13 April 2010

over..

everything is over. it should have ended 10 months ago, on the bridge, yet, blame on my innocence n naivety, i fell deeper. 10 months later, now, only got myself to blame, in e end, left with nothing but myself. still, i have to thank you, you really taught me alot, in life in relationships, both.. with u, i have experienced alot of my 'first times'. first time to actually fell in love with a guy, first time experiencing what's love, first time everyday theres someone i can talk to and rely on, first time celebrating my birthday with a guy i love, first time count down together, first time celebrating valentines, so many first times... and last but not least, first time getting hurt so deeply that nothing else could bring me back to you. even so, i have not regretted so far, without you, i wouldn't have learn so much. i thought i would take a long time to get over you, all thanks to you, made me stronger.

240808 ~ 130410
1 year 7 months 20 days
there goes my first love
so much so i wanted to cry out so much but yet i couldn't

~END~

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3:39:00 pm

09 April 2010

woah~

woah. i realise it has been so long since i last blog. about a month plus le wor. actually i'm nottoo busy till no time to blog. haha. in fact, im too free till i laze around till a habit tt moving requires more than normal energy. haha. i realise normally i will start blogging is when im not in a good mood. when im happy, i dun blog. haha. funny eh, cox im lazy to upload photos cox freaking uploader can only 5 at a time. zzz.
i need to start work soon man, using more than usual money. slacking around wasting time n money. =[
these few days just not very happy. life isn't unpredictable, actually you are the one that i can't predict. i dont know what to do what to say, just think. situated in a minefield is not fun at all, every step i go forward have to be cautious, one reckless move i will land myself in deep shit, bomb myself to death. i have no bomb shelter to stay in to protect myself, in fact my bomb shelter is u but yet... i cant find it anymore. have you shift places? or m i too dumb to find it?

~END~

♥ stucked ♥
12:06:00 pm

25 February 2010

muscleache =[

tues was BLAH's offday. so went to his house at 1 plus. intend to wake him up, intend we slp till 4 plus. HAHA. den went out to J8 to have our BREAKFAST - pizza hut =.= den to aussino to buy his NEW bedsheet n NEW pillow to match his NEW bed. =.= den after tt home sweet home. HAHA. back home is NOT sweet AT ALL =[ cox i have to be MARIA for like 1 hour. he take his OLD bed OLD fan OLD rack out den i have to wipe tt entire vicinity. i dunno how many donkey years he nv wipe it, after wiping twice with water twice with dettol, my water still turn GRAYISH, i give up, it looks clean can liao =D den after tt he put his NEW bed n NEW fan n NEW bedsheet. was surprise he din ask me help him put his bedsheet, but when i walk in e room, haix... expcted.. i've to help him ADJUST the bedsheet, means i help him put in other words. =.= den after tt his pillow bolster all those, I BAO GA LIAO! hai... pai mia.. after tt sibeh tired, went out to eat TWISTER FRIES =D wnet home nua awhile fell aslp. surprisingly, i din slp well n woke up damn bloody early, cox i have a BUSY dream man, i got CHASED by like TWENTY OVER PPL. wtf. freaking tired dream la. running n running man. =[
ok. den today went to ask for my viewty smart. WTF!!!! singtel n starhub do not carry this model. den wherelse?! WHERE?! fed up. =[
~END~

♥ stucked ♥
12:20:00 am

21 February 2010

BACK!

back from KL. first thing... meet BLAH! haha. went to courts to choose HIS bed cox he say 我有份slp on it, so i must try also -.- stomach in GREAT pain but stilll.. have to pei him walk here n there. came back from KL indeed have grown from o to 0 to O. see the diff in size? haha. actually is from o to 0 nia but cox zhun zhun tio menses so become to O but BLAH dun believe, keep asking me dun blame on tt pile of blood. wth. depress. =[ im freaking going to slim down within a months time man! RAH! went back KL, besides eating, watching movie is the best thing i've done cox i cant shop cox theres NO SHOP for me to shop. =[ all open on like 19 onwards? wtf. stupid malaysians, freaking lazy. RAH. went clubbing the day before i came back. not really fun cox no dance floor. more of a pub den a club. but still... manage to find our fun out of boredom. haha. went home din remove makeup jiu start gambling till morning 8 plus den wnet to bath remove makeup n climb up the coach. haha. k. tts about it. photos are all in fb. lazy to upload in blogger le. take tortoise time to load man. grr.

