Saturday, May 30, 2009

A kiss is not a contract


A kiss is not a contract
But it's very nice
Mmmmm, very nice
Just because you've been exploring my mouth
Doesn't mean you get to take an expedition further south
No.
A kiss is not a contract,
But it's very nice,
It's very, very nice,
Just because we've been playing tonsil hockey
Doesn't mean you get to score the goal that's in my jockey
Just because I'm in a two man novelty band
Doesn't mean it's all about poontang.
I can't go around loving everyone
I just wouldn't get anything done
You can take me out to dinner that might be quite nice
you could buy me a burrito and some beans and rice
but that won't get you into pants paradise
They call it a fly because it takes you up to heaven oh oh
A kiss is not a contract but it's very nice. It’s very very nice.
I'm only one man, baby, pretty baby
We're only two men, ladies
Babies. Pretty babies.

FOTC is my study-buddy.
P.s. Dorks are hot.

Saturday, May 23, 2009

we can keep chilling like ice cream filling

I'm somewhat proud of the fact that I've came up with the brilliant idea of a half-birthday last November because I probably knew that spending his birthday with him was nowhere near likely. I guess that plus the fact that I just can't seem to shake off this feeling of indifference (sian-ness) towards every damned thing, have made my weekend rather blue.

But anyhow, please ignore my lugubriousness. I'm really thankful that you mean so much to me. Sometimes I still find myself grinning at the memories of amusing snippets of conversations and other carefree times spent together during nostalgic bus rides. The thought of you fills me with much happiness, except that it has been unfortunately been tinged with bittersweet taste of being so cruelly faraway. Well, I sincerely hope that your life will be filled with abundant joy, blessings and everything spice & nice. You've given so much of yourself to others - you're a delight in everyone's lives and not just in mine.

So time flies, people say. The hands of time are always relentlessly ticking away - no mercy to the busy, the young, the old, the sick and dying. Some of my friends want to stay young and blissful forever. I think it's lovely, but I would want to grow old & view this world through wiser eyes. But I'm also wondering if old people discover the meaning of life eventually after losing their youth? Maybe some do, some don't and I would think that each will have their own answer to that question. Dixi had asked me why we couldn't press a stop button & pause life at the best moments. I wished we had that option too. Maybe witchcraft can help us. Haha.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

The Gift of Rain

The mystery is solved. I blame my emo-nemoness to people around me who have been feeling the same way. It's too damned infectious. Haha. Another reason is due to this amazing book which i'm currently reading--- The Gift of Rain. Check it out here.


I shall not attempt to give my own humble review as I'm not completely through with the book yet. But this reviewer on amazon.co.uk did a brilliant job for me.

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108 of 115 people found the following review helpful: 5.0 out of 5 stars

A marvelously good book that I thoroughly recommend
(9 Jun 2007)
Once I started reading The Gift of Rain I could not put down. For two days I was lost in the amazing world of the people of Malaya in a sad and terrible time in their history on the island of Penang off the west coast of what is now peninsular Malaysia. After putting the book down, the story haunted me so much that I read it a second time.

Let me say first of all that the Gift of Rain is a great, easy and thoroughly entertaining read from its very beginning when deep in the night an elderly Japanese lady brings a sword to the front door of an elderly man who has been trying for 50 years to come to terms with his terrible past.

Like so many great novels this book refuses to be categorized; it has elements of a historical novel, a coming of age story, a war novel, a treatise on martial arts. Martial arts go to the root of Asian philosophy: Daoism, Confucianism and Buddhism are all in the book. Predestination versus free will is one of the book's most important themes. The protagonist Philip Hutton's character is shaped by his struggles at a time of war to balance his duty and his loyalty to his father, his family, his country and the enemy in the form of his beloved martial arts teacher, his sensei, Hayato Endo.

The narrative begins as a reflective and beautifully written coming of age story when the sixteen year old, half Chinese boy, Philip Hutton meets the enigmatic Japanese diplomat Endo-san, who becomes his martial arts master and starts him off on an incredibly exciting but unbearably sad voyage of conflict and self discovery.

When the Japanese invade Malaya the tone and style of the book change. The book turns into a fast moving war story. But war destroys and the war has devastating effects on the lives of all the complex main characters.

