I am...
Anyway, I meant to post this yesterday, but kind of have no time, so I will post it today.
First thing on the list:
HEY YOU
TAY YI LING look here!
HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY :D
I'm sorry it was belated since I only posted today.
But my squadmate I still love you okay!
You are finally 16 years old already, like me! :D
All my wretched- feelings were gone by yesterday, to which I felt rather elated about.
Yesterday returned to school very very early for the handphone- rule forum.
I meant early as in I arrived wayyyy earlier than the time that I was supposed to appear. Thanks to the bus -.-
It wasn't totally a waste of time there, although it was rather lengthy and boring sometimes, I can see their effort in realizing this rule. Got to talk to Yunrou because of this forum too. We last talked since ages ago. ( we are ex-classmates) Haha, got to catch up on many gossips and current affairs of our ex- classmates. Not very nice ones though, yi pi lang. lol
Went to bugis with Shuhui after math lesson too. Realized that we rarely go out even since mid- years were near. Talked a lot, eat a lot and shop a lot. Make up for the past absence? I think going out once in a while is still okay.
All in all, yesterday was like a " meet up with old friends" day. Talked to Claire Lu who is in England now after I reached home yesterday. Don't play play, we are still good friends okay! Haha, I miss her seriously. :(
AND!
I miss my squadmates.
You know?
You know?
You know?
I feel that I'm kind of distanced away from them already, since I can't attend a lot of squad things because of many other commitments stuff. But, my heart is still with TheExtremists, RVNPs206 aka squadmates.
Must remember!
Winnie <3 squaddies!
I will go squad chalet de, I will!
Hais, everyone around me is like leaving and returning from every part of the world.
Last year, Claire and Xiaojun left for england and Switzerland respectively. Never going to see Xiaojun ever again, since he is migrating for good, can only talk through MSN. As for Claire, we only talk sometimes, never talk to her face to face since she came back last november or something. Hope she comes back soon.
Xiao mo and Pocheng were back from their Beijing immersion. ( Both are my Lingying zuzhangs) Havn seen Pocheng yet, but saw Xiao mo rushing into Baoguan like nobody's business like Sunday and everyone was so surprise. Lol, his hair is like a birdnest. Going to have Lingying's meeting this Saturday 9.30am, so hope can see everyone. Kok haw too!
Xiaoyang and Zhiyuan went back to China too. Zhiyuan said goodbye to me on MSN before he went for his night flight. LOL. Bon voyage to you. I miss xiao yang too, sassy girl, I miss your dance :D
Oh yea, I miss Hillary Challenge too. Because Junwen sent me our pictures few days ago. Suddenly miss carrying the green sack, sleeping in all parts of Singapore, finding checkpoints, saying hi to everyone we see and singing " yin du hua" together with you guys. It gonna stay as one of my sweet memories. :)
Enough of recalling and missing stuff, got lessons and cca tomorrow. byebye Have a lovely night
Bestow me with strength tomorrow!
