figure i ever draw oso XDDD gonna draw another one! i need to draw yee teng too for wen hui~ cant find her pic in fb so i guess i shall draw like high school~ hopefully its nice~ i have so many things to be complete while the holidays is ending soon~ T.T im stilll tired!!! i wanna rest wei~ nowadays i super emo liao~ leng hei fong em dai a!!!! dim shun??? gayao a!!!! VERN lei hai dak ge!!!!! mou yan jichi mou siong gon wor! jigei zui gan you em hou fong hei!!! lei dou ti geng hou hou ge la! you sai dou dai dou hou ge la~ zhoi gayao la! motivation!!!! come to me pls!!!!! gong dou mei~ ngor sui yin tao nou em hou, ngor yeng, dan hai ngor tai yan hou zhun! tin sang ngor coi mou yan sun dou mou suo wei~ chi zou hei dei wui ji ge la~ gor yat i saw a dog in Jamie house besides cody n midnight~ it was small and white n fluffy~ scared me wei~ then jamie say mmg ada but put to sleep~ i saw white just like all those tat i saw was oso white~ i nvr see color in them if im not mistaken except the stairs at school last time~ eeeerie~ better not talk~ haiz~ i hope i nvr see ny anymore~ pls~ la pls~~~ n suddenly i think of that St cloud movie tat i watched swt! not my type of movie~ it was ok though~ just weird ja~ anyhow~ talkin bout this~ is first time nampak dog wei~ i was super curious why didnt midnight n cody bark??? but i heard dog can _ _ _ de~ mayb they r in the room~ i dunwan to know!!!! okok next topic~ i need to be clean pure nice to get all these ish ish~ i rmb i was bad in action n mind n mouth thus it all lost for a period~ hm.... amitabha~ OH!!! suddenly rmb!!! if someone is reading this??? THE GAME!!!! MUAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHHAHA XDDDD hope i got any of u! xD dun ask me wat is the game~ i lost it alot liao~ i need dicipline now~ be a good girl pls~~~~~ i wanna leave all arguements~ just let it be~ let evrything be n be my normal self tat dun wan to care anything~ mayb tats good? heheh sounds superb! i so bat gua~ sure long way to do tat~ the CMW games had started and malaysia got 10 medals oredi! YAY! haha DELHI's opening was nice too~ i need to find out my talent too~ but i notice tat i know almost everyhting but master of nothing~ XDD but im glad~ knowing a bit of here n there is good~ just tat when u r a mster of none~ ppl tend to look down n dun believe u~ even it happens~ n make me grumpy~ so the point i shoul be letting it be~ how to relax??? yoga? XDDDD no man! XDDDD i need to breath~~~~ n LOSE WEIGHT! i wana play my piano but i forgot the moves...has to look into the net again T..T


and i guess tats it for now! im goin mamak to lepak with my dearest poh cik n yipo!!!