Is it my turn yet?

Just got back from my ultrasound and everything looks good.

There was one baby and it had a yolk sack which is good.

They want to see a heartbeat when I go in again next Tuesday.

My due date is January 26, 2012.

My only issue is that my RE said to go back on the baby aspirin.  My hemo doctor told me to go off of it because I was on Lovenox and my RE knows I am on Lovenox and wants me to go back on it - so what should I do??  Was anyone else in a similar situation.  Did anyone take Lovenox and Baby Aspirin??

I will post the ultrasound picture when I get home today.

I had more bloodwork done today to make sure I am not having any reaction to the Lovenox - so far so good.

I really have no pregnancy signs other than I am just really tried and take a nap everyday after work.

I have decided to quit my photography class - they are going to give me a credit to take a class in the fall.

According to ivf.ca my due date is January 25, 2012 - which is one day after my 12 year anniversary of being with John.  I will have to see if it is correct on Tuesday.

I will update on Tuesday was to how many little ones are in my belly. My ultrasound is at 9 am.  Just praying for healthiness.



I hope everyone has a wonderful long weekend.

1798 - so it more than doubled - I think that is a good second beta --right???
My platelet count and hemoglobin looks perfect.  Though I must say that Lovenox sucks - it burns so bad going in. 

My progrestrone and estrogen is good as well.
Everything looks good on paper.
First ultrasound next Tuesday - May 31st.
Stick baby or babies stick - please.

Okay now on to the crazy part of this post - I am thinking of quitting my photgraphy class because I do not want to do to much - the class is on Wednesday nights but it ends up being a really long day for me - I am suppose to go tonight but that will mean that I left the house at 6:30 am this morning and I will not get home until 9:00 pm tonight - I go right from working all day to class and I think it is too much for me now.  I am not going tonight and I am trying to decide if I should just quit -  I do not want to have any regrets.  Am I crazy or what??

810 - I am officially pregnant!!!!!
I go in Wednesday for a repeat beta so please send doubling beta vibes my way.
I start Lovenox injections tonight and meet with my hemo doctor tomorrow afternoon at 1 pm for more bloodwork and then again on Saturday.
First ultrasound will be next Wednesday!!

I am happy and excited but very nervous at the same time - I hope my whole pregnancy is not going to be like this - I am trying to think only postitive thoughts - this pregnancy is different than the last pregnancy.

I am thinking twins!!!

I tested last night...













BFP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so excited and so scared - praying for a good beta number tomorrow.

First off I have to say how much I love acupuncture.  It has helped me in so many way - yes it is expensive but it is so worth it to me.  First I started getting acupuncture treatments to help with my stomach issues about a year ago and my acupunctuist Jessica was the one that suggest that I try a gluten free diet because she believe I had a gluten intolerance and she was so right.  Then we started working on my anxiety issues and then moved onto helping with my blood clotting disorder and then to the fertility issues. 

She was there for my transfer - and did a treatment to help with implantation and I went back yesterday and she did a treatment to help the baby or babies stick and sunggle in tight.  She also made a prediction that I am pregnant.  She said she can tell by my pluse.  She said she can always feel if someone is pregnant or not and she has a feeling that I am pregnant.

It is not scienific and it is just a feeling - but I will take it as a good sign - I am not going to get overly excited about it though - I will wait until the beta to be sure.  She also can predict gender by pluse as well.  So if I am pregnant I want to try and have her predict the gender.

If you are thinking about acupuncture I would highly recommend giving it a try - it has done wonders for me.

I got a call from the RE Nurse yesterday afternoon - and they said my progestrone looked great but my estrogen was a bit low - it was 87 and they like to see it above 100.  I started estrodiol pills last night - taking them twice a day - just another pill to add to the mix - I think the count now is 10 pills a day.

I also talked to my hemo doctor - she said if I find out I am pregnant next Monday - then to fill the Lovenox script and start it that day and call her to set up an appointment for the following day to get bloodwork done.