Tan Twan Eng has an uncanny ability to create atmosphere. He does this partly through an appeal to the reader's senses. And how he succeeds! All the senses are there. Touch, taste and sight. Sound: from the voice of Sutherland to the "mournful wails" of the erhu. Smell; from the smells of food, rooms, clothes, streets, rain, the sea to the fragrance of a lonely tree. For Tan Twan Eng fragrance fuses into a "pungent concoction that (enters) us and (lodges) itself in the memory of the heart".

It has become fashionable for reviewers (and academics) to require of modern works of literature that they move boundaries. Too often this results in writers resorting to all sorts of gimmicks to give the patina of a literary work to their writing. Tan Twan Eng uses no gimmicks. His is simply an exceptionally well written book. But he does move boundaries: he moves the boundaries of our hearts.

A marvelously good book that I thoroughly recommend.
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A gorgeous read, really. The first in 87137621390841239843 years.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Pardon my ambling ramblings

It's week 23 now. I'm exhausted. It's like so near, and yet so far. I'm wondering if I would ever make it through. Everyone's telling me to look forward to summer, "oh it'd be awesome!" "hang in there..." "it's gonna be really soon" and I truly am, but I guess I'm always afraid of high expectations and being let down. I just want to have fun and spend time with faraway people who mean so much to me... No, I wasn't planning to go to paradise. Thanks for all the kind encouragement, but it doesn't really make me feel much better... (Especially when I simply can't seem to find any meaning in everything I do these days.)

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Some friends have lost &/or found new beloveds in these 23 weeks and I'm genuinely happy for them. All my friends deserve happiness. So here are my blessings. :) And for some reason, I felt the strange and sad feeling rather strongly today of not being able to share newly discovered cool places, little random bits & pieces of my life & all the quirky encounters which I'd love to talk about with J. I guess the minute details of our lives as well as spontaneous whims & fancies are not important for the situation we're in now. Precious are the few snatches of email exchanges, texts and occasional phone calls. That kind of reminds me more of an illicit love affair actually. Despite being caught in a drawn out period of non-stop activities, and being surrounded by old and new friends, loneliness can still break down all my defenses & find a way to creep into my life, and it hurts.

The weirdest part is that I don't think I've ever felt this kind of loneliness before. Not even when I was faraway from all my family & friends, without real friends yet (real friends i.e. those whom you didn't just make small talk with.) Someone please tell me if that's normal? Or maybe I'm just missing him too much. It sucks when you think - oh, he'll like this, oh, it'll be nice if we could visit this place & once you realise that it's physically impossible, it's like an instant rejection. Do it for 23 weeks and you might understand how bruised & battered I'm feeling by now. haha.

At least, when my friend says "see you soon" now, it's true. I can't wait. Somebody fast forward the clocks please?

Saturday, May 09, 2009

im flawed

What's up with unreliability? Is that the latest fashion trend?

Waiting is overrated. Too many times the patience isn't worth it.

Forgiveness is overrated. Too many times it's simply forgotten.

Tolerance is overrated. Too many times it's only made to stretch further.

Tuesday, May 05, 2009

I think our hands just made a baby

I know i have lost all street cred with this movie poster on my blog. haha. But i think I enjoyed it so much is because i'm in DIRE need of entertainment. Give me bubblegum mediocre teenage stars in predictable movie plots and I'm happy too. Alright, well to give the movie some credit, at least it's a movie which doesn't glorify teenage pregnancies, over-sexed teenagers and all the usual associated vices.

The weirdest part when we all plonked down into our cushy theatre seats was when i exclaimed- Hey! All of us don't like Zac Efron... Err... So, what are we doing here? Haha.

Maybe everyone secretly wants to relive being 17 years old again, although I'm sure they were nowhere like the typical american high school scene depicted in hollywood. Definitely not as sex-obsessed, self-obsessed and dominated by the bullies/jocks, cheerleaders, cool kids & mean girls. Brought back fond memories of reading trashy teenage novels about this hazardous high school environment- the perfect setting for classroom romances which start off with the shy glances thrown at each other across the room. HAHA.

Well, I'll stop that and share my favourite quotes from the movie.
Ned (the eccentric dork from high school to present) - *looks extremely serious & earnest* "I need you to fight on my side when I raid the elf's castle!"
Principal (equally weird blonde woman resisting his affections) - *stares into his eyes knowingly* "You can plunder my dungeon anytime. "
Ned - "I'll bring my longbow. "