Still Waiting

Sunday, January 30, 2005

hur!! sighs. why m i sighing everytime? i dunno leh. =(

maybe becos i'm really really bored. i'm sooo tired of doing housework all day. n play on com.. the same old usual stuff again. i really wonder when can i get a life man.

haiz.. i went temasak poly last friday(today is the start of a new week aka sunday) and i saw mr poh on my way to TM. HE PLUCKED HIS EYEBROWS!! YUCKS!! OMG!! I CANT BELIEVE IT!! SO....GAY!!!!!

yeah n he asked me wad i was doing.. i said staying at home lor.. slack 24/7, housework blah blah blah.. den he say.. den isnt it hiding a talent from erm.. aiyo dunno la. aiyoz. forget liao. but it just means using soo little from a talent.. OMG HE SAYS I'M A TALENT!!!..!?!?!? ......

.....i'm still speechless... well den wad does he expects me to do?? ''-_-

hmm so i decided to try out at hsing hai.. maybe nxt sunday den go. today woke up late. hehes... but den... dunno ar.. still got the esplande thingy.. hmm...

oh ya.. prss CNY concert.. got matsuri!!! haiz i wanna perform soo badly!! i love prss n prssCO but i dun like mdm cheng onli. that bitch lor.. aRGh~~~sianssss...but den i going back on 8 feb.. 7am!!! den its impossible for me to perform lors... =( cos the concert is on 8 feb oso.. but of cos in late morning la.. sian-ed. actually it can be arranged for me to go later, but it'll be soooooo troublesome... n i'm afraid i'll get into some conflict with my papa... so better pray that there will be no more matsuri le bahs.. =(

haiz. my wonder has not left me!!wonders if he has ever liked me b4!! hmm wadeva, heck care bahhh... hmm... why must pple lose in order to cherish?? just got a bloody feeling when i dun like him anymore den he'll like me.. sianS!!! =( life is just so... coincidental.yeah.. so perfect.

yewwww....

-when are you coming back? ;

Your Element Is Water

A bit of a contradiction, you can seem both lighthearted
and serious. That's because you're good at going with the flow - but you also
are deep. Highly intuitive, you tune in to people's emotions and moods easily.
You are able to tap into deep emotional connections and connect with others.
You prefer a smooth, harmonious life - but you can navigate your way around
waves. You have a knack for getting people to get along and making life a little
more peaceful.

HAILING
H	is for	Honest
A	is for	Amorous
I	is for	Ideal
L	is for	Luxurious
I	is for	Industrious
N	is for	Normal
G	is for	Glitzy

What Does Your Name Mean?

Your Dominant Intelligence is Spatial Intelligence

You've got a good sense of space and how the world around you looks.
You can close your eyes and "see" images. You have innate artistic talent.
An eye for color and shapes, you're also a natural designer.
Since you think in pictures, visual aids and demonstartions help you learn best.

You would make a good navigator, sculptor, visual artist, inventor, architect, interior designer, or engineer.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

Cancer - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

You're intuitive enough to know what's going wrong in a relationship early on

A total sweetheart - you're often the most caring person anyone knows

You are a generous and devoted parter to whoever you fall in love with

Your negative traits:

Insecurity - you tend to need a huge amount of comforting from your partner

You tend to be overly sensitive and easily hurt, which make loving you difficult

It's difficult to predict your moods. One minute you're up - the next you're down.

Your ideal partner:

Someone equally sensitive, who wants to take time to get to know you deeply

Dreams of an everlasting love - complete with marriage and a family

Loves to take care of you. Being a good cook and masseuse doesn't hurt!

Your dating style:

Slow. You enjoy dates that last all day, with plenty of time to talk and get to know one another.

Your seduction style:

Quite tender and loving, once you are comfortable in your relationship.

Coy. You tend to play it cool to drive your lover wild.

Orally talented - you're known as the best kisser in the zodiac.

Tips for the future:

Be a little less sensitive. Not every little mistake should hurt you.

Spend time away from your partner every so often - independence is a good thing.

Find ways to take care of yourself. You'll be happier if you put yourself first.

Best place to meet someone online:

eHarmony - you'll be able to take the time to get to know each potential match well

Best color to attract mate: Aqua

Best day for a date: Wednesday

Get your free love profile at Blogthings.

