DEPRESSED

Thursday, May 31, 2007

depressed. sad. disappointed. angry.

some things just dont turn out the way i wanted it to be.

@ 9:41 AM

MONDAY BLUES
Monday, May 28, 2007

what is the color of monday? blue...

it is always a chore to go to work on monday. i still havent get enough of the weekends. the need to wake up early, take a train, do the daily routines at work and the ad-hoc duties make me sick. argh~ sick!!

wp was telling me about his phobia and i kind of understand what is he feeling. different people have different "dead points", so we should try to avoid them. people like to tell me their problems and i always try my best to help them. family problems, relationship problems, work problems and personal problems. i can help others but i cant help myself. haiz~ a doctor can also get sick sometimes and he cant heal himself. lol

lunch today was with the girls. kind of feeling out of place when they discussed about their work. i dont really understand what are they talking about. haiz~ this is the difference between a workaholic and a slacker. one talks about work and the other tries to avoid anything about work. q can really talk non-stop about the problems at work. i think she can write the "101 things you hate about work - for dummies". jean also can be the editor for the book. hehe.

i really cant wait for the arrival of thursday. a day when i can rest or go out with my friends. my only motivation to work this week. jia you! jia you! jia you!

@ 9:17 PM

WEEKENDS OVER
Sunday, May 27, 2007

weekend is over..

its so fast. weekend just passes so fast. before i knew it, monday is coming. oh great~ it is going to be another shit week at work. i can foresee all the misfortunes ahead. sian~

this is a meaningful story for you all..
----------------------------------------------------------------------------Mouse Story
A mouse looked through the crack in the wall to see the farmer and his wife open a package.

"What food might this contain?" The mouse wondered - he was devastated to discover it was a mousetrap.

Retreating to the farmyard, the mouse proclaimed the warning. "There is a mousetrap in the house! There is a mousetrap in the house!"

The chicken clucked and scratched, raised her head and said,"Mr. Mouse, I can tell this is a grave concern to you but it is of no consequence to me. I cannot be bothered by it."

The mouse turned to the pig and told him, "There is a mousetrap in the house! There is a mousetrap in the house!"

The pig sympathized, but said, "I am so very sorry, Mr. Mouse, but there is nothing

I can do about it but pray. Be assured you are in my prayers."

The mouse turned to the cow and said, "There is a mousetrap in the house! There is a mousetrap in the house!"

The cow said, "Wow, Mr. Mouse. I'm sorry for you, but it's no skin off my nose."

So, the mouse returned to the house, head down and dejected, to face the farmer's mousetrap-- alone.

That very night a sound was heard throughout the house -- like the sound of a mousetrap

catching its prey.

The farmer's wife rushed to see what was caught. In the darkness, she did not see it was a venomous snake whose tail the trap had caught.

The snake bit the farmer's wife. The farmer rushed her to the hospital and she returned home with a fever. Everyone knows you treat a fever with fresh chicken soup, so the farmer took his hatchet to the farmyard for the soup's main ingredient.

But his wife's sickness continued, so friends and neighbors came to sit with her around the clock. To feed them, the farmer butchered the pig.

The farmer's wife did not get well; she died. So many people came for her funeral, the farmer had the cow slaughtered to provide enough meat for all of them.

The mouse looked upon it all from his crack in the wall with great sadness.

So, the next time you hear someone is facing a problem and think it doesn't concern you, remember -- when one of us is threatened, we are all at risk.

We are all involved in this journey called life. We must keep an eye out for one another and make an extra effort to encourage one another.

SEND THIS TO EVERYONE WHO HAS EVER HELPED YOU OUT AND LET THEM KNOW HOW IMPORTANT THEY ARE. REMEMBER:
EACH OF US IS A VITAL THREAD IN ANOTHER PERSON'S TAPESTRY;
OUR LIVES ARE WOVEN TOGETHER FOR A REASON.

One of the best things to hold onto in this world is a friend.

@ 10:48 PM

WEEKEND
Saturday, May 26, 2007

its a great singapore sales weekend!!!

hahah. but i havent buy anything so far. still waiting for my pay to be banked into my account. after i get my pay, it will be a shopping spree. i already have something in mind. i wanted to buy a white external hard disk, a white earphone and a funky haversack. and much much more. cant wait for my pay to be banked into my account.

friday was pc last day. so sad~ haiz.. i dont really want such a nice person to be leaving us. its hard to find another person in my team as friendly and patient as her. all of them are evil, pure evil. but we just gonna move on. this is how life should be. really hope its my turn to go. to leave this evil place. this sinful place.

i am starting to hate sd. she just like to "pick bones out of eggs". if you dont understand, please improve your chinese. muhahah~ extreme evil.

i also finished bleach episode 126. its so great! BANKAI! cant wait for 127 to come out. time to go "attack" naruto. anime forever~

saturday was pure stoneing at home. so sian~ i got a bad morning by seeing the blue screen of death for my computer. wth. its just wasnt my day. man~ i spent the whole morning to fix it. the rest of the day was stoneing in front of the computer. man~ i got to go out seriously. i am really rotting already! i am like the cave man. sobsob*

no money no talk. whens my pay coming?

