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Monday, September 15, 2014, 3:05 PM
MIA
Suddenly got the urge to blog again after reading blog posts. MIA for sooooooo long. So much to tell, so much to update.
1) All that I'm supposed to do, is done. Now that NBS FOC is finally over and I've officially stepped down as CGL, I feel kinda relieved, but at times I feel empty. Like this whole big portion that has bugged me for one whole year, is gone. Just gone liddat. I thought that I would 101% be happy that I do not need to worry about the Morgan anymore, no need to keep putting in efforts to keep everyone in Morgan close together. It just doesn't feel as happy as what I thought. Hahah speaking like an overly attached mother.
I do miss the times when I vexed over the OG. The back end jobs like going back sch on weekend just to pack goodie bag, key in all the data, order caps, singlets and whatnots, all the monies paid upfront and owed and still not able to claim back, all these are not taxing. It's the people part. Times when I feel like I'm alone cementing the OG, getting upset when Morgan wasn't responsive, worrying about the attendance for EVERY SINGLE OUTING. It's not really pleasant, but at least it keeps me moving towards my goal. The only thing I had in mind in Year 1 was to keep everyone in Morgan together (other than GPA duh). Now that we're Year 2. I guess my job is done. Not saying I did a very good job as a CGL bonding the OG, but at least there's quite a handful who stayed. Thankful for all these people who are willing to stay together :)
I think the only regret I had was that I didn't do a good job during actual camp. Sigh. I think I didn't maximise the experience I should have given to the freshies as a CGL :(
Keep my fingers cross that Matrix will be super bonded!!! :)))
2) Marketing> Accounting. Honestly I have no idea why am I in accounting. Ever since start of Y2S1, taking acc 3, tax and company law for my cores, really really made me reflect alot on my career path. Is Accounting really what I want? What am I doing in acc? I hate the things that I'm studying now. Why would I want to know what shit the FRS is saying. I have no interest in it. NONE. I keep contemplating to change over to Marketing...but acc still has its worth as a set of specialized skills. :( Push on Keying you can do it. :*(
That being said.....I shouldn't be here anymore I iz need to study for LEASESSSSSS (fuck this shit)
Sunday, July 06, 2014, 2:18 AM
Probably it is really a very issue or a common thing in NBS, have been hearing stories about the real NBS, didnt thought that one day it will really happen to me nor have I thought of how I will deal with it when it really happened.But I really didn't know I will be so affected by this. Especially when I really treated this friend of mine with all my trust and put in all my true feelings in this friendship. I think it affected me so much is precisely cos of this reason. If it was to be just an acquaintance I would be less bothered by it or I will just let it pass.
But no, I really didn't expect this from you. I can't believe I am so upset to the extent that I have to type all these out to let it out. All the anger and disappointment.
I really can't believe I'm typing all these while crying. Hate myself for being so weak. I think in other people's eyes I may seem petty. But this is what I am. This is how I feel. I really value friendship a lot. Maybe the closer we are the more angry I felt.
Sunday, May 18, 2014, 4:24 AM
Would I be lying if I said I'm not worried, scared at all.Afraid that I'm not doing well enough, afraid that I will not be able to lead, worrying that for every moment that I did not pull people close they will leave one by one.
Sometimes I feel like I'm almost close to giving up. Just throw in the towel and shout "I've never expected myself to do all these things. Nobody told me at all."
So much self expectations but nobody really gives a fuck bcos they are not in my shoes, they dk how what's going through my mind and all these pent up emotions.
I so did not sign up for all these. All I wanted was to enjoy the process.
But I guess there's no turning back since I'm in this now. Not the kind that will give up once I'm in. To tell myself to hang in there bcos the end is near.
It's all gonna be over soon. Then I dun have to worry every single day about every single shit. No more breaking downs.
Thursday, April 11, 2013, 2:45 AM
IM BACK.
Yes the title. OHAIYO, KONNICHIWA, ANNEHASEYO, BONJOUR, LEI HOU AH.My last blog post was...in Sept 2012?! So I've neglected my blog for like 7 months... D: wonder if anybody still reads this page. *blows dust away*
Hahaha anyway there's alot to update... its 7 months of updates eh! Okay but selectively okkk.
1) A level.
Got back my results a month ago, well my efforts paid off :') didn't suffer for nothing after all. Though my chem was a little disappointing... but econs made it up! Was so surprised by my econs grade LIKE HOW COULD IT BE I'M LIKE THE SINGLE DIGIT PERCENTILE FOR PRELIMS HELLOOOOOO.
But I'm glad that everything's finally over. Remembered my first day of J3, it was like the bottom pit of my entire life. Really glad that I did not give up. Glad that I pressed on no matter how tough, how stressful it was. Glad that my friends and family were all so supportive of me throughout the journey. Glad that I finally did everyone proud this time and did not disappoint them.
The whole journey wasn't easy. Internal struggles, mental stress. In return was a deserving result slip this time round. So bittersweet.
HAHA ok moving on moving on...
2) Job hunting starts in January. At first wanted to get the piano teaching job badly, but after I went for the interview and realised that the pay was very meager...forget it! So looked for another job and quickly settled for some admin job at primary school tuition centre cos I couldn't stand my mum nag at me everyday to faster get a job and I can't stand doing nothing everyday too hahaha. (plus they pay $9/h on weekends hehe)
The job scope is quite extreme. Normally we have decent amount of things to do, like normal admin stuff and once done we can start to talk cock sing song play mahjong. However on the other extreme end, it's dealing with difficult customers i.e unreasonable parents. It's really an eye opener...like wow you didn't know such people exist until you meet them. Things they do: scold, shout, threaten, bang table, being childish...and the list goes on. But that's one of the really rare cases lah. And in this job I really found out more about myself. Haha it's like some self discovery like that. I all along thought that I have very high tolerance level... but I was wrong. I realised I can be very reckless and hot tempered as well ahaha MAYBE THIS TRAIT WAS ALL ALONG HIDDEN INSIDE ME BUT THIS CUSTOMER TRIGGERED IT!
Oh well.
3) Driving
I SWEAR DRIVING IS DAMN STRESSFUL. Just had my 4th driving lesson the day before and throughout the whole lesson I thought to myself,"ok just forget it I should just get a chauffeur instead"
The thing is, I thought I have talent in driving cos during the first lesson the instructor asked me questions about driving I got it all correct and he was like, wa you very smart not bad.
BUT THEN, THAT PROBABLY IS THE ONE AND ONLY TIME I PERFORMED OK.
