Big Daddy

Hey Daddy,

I totally forgot about this blog. :P Coming home has given me a bigger plot of the land. I do wonder sometimes what are Your plans for me? All I know is at this point, I am on the right track, because You have made my paths straight.

Yesterday night was great, because You did Your magic again. It was my second time hosting the congregational meeting. I realise that as long as I am not faithfully following the script, You'd give me words to say. I absolutely had no idea what was going on and when, and it is so true that there is no need to have things run perfectly.

My group of helpers did great. They helped me out amazing. I would have been pretty floored by the time I finished doing that Passion Trivia. Right now just hanging at aunt's. She's so good, welcomes me anytime. And now that I don't have a place to go, I get to stay here to hang. Hahaha...Bored dead. :P

Ta. Chat later. =)

gracey

How grateful I am when I hear You saying to me, " Grace, I am pleased with the desires of your heart."

Thank you Abba. To hear it once brought tears to my eyes - though I tried controlling it. Hehe.. But to hear You telling me 3 times in 3 days through 3 different people, Lord I know You are with me.

Thank you for providing in every way, in preparing me to get there. The walk is fun and exciting, I can't wait. Apprehensive, but learning to trust.

Can't hide it, YOU are the ONE indeed. =)


in awe,
gracey

Daddy,

Life is painful to live. How did Jesus do it? What did He see, where was He looking to that helped Him walk through life sinless? It is a high calling.

I'm all stressed up and really messy. Confused, upset and struggling to make the best out of the situations around me. Yet I fail miserably. How did You do it Lord?

Tears are like my best friends now, especially the last 2 weeks. You just got to keep me on my feet right? I guess it makes life more colourful in my already dull and mundane life.

HELP me. LOVE me. And help me RECEIVE Your love and grace for my life, that I may understand and bask in every moment I have You by my side.

Please, answer my deepest prayers. Give me lots of faith, faith in knowing that You have my future in Your hands. You know my needs and my wants. Would You be so generous as to give them all to me? It's too hard to relinquish my rights, but I will learn how to. For now, it's just THAT I really want. Please?

I praise You for all things happening right now, may it strengthen the people who are involved, and our relationships in and with You.

learning to love by obeying,
gracey

I got my answer!! Woohoo!!!

"Slaves, obey your earthly masters with respect and fear, and with sincerity of heart, just as you would obey Christ. 6Obey them not only to win their favor when their eye is on you, but like slaves of Christ, doing the will of God from your heart. 7Serve wholeheartedly, as if you were serving the Lord, not men, 8because you know that the Lord will reward everyone for whatever good he does, whether he is slave or free.

Should I start another blog just to jot down my thoughts about the journey towards YWAM (the bridge) and beyond?

Would I have time for You, what with the unpredictable working schedule and maybe the more time I need to invest into the leaders' life soon? What should I do? Say? Am I thinking right?

Is it really wrong to even want to spend more time with people, because that's what I am good at, that's Your gift to me - leadership and youths and not making work my priority? It's not that I don't do my share of assignments, more like I want to learn to make time for other things, other than spending my youth away at work.

I have always believed that work is not everything, because friendships, family and personal time to keep sane, are to me, more important. But then again, there's a fine line that I don't know, and am not sure of crossing. I seem to be alone in this. Almost all my friends, whether my age, gender or church or otherwise, have told me, quoted me Your word, saying that I must submit to my employer. In other words according to them, that would mean giving all my time to work. I'd go crazy.

Isn't there a limit? Lord, only You know my struggles and can change my attitude towards that.


not so easy after all,
gracey

I guess this is your way of telling me You're taking over my financial plan. The computer having problems & the car tyre bursting, man, they flatten my bank accounts, basically my salary for the month.

What's next? I shiver to anticipate. Indeed the only sure thing happening tomorrow that I know of is that You are there. Other than that, I'm not even sure if I would still be alive. But then again, I have not completed my task on earth, so I think You won't take me home so early huh?

This faith journey is really going to be testing and yet fully affirming from You, because finally, finally I would know my God for real, no longer from someone else's eyes. I know for sure You are going to take my breath away, just don't know how and in what scale. ;)

Grace does not know what she is getting herself into.

Bye Dad.

gracey

Hi Dad,

I am finally feeling more sleepy. Having a tiny little headache, which is bearable.

I had not much time to think. In that mode again today. I know You need to send some calamities or something to happen to wake humans up, and that includes me.

Well, I am. Don't exactly know what to do at the same time. Please guide me ya?

Need You there when I settle my things tomorrow at college.

Thanks. Nite nite.


me,
gracey