Chris left us for Melbourne this evening. And surprisingly I didnt shed a tear at the airport, for a dear dear friend leaving us for a year. When Sween left 2 years ago, I just got overwhelmed & my tears just started flowing after she walked through the gantries and waved us a last goodbye. In contrast, my parting words for Chris was "BYE SUCKERRRRRR!" Haha. His farewell card was full of loveeeee from his friends who bitched about him. As we waved at him through the glass to catch his attention, I was making all sorts of silly faces at him & he shook his bum at us. Haha, cheap entertainment for the security officers.
Anyway, so much for acting all brave & gungho about him leaving. Because it just hit me that I wont see him for at least a year. All these while, I've been taking his presence for granted, even if he's prone to screwing some of our plans & he can annoy me tremendously occasionally. Otherwise hes a harmless guy who's really into WOW, and when he's nice, he's a genuine sweetheart. His stupidity is actually endearing and adorable! Gasp. Haha. Okay, so all single & sweet girls can apply to win his heart. Yeah, sorry, I was saying... So much for putting up a brave front, because I just cried. I had to deal with this loss of this familiarity. One less friend to ask out during weekends, one less boy to bitch about, one less person at our gatherings.
I suck at keeping a straight face, but i'm definitely improving year by year. I delayed my emotion outburst a couple of hours later, so that's good news. But I saw people like Chris, who were leaving, and were accompanied by many many loved ones, I left the high emotional tension in the air in Terminal 3 Departure Hall. :( I don't even know these people, but I still felt a pang of sadness in my heart. I can never deal with departures very well.
Today afternoon was spent looking through possible accomodation, airtickets, reading my pre-departure guide etc etc. It's all a huge headache. Exchange is really exciting no doubt, but the preparations are pretty hellish. The unknown is reallyyyyy frightening me and I'm filled with tremendous fear about how things are going to be, as I leave everything behind. It's soon going to be my turn to leave at T3, in 2 months. Having mixed feelings is an understatement. It's a potent combination of fear, anxiousness, anticipation and hope. I guess there's always hope, I hope...
Oh, Chris if you're reading this, no dont believe what i just said ok? I lied through my teeth. I dont miss you at allllll. You SUCK! AND You still owe us 41bucks. Email us an I.O.U. Hahahahaha. OK lah- I miss you. :(
Monday, June 30, 2008
Sunday, June 22, 2008
82,502,340,314,087,612 Thank Yous still wont suffice
Alice In Wonderland, Chapter VII - A Mad Tea-Party"At any rate I'll never go there again!" said Alice as she picked her way through the wood.
"It's the stupidest tea-party I ever was at in all my life!"
My sulky muse & her fancy friends, reinterpreted by Vogue magazine.Check out the gorgeous photoshoot here.
How much more thank yous can I say?
I hope you all had fun!Sunday, June 15, 2008
Hands down
Hands Down - Dashboard Confessional
Breathe in for luck,
breathe in so deep,
this air is blessed,
you share with me.
This night is wild,
so calm and dull,
these hearts they race,
from self control.
Your legs are smooth,
as they graze mine,
we're doing fine,
we're doing nothing at all.
My hopes are so high,
that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me,
so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury,
or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.
The words are hushed lets not get busted;
just lay entwined here, undiscovered.
Safe in here from all the stupid questions.
"hey did you get some?"
Man, that is so dumb.
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close they can't hear...
so we can get some.
My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury, or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.
Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember,
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
the dim of the soft lights,
the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers
and the time on the clock when we realized it's so late
and this walk that we shared together.
The streets were wet
and the gate was locked so I jumped it,
and I let you in.
And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist
and you kissed me like you meant it.
And I knew that you meant it,
that you meant it,
that you meant it,
and I knew,
that you meant it,
that you meant it.
Its on repeat for the past 2 days & i still cant get enough of it. The intensity & emotions in the song simply take my breath away!
Anyway, my prayers have been answered--- Singfest08!
Artists Line-up
Sat
Travis
Lost Prophets
New Found Glory
Simple Plan
Crowned King
Dearest
Melenie Subono
Sun
Alicia Keys
Panic at the Disco
Jason Mraz (ZOMG!)
One Republic
Stacie Orrico
Jamie Scott
Rick Astley
I CHOPE MY ASS ON THE FORT CANNING LAWN ALREADY! HAH! SEE YA THERE!
Breathe in for luck,
breathe in so deep,
this air is blessed,
you share with me.
This night is wild,
so calm and dull,
these hearts they race,
from self control.
Your legs are smooth,
as they graze mine,
we're doing fine,
we're doing nothing at all.
My hopes are so high,
that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me,
so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury,
or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.
The words are hushed lets not get busted;
just lay entwined here, undiscovered.
Safe in here from all the stupid questions.
"hey did you get some?"
Man, that is so dumb.