我很烦，很烦，很烦。头很痛。
这几天我的泪腺一直没有停工过。
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妈妈病了。每天看着她苍白的脸孔我的心都在滴血。
这么多天了还是这样，高烧不退，我真得不懂要怎么办。
看她病了都没有力气做事，脾气变得很糟，却还是坚持煮饭给我们吃，我的心里是无限的感动。
母爱啊，难以理解的千古情怀。
我真心希望妈妈会早日康复。
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爸爸从小就很疼我。他的疼爱从小就呵护着我，保护着我长大。
小时候我做错事他都会用藤缏施教，叫我跪在我家的神台前（道教家庭）惭悔一整晚。
从前被爸爸罚的情景都历历在目，时时提醒着我要安分守己。
爸爸是个少话的男人，传统，体贴，努力，顾家的好爸爸。
我很享受和爸爸在一起的时光， 因为在一个这么了解我的人前，我不必约束自己，可以轻松地做回那个调皮的小女孩。
刚刚爸爸和我谈起了我的成绩。
和他交谈的整个过程，我一直压抑着我的泪水，表现得很平淡，无语。
可是，其实我有很多话要对你说。只是我不懂得怎么跟你说，只能在你离去后，让泪水噼里啪啦地滑落。
我以为你会对我破口大骂，像小时候一样。可是你没有。
或许我长大了，或许你太了解我了，你疼爱我的方式也改变了。
你有权利斥责我的，你却选择安抚我， 处处向着我。
你说的话真得让我很感动， 原来你和妈妈的爱那么地超出我的想象。
对不起，我对不起你们。
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我终究又哭了。
又怎样？
那满满的爱已足够填补我的心。
我不想再当你们手中脆弱的小花了。
p/s 不必担心我吧。。我会好起来的。。
:)
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生活的旋律
何谓生活的旋律？一听到这主题便有点怪异的感觉，总觉得生命的旋律比较好听。话虽如此，生活的旋律必有自己的典故吧。
6月假期开始了，这也是我中学生涯的第四个6月假期。时间真的流失得很快，正当我们还在没来得及完成自己想做的事时， 光阴已从我们身旁匆匆地走过。
无奈。。。
这假期表面上有着光鲜的外表，但它其实是很多中四生用来恶扑的时候。
(至少我是这样觉得的）
说来说去，还不是个“披着羊皮的狼”。 哈哈，用得有点不恰当，但这只是我的感触啦。
只剩下半年了，也许更短的时间。这段时间我想了很多，尤其是拿到成绩单后。
毕竟人生中有数不清的起伏，许多事真的是我们无法预料或阻挡的。
当然有些则是我们的必经之路。
我们可能会因此埋怨，赌气，觉得委屈。
但如果有一天20十年过了，你会感到庆幸自己20年前曾进努力过，尝试过，曾经做过那决定你的人生的重大决定。
很多时候我都会听别人说， 年轻的时候就要敢敢去做，不然老了便没有机会了。对啊，至少你会觉得无怨无悔。
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回到成绩单身上．
我真的努力了，可是那数字并没有显示我砸下的时间与汗水．
难道一定要在大家面前努力，装摸作样才叫努力吗？幕后的努力就不算数吗？
我不知道．
我甚至有点质疑自己是否是不是很笨．
其实我非常排斥别人问起我的成绩，我也非常的不想谈它．
可是，我觉得我不应该逃避．因为这是一个事实，逃避又能改变什么呢？
所以我决定把我的感想写在这里，提醒我我有这个烂成绩的存在，这样我才不会再迷失方向，重蹈附则．
要我哭吗？又有什么用？哭也哭够了，那只是自我释放情绪的方式．
要我埋怨吗？埋怨又有什么用呢？你觉得我不清楚吗？
我非常的对不起我的父母。对不起，我知道你们对我的期望很大，可是我却辜负了你们。我最放心不下的就是你们。真的对不起，我知道我打碎了你们的心。
对，现在我的心真得很空，很空。
我真的非常地缺乏安全感，很没有信心。
我不知道我是否能赶上。
但是很多人告诉我，他们相信我可以的。
听他们这么说， 一来我感到很欣慰，二来我不知他们是想安慰我还是什么的。所以我问了每个人很多次 “你觉得我可以吗？” 他们的答案还是一样。谢谢大家这么说，这无疑给了我很大的鼓励，真的。
我不管那是出于同情或什么的，我决定相信那是出于你们心底的答案。
因为你们说我可以，我就可以。
不管我现在觉得自己可不可以，我是不会再让自己陷入这种困境，甘拜下风的。
爸爸妈妈，我不要再让你们担心了。
为了你们，我会全力以赴的。
谢谢，你们的支持就是我的力量。
我会努力的，不是，是更努力。
希望我的努力不是白费的。
-really..?
Shu hui didn't come to school today..
hope she is alright..
Kind of feeling down today and everything seems very unpleasant to me..
I was quite irritated by someone too, but nvm..
After school today went Vivo to have lunch with Ayesha before going for the uniform feedback session. Talked quite a lot with her, mostly about our results..school..class..
hais...I don't know what to say... Lets jiayou..although I'm also really tied down by it..
Went for the uniform thing, which I think was rather short. Talked about all the same things again.. was playing some games with yingting.. Opps..
Came home and mummy is still ill.. :( High fever.
Take care everyone, the weather is really warm nowadays.