I stalled my car for dk how many times during my last lesson!! My instructor says it was cos my chair wasn't adjusted properly therefore I couldn't release my cluctch pedal properly... AND during my second lesson I stalled my car in the middle of a T junction! Like wtf that's the worst thing to happen! my instructor told me that we each had 50% chance to get knock down by oncoming cars. SCARED THE HELL OUTTA ME. I really really swear stalling a car is the most horrible thing to happen...
May I not be a road hazard. I'm sorry road users if you find me a slow driver...
That's about it... I will just post photos la hor if a lot of words very b0ring rite.
Photos not in order!
At Black Bird Cafe for brunch!
Joanne and Bernce's bday! The April babiesssssss
HAHA NOW YOU GUYS KNOW I DIDN'T DYE MY ENDS...IT'S FAKE HAIR FOR BERNICE'S BDAY!! And this stupid Renjun bluffed me! Supposed to do the retarded face (aka my expression) then end up I'm the only one doing it!
The brother's 21st bday! This is probably why we are siblings... gave the same expression coincidentally!
With the leewayway and sumanman!
My almost-my-entire-life-friends. It's true hellooo I know them since Primary school leh! This seems to be our fave hangout place...
PARTICULARLY THIS ONE. SINCE P1 YO. Meaning...since we were 7 years old! I KNOW THIS PERSON FOR 13 YEARS OF MY 20 YEARS LIFE OMGEEEE.
HAHAHAHA GUESS WHERE?
S.E.A AQUARIUM! ITZ JELLLLLLYFISH BEHIND!
andddddddd tadah today's GMAX REVERSE BUNGY WITH THE BEAVER!!!
That's before we were going up. Stupid beaver went to ask whether can sit together not and the person was like,"of cos not if not how to balance?!" Like as if beaver was asking a dumb question HAHA.
This is after! LOOK AT MY HAIR AND MY CUI FACE HAHA. IT IS SERIOUSLY DAMN THRILLING TOTALLY OWN CYLON AND HUMAN @ USS HANDS DOWN. Shot up into the hair and turning 360 in mid air, totally losing sense of direction and height I can't even scream I dun have the strength to! Seriously one of the best ride I've taken!
Then we had turkish ice cream and we got tricked by the ice cream man!!
"I don't want coffee, I want latte." LOL WHAT WAS I SAYING.
hehe and lastly...my grandparents came Singapore to visit us! I love this shot they look so happy :)
GOODIE BYEEEEEEEEE!
Friday, September 07, 2012, 1:04 AM
gratitude
very very long never update this blog alr. preparing for the upcoming prelims!!
this is very random but i dun care hahaa.
To the person who helped me fill in the blanks on my lecture notes when I could barely write properly while struggling to keep myself awake, thank you so much. Even though its just for that one time.
To the people who constanty poke me awake during lectures and tutorials, thank you so much.
To the people who always gave me encouragements when im feeling down or defeated, thank you for lending me your listening ear.
To the people who always never fail to make me laugh and make sch life less mundane, i miss you guys.
To the people whom I strived and trained hard with to reach our goals, thank you for giving me such a wonderful memory.
Its only when its gone then one can fully appreciate it.
My 3rd year in jc is not a waste of time after all. It made me realise things that i never took notice of.
Was talking to my classmate about returning to AJ for another year. Looking back, i think i can never muster the courage I had on my first day of return and to tide through all those invisible stares again. in the wrong limelight. never wanting to be in the crowds as i would love to for the first time. Didnt know how I managed to get through the first few weeks but I did anyway. Till now I still fear walking alone, afraid of being recognised. But who would understand?
But this 6 months was made less tolerable, with the constant and random encouragements. It made me feel alot better, knowing that there's so many people supporting me. Thank you.
Friday, July 13, 2012, 1:37 AM
Am here to post again! It's been more than a month since I last posted... I'm posting less frequently alr D:So some updates- both my appeals to NTU and NUS failed... but nvm I'm kinda accepting it alr. Going through A levels again. Sigh. Just that I really hate it when I see my batch people seeing my in uniform and the surprised looks on them, not saying I'm blaming them, but I just can't take it, like I wanna hide away from them, hide away from the fact that I actually retained. It's like getting weird stares when you are not going along with the mainstream. But never mind, I shall take this set back to be a turning point for me, I'm optimistic!
Anw just got back MYCT results recently, gotten results that I've never gotten in my whole JC life. DDDSU. Ds for H2 chem, H1 geog and GP! S for math and U for Econs :O
It's seriously out of my expectations. Since when did I pass so many subjects in JC? And on top of that, my math is actually stronger than my econs?! WHAT SORCERY IS THIS. Econs and Geog used to be my strong subjects eh. Ok la Econs not really cos it was quite inconsistent...but still, MATHS, BETTER THAN ONE OF MY SUBJECT. D: What has the world become?!
Ok no complains at least I've made improvements. My math finally break through the vicious U cycle HAHHA no more U! Hahah Beatrice if you are reading this, idk whether you read my blog or not, but look! I AM OUT OF SUSU CLUB! HAHAHA but one year later only la.
Yep and chem was good too. U to D. So happy. got 29/40 HAHAHA GO BUY 4D I've never gotten such high marks before ok! I topped the class for chem......mcq HAHAHHA but second in class still *sobs* *pats self on the back*
It's really heartening to see improvements. I really experienced what it means by "you can do it if you want to". But what is more heartening is that my friends and family are all so happy and proud of me. It feels like I'm finally not letting them down! Friends who asked how's my results and pushed on further with encouragements, love you all! I know my results may not be splendid like A/B, but still, baby steps yes my pigu? ;)
So...gotta keep this up!
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A few takeaways from this set back;
1) GP is very very very important.
2) GP > leadership postition (in my opinion), so those who are thinking of falling back on your leadership positions, I urge you not to, unless you are some zai zai captain of ASG/YOG/Olympics then ok.
3) GP is not just your normal English language in secondary school, IT IS LIKE A SUBJECT WITH CONCEPTS AND ALL.
wahaha top 3 points all GP, ok next.
4) Foundation is very important. Made this mistake last year this time when I just pia papers without knowing my concepts...it just didn't work so go and do all your tutorials.