~END~

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7:58:00 pm

08 February 2010

never got so pissed like now.

i'm utterly pissed now. never got pissed before. all the while i thought my aunt was an open-minded woman, but now... it proves me wrong to the fucking core. i know that i'm at fault for lying to her, but now, she's angry cox she got a 犯贱de niece, ME. going to bf hse is 随便，KEEP going over is 犯贱，自己送上门。oh. if i sleep around or keep going to DIFFERENT guys hse, ya i totally admit im loose. but i totally see no point in that going to bf hse 1 2 times a week is considered as a LOOSE woman. my mum even better, say i like pizza delivery, 随传随到, no later she changed, she say pizza hut at least still got money, now im like FOR FREE. oh. so she wants me to go over my bf hse n ask him to PAY me. how nice. FUCK IT. other girls CONSTANTLY going over to bf hse to stayover, they nv say anything, not only tt say she GOOD somemore. ME? only go over sit sit, im LOOSE. den they say tts other ppl's daughter, now im talking about my own daughter. dun compare. lalala~ forget it man. SUA!

~END~

♥ stucked ♥
12:58:00 pm

21 January 2010

=|

it's been a long LONG time since i last REALLY blog. haha. since i'm quite free now, so jiu blog lo. =)
have not been doing much these few weeks though, going driving lessons, shopping, working, nua-ing. tts all. yes. nth interesting. sianx. but luckily mother went back kl for like 1 weeks plus plus n of cox i FULLY UTILISE these few days to 'join' the lif tt i'm really in. haha. go out without worrying about timings curfews all those shit. haha. want to stayover jiu stayover, dun go home jiu dun go home, n did spent quite alot of time with BLAH cox he can like walk in n out my hse like freely literally. lol. after mother came back, everyday went back to the restricted ones. =S not saying im not use to it, is just... bo bian.. =.=
around 3 weeks more jiu CNY lo!!! =DDD now in the midst of looking for CNY outfits. lol. was online shopping like a crazy. AH!!! =[[[ cannot shop anymore........ unless is for CNY. haha. decided to devote my this 2 weeks to work n driving lessons. cox of the FREEDOM HOLIDAYS last 2 weeks,i have been skipping quite alot of lessons, n which explains why von start at the same time as me n she ended while im still caught in the middle. haix. but still.... i find it worthwhile~ =D hahahahhahahahahahaha.
k. basically im too restless to able to type anything anymore.

you've finally say out the word that i never wanted to hear.

for this, i made my point to regain back to before, when i'm still studying.

i told myself : i can do it back then, i don't see why i can't do it now. but.... still.. it's easier said than done.

i hate myself for being too free while other frens are still busy with their work/school.

and so i've no one else to turn to except you, but yet, our feelings are not mutual, i'm contented while you feel constrained.

seriously, i'm totally at lost.

i'm really trying very hard now to occupy myself with things so as to not meeting u.

i'm really trying. very hard. .

~END~

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9:50:00 pm

02 January 2010

TOUCHED ~_~

I do swear that I'll aways be there

I'd give anything and everything

and I will always care

Through weakness and strength

happiness and sorrow

for better or worse

I will love you with every beat of my heart

From this moment

life has begun

From this moment

you are the one

Right beside you is where I belong

From this moment on

From this moment

I have been blessed

I live only for your happiness

And for your love I'd give my last breath

From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart

Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start

You and I will never be apart

My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live

I will love you

I promise you this

There is nothing I wouldn't give

From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love

And you're the answer to my prayers from up above

All we need is just the two of us

My dreams came true because of you...

