Where to start?

What a strange trip so far.

Almost time for a 2014 reflection post. Def need a '14 cx season retrospective. At least by the numbers.

Today, I have a chance to sit (the airplane doesn't count, sort of like forced idle but nothing else to do anyway but read, this is different). I'm at home.

Still sick, the drugs are helping the cough not taste like vile grossness but I'm still coughing (plegm is mostly clear and not yellow green so that's an improvement). Ears? Still fucked up from the plane ride back from Seattle.

The year has been a struggle. But overall really good. So many bright moments and a general aura of positivity. Still, being as emotional, as I am there are times of darkness and frustration and depression and hopelessness...

Life ain't easy. I've made choices that have put me where I am. And where I am has kind of never ever been about me, at least in the most major adult ones. Most of these choices were never based on what makes sense financially, they were made on a what is the best option.

I've got this afternoon to relax. Up most of the night coughing (two nights in a row actually) early soccer yesterday, late ballet last night, still way sleep deprived from the 36th annual Magical Strings Celtic Yuletide PacNW trip (google search will help if that doesn't make sense, yes I've been playing my violin since the late '70s or read this article about us.)

CX is done. Maybe I'll make it to scrub zone nats, maybe i'll be here to plan a NYD Bandit race here again, or maybe not. I'm not stressing about it. It is what it is. There are more important things that trump both of those at this point. Hate to admit it and esp as much fun as everyone had down here in RI on New Years Day last year, it isn't easy to put a priority somewhere else. If it was something for me I'd be all over making sure the race happened, but it isn't for me, or about me.

Bandit cross up at Wrentham that one snowy year when I first met Russ was ROB BAUER's brain child, motivated by Jerome's up coming trip to germany to race CX, we did it for him and because it was goddamn fun.  Last year's bandit race was initially conceived after KoA canceled his event, a last minute quick FB page concoction followed up with a great turn out. And hey everyone had a shit ton of fun and I got a Chia GeWilli (still in plastic shrink wrap) out of the deal. And holy shit those barriers David B built? OMG awesome. I still have all the flags, can pretty easily re-set a similar course the day of. If I'm here. Like I said - to be determined.

I'm actually watching my first (that I can remember) sportsball thing on the TV. First sitting in front of the TV thing that I can remember too.

Yes. I think I might be the last person with internet in the house to be still watching on a vacuum tube TV with an OTA digital converter box. The actually TV is great but it is actually broken, not straight, sides are cropped (can't tell what the score is on some channels, fortunately it is CBS and they put their on screen graphics in the middle.

It is getting darker (room light not on and window not lighting up whole room anymore) and I have no idea what I'm going to make for dinner. Tomorrow? I know. Because I've been given a specific request.

Rambling? Me? Fuck yeah. What can I do best? Talk about whatever forever. Social chit chat and pleasantries and polite and meaningless banter? yeah I suck at that. But hey getting close to time to move on from 2.0 and see if we can get rid of some more bugs for 2015.  GeWilli 2.0 was waaaaaay slower than the previous version. Next version should hopefully be able to keep the improvements, add some speed maybe (that's the plan but hey who knows how the software is going to interact with the hardware and shit there is the whole environmental factors that we can only guess at and could prove to undermine best intentions) and keep building a better GeWilli....

I'll admit - twitter and G+ and (I'm ashamed to admit) Faceplace have been drawing me a bit more in. Why? Time. I haven't really been able to make the time to spend a pile of minutes in a row writing since like before I started working at NBX, roughly. Or maybe after that? Or my brain is just being old and forgetting stuff.

One goal is to attempt to get back to writing regularly. Or at the very least, catch up over the Holiday break. This is a good one this year. Timing of NYD means a few more days I don't have to burn of my Vacation days...  But even Friday I was starting to fill in January, ALREADY!!!  But I enjoy being there, and my job. It is not very social (neither am I) but I interact with people and in this case I am the expert and unlike in non-work life, actually knowing stuff and telling people stuff doesn't piss people off, they actually usually are appreciative.  Funny that.

My butt has fallen asleep. Sportsball game is over. Looks like half the teams playing today won so far. Them's good odd.

I did wake up in time (get out of bed) to catch the last 15 min of the Namur men's race. Only channel i could get was the Czech one so I watched it thinking about Paul S and Henry J. Race was kind of boring at that point. Missed seeing the Beard. And Kevin P looks a hell of a lot like Mark Sooooooups (esp in their white kits).

Hopefully I'll toss up some more words soon, no promises, but it feels good to write shit down.

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