Saturday, January 22, 2011
happy new year everybody!
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
When it gets tough,
when u try and try but nothing helps
when u have exhausted all your resources
when u feel as though everyone is against you
when u do not deserve it
when u sit in the corner of a dark room, and just cry
when u can't cry no more
when u become indifferent
when all hope is lost
Praise Him.
and then go take a nap.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
I'm gonna fight tooth and nail for this one. Go all the way, speak to whomever i need to, i dont' care. I am not afraid. I am not losing this because of ignorance.
And i will do it with class and grace.
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Constant skirmishes with myself. Can I continue winning?
Saturday, November 21, 2009
You are such a strange, strange person. Untouchable. I really like it.
Friday, November 20, 2009
Awesome
What an awesome day. A day of firsts, it was. First time taking blood from a patient. First time playing a gig in a pub. It was just a great day. Thank you, Lord.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
GIG tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Excited.... spent the whole night practicing with the guys (and girl). It's gonna be awesome i know it. only think i'm concerned about is the equipment. Hope the amps will be loud enough....
Videos should be up on facebook soon enough...
Let's do this.
Monochrome Masquerade
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Mailman? What mailman?
Sigh.... 10 points down after 3rd quarter, I hit 2 treys, grabbed a steal and quick layup, and we're back in the game 2 down. Then we throw it away.
ARRRRRRGHGHGHHHHHHHHH. Not good enough. I hate losing.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Well, it's been awhile, hasn't it?
I dont' foresee myself blogging very much in the near future, so i'll be sure to treasure these times when i actually am blogging. So here we go.
Not so many days ago, i found myself in a conversation with 2 other guys, and the topic of christianity came up. One of em, lets call him guy A, was brought up in a Christian family, and was raised in church, went to bible academy, and well... looked every bit a christian. He then started going on and on about how he wasn't sure about it anymore. That he saw christianity as a mindset that helped people focus their lives, and have a purpose to live for, to drive them to succeed in life. He went on to say that before he became a med student (forgot to mention that), he used to see people get healed of cancer and think that it was a miracle, but now would "know" that cancer is a recurring-remitting disease, and that the disease was probably in remission for that period of time. That is just an example, he gave a few more.
I then found myself sitting there, arguing (yes, almost to that extent) that christianity wasn't what he said it was, and that his perspective was indeed flawed. (note that the other guy, guy B was a neutral and was on the verge of becoming a christian coming to church regularly)
Well before i knew it, the convo was over and guy A had left us. Guy B then came up to me and asked me y i got offended by what guy A had said. I was taken aback. I wasn't really offended, i just wanted to put my point across. But thinking back, i did seem a little... hostile. I couldn't really figure out y i reacted the way i did. But you know what, the whole thing proved to me that I just do not know enough about my own faith, and my God. I really don't.
I hate to think that i am wavering in my faith. No i'm not, but i'm just beginning to realise that there is so much more to it than just child-like faith, especially when i become older and more knowledgeable.
It truly is harder for the knowledgeable and rich to enter the kingdom of God. Lord God help my unbelief.
Saturday, March 07, 2009
Puttanesca (cos thats all i can really think about right now)
Hello folks! It's been awhile, hasn't it. There's been a lot that's happened since the last blog post, and since i usually only blog when I'm troubled by something or I have nothing else better do, i guess you could say that I've been good.
Now first thing i want to say. Scottish people pronounce "awhile" with the H not silent. It really is quite wheird.
So, it's my final semester in scotland, before i graduate with my degree and head off to manchester to get my med degree. This sem is dissertation sem, cos i'm doing an honours degree. That means, practically no classes, no exams, just plain research and writing. 10000 words on subtalar arthroereisis. Now that is what you'll probably have to go through if you're thinking about going to med school.
Doing nothing else but writing a paper really isn't as easy as most people would think. It gives you a false pretense of free time. I'll call it "pseudo-free-time". You think you have a lot of free time, and then the deadlines fly and smack you in the face, and before you know it you're thinking, "why did i spend all my time watching football and learning how to cook spaghetti alla puttanesca?!!" (
BTW, i make a mean spaghetti alla puttanesca. My favourite dish. For those who don't know, it is a pasta sauce made with anchovies, black olives and lots of chilli. Magnificento, muacks)
It's the
medical school ball today. It's going down in edinburgh, which is the capitol of scotland also 2 hours away.