-when are you coming back? ;

Saturday, January 29, 2005

HOW??
what should i do??

haiz. i dont know wad i'm doing.. i oso dunno wad to do... this is soooo arhhh.. why issit that problems always get more when u grow up? time heals everything but yet, adds to ur scars and wounds.. haizzzz

why???
WHY??????

haiz. sometimes i really wonder why i did gave him my phone number last time..and i think the answer is looks. the first time i saw him, he really looked very very handsome... but as time passes, i began to like him less n less, thats why for now, i've decided i'll not believe in love at first sight. also, good looking guys are nice to look at but bad to get along with (from chinese: hao kan bu hao chi) haiz but heng i rejected him earlier on. hehe heng lorz. but the guy i like after him is one clever one... and until now still like!! and he's..... HARRY!!!(nickname) see there.. <---- lols.. hahaha... but den that guy... he's still sms-ing me lor... sian..(SMS bao!) aiya.. as friend nvm... but i just got a feeling that he still likes me!!! arrr make me feel so guilty. but heng i nv twirl him around my finger den make him believe that i like him.. aiyaa... confused. n i seriously suspect the person who tag at the tagboard is HIM!!!! ARH!!!( the one i dun like)

everytime i'm thinking.. whether is it worth it to wait for harry.. but it seems like its endless.. from july till now, i haven got a definite answer, so i rather assume its a NO, rather den (perhaps) lying to myself that he likes me.. and until the cruel answer "NO" arrives, i'll be hurt yet again. haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

i always wonder.. why dun i have a boyfriend yet?? i have a girlfriend whose status is always having a boyfriend and she has guys swarming around her. i thought of my situation, ya, i have some guys swarming around me, and some with good tiao jian.. but why dont i ever get a boyfriend???

well.. i think its bcos to get the guy, the girl must be extra friendly and willing to go out with guys who like her(whether ornot she likes him) and must be very very initiative and sweet talk the guys.. but as i think, i'm not really friendly with the guys who newly confessed, esp when i dun like them, definitely i will avoid them for a period of time and later, perhaps make friends (AND ONLY FRIENDS) with them.. actually i dunno if making friends with them in the later part is good, cos i may be giving them false hope or wad~~ but if rejecting them to complete nothingness will be a very mean thing to do rite?? imagine if i'm in their shoes...

also, i will never go out with a guy i dun like. esp if THEY ask me out. i'll try to find lots n lots of excuses... saying i'm busy or wad when actually i'm slacking at home 24/7. also, as i've said, i'll avoid that guys for a period of time b4 talking to them as a NORMAL friend. or else, i'll tell them i've got a boyfriend( which in fact i dun have any..sobZ! nvm.. study first!) or wadeva excuses.. haiz.

though i dun have a boyfriend, but at least i didnt gave them false hope.. at least better den some other girls, twirling the guys around their finger and always ask them for wadeva they want, den when they got it, they'll tell the guys that she has onli been treating them like a friend. so mean rite? n soo disgusting. why must some girls do this?? its a complete disgrace to woman i think. YuCks.

but having this kind of.. erm.. integrity, doesnt get me any bf. but still.. aimlessly waiting for the guy i like and yet knowing he will not like me, issit a very stupid thing to do? i dunno but i think so.. but i really like him.. i oso dunno why!! haiz. n i ask myself why? why dont i try liking another guy, giving him a chance and as well as me. but i thought deep into it, am i really giving myself a chance when i'm letting myself be exposed to those hurting love relationships? haiz.. but i will not give myself a chance to try to love those that i think i will never love..

-when are you coming back? ;

Friday, January 28, 2005

LOVE

what is love? i believe love makes the world go round.

love from parents, make u feel that u shld study do ur best in studies so tt you wld not let them down, and just becos u they love you, they sacrifice everything just for you and rather spemd their hard-earned money on u den themselves. they aso provide u with a home, a warm hearted family, and almost everything you want, such as a computer, handphones and stuff.

love from friends make you happy in this world. for example, in the early morning, u just wanna laze in bed den wake up early for school. but the thought that u can have fun in school just becos ur friends are there, it can spur u on to going to school. and definitely, when u have some problems,friends will always be there for you. and this love from friend is definitely what most teenagers need.

also, there must be love a special guy/girl in your life.. in this way, they will get married and den then they will have kids(if they love kids) and den they will pass on the love(now changed to motherly n fatherly love) to their children. this is a cycle. i dun think anyone can break out of this cycle man.

love for money plays a bigger part in making the world go round. with love for money, pple work very hard for their company even if the job doesnt appeal to their interest. in this way they may get a chance of getting promoted and then they get more money or their own use. (so sad rite?)

these are all the LOVEs i can think of, and of course, love for own passion. thats wad makes the world goes round too, i believe.

SO, i believe in LOVE. how can anyone dun believe in love? its quite impossible i think. unless he/she is lying to him/herself.

thats all, this blog is quite lame though, but i just believe in love, but not love at first sight.