I am trying to just lay low right now and not get to overwhlemed or start overthinking things - it is going to be what it is going to be.

I know it is too early for this but last time I was pregnant my boobs felt so heavy even before I got my positive beta - this time nothing - I am crampy though and so very bloated- I hate the 2ww - one week down - one week to go.  Those moms out there - who have had more than one child - tell me every pregnancy is different and that you get different sypmtoms each time - at least that is what I am hoping.  I just really want this to work.

I got a fortune that says Happiness is coming my way - Suffering has ended - so maybe that is a good sign.

I am starting a photography class on Wednesday - I figured if I am not pregnant it will give me something to look forward to  - I am also going to the NKOTBSB concert on June 5th so I am excited about that.  I was a huge fan when I was 13 but we were too poor to afford concert tickets - so now that I have the money I want to go - they will be playing all of their old songs - it is going to be great!!

Hubby is really stepping it up too - he went food shopping yesterday - did all of the wash and cleaning and even made dinner.  He is taking really good care of me.  We went to a dart banquet on Friday night - here is a picture of us.

My brother has been married for 5 years - he has two daughters - and a son on the way.  It is a very unhappy marriage and my brother has recently filed for divorce and will be seeking primary custody of the children - yes it sounds bad that my brother has filed for divorce while his wife is pregnant but some of the back story is that his wife went behind his back and got pregnant - he thought she was on birth control and she went off of it without telling him and got pregnant and did not tell him until she was in the second trimester and she told him (and everyone else) by posting it on facebook. 

Well I have never gotten in the middle of their issues - honestly it is none of business - I have told her several times I want to be in her life and in the children's lives.  Now that things have gotten nasty between them she told me not to e-mail her anymore and do not try to call the children and do not send anything to them or she will throw it out.  What am I suppose to do - I want a relationship with my nieces and my new soon to be born nephew.  I have never done anything to her and it is not fair for her to shut me out.

I have tried several time to contact her - I do not want my nieces and nephew to not know who I am - I want them to be in my life.  I am afraid she will get primary custody and I will never see them again - is there any solution - is there anything I can do to make this better??

Which ones:

Girl Names

Lorelei Regina
Madeline Regina
Jillian Regina
Elise Regina
Quinn Regina

Boy Names

First name: Collin or Colin

Middle Name: Thomas or John

Would love your thoughts and opinions - just for fun!!!

I had my transfer this morning at 11:45 am and it went well - they transfer two grade A blasts.  But out of the five they thawed last week only one made it - so they had to take two out of the four Day 5 embryos I still had frozen out this morning and only one of them made it - so we only had two to transfer.  They are the best two though - one from the 2pn batch and one from the day fuve batch.  We only have two day five embryos left frozen - but lets hope we will not need them.

I also had acupuncture before the transfer and after the transfer - now I am home in bed and hubby is making me a nice big breakfast - I was told to stay home tomorrow so I will call out.  I will be on bedrest for the rest of today and all day tomorrow.  My beta is May 23rd - it is funny because my beta on my last IVFwas November 23rd -lets hope the 23rd is a lucky day for me.  Thank you all for your well wishes and support - it means so much to me.

I will try to scan the embryo picture and post it later in the week.

I got up bright and early yesterday - got a shower - got dressed and was ready to go when they called and said my embryos were not ready and the transfer was not going to happen today and they are pushing it to a five day transfer.  So it should hopefully be tomorrow - I just called the RE office because no one had called me to let me know what time, etc and the nurse said they do not make up the schedule until the afternoon - so I should be getting a call around 3 pm with the time and the embryo report.  Thank you for all the well wishes and support - please keep the good vibes going for me.

On good thing is since the transfer was not yesterday - I was able to go to my nephew's christening.  Here are some pictures from yesterday.