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1:51:00 am

30 December 2009

recap~~

i notice its been a month since i last blog. HAHA. anyway nth much. start working at SLS from 10th dec. most of the days after work go eat dinner with BLAH n home sweet home n lappy n sleep. tts the routine of my past 2 weeks. haix. even so, work is still consider happy for me. =) as a char bo, there's always tons of priviledge. HAHA. =D time flies neh. i'm going to change to part time from 2/1/10 onwards. muahahaha. cox i have driving lessons. bo bian.. HAHA. big events are..... melvin's birthday, christmas eve, christmas, nana's birthday, my birthday and new year countdown. for melvin's birthday, hvn get photos from erlina they all, so nv upload. hee. he celebrate 2 days in advance in iluma de ktv. super freaking ex, n the ktv is simply a freaking FREEZER la. im shivering inside man. rah! not a very pleasant ending though tt day, birthday boy got injured. haix. den christmas eve BLAH sick, never go anywhere, go his hse take care of him.... lalala~~ den christmas i dun tink got go anywhere also. cant rmb wat did i do tt day. LOL. den my birthday celebrate the day before at cine de kbox. family celebration only called nana, baobei n lover cox others all go overseas le. haha. after family left, ask blah came. buahaha. den after tt went blah's home to sleep. woke up at 5am den cab home. why? cox of my freaking mother. =.= haix. forget it. dun wanna remember tt. rah. den on the exact day, colleagues bought a cake n celebrate with me =) quite funny, initially wanted to surprise me but in e end i saw the cake by accident. haha. cox BLAH is sick again. so after celebrating, went to his hse again. nua awhile den jiu go home le. den 28 was my offday. went to make pedicure, like a finally. hahaha. super bth my legs le la. =[ den after tt BLAH came fetch me den we go PS awhile den go orchard. went to both gucci shops bought quite alot of stuffs. wa.. din realise the pinch until i went home. LOL. din manage to buy the LV belt i wanted =[ SG no stock liao! =((( ask my cousin go overseas help me buy. buahaha. =D reach home at 10 plus. damn early hor?! haha. cox too tired liao, so gave up movie. haha. gave up dinner also. den reach home awhile later, we start regretting cox both of us are hungry. LOL. tts all for now. lalala~~ upload alittle pictures tt can be found in my lappy cox others in hard disk. next time den upload =D

i like this photo the most. hee. =D

wore this on my EXACT birthday, in e end, wear for his 2 dogs to see =.=

cox i left the komokun or watsoever monster in BLAH's hse so i brought it home today. took this before go home. buahaha.

all the birthday presents i collected so far. =)

~END~

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3:15:00 am

27 November 2009

this is hurting yet true~

nut just now ask me read this blog in xanga. it takes a little thinking though. but yet i like the way she describe. is the kind needle pricking kinda pain, slowly slowly bit by bit it hurts more. haix... but yet, this is reality. HAHA. ok it goes like this~~~

Trying to figure out love
Like it was just a game of Clue
But then again that’s all it really is

So she picked her pawn
Went from room to room
And came to realize
Every one of them
Was guilty

And unlike Clue,
Love was about finding the one
Who wouldn’t shoot a bullet
Straight through her heart
And eliminating the ones
Who would

So she opened
The little yellow envelope
Hoping to reveal
The one who might
Hold her heart more carefully
Only to find it empty

how is it? nice right? =)

another one. =D

So let me dumb it down to your level because I'm all out of patience."

"The fact that you ignored what I said and heard what you wanted to hear is a reflection on your blindness."

"I pushed you away because you pryed into my life instead of being invited."

"Go be with someone that would love you, for you. In other words, go fuck yourself."

~END~

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12:47:00 am

26 November 2009

phew~

wow. today was like a fun. haha. cox me n lynn went taka for interview for this recruit company. den they got 2 floor, 1 at 11 the other at 21. den first we went 21, den after tt 11 den went up 21 again. wa. den keep up n down up n down. nvm, still have to go down to change lift den take another den come up again, this is the leceh part. haha. cox we reach earlier initially intending to have brunch but den lynn very full, i very angry, so din eat. in e end went roaming around, den shun bian find lougong zai de present. haha. initially wanted to buy anna sui de perfume for her, cox got sales also. haha. but den found another better one. hee. so jiu gave up e anna sui de lo. den went in tiff & co, took a long while den paying tt time, realise my card not enough cash. zzz.. so we went for interview first den shun bian call ppl transfer me money first. haha. in e end, lover transferred me. love her loads. haha. den after e interview, went cine to walk walk den went billy bombers eat. haha. everytime me n lynn eat alot until want to puke tt kind, but very cheap cox we zhun zhun everytime go eat 1 for 1 de. haha. den after tt walk back to taka to pay the tiff & co thing den took mrt. =D i took till tpy den take cab to BLAH's hse. den nua awhile i go slp while he play com den wash bike. haha. den now im awake, playing his com cox his out to do something on his bike. im BORED~~~~ n hungry~~~ hahahhaah.
k. nth to say liao. photos time. camwhore camwhore~~~~ =D

my face is BLOATED. i dunno y. not enough slp i guess =[

using front camera. like a CUI! =[

so much more better =D

got specs n no specs rly got diff huh? =.=

i quite like this. BUAHAHA!

toilet reflect is like come with a package in camwhore. LOL.

this is call the PUFFERFISH expression -.-

look at my stupid complexion. like a freaking BAD!! =[[[ S.O.S to facial soon. RAH!

~END~

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