@ 11:25 PM

SICK
Monday, May 21, 2007

blur visions. sore throat. feeling cold. headache. dizzy. feverish. thats what i am feeling today. SICK.

@ 9:21 PM

ITS A LONG WAITED WEEKEND
Friday, May 18, 2007

its finally weekend.. yippee~

i was just too busy at work due to fact that some of my colleagues were not in office today. so tired out. imagine you can hardly rest during the days with full attendance and now its about 2 persons lesser. i was doing the workload of 3 persons. and it almost took my life. phew~ at least, it now over. for the moment.

wp wanted to transfer to other team. thats something that troubles me. without him, its like i will be doing alot of work. its back to square one where it was like the past when the tp attachment guys werent here. i was totally stressed out. but i couldnt do anything cos i dont feel its right to force him to stay if he wasnt very happy. what matters is that he did what he felt its right. oh well~ see how it goes.

lunch today was the usual veggie rice topped with crispy fried chicken cutlet, veggie omelet and my fav curry veggie added with lots of curry sauce. mmm~ oishi~ it was also great with q's "hei se you mo". shes quite funny in the sense that what she says does sound funny. and i kept crapping around that sounded funny too i guessed. laughed until i wanna die. hahah. the only 2 persons that never contributed were rich and jen. hmm.. they only sat there and laughed, i guessed what matters is that we are all happy. thats the great thing today apart from the stressful work.

we should go to mr tea every friday to chill out. relax ourselves and crap around. i drank "oreo blast" today that has a rich taste in milo and chocolate. its milo added coco-crunch and topped with lots of milo powder. and ice-cream with chocolate on top. mmm~ oishi oishi~ =D

i gonna share this mail that i received from my best friend kj that is able to change your lousy opinion of your company:

Memo To All Employees

To all Employees:

Effective January 2006

Dress Code
1. It is advised that you come to work dressed according to your salary. If
we see you wearing Prada shoes and carrying a Gucci bag, we assume you are
doing well financially and therefore do not need a pay raise.
2. If you dress poorly, you need to learn to manage your money better, so
that you may buy nicer clothes, and therefore you do not need a pay raise.
3. If you dress just right, you are right where you need to be and therefore
you do not need a pay raise.

Sick Days
We will no longer accept a doctor's certificate as proof of sickness.
If you are able to go to the doctor, you are able to come to work.

Holiday Days
Each employee will receive 104 personal days a year. They are called
Saturday & Sunday.

Compassionate Leave

This is no excuse for missing work. There is nothing you can do for dead
friends, relatives or co-workers. Every effort should be made to have
non-employees attend to the arrangements.
In rare cases where employee involvement is necessary, the funeral should be
scheduled in the late afternoon. We will be glad to allow you to work
through your lunch hour and subsequently leave one hour early.

Toilet Use
1. Entirely too much time is being spent in the toilet. There is now a
strict three-minute time limit in the cubicles.
2. At the end of three minutes, an alarm will sound, the toilet paper roll
will retract, the cubicle door will open, and your picture will be taken.
3. After your second offence, your picture will be posted on the company
notice board under the "Chronic Offenders" category.
4. Anyone caught smiling in the picture will be sanctioned under the
company's mental health policy.

Lunch Break
1. Skinny people get 30 minutes for lunch, as they need to eat more so that
they can look healthy.
2. Normal size people get 15 minutes for lunch to get a balanced meal to
maintain their average figure.
3. Chubby people get 5 minutes for lunch, because that's all the time needed
to drink a Slim-Fast.

Thank you for your loyalty to our company. Remember we are an employer of
choice and we are here to provide a positive employment experience.
Therefore, all questions, comments, concerns, complaints, frustrations,
irritations, aggravations, insinuations, allegations, accusations,
contemplations, consternation and input should be directed elsewhere.

Management

@ 10:23 PM

RAIN
Tuesday, May 15, 2007

its raining heavily this morning. exactly how i felt today. depressed.

