Monday, July 16, 2012
Break Time!
My blog has been seriously neglected, but I have a good reason. We will be moving into our house in about 1 month, so things have been getting steadily crazier each day we get closer to it. Needless to say, I will be busy over the next month (maybe two) and will try to post again once we get moved in and a little more settled.
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
What if?
I've been thinking a lot lately about what I would do if Jackson were to have autism. (there's a 12% chance he could) I watch everything he does and everytime he does something odd or something that Braden would do the thought creeps into my head.."what if?" When we decided to have another baby we knew there would be a chance of him having autism, but at the time I really felt we were prepared to handle it. Now, I just dread the thought and it cripples me with fear and overwhelms me if I think about the possibility. To think about trying to do everything we did with Braden (but without the support system we had) makes me want to run for the hills. It scares the crap out of me. It was SO dang HARD and every inch gained was worked for, and it constantly changes and presents new challenges. It's NEVER ending! I sit and pray to my father in heaven that Jackson will be ok. But I know that what I WANT isn't usually what heavenly father has in mind for me and that scares me. Before I EVER had children, my BIGGEST fear was having a child with autism and that's exactly what I got. I've got to find a way to square myself with the possibility, I just don't know how to do that. How do I make myself say "it's ok, we can do this." when I feel completely overwhelmed at the thought of it. Jackson is very different from Braden in many ways, so that gives me some hope. I suppose there's nothing I can do but wait and see what happens (and try not to think about it too much).
Thursday, March 22, 2012
Who Reads My Blog?
Ok, so I know my posts have come to be few and far between, but I just can't help it! Things get busy, we forget to take pictures or we only take them from our cell phones (because they are always in our hands our camera is a piece of junk) and then you have to go to the trouble of downloading all the pictures...etc. And if I don't have any pictures to post, it would just be me rambling on about stuff (like right now). And then I get to thinking about what to SAY on my blog, THEN I get to thinking "who reads this thing anyway?". That's about the time my couch and a book start calling to me. You get the picture. I started this blog as a way to keep my family and friends updated on our "goings on" because I was tired of trying to email pictures to a million people. It was a central location where my family could "check in" and see how we're doing and what not. THEN I found the blog book software! I probably would have stopped blogging a while ago, but since I'm unable to find the space or time to scrapbook anymore, I figured the blog book is as good a way as any to keep a record of "The Weber Family". I'm basically debating with myself whether or not to keep blogging. And if I do keep blogging, things may change a bit. I don't know that I'll just post "fluff" and fun pictures anymore (don't worry, if there's fluff to post, I will). I began my blog when Braden was just a baby. He hadn't even been diagnosed with Autism yet. I blogged about that process quite a bit and it was nice to have an outlet for my thoughts (it's totally different from a journal though, that's where you write the things you're not willing to tell ANYONE). I've gone back and read those posts and I'm glad that I kept it up. The thing is, life with autism is STILL going and we're faced with brand new challenges everyday. And anyone who REALLY knows me, knows I'm not really an optimist. I TRY to be, but I can't stop that "realist" brain of mine from taking over sometimes. So, here it is...I will probably continue blogging, but I may not post pictures as much and I won't even promise to post more often, cause I just can't be sure I can keep that promise. I think my posts will probably begin centering around life in our house as I see it, and no, it's not always pretty. A lot of things frustrate the tar out of me, and I'm going to blog about those things too. I guess this is just fair warning to those of you who read my blog and think... "man, I'm worried about Emily. She seems pretty negative lately." The truth is, those frustrations have been there all along, I've just been glazing over it. My posts will be getting more REAL if that makes sense. SO, to make a short story long, I guess I'm curious about who actually takes the time to read my blog (as if my life story is riveting) and those who come just for the fluff. (please feel free to leave a comment about which you prefer) If no one really reads it anymore, I'll just post pictures on facebook and write to myself in my journal (yes, mom I'm STILL writing in my journal after 19 years). I don't even think my mom checks my blog anymore unless I email her and tell her I updated it. I don't think I'm a great writer, but I do have my own way of looking at things and writing about them, and it's usually heavy on the sarcasm. Anyone who knows the rest of my family, will TOTALLY understand why I'm that way. So, going forward, be prepared for the good, the bad and the ugly, not always in that order. ;-)
Sunday, February 26, 2012
Big News!
We are finally buying a house! We found a brand new subdivision being built and we are the 2nd people to buy a home there. It's in a small town about 20 minutes from where we are now. This is a picture of the elevation and floorplan we will be building. We are so excited about it! It's been 12 years since we had our own house and the boys will have a backyard! I'm so excited about THAT! Braden will love having somewhere to run around outside again! Braden is so excited about it too, when we explained to him that we were building a new house, he said he wanted to help build it. :-) We should be closing in August. Time to start "de-cluttering" and getting things organized! I'm just so excited that this will be the last time we have to move for a very long time!
Birthday Party!
Braden and his birthday guests, Reese and Jesse, coming down the giant slide at Monkey Joe's jump house
Braden and Reese
Braden opening his presents. This Hero Factory robot is 124 pieces and Braden put it together all by himself! He is such a SMART kid!
Braden is into anything lego, but at the moment he's really liking the ningago sets. I'm sure he'll be moving on to something else soon.