I got a call at 8:30 this morning and I was given an embryo report.  Out of the five 2pn embryos they took out - 4 made it through the thaw.  Three of them are dividing.  So three of them are looking pretty good - they said they will probably transfer two.  I got another call at noon to tell me my transfer is tentatively set for tomorrow morning at 8:30 a.m.  They are going to call me at 7:15 a.m. to let me know for sure if it is going to happen.  It all depends on how the embryos are doing - if they need some more time it will be pushed to a day 5 transfer on Tuesday.

So I guess we are on standby.  I think it will happen tomorrow - how wonderful to get  pregnant on Mother's Day.  I have my acupuncturist on stand by as well - I will text her tomorrow morning and let her know if she should come to the office - she will do a treatment after the transfer to help with implantation.  John will be able to take me to the transfer and be there for it and take me  home but then he has to leave to go to the Christening of his nephew which he is going to be the godfather of - so my cousin is coming over to be with me since I will be on bedrest.

I am so ready for this - I am so ready to be pregnant again - I am so ready to be a mother - I hope now is my turn.

First PIO Shot down - many more to go - they actually do not hurt me (at least they never hurt last time I did IVF).   I ice beforehand and then John gives me the shot - injecting it very slowly and then he massage the area and then I lay on a heating pad - so far so good.  I am also taking a steriod and it taste horrible - I cannot get the taste out of my mouth.

I have a feeling my transfer is going to end up being on Mother's day - how ironic will that be.  They will call me tomorrow and tell me how my embies are doing and if I am going to transfer Sunday or Tuesday.

Not really sure how I am feeling - I guess it is a combination of feelings - excited, nervous and anxious. 

Since this is my blog and it is where I put my feelings out there - I have to get this out.  My SIL is also doing a treatment cycle - she has done a fresh IVF - she finds out on Monday if she is pregnant or not - so if we both get pregnant then we will only be two weeks apart.  I really want it to work for her but all I keep thinking is what if what happened last time happens again.  Last time I was pregnant my other SIL got pregnant and we were one month apart and then I lost my baby and she had her baby - and it was hard - really hard - I just hope that does not happen again - it will be so cruel if that happens again.  I know it is horrible to think like that but that is what is on my mind.

I have to keep reminding myself that this cycle is different then the last cycle and just because I lost the baby last time does not mean I am going to lose a baby this time.  I have to stay positive - I have to keep repeating to myself that I deserve to have a healthy pregnancy.

Went in today for more bloodwork and an ultrasound - and guess what I am ovulating!!!!!  So the cycle can go through.  I will start the steroids tomorrow and the progestrone in oil shots on Friday.  My transfer will with be on Sunday (day 3) or Tuesday (day 5).  They are taking out five 2 pm embryos tomorrow.

Please send positive vibes that some or all of them survive the thaw and we are able to have our transfer.

I am having my acupunctuist come to the office the day of the transfer - she will do a treatment before the transfer and then one after the transfer.

Hoping all the changes I made and all the things I know will result in a healthy pregnancy and a healthy baby or babies.

Things are not looking so good with this FET cycle.  I went in on Sunday and my lining was good and my follie on my right side was 17 cm - so they wanted me to come back in this morning for another ultrasound and bloodwork because they said I was not ready yet.  It is alot slower with no drugs and there really is no control - I just have to wait for my body to do its job.  I went in today and my follie is only 18 cm - which means it only grew 1 cm in two days - which is not a good sign.  It can be one of two things.  First the good news - I could be ovulating right now - and that is why it is not growing anymore - which would be great and we could proceed to the transfer - but second - the bad news - it could be that my follie is no good and crapped out and that would mean this cycle is cancelled and I would not make it to transfer.

I am praying it is the first option.  I ovulated last month on the 5th - so today is the 3rd - I could be ovulating right now.  They will know more this afternoon when my bloodwork comes back.  I really really hope we can make it through this cycle.  I do not know what will happen if I get cancelled - especially financially - because I already paid for the cycle - so I am not sure how that all works.