Hope my mum will recover soon.
Currently, I'm trying to register for the mastering physics stuff..but kind of confused.
haha, chatting with kamseng too.
Talking to him is like talking to a little boy, don't know why, just got that kind of feelings.
last of all...
lol, Junwen witnessed a really embarassing scene of mine today..
Hope he will forget it soon. MUST ( you promised me just now!)
Haha..bouncy hair :)
alright, I'm exhausted today.
so goodnight my dears.
Just feeling extremely restless and motivationless now.
I need to exhaust myself to inject some meaning into my life.
What irritates me absurdingly the most now are the ulcers on my lip.I can't even smile, speak or eat properly without hurting it when I open my mouth.
Yea, what happened in the past is the past, we cannot alter anything.
However, we can change what is going to happen in the future, hopefully.
Jiayou ba, although it is really worth tearing for, but there is no point to gloom over what is done.
The deceased won't revive just because you cried your lungs out.
Nothing tames me as much as reading a book..so I finished another book today, "My life as a emperor".
lol..
quite a nice book though, its about some China's empire history again..
moving on to another one..:)
Just looked outside my window and realised that theres no star tonight, although the nightsky is quite clear..
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Hais.
I shouldn't be feeling like that..
but I can't help..
My mind is in a utter mess.
Eventually it is still my responsibility to return it to its original state..
so hope that I can get out of this dismay soon.
it got swollen yesterday..not sure why..
No obvious injuries..but I can feel the pain when I'm standing, walking or when I'm bending my knees..
argh..
Anyway..
Things to do for tomorrow:
1. School
2. Get back SS paper ( hope will be good)
3. Gryphon's mascot meeting
4. Dinner with squadmates ( hope can make it)
5. At night do 排版 for 会讯
6. Sleep ( lol)
Saturday:
1. Meet zhiliang and others in school at 830am for the 奔向世界纪录 thing
2. Go to Serangoon Garden for the competition
3. Interview, take photographs, watch, blah blah
4. Go to Singapore Press Holdings at Bradell
5. Help with 会讯！
6. 下版!
7. Go home ( meichen xin ku ni le )
Sunday:
1. Hopefully go and cycle with Chee ( if nothing goes wrong)
2. Maybe fetching grandma to my house for a stay
3. Not sure
Came to school today and Peggy show me her happy crazy baby and naked brother's photographs..
Happy crazy baby is her niece.
Her brother is her brother.
Her niece is cute..haha..chubby little girl..
So sweet :)
Anyway..take care lilin..hope you get well soon yea..
and cheer up everyone who is feeling down..:D
JIAYOU !!
oh yea..
I got an ulcer again..
Good luck to me for burshing my teeth..rawr..
alright
goodnight :)))
Ran 4 rounds for PE today, after that I felt like vomiting and uber weak, so I didn't play the ball game. Hmm..well..enough of the sick part..maybe I didn't sleep well since I was rushing on 排版 yesterday night.. *yawns*
Found someone else who want to join Singapore Youth Flying club too! My dear peggy. lol..
I guess I will give a try for both shooting and the SYFC. Of course SYFC is harder, since their selection and interview is so complicated.
And I got back some of my results today.. all I can say is..
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Speaking of Peggy, we are getting crazier everyday.
This new craze of us is to translate all the things that we see into hokkien and they always turn out to be rubbish.
Perhaps someday we will turn paralyse because of excessive laughing.
Oh yea..going to cycle with cheehooi this Sunday..hope nothing goes wrong! Because it had been a long time since we last go out together alone.
Hmm..
actually when you people come to my blog..
did u notice my hugs collection thing somewhere along the side column?
I put it there when I was in sec 2 and I neglected it since it hit 100000, which was part of a special birthday present..if not wrong..
just realised that it is 100911 now..
haha..911 more..
quite a significant figure..so I feel quite heartwarming..lol..
Just came upon this I feel that it is very sweet..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dqYFkOyh5ao&eurl=http://www.kennysia.com/
go and watch :)
I always feel that one of the happiest thing on Earth is to find someone who loves you and you love to have a long-lasting relationship and grow old together.
Haha..hope that I will find my prince someday.
Okay..