5) 患难见真情- my friends. VERY CONSISTENT SUPPORT AND ENCOURAGEMENTS VERY GOOD FULL MARKS HAHAHA ok but yeah really, dk how to tide through this tough period without you all. :') thanks for always being there when I need a listening ear, thanks for letting me pour out my woes, thanks for offering help in my studies, thanks for taking time to come down and help me with my studies (my very fierce but committed tutor ryan gogo free of charge ahhaha), thanks for being concerned about me and my feelings, thanks for taking the first step to ask because I am not initiative in this area, all these people ah, you know who you are la hor. :) so much to say, so much to express but I shall just translate it into action- straight As as a form of infinite gratitude to you all. If I were to go Harvard with my fantastic results please dun miss me HAHAHA.
ok need to sleep SO GOODY NIGHT PEOPLE!!
Monday, June 11, 2012, 1:09 AM
Hola people! Am here to blog today......I'm neglecting this blog more and more often. :( I no longer switch on the laptop on a daily basis, like when I was in J1 when I practically used the laptop every night despite the work load + tennis and basketball trainings + cheerleading + piano exam. I guess it was..... novelty? Idk, but at the starting of J1 everything seem so fresh and fun to me. I couldn't get myself away from the laptop, with more than 10 msn chats ongoing at the same time. I kinda enjoyed it.
Anyway, this June holiday it's all about studying and studying and studying, with a few occasional bday celebrations for my close ones. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALL YOU JUNE BABIES- YUJUN, JASON SEOW, JENNIFER KIM, TAN REN JUN! You all purposely choose to born in June is it somemore so close to each other's! Splurged like crazy for the past week! :O
While studying, I realised I was really damn jialat in J1. I dun even know where the hell is my series and sequences tutorial. I didn't even do almost all the maths tutorials in J1. I just simply copied for the sake of copying... It was really bad. The tutorials mostly were not done by me. I didn't even do integration and differentiation tutorials I remembered very clearly. Even the econs lecture notes, I can't even figure out my own handwriting cos I was dozing off and there were multiple slashes across the words in the blank cos I kept rewriting so that it was literate. I remembered once it was so bad to an extent that Ren Jun had to help me fill in that blank when he saw me struggling to write properly while halfway dozing off... :(
What was I doing in J1? Enjoying myself. Now I reap what I sow, therefore I'm back here in AJ again to make up for the lost time in J1 :(
Everytime when my mind is not occupied I will think of my appeal. Whether it will be successful or not. It's really like a mental torture, reminding myself everytime why am I in this plight. I know there's a saying that goes "It's alright to take the longer route as long as you reach your destination" but who wants to take the longer route when you see your peers are all ahead of you? Who will want to go through A levels again, when one jolly well knows how tiring and stressful it is? Who will want to stay behind, stagnate doing the same thing as the previous year when you should be enjoying the months long holiday?
Some may say, yeah you could have gone to SIM. But I have plans for my future, I know what I want. And I refuse do the easy way out because I know I am able to make it to the local uni. I am not going to settle for the next best alternative, because I am aiming for local unis.
How much chance do I stand as a basketball captain of a 4th in Nationals basketball team? How much are my qualities worth to gain a spot in local unis?
Monday, May 21, 2012, 12:43 AM
Birthdays
Hehe separated this post from the basketball post cos it'll be so weirdddddddd.Tuesday night Yujun and I celebrated Zhihui's 19 bday! Wow we have been friends since pri 1 so...... we are friends for 13 years!!!! Nobody can beat that man haha she's my oldest friend sia!
Hhaha ok anw after sch met up with YJ to buy stuffs for ZH's bday! Omg I love HTHT with her WE ARE SOOOOOOOO SIMILAR HOR??? OK but seriously I really love talking to her. It's like I can pour out everything anything to her, it's endless!! It makes walking from hougang mall to my house a super fast one! AHAHAHA LOL. Ok so we bought stuff for her and decorated her house's corridor with stupid signs like "Why you so late then come home?", "Your mother waiting for you" etc haha. And we blew balloon....but it's so pathetic COS THERE'S ONLY 4 BALLOONS STUPID YJ BURST A FEW OF THEM -.- HAHAHHA ok thennnn YJ say she wanna urinate cos she too nervous alr when she received call that ZH was reaching home soon! So after setting up everything we hid inside ZH's house! AHAHAHA
OK la the bday plan went smoothly heh heh after that stayed at ZH house for awhile and went home!
ok...idk why the second image so small but whatever la hor can see can alr!
On our way to the closed down buffalo wings shop at macpherson... CAN SEE RJ'S SWEAT PATCH THIS SHOWS HOW MUCH WE WERE SWEATING UNDER THE HOT SUN....
Anw this is the only photo I uploaded from my phone I haven't upload the rest from my camera! Will do so when I have the time... :)
Ok so we went back serangoon and meet Jasmine Yeo there and off we took 103 to Jalan Kayu and eat the buffalo wings. And we blindfolded her!!! Let her try the buffalo wings, END UP NOT SPICY ONE WTH I DUN EVEN THINK IT'S SPICY LEH LOLLLL FAIL DAMN FAIL. OK at least their chicken chop is nice... after that had desert at cedele @greenwich... home afterwards. It was a good catch up session too! Laughed like crazy when we took photos hehe can't wait for Jasmine to upload her camera's photos cos all the funny one is with her!!!
OK shall go sleep nao schz tmr naws :(
12:15 AM
Basketball
Am here to blog again. Frequency dropping hor. Like blogging lesser and lesser....This month is so busy. All filled with basketball! Dun get me wrong, I'm not involved in any A Div matches. I'm an audience.
I really must thank God for allowing me to go down and support almost all the matches... twice when I couldn't make it for their match just nice teachers will either push forward extra lesson/ the teacher wasn't around/or with a little extra help ;)
I think I missed like at most 2 matches only heh heh heh :D
I remember I was damnnn sian when I realised I couldn't go down and watch the NYJC match cos I had extra econs. I think that match was a determining one as to whether we can get into top 4 or not if I never remember wrongly. Just when I was deciding whether to pon the extra econs lesson or not, my teacher announced to the class that she had decided to push forward the lesson PLUS shorten it by half an hour!!!! OMGGGG IT'S LIKE GOD SENT WOW PRAISE THE LORD! (Note: I'm a free thinker but Idk how to say, I really wanna thank god for letting me go down support the girls!!)
