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Sunday, November 29, 2009

My Journal

this few days... i also dun noe what happen to me jus feel that i very fed up with things surround me... maybe i think too much le... sth i wanna to be good to u but sth will juz pop into my mind... not that i dun wan to talk to you is juz that i can't overcome myself.... i will think and think.... i treasure and i care for it... really... feeling so sorry and gulity inside... i hope everything will back to normal... in 4 dec 2009 this coming friday...

Today, i dun noe why i keeping thinking of you... why heh? it's just concidence only... i also dun noe what i wan... nobody ever noe what i'm thinking and what i really wan... i need to relax my mind then maybe i will sort out what i really wan.... i can tell you i dun noe what i wan after i had relax my mind...

indeed my circle is small but i like my circle... i am content with my circle of friend... To me i du
n need lot of friend afew of good friend is enough for me... like my SCSC is my best choice...

晚安咯我该睡觉了....

-♥-Connie-♥- 1:39 AM

Thursday, November 12, 2009

My Thooughts....

this few days i seem to think alot.... i dun noe hw to say just feel that very moody at time.... hw can i get rid of the past i have... to u is easy for me is hard.... maybe i just can't get rid.... so call " Na Bu Qi Fang Bu Xia"

Now i had set my target to my career.... i know if only i have career i can have anything i wish and wan to have.... i need sometime to start the change... please make me as busy as u can... so that i dun have the time to think of other stuff....

Yuppie i am going to for holiday next year... looking forward... will buy some goodie for you all especially my 3 good buds.... i buy all same de... so we go out we can take and wear together... haha... like 2 pair of twins babies... haha lolx... ;)

Hope to see you all soon.... i now cannot leave without seeing you all... cause use to see you all everytime in sch... now start to miss the life we have in sch... really miss those day....

-♥-Connie-♥- 10:31 PM

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

this few week had been sleeping very late.... dun noe why can't slp.... can't slp nvm but silly thing will start to stir in my mind.... i dun noe what i really wan... Maybe someone i can realise on who will really care and concern abt me.... Hard to forget abt my past...

need to have a break...
Too Tired.... :)

-♥-Connie-♥- 11:16 PM

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

My first time experience on earth quake

Today suppose to do my report but now what happen at 6 plus there is earth quake all my colleague can feel it... when my supervisor come and ask me about the purging my chair shake.... and i thought is she use her leg to shake my chair but not she ask me can u feel the shake i was about to tell her are u shaking my chair but my manager shout my laptop table and chair is shaking can you all feel it.... and all the answer is yes... why heh? the first thing is we grab our bag and close our com and run for our life.... as we know noe what will happen next.... and i received one called from ee hui ask me whether can i feel the earth quake... omg... i was so touch...

Sad thing is tml i had to go back office to rush for my report.... arhz.... jia you....

2 more day to weekend... hoho :)

-♥-Connie-♥- 11:00 PM

Monday, September 28, 2009

How i enjoy myself last week

Last friday when to watch one very boring movie by Brat Pitt the " Indo dun noe what Basterds" I only see the first part and last time then the middle part of the story i was sleeping.... very bored.... then watch till 3am take cab home...

Then sat when to JB to shop with my Aunty... bought one shoe 3 clothes and some mooncakes... then about 8 plus then i reach home then around 11 plus or 12am when to judy house to play mahjong... it was so fun to play with them.... i enjoy myself althought i was tired... haha.... play till 5 plus when to eat roti prata... not that nice... then we head home....

Then the next day i sleep and wake up and sleep really very tired... then around 5 plus i reach my granny house... then 7 plus i go home... then 1 plus then i slp....

the next day i was so tired... this few days i had been craving for coffee, chocolate and ice-cream all those faterning stuff... I had became fatter and fatter...

wedenesday is month-end and it my headache day... had to print all the invoice and download report and do closing... omg.... it had come to another month again... very fast... OCT.... my friend birthday soon will come... got to prepare... haha.... really very tired... but life is like this...

Enjoy and looking forward for another weekend.... yoho.... hehe :p

Shirley and Ee hui.... cya soon.... this coming weekend.... should i take some leave we go and have some fun ... when both of you nv work...play from morning till night... haha :p

That sound good and funny... hehe :p

-♥-Connie-♥- 11:12 PM

Sunday, September 20, 2009

This month i had been watching movie.... last time i seldom go cinema as i will fall asleep now then i realised not every movie make me sleep... friday when to see " The Ugly Truth" it was so funny... we laugh and laugh all the way haha.... this movie teach you how to deal with man... haha.... i enjoy myself on friday... Thanks Yang, Mirene, Ivy, Judy and Joanna.

Mirene is flying off tonight.... Bon Voyage.... Must take care... see you when you are back... we go chill out... haha :) Enjoy urself in korea dun think so much.... Cheers :) Be Happy always...