-when are you coming back? ;

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

today i recieved my first HP bill.

it WAS hell.

my phone almost got consficated.

hehe but heng heng my daddy forgive me.. he say this time forget it(although i was the first in the family to create such a BIG bill for the first time) but if there are any such cases again, i'll have to bear the FULL cost of the pay.

so i'd better watch out.

ok. 100+ sms exceeded. the outgoing exceeded TOO much. shit shit shit. cos the free outgoing 120 minutes is for OFF PEAK ONLY. meaning 9pm to 9am. den i dunno mah..tts y talk time EXCEED. den BAO. so die lor.

kk now this month, i WILL NOT EXCEED ANYMORE THIS MONTH. i promise!! hehe =)

-when are you coming back? ;

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

hai. i'm so disappointed.

i called hui lin and this was the conversation .

me: hello!!! hey u free? wanna go chinatown someday?(i was tempted by selene de blog)

hl: hmm i off this thursday, but i going shopping with my mum..

me: hmm its ok.. den when u n cai off together?? den can go out lor..

hl: how can tt be possible?!?! its soo hard lor..50 over cashiers.. onli 3 or 4 off that day...

me: huh... like tt ar.. den take mc can? (obviously i meant faking an mc)

hl: but i recover from my illness liao...

me: huh!! but i wanna go out with u all so badly!! when can go out! like tt no off den cant go out le lor!!! sian leh!!

hl: u got nothing to do tts y like tt say mah!! *pretends to hehe abit*

and this sentence hurt me A LOT. n i kept quiet immediately.

me: *silence*

hl: really mah.. u now not working rite?

me: ..y.a...a...

hl: oso not studying rite?...

me: ....y.a.a.....

me: hmm den nvm since u cant make it. byebye.

hl: byebye-

me: *hangs up the phone immediately.*

see! i'm s bloody hurt by her lor. dunno y she gave me this attitude. haiz. sometimes call her out in the afternoon she oso dun wan.. keep on sleeping when she's off... den at night i called her.. she was out with her colleagues.. i m damn sad la. seems like we friends are breaking apart le bahs. haiz. (U) i'm totally speechless. i'm starting to wonder if we now meant something to her in her heart or wad.. i noe her fairprice colleagues are very friendly and she really likes them..but den.. haiz. i'm really sad. dun wanna say anymore. nites.

-when are you coming back? ;

MY SIS WAS THE SECOND RUNNER UP FOR NTU PAGEANT!!!

that was great!!! i took lots of photos. upload it nxt time for u guys! oh no. i forgot tt i dun have hello anymore. cant upload any photos. sobs. cos got a lot of virus, my sis claim de =p

hehe.. went to see my second sis taking part in the pageant today. at NTU.. lol, she got the third. YEAH!!! see how popular she is in school!! hahahaha... oh ya... shi lin took part too!! kinda shocked.. and she was shocked to see that i was one of the contestant's sister. lols..

oh ya! my sis got ms biore too!!! biore.. u noe? the brand?? face one?? lols... her skin is like damn good lor.. so fair n NO PIMPLE!!!! haiz y didnt i inherit that feature from my mum???!!wah lau....

oh ya! today i downloaded easygprs... and FINALLY!!! GOD!!! i CAN transfer my pics into com le!!! finally can delete a lot den phone now can take lots of pics... muahahahhahahaha soooooo happy!!! hehe =p den can download alot of images n melody into my phone lor... muahahaha... but den hor.. java (games) must download from the phone de gprs!! sian liao. but still very good la hor... hehehe... =p no need buy cable... $45... ''-_-

kk la.. tts all for today! oh ya, i will sleep early! i badly need beauty sleep le! lol.. haha onli TL understands.. =p

-when are you coming back? ;

Monday, January 24, 2005

hoho! today went to watch a concert with my friends. but before that, i went to bugis to SHOP! muahahaha... actually nothing much, bought two pairs of earrings... shhhhhhh... hahaha.. yeah it feels great to buy the things u wan. and now i'm broke!! ''-_-..

anyway the concert was FABULOUS.
feel like joining hsing hai. it was fantastic man!! the percussionist..was.. BRILLIANT!!!! wah lao.. if i went there... i think i'll b super left out lor.. n play those not so noticeable and important instruments.. wah sian ar. but feel like going to hsing hai.. lols... expose myself to more pple and improve myself!! haha take it on as a challenge.. hahaha.. but teacher haven ask me go after i finished my o lvls... lols. so nvm bah. see first.

now the bus service n everything costs adult fare le! sian!!! haiz. so ex lor... $5 something gone in a day just for transportation lor.. no concession. cant buy macdonalds using ezlink le!!!*crys*

nvm.. wadeva..

oh ya! tai loong is sick.... oh dear so sad. haha take cares n hope u have a quick recovery!!! ;) hehehe. =)

kk tts all for today. very late le lor..12.58 le...morning le!!! lols =p kk..goodbye!!=D

-when are you coming back? ;

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

hehe finally went for a jog today. haiz timing became lousy le. =( 2.4 km took me 16 minutes to complete lor. soooo lousy~~ =S

anyway the fairprice... haiyo. say wad i m not completely resigned from cheers yet... den my name cannot be entered into the computer.. n den i'll have to wait till i'm completely resigned from cheers den i can work. so sick ritE!! wad have i got against fairprice ar? i just cant work there lor! sian-ed u noe. =(

i guess tts all today bah. we didnt sms though. haha yesterday flipped thru my diary... haha... so sweet.. read back abt the times he n me was still very good frens, n sms everytime... haha the feeling was great! how i hope i can go back to the time when i was so close with him.. haha although sms bao. lols. =p haha miss him again. maybe sms him tmr? ahhh see first.

