One who flys above and one who flutters within

September Meeting

What has helped you through out this new life the most. Is it your family? your faith? Support groups? A ritual? Music? Physical activity? A new interest? It could be anything. Tell us about how whatever it is has helped you. Please feel free to share photo's,videos, websites, support group information and so on.

I had to think about this for awhile... My husband has been my rock, he listens to me rant and cry about the same things over and over, it helps to get it off my chest. 5 months after Kasey grew his wing my friend found a support group for CDH parents. That has helped my healing the most. There are many people who understand what I am feeling. Before I joined CHERUBS I felt alone, no one knew what I was going through, and they could pretend, but they would never know and that wasn't comforting or getting me anywhere in my day to day life. I found Carly's blog To Write Their Names In the Sand through another CDH mom and I had to have Kasey's name written in the sand-THANK YOU CARLY!!!!!!!! The beach means a lot to my family, we go every Christmas to the beach and relax. When I found out I was pregnant with Kasey and figured out his due date, we had to cancel our Christmas vacation to the beach because he was due the day we were to leave. I had many dreams of taking my punkin to the beach and playing... Those dreams came crashing down Dec 19 (1 day before he was supposed to be born). Blogging has also helped me too. I am amazed how many of us baby lost mommas there are... We are TTC and that has helped me a little, but its hard too especially since Kasey was conceived when we were not trying... now I couldn't try harder and can't seem to make it happen...

I am tardy on posting this, I apologize! Thank you http://almostamother.blogspot.com/ for nominating me for an award! It is the Friendship Award!

Ok, so here are the rules:

"This award is bestowed on to blogs that are exceedingly charming. These kind bloggers aim to find and be friends. They are not interested in self-aggrandizement. Our hope is that when the ribbons of these prizes are cut, even more friendships are propagated. Please give more attention to these writers. Deliver this award to six bloggers who must choose six more and include this cleverly-written text into the body of their award."

Tina at http://livingwithoutsophiaandellie.blogspot.com/
Danielle at http://wyattnathaniel.blogspot.com/
Holly at http://carleighmckenna.blogspot.com/
Kristy at http://mooooonandback.blogspot.com/
Jenn at http://jenn625.blogspot.com/
Deb at http://skyesofblue.blogspot.com/

The organization that has helped me cope and grieve is in a CLOSE running for $50,000. If you have a facebook account and would take seconds to please vote once a day for CHERUBS we would greatly appreciate it! CHERUBS is an organization that is for families with children that have Diaphragmatic Hernias like what Kasey had.

Thank you in advance!!!

A fellow blogger needs your help. Her son Wyatt fought for 2 minutes before he grew his wings, but in the state of Tennessee they do not recognized Wyatt's life, thus his family is unable to obtain a birth certificate. If you would please sign the petition below to help get this law changed. You can also visit Wyatt's blog at http://wyattnathaniel.blogspot.com/
Thank you!

http://www.thepetitionsite.com/1/recognize-life-in-tennessee

This weekend we went to a wedding. A friend of the groom, whom we are also friends with has the most bizarre family...I'm not sure why his cousin decided she would like to speak to me (she has a bit of an I am better than you attitude), but she did. We began talking about Kasey and my husband and I's relationship and how it's very hard and there have been many days where I have quit. The only reason we are still married is because he wont give up. I love him dearly(we are not getting divorced), but I have a hard time coping some days and that seems like its the best option. I know many can relate to my feelings. She could not fathom why we would get divorced and if we did how much baggage I would have bringing into another relationship... SERIOUSLY lady... I just got up and went to the dance floor with the girls. Some people don't understand and never will. Losing a child is something you don't get over or past.

I can't believe that it has been 8 years. I remember what I was doing that awful day that has changed so many things in this country, do you?

I was a junior in college, driving home from the gym. I remember listening to it on the radio, not grasping what was unraveling, I turned the TV on when I got home and couldn't believe what I was seeing.

I found some pictures of Champ and Charlie, I need to post something positive!


Charlie is such a lover


I am so naughty, but very cute!








Champ and Charlie-notice how much bigger Charlie is!


Charlie loves the water


Champ watching tv


Champ and Charlie, when Charlie was younger


Champ and Charlie the 1st day we got Charlie-Champ wasn't so sure about Charlie, now they are inseparable!

Yesterday after getting home and picking of about a weeks worth of mail I opened a beautiful package from For Your Tears Only. It was such a surprise! After having such a bad day, week and month. I appreciate such generosity and thoughtfulness for a mommy in pain. Thank you again!

"friend" turned everything on me, its my fault. I haven't reached out, he grandfather died. Call me insensitive I guess, but he lived a long full life. Mine did too-where was she? I can barely get out of bed some days, shouldn't friends call me? See how I am doing? After Kasey's service it was like things are all better-at least that is how people acted. I have yet to hit some of the hardest days. Kasey should be learning to crawl, he would almost be 1. I should be planning a big birthday party for our 1st child, the 1st grandchild. Instead I am trying to get donations for a silent auction to raise $ for CDH in memory of Kasey- IN MEMORY. This 8th month has been really hard on me. I am wreck, I feel crazy, I don't get out of bed to go to the gym, I barely get out of bed to get to work late. I miss our little punkin so bad and don't understand why he is not here with us. WHY, WHY??