The 3rd/4th match also... that day I was supposed to end late hehe ;)
Also the girls finals I managed to catch it too cos my chem teacher never come so the extra chem lesson conducted by chem rep only lasted for half an hour! Then Yan Tian and I chionged down to TPY sports hall by cab hehe. Oh YT's cousin is in HCI bball girls team so yeah both of us chionged down tgt! :)
While watching the girls play, I felt like going on court and play too. When I look at the girls crying over their loss to HCI in the quarter finals, I felt like crying too. I felt so helpless seeing them cry, because I wished that I could have gone down and play, contributing my effort and probably make a difference. But I couldn't. I was rooted to the spectator stand, watching them struggle to catch up with HCI, but only to see the point gap trailing further and further away. I could only cheer for them and I can do nothing at all. It's like my heart sank with them, I know how they feel.
At times I really wished I was on the team. To sprint on the court, catching our breath every time we defend, contest with opponents for the ball, to celebrate victory together. The attachment is still there, even though it has been a year. I guess this is what we call AJ spirit? Non mihi solum.
6 years of being a bballer isn't enough, I guess it will never be enough. It has brought about so many wonderful memories, well just that one that was a terrible one, but whatever. I have never regretted being a bballer. And I am so ever glad that I never gave up basketball over tennis. Wisest choice made in my life.
Sunday, April 22, 2012, 11:55 PM
Wow....blogger got a new template? This shows how long I haven't been updating my blog.Cos I dun feel like it.
I think blogger is too open already. Can't speak my mind freely, because I am afraid of telling others my inner fears. Afraid of people judging me and this has become more serious ever since I retained one more year in AJ.
Everyday I am daydreaming about receiving a letter from NUS/SMU. A letter from NTU would be good, I had to compromise myself, NTU is not really the school that I want to get into. But I got no chips to bargain huh.
Daydreaming about the unis sending me letters to inform me about my acceptance for economics. HAHA that will never come true, will it? Do I always have miracles happening in my life, just like passing my grade 8 piano and getting advance promotion for JC1 promos?
Nah, this kind of thing won't always happen right. I'm too greedy.
I'm getting very comfortable with my current class now. Dispelled all the worries and uncertainties that I had before stepping back into AJ again. But undeniably I'm still struggling with my emotions. Sometimes in class I will think of 20/10, sometimes during PE while running on the track I will think of the fun I had with my classmates. It makes PE less tiring actually. Sometimes thinking of the few close ones whenever something small triggered my memory from within. Sometimes. All this sometimes add up to everything.
No matter, gotta face this. I'm already pushing myself hard in my studies, but its not sufficient. Gotta push myself even harder. Only then can I bargain with the unis.
I dun think I didn't try my best. I did, just that I didn't have enough time. Was my decision back in J1 wrong? Joining basketball, tennis, cheerleading, piano grade 8 exam. Did it really affect my studies, or just that I was too playful, lacked the discipline, only to regret now.
Whatever, I hope for the best outcome for me.
Monday, March 26, 2012, 1:01 AM
A levels
It has been almost a month since I've gotten back my A level results. Wanted to type a post about it but can't seem to bring myself to do it. However I think I'm gonna be busy soon so I better post this up while I still have the free time.Life was good before getting back my results. Enjoying my job as a relief teacher, meeting up with friends, no stress, lazing around everytime after work, eat and sleep and struggled to wake up to school to teach every morning. I wished everything would stay status quo, but A levels results had ruined it :/
I remember on the day when A levels results were released, I kinda mentally prepared myself for the worst. Deep down inside me, I know my results are not gonna be satisfactory, probably like alot of Cs or maybe a B? Anw, at the hall, when my classmates queued up to get back their results, I purposely stayed right at the back. I wanted to be the last to receive my results. I was dreading it. Because I kinda know after getting back results would mean drastic changes, which I have an inkling feeling that the change is bad. True enough, when it was my turn, I looked at Mrs Wong for some cue or smth, she looked worried I guess. That moment, I kind of guessed my results alr.
When she finally placed the result slip on the table, I saw a few alphabets, so prominent, so striking to me. I saw an A, but the rest of the alphabets seemed to fall short of it. My mind was in a whirl. I couldn't think properly. I tried hard to make sense of the alphabets on my result slip, and I couldn't believe it, it was worse than what I expected. I totally never expect myself to fail GP. How can I fail it. I have never failed any GP tests in school before!
Tears can't seem to form you know, considering I cry quite easily. Idk, I think it's either I was really well prepared for the worst, or just that I can't cry it out. After that Jason found me and only then I started crying.
So cut this crap short, I am going back to school to retake A levels. Actually I'm quite glad that I still can go back school to study, cos I failed GP, so it's a...blessing in disguise?
Gonna go back school on tuesday, gonna wear my ugly uniform again. The thought of walking to school again is killing me, all these uncertainties building up inside me. I am joining a class that is already one and a half years old, cliques formed and all. I thought of isolating myself before, but Mr Tan had talked me out of it. I will try and mix with the class but if that fails, I can just go ahead and isolate myself, cos after all the point of coming back to school is get good results.
Really felt damn touched and blessed to know that there are actually so many friends supporting me, telling me that I am not alone in this. Ryan Goh and Shimin wrote me letters with cute pictures, making me half laugh half cry, really appreciate it it warmed my heart so much.
Jennifer pigu, always making me feel so much better after talking to me, I felt so much more calm and ready to face it. Because I know that she will always hear me out, listen to my woes, comfort and support me EVEN THOUGH SHE IS IN KOREA. MISS YOU MUCH PIGU!
Renjun, what else can I say, REALLY GLAD TO HAVE YOU AROUND. The feeling where I know you will definitely help me out without me asking you is like, man we are totally on a whole new level as good friends, best friends. *bro fist or smth* HAHAHA. The feeling of "Yes I know you will" is so comforting.
Siyingggggg ahhaha oh god I was really really damn touched when you smsed me saying that you thought about my situation the whole night!!! Like really appreciate it!!
And also Liwei, YOU BETTER COME ON TUES/WED OK YOU SAID YOU WILL :')
Lastly, Jason Seow. Your name says it all.
Really glad to know that they are all there to support me in one way or another... LOVE YOU ALL!!!
And I'm really determined to do it right this time. Straight As and scholarship. I wanna go NUS economics badly... When I was applying for uni courses inside me I was like fuck this shit when I get my straight As it will be my results that determine what course I will take, not the fucking IGP thing that determines what course I can take.
Also I dun wanna disappoint my family. It was a downright disappointment to them and they couldn't quite take it at first I guess... results bad until there's only a fucking slim chance to go uni. They have high expectations from me since young. Always topping the class in primary school, get edusave. I was soaked in praises and compliments since young. Like even O levels getting an average 10 (-4=6)was ok because at least I can get into good schools. Like even grandma who always call from USA, always ask me what's my grade in piano and telling her oh grade 5, 6, and recently 8, she will always say, "ahh good girl!"