kk byebye! sry for more n more boring de blog..lols

-when are you coming back? ;

wahhhh!!!!!!!

today we didnt sms.

n i MISS him terribly. haizzzz.... =(

how how how!!?!?! i miss him!! wanna tok to him, but his status is always NOT online. wanna sms him but my sms EXCEED le. =( sians. yawns!

haiz... yesterday i saw him.. i was soooo happy. hmm.. wanted to tok to him for a longer time... but dunno y i so kan jiong to walk away. n so i left. until i went to meet my mum, my cheeks was still feeling hot, and occassionally i wld laugh or smile to myself. m i sick? well i think i m.

zzz. i miss him.zzz

sometimes i wld fantasize abt how he wld ask me out for v day, but it is NV possible lor. he is not even taking the initiative to talk to me ok. haiz. ohh i think ronnale's nick is VERY meaningful. too bad my blog cannot support chinese words. aiyoh so bad. =( hmm its " xi huan de ren bu chu xian, chu xian de ren bu xi huan, you de ai you yu bu jue, hai zai xiang ta jiu li kai , kan zhe qing ren, xiao shi ye bian de lang man, ting leng xiao hua dou neng xiao dao liu han"---------> which means, "the person u like doesnt appear, and the people who appears is not for you. some love is always hestitating, and when u're thinking of him, it was the end of u n him already. looking at ur loved one, little things become romantic, and even cold jokes can make you luff till u .. sweat. " ok my english not very good, its just an idea for pple who wants to look at the han yu pin yin. lols. n i dun think i translated very perfectly ok.. i think my translation sucks... haha =p

hmm yeah.. sometimes his joke.. can make me luff until i get cramps in the cheeks.. and sometimes just by sms-ing, his small gestures make me really happy n blessed. lols m i overreacting? hahas. =p sometimes just looking at his sms-es... can really clear all my troubles away.. so happy lor. =p haha i stikk kept his old sms-es... the ones he sent me in the past.. but one very sweet one... was deleted by my dad!!!! in fact many sms from him... was deleted by my dad!!! i'm so angry lor... actually more of heartbroken bah.. really sad lor.... (U) piang..

my sweetheart~~~

haiz nvm i still kept the PRECIOUS two of his sms left... n i'll nv forget one sms... which was deleted by my dad, it goes something like " there will always be someone on the other side of the universe missing you... not me, cos i'm missing u here on earth.." WAH!!!!!! so sweet lor... the thought of the sms can still carry me into the air!!! hahas... i just miss him lars =p

oh ya, i'm now employed at fairprice lor... finally got a job.. someon so qiao... just when i needed a job den they call... hah abut den... they called kinda late lor!!! so long ago de..omg lor. but anyway its much much much better den in MI!! at least i can see cailing n huilin now lor.. better den no one in MI.. the shuai ge-s i oso have no wish to see them... i rather see harry nia.. its good enuff... hehes. =p

k lars.. gtg le, byebye! =)

-when are you coming back? ;

Monday, January 17, 2005

anw, there are more wishes for me to fufil, n i'll put them on my wishlist too, but just to name a few:

killer thighs
stunning abs(ok maybe not abs but just a flat tummy can le.)
beautiful arms
a proportionate body
a slim silhouette
long hair

yeah i think tts all!! =p will strive for it. so from today onwards, i'll

not eat chocolates (today i ate the whole pack of M&M chocolateS!!!! die aR!)
go jogging regularly. daily is impossible.
do at least 20 push ups!
do 100 crunches at least twice in 3 days.
do 10-30 leg lifts!
practise with dumbells. tts the best lor..=( (most simple but very tiring)

ya i think tts all folks!

-when are you coming back? ;

hmm.. this few days.. i'm been slacking at home.. well.. this friday.. haha i didnt go to school again.. lol. know why? becos i woke up at 6, which is the time i'm supposed to be waiting for the train.. but oh well. prepare for school oso no use.. will still be late de lor. haha =p so i rather not go school!! muahahah den i went back to sleep. it was good. =p

today i went to ikea with my parents and sister, we bought some new stuff and actually we were shopping for a sofa... but in the end my mum still liked the one at sea horse in tampines de century sqaure best. see, we're back at tampines again. zzzZ.

well, later on we went to have our dinner at erm... somewhere near hui lin's house la.. after i dinner, i went shopping for a while and den went to meet a fren to get back my sleeping back.. his dog was as usual, soooo cutE!!! hhaha.. =p.

well will elaborate more tmr ok, so goodnites for the time beinG!! =) hehe i'm just in a GOOD mood these few days.. haha everything seems in the right place and feels so much like in the past... when we were so happy together!! =p

byebye!!!!

-when are you coming back? ;

Thursday, January 13, 2005

sometimes, i love him too much that i cant say anything, except telling myself that he will never like me, it is impossible between me and him.

oh ya, btw who's the secret admirer? hmm too bad, my heart is already with someone else from my class.. PRSS 4E1.. 2004.

haiz i miss him i miss him i miss him.