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close they can't hear...
so we can get some.
My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury, or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.
Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember,
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
the dim of the soft lights,
the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers
and the time on the clock when we realized it's so late
and this walk that we shared together.
The streets were wet
and the gate was locked so I jumped it,
and I let you in.
And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist
and you kissed me like you meant it.
And I knew that you meant it,
that you meant it,
that you meant it,
and I knew,
that you meant it,
that you meant it.
Its on repeat for the past 2 days & i still cant get enough of it. The intensity & emotions in the song simply take my breath away!
Anyway, my prayers have been answered--- Singfest08!
Artists Line-upSat
Travis
Lost Prophets
New Found Glory
Simple Plan
Crowned King
Dearest
Melenie Subono
Sun
Alicia Keys
Panic at the Disco
Jason Mraz (ZOMG!)
One Republic
Stacie Orrico
Jamie Scott
Rick Astley
I CHOPE MY ASS ON THE FORT CANNING LAWN ALREADY! HAH! SEE YA THERE!
Friday, June 13, 2008
illumination
The brand new addition to my room.I love the soft warm glow it casts on the walls.
No more glaring white florescent ceiling light at night!
All hail affordable made-in-China IKEA products!
Sunday, June 08, 2008
Slip inside the eye of your mind
I have gone to horticultural and botanical heaven.
The Botanic Gardens is so gorgeously landscaped and manicured,it'll even make a fashionista proud.
A Sausage Tree. Hmmm...See those um odd-shaped objects?
The mess of skeletal branches was a stark contrast with the leafy surroundings.
The mysterious-looking-but-not-so-secret passageway.
This is one BIG & TALL tree.It has lightning protection, mind you.
I have no idea how this tree ended up like this.
Looks like a spontaneous traffic diversion to me.
I captured this facade of peace & tranquility.
Behind this lake, is a mass orgy of rowdy people
(Chinese/Indian/Angmoh/Malay families, kids, youths, Filipinos etc etc)
having exciting parties in that valley beyond the pavilion.
"Josh, you either walk away really fast, or jump into the bushes now!!!"
He's so quick, i barely see him in the picture. Haha.
Some things are just better late than never. Apologies accepted, because everyone's entitled to be foolish & naive when they are young. Hahaha. The past merely become hazy memories and truncated experiences. Be reassured that everything has been dumped into the archives, but that doesnt stop me from laughing on hindsight. Hahaha. Thanks for letting me in anyway, I appreciate it very much.
I have no idea how this tree ended up like this.Looks like a spontaneous traffic diversion to me.
I captured this facade of peace & tranquility.Behind this lake, is a mass orgy of rowdy people
(Chinese/Indian/Angmoh/Malay families, kids, youths, Filipinos etc etc)
having exciting parties in that valley beyond the pavilion.
"Josh, you either walk away really fast, or jump into the bushes now!!!"He's so quick, i barely see him in the picture. Haha.
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
Like a knife
ZOMG. Mraz is wayyyyy hotter than the weather here.PETA got it all wrong!
Move over Shona Barnthouse, he's the real deal.
The 'sexiest vegetarian' title is definitely going to him.
Is it just me? Or is he starting to look like Johnny Bravo?
Sunday, June 01, 2008
Pretty please, Chase the blues away
Finally finally finally, we got our clubbing fix yesterday night.With free flow housepours & old school R&B & Hiphop too!
Pictures on Facebook & Nightlife.sg (soon). Haha.
It was nice hang out & chill out with the usual suspects,
which ended up in an impromptu decision to go clubbing.
Meet my favourite dysfunctional family. Haha.
Malcolm In The Middle takes second place.
Pictures on Facebook & Nightlife.sg (soon). Haha.
It was nice hang out & chill out with the usual suspects,
which ended up in an impromptu decision to go clubbing.
Meet my favourite dysfunctional family. Haha.Malcolm In The Middle takes second place.
By the way, I was reading the papers this afternoon & I came across this article about this man who ran a fish farm (ie Kelong) off the shores near Lim Chu Kang. He's married to this woman who is 13 years younger than him. She got married to him immediately after she finished poly. I was reading about how she was still gushing about how she met him and decided to spend the rest of her life with him, doing rough chores and rearing fishes on the seas. She's a mother of three already and she juggles that role on top of helping her husband. Such stories make one renew one's faith in romance, love and relationships, make you brush the dust off your rose-tinted glasses and wear them once more. Just the other day, I also saw this old lady who got off the bus along Bukit Timah, and stumbled into the sturdy arms of her anxious partner who had been waiting for her at the bus stop. He then held her and helped her back to their house. I was like awwwwww... I really hope i'll be as close to my beloved old boy when we are balding or greying and shrivelling up like prunes.