I'm wearing a KILT. Yes, and not any kilt, a sleek black one, with black socks and a black dagger, and the rest of the works are just as classy. Only things missing from my set-up are a bag pipe and a whiskey bottle. I think the pictures will pop up here... yeah i think so.
And just to add, i will be wearing something underneath the kilt. Contrary to popular belief, modern-day scotsmen
DO wear underwear dunder their man-skirts, just because it gives added.. um. protection. I think. Plus, it's freezing!
Oh yes, a couple days ago, there was a bomb threat in the medical school. Someone called in and told the admin that there was a bomb somewhere in the school. It was evacuated, the bomb squad came, the whole shazlam. It was a hoax. I wasn't there at the time, but that's something that doesn't happen everyday, and hopefully it stays that way. Apparently, it was the Animal-rights activists who were responsible
.
About a week back, a whole group of students participated in an "occupation" of one of the university buildings. They were picketing for the university give some kids from Gaza scholarships. What they did was to basically skip their classes, and go to the building and "occupy" it, and in doing so disrupting anything else that was scheduled to happen in the building. Lectures, classes, seminars. Sheesh. Here's my opinion: regardless of whether the university should give kids from Gaza scholarships, you shouldn't be disrupting classes here. It's never right to use fear and intimidation to get something you want.
I've been reading a book (for some time now), "Mere Christianity" by C.S. Lewis. It is a great book. It pretty much explains Christianity in a simplicity that most Christians didn't even know about. Lewis doesn't oversimplify things though, which would be a travesty, but he puts it in ways that make it so easy to understand and remember. I think anyone and everyone should read it.
Talking about that, i learned something pretty mind-blowing in bible study on tuesday. I don't think i can even explain it, but basically, that the new covanent is not limited to the new testament (and therefore isn't limited to after the birth of Christ). Jeremiah 31, hebrews 11. It's theology. I need more explanation, but it really is changing the way i look at
things. If someone knows what i'm talking about, and can clarify, please do.
Ok, off to try on my kilt.
Friday, November 28, 2008
Got my results for my mid-semester back. Didn't do to well. Well... i think i got what i deserved. Gonna study even harder for the next one. Man, medics are just too keen.
Things are looking good for the orchestra concert this coming wkend! I'm pretty excited now after attending our final rehearsal just now. I was pretty apprehensive about our chances of actually pulling it off, cos the orchestra, especially my viola section, is horrendous with a capital horrend. Seriously. But the conductor called in some reinforcements and now we're good. We have this gypsy looking dude with a gypsy looking mullet and beard, but he's awesome with a fiddle i tell you. So good. Here we go.
Uh my neck is aching.
Speaking about neck, i have a "examination of the neck" workshop tmr morning. Gotta hit the sack or else i'll be running to sch while putting my clothes on again. Jak sie masz!
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Benzodiazepines, Buspirone, Barbituates...
Anxiolytics. I'm gonna need one soon...
Monday, November 10, 2008
people tend to forget the
symptoms of suicide.
Friday, November 07, 2008
I'm still alive!
And so is this blog. Barely.
Ok lemme pitch you a question.
If you were an oncologist (cancer doctor), and you had a patient who you just found out had terminal cancer ie. the patient's gonna die in say 3 months. Would you tell the patient that he had cancer and was gonna die? Or would you lie and say everything was fine?
Now by telling the patient he had cancer, you'd be telling the truth, and you'd be doing your "job"
as a doctor to diagnose and treat when possible. The patient would then be able to "prepare for death", quit the job, write a will, travel the world, whatever. However, if you lied to the patient and told him that he was as healthy as carrot sticks, you may have given him 3 months of happiness before his death.
I know that 6 months ago, i would have told the truth to the patient. After all, it was my job! Now, i'm not so sure...
What do you think? Tag and let me know! Everyone's entitled to their own opinion.