OH YA! he sms-ed me today muahahaha... got his hp le. hmm so happy can contact with him lor =p hehe but den he needs to study too.. den i oso cant always sms rite.. later become like very irritating lor.. haha.. anyway today we sms-ed quite alot, until the end of school.. he still doesnt know i'm in MI lor.. silly....

haiz heard from tian tian... she say got a girl who looks very much like hebe... den my crush and his best friend always tease each other abt that girl lor... guess i'm losing out le... =( sobz. haiz.. i wonder wad the hell is wrong with me.. y m i still liking him? issit bcos he didnt give me a thorough rejection and that's y i'm still clinging on to that little glimpse of hope??? am i so... useless? haiz... maybe someone better will come into my life and u will become nothing but just a memory in my heart.. but so far... i have not met someone better den you. i miss you.

sometimes i just wonder... y does things happen this way? the one i dun like will like me, and den the one i like just wun like me.. =( and den... when i reject the guy i dun like, i will be cursed with a bad spell and the guy i like will not like me. so. i m always rejected bcos i reject other pple. isnt that WONDERFUL? wad a beautiful cycle. when can i ever break out of it. haiz. but i cant tell those guys tt i dun like tt i like them!! this will be LYING! in the end hurt him n hurt myself. for wad lor. so i rather reject them. but den, this is a cycle. i gets cursed again and i wun get a bf at all. NO. i'll be an old hag in future. i can see it....

and i'm back to school again.. =( my mum still wants me to go n study after all.. haiz the journey is really tortorous... but i must bear with it... i dont want to be so pampered like that.. maybe my sis n mum is really rite.. its time for me to get independent. i must bear with all these little hardships and face it as if its nothing. haizzz... i dun wanna make my family members disappointed anymore.. thats y i listen to them lor.. study in school... and dun get any boyfriend. =S

hmm these few days i've been going home with selene, so qiao but good.. lol =p but morning always cant meet.. lol!!! hahaha... well the journey seems much much shorter with her around.. well... i hope i wun hate the school so much now. life really seems aimless nowadays. i guess no one has ever noticed me in school bah.. this is kinda weird.. i used to be loud and bitchy but now i've turned so quiet and gentle lor.. so unlike me. school life... is bad without my best friends.

-when are you coming back? ;

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

i'm so afraid i cant take this anymore.

life in institute.. is really bad. i really regretted applying for MI. hais. the girls there... so boy crazy. heard from my fren, she said that the first day of school, the president of the student council was giving a speech, and he just happens to be the most handsome guy in school... and the pre-u ones.. actually shouted his name all this lor. as if it's spore idol. siao lor. all so bitchy like tt. dye hair, have boyfren... blah blah blah... sian...

though the guys are really cute, but i dun think i'll find any of them as my steady. i almost got a shock, when i heard from many frens tt they have boyfrens b4 lor.. those ugly ones oso. i mean i'm just shocked ok. all have ex de. me leh.. they dun blive i've nv had a bf b4. omg lor. and the teacher. thinks that i DYED hair. he's mad.

in school. i'm worrying every minute and second that my handphone will be stolen. so i hang on the it every minute and second. i think the pple may be thinking i'm sososo vain to show off my handphone. hais but tts not the aim.

and... the lecture hall SUCKS. it's just a mass of bloody messy tables and chairs. and worse still, there weren't equal numbers of tables and chairs. there are sooo much excess chairs and too limited tables. haiz. wad s nice environment to study in.

and then, the teachers keep on saying and stressing that we will not stay on in the school, onli ard 5% will stay. so they're meaning that we are just here for the notes and lectures( fact ) and they're not going to know us in deeper depth. and we dun mean anything to them.

aND. they dun let us join any CCAs. cos they know we aren't staying for long, so they wun wanna waste time nurturing us den we leave, taking their skills. waDevA~~~

and the journey is the worst. i have to wake up at 5am. den must reach MRT at 6am so i can catch the early train, and den travel to CLEMENTI alone. for a bloody 50 minutes. and den, i'll rush down to the interchange to catch a bus 173, which is freaking slow and which has to SQUEEZE soooo many MI students in it. and it comes bloody slow, and always threaten us to make us late for school. and the stupid school rule. when u're late for 3 times, u're gonna get detention. wad bitch.

patrick just taught me something really clever. thanks lots pat. he says that i can ask frens to help me take notes, and den i will study on my own.. if i have any problems, i can go to my frens for help... i think it's a brilliant idea. in this way, i can not onli study, i can find a job as well.. den study at night n on off days. hope everything can turn out well though. =)

hmm... i think i'll just do that. i'll try to squeeze some time for doing housework... i just hope tt my positive attitude will continue to carry on, and i will still do housework even if i m tired or wad. i wish to lessen my mum's burden. =)

anyway, my mum says i can dun go to school tmr. thanks alot! this is GREAT! i love you mum =) finally can slack on bed till late morning!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-when are you coming back? ;

Sunday, January 09, 2005

muahahaha i love this pic. from left : me , my second sis , my eldest sis.. hoho i love this picture. 3 sisters lei! haha kk i noe i cant make it. lol no comments pls.