I'm physically and mentally tired today..
so..
goodnight :)
Speech competition today.
Dodo, you did really well! 4L is proud of you..I would probably faint on stage if you ask me to give speech...good job!
Going out with Cheehooi
Actually wanted to go and swim with chee and then come to my house before her tuition this Saturday, but this plan was ruined by some assignment of mine. Nevermind, shall change our plans to this Sunday. Bestfriend forever & forever & forever. :)
编采班
It is undeniable that Bian cai have been requiring more and more work, since deadline is around the corner. In fact I still need to 排版 for 《青春开讲》report later. Oh yea, our school's one is on vodcast on OMY, feel free to look at it, you will see my ugly face.
Anyway, Zhi liang from year 3 and I will be doing a close- up interview& 追赶跑 on the mediacorp challenge in RV on Wednesday and Saturday respectively. We will be accompanying them everywhere( I think)to witness everything and haha, interview relevant people. Anyway, the show is called " 奔向健力士”。Catch it on Channel 8 next time.
Oh yea, I'm involved in a blog competition whereby I need to write my sentiments on a topic on a allocated blog for a period of time.I will update when there is further notice. And yes, they will be in chinese of course.
Second competition is a on the spot competition for interviewing and compiling of information and reporting. I guess its something like that. Will update on it when I clarify with the teacher.
Haha last thing, did anyone see Mr Chua's report on newspaper last last wednesday? :P
And a lot of people asked me about it.
Actually just don't think too much.
so yea..end of today..hope you have a good day..
I don't, because I bit my lips accidently just now.
Bleeding like a river..
okok..
I need to do my pai ban already..jiayou!
:)
你让我成为了你30岁以后的其中一位主角，占据了你下半生的生活。
你抚育我长大，让我从牙牙学语的小女孩变成今天的我。
你教会我许多人生的道理，礼节，领悟。
你陪我度过无数的低潮，让我从最失落的时候走出来。
你是我16 年里的精神支柱，为我带来了许多曙光。
谢谢妈妈。
你和爸爸永远都会是我最爱的人。
母亲节快乐！
Especially after smelling the smell of c______ oil..I will feel weak and nausea for the whole bus ride.. no idea why I'm so sensitive to that smell..I just don't like it..
But no offence offence to anyone..I'm just saying that it will cause me to feel sick..
I guess I shall go back to my past bus routine of taking 97 or 963 after alighting from 188 halfway.. sometimes..if c______ oil overwelms me again..
Anyway! I must tell you something!
On my way home today, I was carrying a lot of things because it was NPCC day today. So I was carrying my bag, np uni, shoebag, my lunchie and my notes.
I think I look like a santa claus.
That is not the point and I just digressed a bit. LOL
THEN!
A grandpa carried a cute little girl and a cute little boy with big eyes and chubby look onto the bus!
I was so happy when they sat in front of me.( Because I love cute little children)
hahaha..
When I was alighting, the adorable little angel said " Bye bye, 再见! " to me in her cute little voice..
So sweetttt..
When you hear a little toddler speak to you when you don't even know her..
ahhhh..
I think I sound a bit mad..
but I really like little children..not naughty ones though..
I guess one day if I wanna get a part time job I will consider being a teacher in kindergarden..haha
ok..
I must get back to singapore studies already..
Slept 6 hours just now! so I am feeling energised and happy now..
:D
byebye :)
你不说，我怎么知道呢？
instead of hearing it during your speeches or pledge-takings in school.
Went out to study today with ayesha, cheehooi and pamela.
But they all got distracted and we all agreed to go home at 1 or 2 plus..
Don't know why, but I went to the library in West mall to study myself after departing with them and I studied there till 7pm plus.
It was super quiet ( I guess) and I thoroughly enjoyed my time spent there.
Quality time.
lol.
Alright to play safe, I shall go there and study again tomorrow in case I got distracted at home and slack the whole day or something.
byeee <3
But no point too.
Aiks..
I just feel angry with myself..I need ice to cool down..
:(:(
I'm not asking for much..just let me get a 3.0 please..
alright..I gonna go and read up on the Ying Yong Wen structures now.
Goodnight!
-TOP's voice is so sexy.