I've also been thinking about marriage and family life after getting some insights from my mentor at work. (No, i'm not trying to get hitched.) So I got into the curious sociologist mode and quizzed her about her life and what she shared was really fascinating. It appears that my somewhat cynical view of marriage coincides with people's real life experiences. However, I believe that, despite the potential difficulties, people will still happily tie the knot. Whereas I'm more apprehensive. Not that Im entirely anti-marriage, its just that, i wouldnt want to get into one thinking that its a stuff of fairy tales. It'd be good if both went into it as mature adults who know what they are truly in for. For example, having to share your bathroom and your kitchen with the same dude for the rest of your life is NOT the same as going out to the movies & munch popcorn every weekend. But I really dont want to kill your romantic mood- Reality IS tough, but the good thing is that you have 1 other person to work things out with! So... you can still send me invites to your wedding ok? I promise I wont wreck it.
Anyway, after our discussion, we both agreed that the main problem in general, is that men stop appreciating their women soon after marriage, they start to take things for granted. You're no longer a woman whom they are trying to woo & please. Suddenly the roles seem to be reversed, its become a given that you will be there for them & will serve them instead. Not that its a grossly horrible sin, but i guess all women will love some appreciation and romance in their relationships. Sigh. In fact, a bad example is found in my dad. I remember coaxing him to buy some flowers for my mom on valentines' day & he retorted, "So old already, do this kind of thing FOR WHAT?" He gave me such disdain, as if i asked him to buy a car for me. Oh well... In contrast, I was telling az that i really admire his parents. They are so uber loving, they go on dates- like they went to ECP for a early morning stroll (see the sunrise) after sending us to the airport. They are also going on a holiday together soon, just the 2 of them! Its soooooooo sweet.
So since I'm cooing & aahing, I need to confess that im a closet romantic okay? Despite all the I'm-one-tough-cookie facade. haha. Well, its not mutually-exclusive. So there.
I realised I'm in a verbal diarrhea mode. Anyway, at the moment I feel... deflated, like a defective holey balloon which you cant ever inflate it no matter how fast you you pump it. Theres the mystery of the missing 10dollar bill yesterday night, plus I'm aching intensely from yesterday, and the weather is as usual disgusting. And no matter how hard I tried, no one, simply no one was available on Sunday night. It's one of those, let yourself sink into the sandpit of self pity nights. So I spent 10bucks on my cab fare to novena square, to spend 10mins to get my tweeny weeny race pack and I had to go home straight after that. :( Goodnight.
I've also been thinking about marriage and family life after getting some insights from my mentor at work. (No, i'm not trying to get hitched.) So I got into the curious sociologist mode and quizzed her about her life and what she shared was really fascinating. It appears that my somewhat cynical view of marriage coincides with people's real life experiences. However, I believe that, despite the potential difficulties, people will still happily tie the knot. Whereas I'm more apprehensive. Not that Im entirely anti-marriage, its just that, i wouldnt want to get into one thinking that its a stuff of fairy tales. It'd be good if both went into it as mature adults who know what they are truly in for. For example, having to share your bathroom and your kitchen with the same dude for the rest of your life is NOT the same as going out to the movies & munch popcorn every weekend. But I really dont want to kill your romantic mood- Reality IS tough, but the good thing is that you have 1 other person to work things out with! So... you can still send me invites to your wedding ok? I promise I wont wreck it.
Anyway, after our discussion, we both agreed that the main problem in general, is that men stop appreciating their women soon after marriage, they start to take things for granted. You're no longer a woman whom they are trying to woo & please. Suddenly the roles seem to be reversed, its become a given that you will be there for them & will serve them instead. Not that its a grossly horrible sin, but i guess all women will love some appreciation and romance in their relationships. Sigh. In fact, a bad example is found in my dad. I remember coaxing him to buy some flowers for my mom on valentines' day & he retorted, "So old already, do this kind of thing FOR WHAT?" He gave me such disdain, as if i asked him to buy a car for me. Oh well... In contrast, I was telling az that i really admire his parents. They are so uber loving, they go on dates- like they went to ECP for a early morning stroll (see the sunrise) after sending us to the airport. They are also going on a holiday together soon, just the 2 of them! Its soooooooo sweet.
So since I'm cooing & aahing, I need to confess that im a closet romantic okay? Despite all the I'm-one-tough-cookie facade. haha. Well, its not mutually-exclusive. So there.
I realised I'm in a verbal diarrhea mode. Anyway, at the moment I feel... deflated, like a defective holey balloon which you cant ever inflate it no matter how fast you you pump it. Theres the mystery of the missing 10dollar bill yesterday night, plus I'm aching intensely from yesterday, and the weather is as usual disgusting. And no matter how hard I tried, no one, simply no one was available on Sunday night. It's one of those, let yourself sink into the sandpit of self pity nights. So I spent 10bucks on my cab fare to novena square, to spend 10mins to get my tweeny weeny race pack and I had to go home straight after that. :( Goodnight.
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