-when are you coming back? ;

Saturday, January 08, 2005

wooo!!i LOVE this pic. ya noe why? cos i look thin from my back view!!! muahahaha... so i love this pic. lol. hey! i'm the on in dark blue ok.. not orange one... haha =p

-when are you coming back? ;

woooooooo!!!! yesterday's morning call.. was the best i ever had... muahahah... MI called me... i was accepted into their school! but i had no reason to be happy. if i had done better in my prelims, i will not have such morning calls, cos i wld have registered into tpjc le. haiz. tp ar tp..... haiz haiz haiz... anyways, i'm going to MI.. cos in MI, i can get into the science stream... which i wanted la.. so i'm going... for the sake of studying... i missed the studying times lor... napping times... well just look at my previous blog..lazt to rewrite... dunno y last night online... so many pple come n tok to me! wah lao~~ den cant blog... arghhhh

hmmm today going out with my dear... cailing... haha miss her leh.. though we just saw each other a few days ago.. haha...

well.. today oso same same la... help mummy do housework... haha oh ya.... yesterday... i cooked dinner!!! muahahaha.... so clever rite... den everything turned out nice leh~~~ haha i soooo proud of myself..lol. hey the food is really nice k, i have nv eaten such a nice dinner before.. lolx. hey i'm not kidding ar, so dun suan hor.

hmmm.... i think that i'm loving my cousin more and more.. the one currently studying in my secondary school... she's sec 1 this year, and i've been taking care of her many needs since she got the news that she's going to study in my school. she joining into CO, so i hope that she can excel there... but this kind of thing... needs talent la... if she doesnt have it, den its.. dead end le lor. sianz, den she wun be happy in CO le....=(

i HATE lying!!!!
dunno why, but i've been lying to many pple. argh. of cos i shall not say wad i'm lying about, bcos if i say out now, it'll be equivalent to confessing my lies and the pple i've lied to will noe it. so. i shall keep quiet...

anyway, i think i'm SIAO. i think i'm SICK. i think i'm just being SILLY and IDIOTIC.
i;ve been dreaming about class chalet many nights ok... i think i'm crazy le lor... the chalet is already over, but why am i still clinging onto those memories?arGH i think i'm going mad. call the mental hospital, anyone?

argh~~ i think i'm believing too much into horoscope le.. i always turn to horoscope! but den.. there are so many pple on this earth.. everyone has a different fate.. so how can horoscope predictions, based on onli TWELVE horoscope, be accurate for billions of pple on this earth? thats y i think i'm sick~ argh~~~

haiz... some pple say that working is more worth den going to MI.. but well.. maybe i'll just try for a while.. if its not good, den i'll not go... my sis says that MI has alot of pple with no good grades(m i considered one? yeah i think so.) den all scold vulgarities... haiz.. den they are afraid that i will learn bad things from them.. well of course i thought "no!" but seriously thinking.. i was such an obedient child in the past... how come i have turned into such a rebellious ah lian? haiz... maybe its because the environment in my school is not good, n i'm influenced by it. i'll have to admit it, i wasnt that guai after all. =( and lets pray that i will still remain good n pure in MI.I WILL NOT HAVE A BOYFRIEND.ok stick to this belief.erm.. rule*

well... there are sooo many things happening i dunno wad to say... haiz..its abt MI lor... haiz... i oso dunno shld go ornot... my sis told me yesterday, that ,"dun think that as long as a school can accept you, den you straightaway go..." well i determinedly said "no, i have thought it over." but den, this thought flashed across my mind. den y didnt i hesitate to say "NO" and not go to the school? why was i so enthusiastic? why was i saying "ya i WILL go" when in the past after appealing i said" nah, i dun think i'm going~"?
perhaps my sister was really right about me.

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Friday, January 07, 2005

My New Year Resolutions_________________

i will not overeat.(hardest to do..."-_-)
i will exercise regularly.
i will not waste time.
i will do housework.
i will not be moody.
i will spare a thought for others.
i will not crush on guys, or girls.
i will study hard.
i will meet up with my old friends.
i will be good.
i will not go shopping after school.
i will be more sensible and responsible.
i will not online so often anymore.
i will read english and chinese newspaper daily.
i shall not be wicked.
i will be humble.
i will be kind.
i will be generous.
i will not have a tummy anymore.
i will NOT drop my handphone anymore.
i will clean up my desk daily.
i will study REAL hard for exams and CAs.
i will not study last minute.
i will be thrifty.
i will not let my piggy bank starve. i will feed it daily.
i will be kind to my friends.
i will be gentle.
i will speak softly.
i will cherish everyone.
i will not crack my neck
i will wake up early
GOOD RESULTS FOR O LEVELS!!!!!!!!!

i think thats all, but this kind of life... is HELL for me. however i'll try to fufil them, but i think its not possible though. lolx. well... hope 2005 is good. not like 2004, so jinxed. hais. hope my result coming out this year will be good. hope i can get into tpjc ar.... hmm i so jealous of my friends lor. =S....