They were really confident of me. they thought that I will just pull through this national exam with good results but no, I totally let them down. I was way below average. They were shocked.
Cut the chase, all I wanna do this year is to get straight As. Really straight As. Then my parents will be proud of me this daughter once again.
Saturday, March 24, 2012, 12:35 AM
Teaching
Hi everybardy it's been so long I know you guys miss me right! 8DIt has been 2 long days on thursday and friday! Thursday after work ended went to watch hunger games. The show is ok laaaa I'm not a fan of hunger games I think starting abit boring... The plot is quite ok.
After movie went to send David, my colleague in school, off at airport! We thought his flight was 8pm and we rushed down to the airport and realised that his flight is 9pm....... LOL much eh but anyway the time was still abit tight.
Then today was another long day, lessons ended at 12pm, went to eat with Jasper and Xiao Wen (my colleagues too) at Bishan! after that went to rot in bishan library for 2 hours before heading to SBC to watch bball friendly match with Siying! AJ vs RJ!
Omgggg I really really miss playing competitive bball. :( When I see them run and dive and fight for the ball I could totally feel the adrenaline rush! :( And cos I was sitting on the players bench, when Coach turned and look at the bench to call for substitution it feels like as if he was going to call me go down play!! :((( Idk how to explain but it's like his gaze reminds me of last time when he used the same gaze to ask me go down court to substitute!!! Omggg mega sad arghhhh.
How much I miss the feeling of scoring, the determination to win, the drive and all that ahhhhhhhhhhh :(
Anyway I shot some hoops and I feel sooooo weak. Shoot 3 pointers also no strength one... Most of the time I keep on air ball BUT AT LEAST GOT CHOP SOME BALLS IN!
Ok I was late for the Fuchun Fiesta so I flagged a cab and guess how much was the cab fare... FREAKING $30 OMG ITS LIKE HALF OF MY ONE DAY SALARY FLY AWAY... D:
But the cabby was niceeeeee we were talking throughout the whole journey and he said that I dun look like a teacher cos I have the kiddish look.... ok can no wonder students all bully me HAHHA NO LA LOL. Then he say he can tell that I'm the patient kind and so teaching is quite suitable for me and asked me to consider it hhahahaha. Oh and A LOT of students keep asking me how old am I.
"cher, you look very young leh, you 16 ah?"
"cher if you wear uniform hor I think you can just sit with us and be a student!"
"cher you 20+? (I bluff them one) you got so old meh?"
"cherrrrrr, tell us you how old leyyyyy!"
"HUH TEACHER YOU ARE 38 YEARS OLD WITH 2 KIDS?!" -The lower sec really believed me......
and one very epic question from a sec one boy today.
"cher where you get your dress from ah? Look like our DnT apron leh..."
TOTALLY WANT TO THROW MY MARKER AT HIM LOL.
Reached Republic Poly for the Fuchun Fiesta. Only me and Jasper went :0 The fiesta was ok la not that bad hhahaha quite enjoyed it~ 8D and only during the whole fiesta I realised that I haven't had my dinner...it was like 9pm liddat lol. Ended at like 10+, walked with Jasper to take 161, the whole time was crazy we kept laughing at stupid stuff. I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE HE IS SO RETARDED AND LOLOLOLOL HAHAHHAHAA.
ok.
So my teaching job has came to an end. Today is my last day in Fuchun Sec. Goshhhh I only taught for 3 weeks only and I feel so attached to the students already :( I will really really miss the kids, cute ones annoying ones, rebellious ones not really but it's still a... bittersweet memory?
Teaching is really a very good experience. I was so glad that I took up this job. This job is like so not mundane, cos you dunno what to expect everyday! It's like taking up new challenges. You will never know what is going to happen in the next class that you are going. Ok actually I think partly because the school is a neighbourhood school. No offence but honestly speaking it's not like in my sec school Zhonghua Sec, there won't be any students to say "shut the fuck up" right in the teacher's face without any fear, those really atrocious and ridiculous behaviour from students. So I think it's like kinda of eye opener for me, to be exposed to such stuff and not living in my own world where I thought all students in Singapore are like good kids with good behaviours.
These 3 weeks felt like a year or smth, having experienced so many incidents in one go. Not all are bad la. Shall list them down by the level of severity.
1) the most LOL one, students call me gangster -.- Lower sec hor. They say I very fierce .__. I slammed my palm on their desk and told them to stop talking and they started saying I'm a gangster and the way I walk and talk, the actions, all like gangster. OK can.
Another one was I got totally pissed off by the entire class. I was going through Science worksheet AND THE WHOLE CLASS JUST NOT PAYING ATTENTION. Shouting, walking around the class, disturbing others. Wa that one really make me go crazy HERE I AM TRYING TO HARD TO MAKE THEM UNDERSTAND THEIR MISTAKES, THEY JUST IGNORE ME AND MY EFFORTS! Buay tahan sia even the bell rang alr I still tried to go through few more questions with them leh! BUT THEY DUN CAREEEE THEY DUN RESPECT ME! That's the final straw ok I just stormed out of class without ending the lessons properly. Just walked off.
Then David told me that when he walked into the same class (he was taking the class after my period), they were totally silent. Pin-drop silence. Think they got scared by me HAHAHAHA LOLLLLL max. Ok a few days later one student walked past me and say sorry to me when I dun even know what was going on! Turns out that he was from that class and he apologized for being so noisy HAHAH I ALSO CANNOT RMB HIS FACE....
2) I was called coach by one of the sec 4 NA class... Hhahaa this one funny cos when I relief that class they were all hyped up about interclass (later in the day) and one group of boys were talking about tactics and set plays for bball. I saw then I chupped in also hahah at first they didn't believe that I was a bballer. When I used those bball terms they were like "waaaa you bball one ah?!" Smth liddat la. Then I taught them set plays and defence skills on the whiteboard hhahaha Idk they understand or not but they were fixated on the whiteboard where I drew the set plays!
And guess what, they got first for interclass basketball!! AHAHHAHAHAHA OK THIS ONE IDK WHETHER THEY ALL GOT USE MY SET PLAYS OR HEED MY ADVICES NOT HAHAHA BUT FROM THEN ONWARDS THEY STARTED CALLING ME COACH WHENEVER THEY SEE ME HAHAHHAHA LOLOLOLOL!!! Totally LOL leh wthhh.