@ 9:50 PM

WHY I NEVER POST?
Monday, May 14, 2007

why i never post?

firstly, i am busy. busy with my anime and online gaming. i am watching bleach like mad. and of cos i am an online gaming freak. secondly, blogspot has been giving me shit problems like this whenever i wanna post something. anyway, i found a way to solve this problem.

hahah. by the way, mday yesterday was great but all the restaurants werent great. i went to my grannys place to celebrate with my uncles, aunts and cousins with catered food that came late. it costed so expensive and it wasnt even filling. my cousins and i were shouting among ourselves craps that are supposed to irritate the late delivery guy. muhahah. i treated my family canadian pizza which caused me to wait 1hr45min for my 2 medium sized pizzas. and the pizzas were so sub-standard. wts!!! so little ingredients and sauce. initially, i wanted to order from rites but i needed to wait for 2hr for the delivery. damn!!!

its monday already.. nothing great.. i hope time can past faster.. X_x

@ 9:01 PM

AMK HUB
Sunday, May 06, 2007

i went to amk hub today with kj. the shopping mall is damn small and alot of shops are still not opened yet. nothing to see and of cos nothing to buy. sian~ we then went out of the mall to shop. i found a pair of shoes at sportslink that look nice and cheap. i already added it to my shopping list for next month. then we took bus 86 back to our territory compass point. the bus ride was like shit. it should be bus 86 not ae86. the bus driver drove so fast and the road was so bumpy. and he liked to brake every now and then. kj and i felt so sick after the bus ride.
sian x 1

i received my pay for the month of april already. hooray~ it was quite pathetic. so little. on the bright side, its more than what i used to earn in army. i gonna check out with my agent on monday how much was credited to my cpf. i dont want them to cheat my hard-earn money. after setting aside a portion of my pay for my parents and a little for my sibilings, and of cos adding up my daily expenses on transport and lunches, i only left abit for myself to spend.
sian x 3

i guessed i will save them all and only spend my pay for next month..
sian x 100

@ 1:42 AM

RAINY DAY
Friday, May 04, 2007

today is a rainy day..

first thing i noticed this morning was the temperature in the office. it was so cold that the windows were all misty. not the normal cold. but extremely cold. it felt like around 14 degree. oh my god!!! i was practically shivering in the office.

i got 2 hit ko by 2 different persons in the office today. alison and sj. damn sian today. the whole day was just so down for me. my face was just so black. i was like the modern version of justice bao. and most of the time i was just working, working and more working until my whole mind gone blank and went retard, responding to any name called. i responded when someone called alison and later i responded again to "jessie".

and alison bought me a pancake which she told me after the scolding. i was like totally no mood to eat. julia bought me "kachang puteh" which i shared around.

the "eurasian bee hoon" from the ocbc food fair was just like how the army cooked the food. all dried up and just bee hoon with 3 fishcakes. i was like wth!! 2 bucks for bee hoon with 3 fishcakes? does eurasian eat bee hoon with 3 fishcakes? oh well, this will be how its like when all the bad luck is on me.

i felt to fat today. maybe its time to go the extreme way to "nirvana". see how.

tomorrow is weekend. i dont seem to be happy. can someone tell me why?

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http://world.doubutsu-uranai.com/index.html

You are Blue Monkey, who is always smiling and are extremely cheerful.
That is your selling point.
If you can keep your cheerfulness, you would be able to lead a good life.
You have a big heart and are person of broad mind.
You are also very curious, and therefore can not leave still something that you don't know.
You tend to barge into almost everything.
You are a great researcher, and want to master one thing thoroughly.
You are hard worker, and have a persistence to finish what you have started no matter what.
Nevertheless, the wish to quickly make ideals come true makes you impatient, and may lead to unpredictable failures.
You tend to have sharp temper and are little bit too self confident.
And if this character comes out, it could lead to resentment.
But don't try to fear failures.
If you follow the road, you won't have to experience failures, and you will definitely be able to gain success.
You are good at making judgment on situations.
Your strength when it comes to a showdown is fantastic.
Dedication and efforts towards work is extremely strong.
You bring up results constantly.
Although you care about the others, you have a narrow range of acquaintance, and therefore may be suited as a specialist or a researcher.

@ 10:47 PM

JUST ANOTHER WORKING DAY
Thursday, May 03, 2007

today is just another normal working day..

i was busier than usual due to the fact that i was the only clerk in my team today. work was stacking on my table and my table was damn messy. i really felt like dying. argh.. working sucks..

i think i injured my right arm. oh my god, i think my everydays exercise (100 pushups, 100 situps, 100 forward lunges and 50 dumbbells) is making my body more vulnerable and fragile than normal. i think i injured it in the morning when i was changing the water container on the water dispenser. T.T i cant even lift my arm now, i guess i will give it a 3 days mc, will have to do alternative exercises.

the boss came down to our department today. the moment the boss of our department knew the news. he started informing everyone about her arrival. then before i knew it, everyone was so busy doing something. oh my god, should i say "acting"? hahah, next time if any of you get to be a boss and are going for inspections, remember to ask the busiest guy in the office what is he doing, you should not be surprised if he tells you he is doing nothing. lol.

by the way, those you are able to see in banks are the small fries. so their boss should also be the bigger small fries. and you should be the smallest small fry. this is how bad it is to work in such a big organisation.

Kanbate!!! がんばて

@ 9:02 PM