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Wednesday, January 05, 2005

hihi!!!

today sucks once more. these few days will feel sibei lonely. haiz. who tells me to be lazy and score badly for the prelims. now i dun have the first 3 months to go already. haiz haiz haiz. so sad. everyone is busy for school and the days of napping after school is back for them. but NOT me. thats why life sucks for me now.

also, the fairprice person haven call me yet. life sucks once more.

anyway, my sis's blog(ying ying) is really interesting and funny, i suggest you go take a look. haha here's a small part from her blog :

If Life is fair...

If life is fair...........

i will be beatiful gorgeous pretty hot desirable sexy chio
i will have all the luck in the world
i will be swarmed by guys
i will live to a ripe old age (because I am good)
i will be smart
i will marry a good man
i will not have a tummy
i will be a goddness
people will kneel down in front of me when they see me
I will be happy all the time
i will be the president of the united states
i will be blessed with beautiful children
i will be tall and slim
i will be the prettiest in the world
i will have the best figure
i will be mighty rich
i will be able to dance and sing
i wont be a bitch
i will know how to drive without having to learn
i will be a superior being, more importantly, superior over guys

(ok enough about me)

all guys will be good
all guys will be faithful and shower girls with tender loving care
all guys will understand girls
all guys will be smart (but depending on circumstances, it may sometimes be better for them to remain stupid)
guys wont get orgasms all the time while girls dont
guys will have periods too
guys will conceive too
rapist wont exist
rapists will ALL DIE a horrible death
flashers will have nothing to flash
molestors will get molested b4 they molest others, better still, let them get raped

Unfortunately, as all of us know, the world isn't fair. The world may seem upside down sometimes, but i choose to believe life is actually quite beautiful... Look at life this way..

Because life is unfair....

You can sing, but I cant
You aren't pretty, while I'm sooo chio AHAHHAH
You can dance, while I cant
You arent lovable, while i am
You have a boyfriend, but I am single
I'm happy this way while you quarrel with your bf ALL the time
You are rich, I'm poor
I am poor but i have health
Good looking guys dont get good looking girls
because good looking girls are saved for ugly guys hahha
and vice versa la hor.

haha... dont you think this is super funny?? omg i laugh too much le... "-_- my ulcer hurts...argh pain pain pain.. hahah.... =p

oh i'm back to the sad mood once more... haiz seeing my classmates msn nick abt the school and yet i dunno, haiz i feel so left out lor... sian wor. =(

haiz haiz haiz... friends... wad are friends for? for quarrelling? for having fun? for them to be there always when you are sad? i dont know... sometimes when i'm sadddd, they are ALL gone. so sad. haiz. friends... shld they keep secret from one another? shld they always talk behind each other's back? haiz... i dunno why... why is this happening aRgH... fine. i decide that i have not met my bestest best fren.

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Tuesday, January 04, 2005

actually i didnt wanna do any reflection back at 2004. bcos its sad. actually no. its bcos i'm lazy. wahhaha~~ but seeing others reflect, i was tempted into doing the same thing too, well, in this way i can look back at 2004 without regrets ;)

well.. this year started with... hmm cant remember... lol. but this year was so much of dilly dally for me, heng heng i got to sit beside weitian, and she has really given me lots of motivation and drive to move on. i used to be lazy lor.. but she's really good lars... she has really help me loads lor... thanks weitian!!! thanks for being there for me this year, and thanks for helping me in studies! i think without you pushing me on, i dun think i can make it this farrrr.... thanks, and i love you. =)

haha.. and this year, unfortunately, wei tian's dad passed away. we know she feels very very bad in her heart, but i think she's really strong and i really admire her for that. though sometimes she'll cry, but i understand, crying is not something to be ashamed of. all in all, i've learnt loads of things from her. and i think she's really kind and caring, and very disciplined... though we may have differing opinions and sometimes this led to quarrels, still it made us strong.. =)

to me, i think year 2004 is jinxed. i think its really suay lor. haiz. SARS. BIRD FLU. threats from terrorism. haiz. iraq war. (last year or this year? cant remember.) n now, the tsunami thingy. i really hope 2005 will be GOOD. with cure for AIDS. cure for SARS( is there any now?i dunno..lol i very outdated) and no more natural disasters. haiz. no more such bad stuff... lets pray.

this year i too, lost someone i loved alot... my grandpa. so i think 2004 is jinxed.

but still, our class was really bonded. that's something to cheer about now.

unfortunately my sis broke up with her bf. now tt guy's a bastard, not that 2004 is jinxed.

ok i dunno wad i'm toking abt. for my sis is scolding me.

oh yeah. this year i got loads of scoldings too.

so, 2004 is really really jinxed. i hate this year. i hope that 2005 will be the best. lets pray. =)

bye! =)

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Monday, January 03, 2005

this is mr eugan and mr alex. lol. nice pple to bbq for us! =P (who noes they have pinched some food for themselves while bbqing for others? lol!!!)