3) Not all are so funny one ok, I've dealt with rebellious and fearless ones. I was relieving one upper sec NT class. They were all using phones omg. I gave them warning but they all like bo chup sia. I went up to one girl/ah lian and asked her to keep her phone, she say I'm just a relief teacher only care so much. So I said like I'm still a teacher no matter what and guess what she say? "Can you just shut the fuck up". RIGHT IN MY FACE MAN. And her face is like the totally defiant face. I was totally stunned eh. I kinda put up a brave front but inside I was like....what the hell did she just say?! It's totally unbelievable eh.
So anw since she say I'm just a relief teacher I can't do anything so..... I went to the Discipline Masters Room. Serious what if she thinks that I can't do anything cos I'm a relief teacher, then I can only find the DM to settle it what right. -.-
4) It happened on my second last day of work, took one sec 3 NA class, gave them work to do, some got do, some dun care, and all of a sudden I see tables and chairs all overturned. Guess what happened? Some guys in class disturbed one guy who was kinda ostracised by his class and I think there were heated arguments, I never hear cos the class wasn't quiet, and suddenly they were flipping chairs and tables... like a 9gag.
They almost fought uh, both parties stood up and look as if they were ready to fight and was taunting each other. Quite an incident uh, in the end I seeked help from teacher next door and a school counsellor took the guy who got disturbed away.
5) Oh still got one it was inside the staff lounge where my colleagues kinda mentioned my name and one of teacher who was beside us heard and say, "oh so you are Ms Chu? My class speaks highly of you, say you very nice..." Turns out that I have no impression of the class at all I dun even remember taking their class!
But anw later during the day I walked past the class AND I SUDDENLY REMEMBERED. I took them for maths and I taught them how to do math questions! I remember clearly I was teaching one of them a sum and asked the student whether she understand or not she was like, "aiya ok la I think can la". But it is obviously notttt so I said, " NOOO you dun understand right! I have to make sure you understand!!" And I taught the same thing over again until she really got it! Hahha this one I really feel happy :)
But of cos, HOW CAN I NOT MENTION MY WONDERFUL COLLEAGUES- XIAO WEN, DAVID AND JASPER!! HAHAHAHA had so much laughter with them, makes teaching an even more enjoyable job with them around!! All those random stuff from Jasper like LOLOLOLOL, hansum, harrow, "COME PIKA PIKA" AHHAHA WTH I WANNA LAUGH AGAIN LOLLLL. David and his hundred of fangirls and fanboys in sch, yes fanboys. During lower sec recess all 4 of us went down to canteen to eat too, EVERYBARDY'S HEAD ALL TURN LIKE RIPPLE EFFECT AND ALL LOOK AT DAVID that moment was epic, totally epic. Girls go gaga over him, take photos of him secretly omgosh........ And Xiao Wen who laughs at everything and always help me suan Jasper HEHEHEHEHE THANKS NICOLE~ LOL AND YA THANKS ALOT FOR GIVING ME THIS NAME- PIKA CHU. HAHAHA
Oh myyyy what a lengthy post. Photos up next time!!
Thursday, March 01, 2012, 10:57 PM
TGIF....not
Alright it's been another week. Been out these few days heh heh.Saturday is make sushi day at Gogo's house with Shimin and Jason! :D the sushi was super nice trust me cos is we make one what duh HAHAHHAA. We had sausage, cucumber, crabmeat, salmon mayo and........... CHICKEN NUGGETS HAAHHA IT'ZZZ VERY NICEEEEE! 8D
But we made abit too much ah and plus sushi rice is quite filling in the first place so we still had like 10+ pieces left when we were all like bloated alr! So, we played the number game! The one who got the number must eat one piece of sushi! So this is how we cleared all the sushis muahahaha.
It was funnn :) making sushi is fun, eatin sushi is also fun hehehaahahoooo.
What else... tues and wed went back to AJ haha went back to see juniors, talk cock and Jasmine went to be santa claus and gave out her tidbits from Japan!
AND WALAO I'M VERY JEALOUS OF HER SHE GOT ALL THE CHEAP BUYS FROM JAPAN WTHHHHH LAST TIME I GO JAPAN ALL THE STUFF I SEE SO BLOODY EX I'M ANGRY!!!!!! D:<
OK chilllllllllllllllllll. She gave me a hairclip from Japan WHICH I LIKE ALOTTTT it's kinda vintagey BUT ME LIKEY!!! 8D
Today went out with piguuuuuu aka Jennifer! I MISS HER SOOOOO MUCH D: It's been so long since I last seen her!! Like a few months! WHY MUST YOU FLY TO KOREA D:
Anw we had sushi buffet at sakae which is only $16!!! SO WORTH IT OMGOSH we both ate till damn full! Ate alot of plates of sushi, shared one udon and a cup of ice cream each! And we sat there for like 2+ hours? Talked about lots of stuff awww it's always so nice to have her around CUZ WE HAZ TELEPATHY RIGHTTTTT! Felt so good after catching up with her even though I was very tired after teaching... teaching is tiring. More tiring than playing basketball which I dun understand why. Serious.
Anddd tmr getting back A levels results. Honestly I dun wanna take back my results. I wished that this day will never come, but it came too soon. I know I will kinda screw it up badly. It was only till like last minute then I started to buck up. All the time during j1 and half of j2 I dun think I really put my heart and effort to studying. It was all basketball and tennis(for j1) trainings, seasons, piano exam, cheerleading and what not. Idk, maybe I'm just lacking the confidence but I think that I could have put in much more effort, so much more. So I guess...when tmr when I get back my results, I can only tell myself I deserve it and you reap what you sow.
No more miracles like I had for promos, for piano exam. Will it?
Thursday, February 23, 2012, 12:00 AM
New experience
I've been teaching for 2 days at a sec sch. Yesssss I'm a relief teacher now teaching geography!The day before I started to teach was full of anticipation, worries, uncertainty. I was most afraid of not being able to handle the class, rather than not being able to teach. True enough, after I had my very first lesson, it was chaotic. Ok not really chaotic, but it's like no matter how many times I shouted at them to lower down their volume their noise level remains the same. I couldn't get their attention, and they just walked around like I'm totally invisible!
Ok really a culture shock.
And anyway first day I had to take a lot of relief classes, other than my geography classes cos I think quite a lot of teachers are on leave. So first day was quite draining for me.