A Mater Spy from Jesse
Kinex monster trucks from Reese
Getting ready to blow out his candle
Braden had a really great birthday party. He and his friends went to the jump house and played for a while then came home and had pizza and cup cakes and ice cream. He was so excited about his presents he couldn't wait to open them. He loved all his gifts. I can't believe how big he's getting! He's growing up so fast. Sometimes he says the most grown up things, it shocks me! We were in the car the other day and he was coughing and I asked him if he was ok, and he says "I'm fine mom, don't worry about me." What a little man! Happy Birthday Braden! Having you in our lives has been the most amazing experience!
Update!
My sweet boys ready for church
We have the cutest kids EVER! No contest!!
Braden got his first major "boo-boo". He fell at school and had to get 3 staples in his head.
Thursday, January 5, 2012
We've Got a MOBILE Baby!
UPDATE 2/26/2012: Well, Jackson is now CRAWLING!!! He's getting quick and he's decided he wants to get into EVERYTHING! I'll be on my toes from now on!
Well, it's official! Jackson has figured out how to scoot! (I will try to upload a video if I can) He's almost crawling! We're in trouble now! I can't believe how fast he's learning! Everything with Jackson has been so different than it was with Braden that I always feel like I'm a first time mom again! He's such a funny baby and definitely has a personality! He always wants to be played with and gets really mad if you walk away from him. He babbles and talks and sounds like he's trying to tell a story. He will say "da-da" (which I think is so unfair because it's just easier to say than mama) now and other sounds. He gets frustrated when he's trying to scoot to something that he's having a hard time getting to. He especially loves going after the package of wipes we keep on the floor with his diaper stuff. He scooted 4 FEET, passed his toys, just to get to the WIPES! He absolutely LOVES Braden and anytime Braden talks to him or plays with him or even LOOKS at him he just smiles and laughs!
Well, it's official! Jackson has figured out how to scoot! (I will try to upload a video if I can) He's almost crawling! We're in trouble now! I can't believe how fast he's learning! Everything with Jackson has been so different than it was with Braden that I always feel like I'm a first time mom again! He's such a funny baby and definitely has a personality! He always wants to be played with and gets really mad if you walk away from him. He babbles and talks and sounds like he's trying to tell a story. He will say "da-da" (which I think is so unfair because it's just easier to say than mama) now and other sounds. He gets frustrated when he's trying to scoot to something that he's having a hard time getting to. He especially loves going after the package of wipes we keep on the floor with his diaper stuff. He scooted 4 FEET, passed his toys, just to get to the WIPES! He absolutely LOVES Braden and anytime Braden talks to him or plays with him or even LOOKS at him he just smiles and laughs!
My Handsome Boys!
This was taken on Christmas day. Jeremy was going to take Braden to church (I was sick) but apparently we missed the announcment that the time had changed and no one was there! But hey! They looked pretty darn handsome! :)Christmas 2011!
Jackson opening his very FIRST present (we each open one present on Christmas Eve)
Opening...
Opening...
Still Opening...
Ahhh! Just what I wanted! The PAPER! I don't think he even looked at the present (but I didn't really expect him to be super excited about pajamas). He was much more interested in opening presents than we thought he would be, but he really did want to eat all the shiny paper! Crazy baby!
Braden opening his Christmas Eve gift
What do you know! We all got P.J.'s! :)
Jeremy opening his (still wearing his apron from cooking a delicious prime rib for dinner! I'm so blessed to have a husband who is such a good cook!)
Jackson in his new P.J.'s. He was the cutest little candy cane I've ever seen!
The boys together in their "jam-jams" (as Braden calls them).
The stockings have been hung... The kids are in bed... I think it's time for Santa to come! 
A plethora of presents!
Braden checking out the gifts (if you're wondering why he's wearing different P.J.'s...let's just say we had a defective nightime diaper. nuff said.)
Jackson checking out his stocking stuffers
Braden peeking into his stocking
Jackson really has a thing for paper products!
Jackson playing with some of his new toys
Ok, time to open the big gifts!
Jackson loved the toy that Braden picked out for him!
He really loved tearing into his presents, and Braden loved helping too! In fact, Braden tried to help everyone open their gifts!
Aunt Sarah opening her gift
Braden's big gift...
He got a star wars imperial at-at walker (it's seriously the size of a large dog!)
Braden helping Jackson open his gift
Jackson playing in his new "toy"This Christmas was great for so many reasons! It was Jackson's FIRST Christmas, so it was so fun to watch him learn about this fun time, and He was so cute opening his presents! My Sister was able to spend the holidays with us before going back to AZ and it was so nice to have her here and for her to enjoy this time with the kids. We really miss our family in AZ the most this time of year, but we're hoping to be able to make it out there for Christmas some year. Braden really misses his cousins in "zona" and talks about going there all the time.
We're trying to teach Braden about the TRUE meaning of Christmas, so we got an animated telling of the story of Jesus' birth. When it came to the part where Herod orders the babies to be killed, Braden FREAKED OUT! He was hysterical! He was crying and crying and we kept trying to explain that baby Jesus was going to be safe (even though its sad that the other babies got hurt). Finally, when he saw that baby Jesus was ok, he stopped (he also asked where his baby brother was). When we said his prayers before bed, he said "thank you for baby Jesus being safe". He has such a sweet spirit and a tender heart. I have NO idea how we will ever be able to explain the atonement and crucifixion to him. Braden loves the holidays so much that the other day, He asked daddy "is it time for Halloween?". He may be ready to start it all over, but I'm certainly glad for the ten month break!! :)
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