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BBQ-ing!! lol very nice food lei~ haha =p

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hehe at the swimming pool =p

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hehe... this one very fun lor... see the two orange ping pong balls? the person behind is supposed to catch the white ping pong ball but in the picture, its gonE!! haha oso dunno go where... ??(jian gui aka see ghost) lol

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today.... went to fairprice and ask for job... sian ar... i quite like that job, though pay all this may not be very good. well, since i was working in cheers earlier on, (cheers is under NTUC. so is fairprice.) thats why applying for job in fairprice is considered rejoining... so... have to ask HQ for approval or dunno wad la.. sian leh! =( den my fren going for trial tmr... den i doing nothing tmr... so sian rite. i think she hit the job le.. but i'll still have to wait for the person to contact me lor.. kinda sian you know.. argH!

haiz so i'll have to wait for her to call me....

wait...

and wait..

and wait again...

also dunno when they will call me!! argh. anyways, i called tpjc and they says i'm not in. i'm heartbroken. haiz. (U)

kk going off le. buais.

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Saturday, January 01, 2005

this chalet this definitely one of those happiest day in my life. i've not enjoyed dso thoroughly with all my classmates before. and i'll tell you why.

first day________
i met up with many classmates, all guys in fact, to carry the things we'll need for the chalet. so we went to fairprice to buy those items, and the guys took the things and den they went off to buy somethings. so okay. we went separate ways and i was still with boonching and rong teng... so we went to bc's house to take his bag and den they came to my house to take the marinated chicken. after that, we went off to meet my cousin at tampines mrt, den headed off to pasir ris mrt to look for jiat yue, because i needed her books urgently for my cousin. but she was late.. very late in fact, everybody went off to the chalet first and i waited with my cousin for her... zzz.. ok enuff of that~

so later jiat yue and i went to the chalet in a cab.. argh... finally reached there...

ok first day kinda bored, but it was still okay la... it was a weird feeling to see everyone again..lol.

went to downtown for dinner, but i was very full, so i skipped dinner and went to cheers to buy somethings..den saw that guy. that "cute" guy who liked me.. so i SIAM. but i wanna see stanley!!!! argh got the new phone, must take pics with him ar... so i sneaked into the shop. found him. took pics, den siam. lol... kk den went back to the chalet.. den sleep. wah the first night. cant fall asleep at all! wah so tired... half sleep half awake... so tiring. in the end woke up at 5 something lor... wah so tired...

hmm.. well, den i reached into the second day! lol.

second day_________
.. the sleep was really terrible.. kept waking up and falling back to sleep again..it's so tiring lor..
games today, and BBQ!! lol will upload some pictures later. hahaha. well, it was really fun today. woke up very early to buy more bbq food! haha...so today i end up SOOO tired that i slept at 8/9 pm..lol =p

haha when i woke up, it was already 6am and i actually asked my fren how come she slept so early.. lol i thought it was onli about 12 midnight..=P

third day________
hehe... today is party day!! lol =p haha.. woke up and i started preparing some things with yan siew, and then i went to the beach alone...hmm.. the feeling was great.. though alone, though sad, but i still loved the feeling... haiz the pic of the sea is in my phone... cant upload it leh...haiz...dun tell me must use MMS...$$...zzz...aRgH~~!!

anyway later ys n me went to fairprice to buy some stuff for the party again~~ and we bought quite a lot of things, and then went back to the chalet again, and after some playing, swimming, its back to the kitchen again... started frying frying.. cooking cooking..lol.. fun lei!!! when we placed the food outside, it was almost gone immediately... hahaha

oh ya there was another bbq that afternoon.. cos too many food u see.. haha =p well, it was eugan and alex they all who bbq-ed again.. haha their food was great! thanks! lol. after swimming we have food ready for us(me n ys) ....yummy!! lolz =p

hmmm after that everyone went home lor... i'm so sad lor... no one stay overnight.. i mean no girls lar... haiz.. sad sad sad...but still i stayed lor... dunno y oso.... felt abit extra, but i still think it'll worth it... cos i get to see him longer...haha =p and oso, i can get to stay on at the chalet longer!! haiz i really miss the chalet... how i hoped time will stop there just for me to enjoy... lol but things arent so good in life...but just cherish every minute and seconD!! lol wad am i toking abt.. "-_-

kk la..thats all for the chalet... haiz... i really hoped to organise another one... but by that time... will everyone go? or rather, will ANYone go? i dunno.. but maybe the guys bah.. they still so close... but girls... like all separated.. no bond like that.. and hearing from wad hui lin says, fang qi mentioned that after a year, she'll delete all our contacts from MSN... wah i hear already oso sad... how come she can change so much lor... *heart breaks*

kk la... sign off le... buais! =)

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