But second day... IT WAS SO MUCH BETTER!! I didn't know how I managed to do it also lah think I look very stern or smth and keep walking around the class to ask them do their own work. So not bad heheh :D
Ok after my lessons ended I went to ZHSS! Wanted to get my bball shirt but dunno why no more... nvm. Met Renjun too! He's teaching in ZHSS btw (SO JEALOUZZZ) and we slacked all the way from 2-6pm waiting for Ryan gogo to come.
In the mean time, I saw a lot of my teachers AND THEY ALL CAN STILL RECOGNISE ME LOL. But cannot remember my name... I know why, must be I too pretty or smth JUZ KIDDING LOL. Deng Lao Shi saw me she just totally shout my name out! Soooo touched she still remembers my name :') And Mrs Ng (?) my sec 2 lit teacher SHE REMEMBERS MY NAME ALSO WTFFF THAT'S FREAKY LOL it's like for a very short period of time only!!!
Still got Mrs Wong, Mrs Ong, Mrs Raj, Mr Ng, Mrs Ngiam...etc etc. Hehhe when they saw me they were like "why are you back" then I will tell them "Oh I'm doing relief teaching in Zhss starting tmr...."
HAHAHAHHAHAHA WTF VERY FUN TO BLUFF THEM THEY REALLY BELIEVE AND MOST OF THEM WERE LIKE, "OH GOOD GOOD SO I WILL SEE YOU TMR THEN!"
WTH RIGHT HHEHEHAHAHHAHOOOO.
Ok so anw, Renjun bring me around the school and wtf it changed alot! After roaming around the school catching up with each other (love catching up with him :D ) and made alot of small jokes and stuff we went to look at vball training.
Watch until buay tahan very tired lehhh so I slept while RJ played his bejeweled. I totally fell asleep leh!!
Then meet Ryan for dinner at opp ZHSS! Sogurt afterwards and home!
Okkkk need to go and sleep alr bye
Monday, February 20, 2012, 9:18 PM
LONG LONG TIME NEVER POST!!!! Been very very busy looking for jobs (finally lol). Gave up looking for tuition and started looking for admin jobs. Sent in my resumes to alot of companies and went for... TWO interviews. One for teaching piano at Cristofori Music School and another one at IMH for temp admin. Guess what, I got the job for teaching piano leh HAHAHAHA SERIOUSLY MAN during interview I was asked to play 2 songs. My second piece was pretty screwed up cos I keep stumbling alot. Why? Cos I only put in effort to practise on the day before interview. And also the room was cold I was abit shivery and nervous yada yada.
But I think my interview answers not bad :) So probably thats why I got accepted! Hahaaaaa~ YEAH MAN MY FIRST JOB INTERVIEW SUCCESSFULLLLLLLL~
But... I'm gonna reject the job... :( I wanted that job badly so you would have guessed that I was overjoyed when they called and tell me I got the job. But need to sign contract for at least one and a half YEARS if not need to compensate. Sigh so mostly likely need to reject the job cos might be studying overseas :(
SIGHHHH sad right.
Interview at IMH was kinda...hilarious?? That interview was much tougher than the piano one cos the questions they ask like...so unexpected. OK maybe cos I never really prepare myself beforehand but anw in the middle of the interview my interviewer asked me who is my basketball coach in zhss. I was like, "Huh?????" Totally man. Everything was so serious and stuff and suddenly she popped up this question!!! Turns out she's from zhss bball last time too! Damn senior sia!
So, still no answers from IMH but it's ok I GOT A JOB ALR OMG IT'S A CHALLENGE TO MYSELF MAN I'M GONNA BE A GEOG RELIEF TEACHER AT SEC SCH OMGGGGGGG.
It's really a good chance ok how many times can you get to do relief teaching in a sec sch? So hard to come by!! arghhhhh but I'm most worried about whether I can handle the class not x___x Scared ahhhh it's tmr but I'm still here blogging WHAT AM I DOING OMGOSHHH OK BUT NVM I WAS CHOOSING MY WORKING CLOTHES FROM MY PATHETIC WARDROBE FOR AN HOUR.
I think I'm crazy. Today I went down to the sec sch to get the books and stuff I saw their vice principal, I SAID HI TO THE PRINCIPAL LIKE SHE'S MY FRIEND LIDDAT INSTEAD OF GREETING HER GOOD MORNING WTH DUNNO WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME SERIOUSLY!!!!
And I tried out teaching p6 math tuition last sat, TOTALLY FAIL MAN SIGH THROW FACE MAX I STARE AT THE QUESTION THE QUESTION STARE BACK AT ME ZZZ.
Okok chillax, on a lighter note I went to TP last thurs! Met up with Zhihui, Yujun and Jianzhong! Ate at sugarloaf! Hehhehe had lots of fun when we met up! Hehehee.
ok need to go prepare myself for tmr SIGH.
Wednesday, February 01, 2012, 11:51 PM
Getting old
Indeed. You know you are getting older when you start looking back at your childhood memories and actually missing them. Thinking about life, future.Thinking about how I've gotten 1st in cross country in sec sch. Man, if you ask me to run a competitive cross country I think I can never do that again.
It's like you are losing drive. 力不从心，失去了少年时的动力。
It seemed like yesterday when my family talked about NS and we just waved it aside saying, "Bro's still so young, dun need to think about army now la!"
And today, we sent him off to Tekong.
Dun wanna grow old.
Hahhaha dunno why today so much thoughts kbye
2:15 AM
HELLLOOO EVERYBARDY.I'm here to blog again cos I had a little bit of life recently...
Sooooo, Sat had bbq steamboat at Zhihui's house with Yujun! ^^ Ma besties since pri sch leyyyyy. Miss them soooooooooooooooooo much cos we seldom meet up :( But had lots of fun with them! Talking cock, messing up YJ's room, throwing her n number of bras around HEHEHEHEHE LOLOLOL.
It's their final year in poly JIAYOU OK BOTH OF YOU! *MUACKS*
Mon went out with Liwei to orchard! Need to spend my new look vouchers...I still think new look the things too overpriced alr. And its not like their stuff very special or what. -___-
And of cos, quoting from lw's blog "Seriously I wonder why we're always full of shit when we go out."
Hahaha idk either I think it must be your childhood stories totally LOLOLOL all the way. Should go on 9gag la hor. Hahhaa.
Really had a fun time hanging out with her. Laughed at the elephant print shirt. Can count it when you cannot sleep. Had a good chat with her too I felt so much better after letting out everything that is bottling up inside me. Thanks love :)
Aish, my bro's enlisting in 10 hours time. I know I've said that I can't wait for him to get into army...but today...I'm starting to miss him alr :( OK THAT WAS BECAUSE HE WAS BEING NICE TODAY WHICH I WONDER WHY ALSO PROBABLY WE WERE IN PARALLEL UNIVERSE! >:(
Soooooooo, the beanie which he asked me to help him buy shall become a present from me!
WILL MISS HIM ANNOYING ME LA. LOL.
koped photos!
Sunday, January 22, 2012, 1:44 AM
I AM BORED.I MIZZ SCHOOL.
I MIZZ SITTING IN LECTURES AND DOZE OFF.
I MIZZ NUA-ING IN READING ROOM.
I MIZZ TALKING COCK TO MY FRIENDS.
ONE DAY I WILL CRASH AJ AND PRETEND TO BE A STUDENT AGAIN.
Cos I really miss being a student. Just mug everyday, no other things on my mind except for bball and thinking of what to eat during breaks.
Maybe, maybe, we are all getting old. It's our last teen year. We are nine-teen, next year is twenty. No more teen. :(
Ok la maybe I'm just bored...
Miss my JC life:
Our very first day.
Orientation
Being retarded
Doing lab work
Miss the tallie/lamie/copie
My worn out bball shoes. Loved them the most no idea why.
Doing cheerleading stunts
Waiting for lesson to start
Mixing with vendors
Whacking balls
Adrenaline rush
Trying hard
Pigu/same bag
Sleeping in class
SHORT HAIR HAAHAHHAA
kbye.
Saturday, January 21, 2012, 12:51 AM
I'm not sure
if we still can go back to the past. Undeniably I miss those times. I'm still holding on to a very tiny little hope. I'm not sure if you do, but none of us are taking the first step.I'm most likely studying university overseas. Most likely. So I guess if that's really the case, then, that's the end of us.
And probably others too.
Sigh.
Sunday, January 15, 2012, 11:46 AM
Content
Recently I came across things that probed me. I realised I dunno how to be contented. It just suddenly struck me how I always wished for things to go my way, yearned for things that are beyond my reach. It made me neglect the things, the people around me in the pursue of things that are not mine. And that, I realised I wasn't truly happy.Back in Hongkong, when Siying went to ask the temple's lot interpreter whether she is contented or not, it didn't hit me that I needed to ask this question too. I even wondered why she asked this question. Why didn't she ask about love life or studies?
I should have asked that question too eh? Maybe the lot interpreter will tell me my mum will put in her best effort to make me feel contented lolololol.
Anyway, I went to search "how to be contented" and came across this website, 17 timeless secrets of happy people.
"1. Forget the past
One of the keys to happiness is a bad memory.
Rita Mae Brown
You won’t be happy if you carry the burden of the past. Did you make mistakes? Did you have terrible experiences? Whatever they are, you should let them go. There’s nothing you can do about the past, so you’d better let them go and focus your energy on the present."
That is true. I always hang on to the past. Always looking back at the memories. But there's nothing I can do. I forgive, but never forget. So I guess I will need to take some time to really let go and be happy.
I really need to learn.
Wednesday, January 11, 2012, 12:41 AM
Summary of 2011
Haaaa I know this post is wayyy too late it's supposed to be the first post of the year! Nvm la hor, better late than never mah.2011 should be considered a bad year for me. A year which I think I lost the old self. I felt that I was different from last time, not the sociable one anymore, but the one which started building walls around herself. I have no idea why I became liddat too. I no longer open up to people, finding myself awkward and uncomfortable around people.
Could be cos I've been mugging hard for A's after season huh. I think around Mar- May 2011 I started appearing offline on msn. Only RJ will always expose me with, "eh I know you're online"/"eh you there right".
Dunno how he know one also lololol.
Basketball season should be the best that I have in 2011. 4th in nationals... :') Darn proud of my girls, did AJ proud, everyone else who had high hopes for us.
Missing the adrenaline rush on the court terribly.
Missing the times we shouted "AJ, team!" together.
Missing the times when we trained our ass off (esp intervals totally x__x).
Missing the times when we played on court under pressure, the will and determination to win, the never giving up spirit. I saw it, I can feel it.
Missing the times when we tried to get every ball in.
Not missing the times when I always broke down during training. That is a flaw; I shouldn't be liddat it affected everyone on the team :(
And when we crossed rounds to semis and finally clinching national 4th, it was all worth it; the sweat and tears.
Girls continue to work hard ok! Will be seeing you all play during season this year!
The joy when we won NYJC by 2 points and got into top 4. Yes the one with red hairband is me SHORT HAIR HOR LOL.
Medals and trophy!Other than that was the intense mugging period nearing A's with Jason Seow, Ryan Goh Bear Bear, Shimin, Xiquan and Xiuhuan! Hhhhaha everyday camp in school library until library closes at 6.30pm and we will curse the librarian for closing earlier, keep saying she wants to go home watch suria/ai/etc hahahha. Then sometimes stay until even later like around 7+ outside the staff room.
Study until fall asleep and drooled countless times HEH HEH. Trying to remember all the geog/econs/chem content into our tiny weeny brain (except for gogo) and forgetting about it the next day hahaha.
Consultations with teachers super late in the year, after prelims. Was abit scared and felt unprepared whenever I go for consultations, esp chem :0 scared scared sia hahhaa.
I remember geog was the most horrible. So much content its all need to squeeze into my already fried brain! And it's only H1. Sooooo glad that I dropped to H1 if not I will die from stress sia!
Actually recently I thought of something. That decisions really matters. If I didn't make the wrong choice when I was in sec 4, then probably I wouldn't have end up with 2 CCAs, and then probably my studies wouldn't have been so badly affected. Hahha of cos who knows la hor. But high chances though.
Well I think my 2nd year in AJ I really toned down alot. Not as hyped as in J1 hahaa. Life has its ups and downs right? :)
Lastly, not forgetting my friends who've been with me throughout my JC life supporting me, whether long or short. Liwei, RenJun, Jennifer, Jasmine, Bernice, Joanne. Studying partners Ryan Goh, Jason Seow, Shimin, Xiuhuan, Xiquan. Love you all!
THIS IS SO LONG AGO.........
mugging hard in sch library!
Usual nonsense when studying in library.
In school library too.
hhehehe!
when we all had short hair!
XOXO!