Eventually i was waiting for you guys to sms me to go out as everytime i alway take the first move but in the end everytime only me and hui will come out.... so i wait for you all to confirm finalise already you all will send the sms to me.... so no point i make the first move cause i can simply tell that there is no conclusion at all.... it is so tiring to wait for ur reply.... friend for so long all ur pattern can simply tell... so i had nv carry the hope that it is a happy ending...

I wouldn't force you all... If you all really want to go out the msg will be send to me... if not i will not be the one who make the move... it is POINTLESS and MEANINGLESS....

Simply because we are good friend so sometime thing can take for granted.... this is how i feel... not like your other frenz say go out mean go out but we are different can last min called off.... this make me so fared up.... if i say nvm to you mean i'm so peace off....

Why everytime is like this... WHY WHY WHY?????????????????

Either total 2 or 3 is out not 4 of us.... is everything missing one or two.... TIRED!!!!

Words can't describe....

Cheers :) Seem happy but not that happy at all....

I wanna go for a HOLIDAY!!!!

-♥-Connie-♥- 6:50 PM

Sunday, August 30, 2009

It had been so long since my last update... haha :) Yesterday after work when to AMK straight to meet Hui and when up to li shop to visit her... haha... then afetr that we when to had our small dinner then head to buy ticket for "The Proposal" it was around 8:30pm.... Heng... we managed to got 4 ticket... haha :) cause it show the ticket is filling fast... but we managed to get 4 seats... haha.... if not li will start to nag at us then follow by jun... haha :) we predicted... lol ... :p

We know the Opp is acrade we went in to see at first as both of them haven reach... but it was so tempting to me... at first i nv intednd to play... but the small toy lo... so cute... haiz... nv catch even one waste my money... lol...

After watching finish the movie we when to S11 for supper... then we chat and chat until 1 plus... It had been a long time we 4 can sit down chat and chat, laugh and laugh... i'm so happy.... but at the same time tired.... haha :) btw... we are so curious abt who is "Balck" but she juz wouldn't tell us... but once time is ripe she will tell us... haha...
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This month and next month... i got 2 very impt mission to do... haiz... although both ur birthday crash... anyway i will be there on that day... Dun noe what you all want... i had to think by myself this round... headache... but anyway i had things on my mind to buy... Hope you all will appreciate my effort. i know left 2 more month... i was abit early to prepare... haha... but i am so anxious and looking forward to that day... Because i wan to see how you all react that day... haha :p i am so sick rite... lol :)
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My thought for months......

Last few week sth had make me so lose... but now i manage to find my way out... i'm not longer sad... but dun noe why? this few month sth had pop up in my mind...

Hui, you understand me more than i understand myself... what you say on last week and friday is rite... i nv admit... my heart is too soft. And somemore i'm a person who easily believe in their words... think back i'm such a fool.... haha :)

Li, u and hui always say me... but i juz wouldn't care nor listen... i follow what i think is rite... but i'm so blind... I will not make myself like this again... i really hate myself and my stubborness.... although i wan to tell u all but i juz can't say out frm my mouth... sth i feel that even though i nv say you all will know... my reaction or mood you all will find out sth is not rite wif me.

Jun, will always ask me not to believe... but i just believe... i know sth i am stubborn... but who know the outcome will like this. sometime i myself dun noe hw to tell you... i wan to tell u but jus can't speak to you... wait got agruement or angry with each other.... u understand...

Our 8 yrs of friendship is not so fragile i can say.... even though we quarrel or had some misunderstanding we will try to help each and others to resolve the unhappy between everyone.... i hope this can last forever... i dun wish or let anyone to destory our SCSC... Although sth we had bad temper we will still tolerate each and other although we know it is not harm... i dun know why this few month i had been thinking about all this stuffs... i can only say we are in different path or way now...

I hope we can meet up more often in your convient time....

Shirley, Ee Hui and Zhu Jun i know one day you all will read this... :)

Now to me friend is impt then anything else... i dun noe how to express myself but you all know i see things more important than myself... i can care and do alot for you but if you treat me like shit i will hate you forever... this is my character.... if my good bud does this to me i dun noe what will happen to me... but i believe none of the above will do this to me... :)
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Hungry Ghost Festival.......

Now is seven months, last week i go pray my ah gong.... i buy lots of stuff for him... i scared he bored i buy mahjong for him to play.... clothes.... shoe... money... handphone... credit cards.... buy i nv write the "Feng Tiao" my aunty hushand say if nv write my ah gong will not received... i was so sad... wait my ah gong say i nv buy him things but i know he wouldn't think that way... as i know he is always the one i dote most and he is always the one who dotes me most.... i also dun noe why say till him or go there pray him i will want to cry.... it had already being one year plus since he pass away...

Who can understand my feeling?

What i need is someone who can stay by my side to concern and show care for me that all...
I know my family and frenz is alway there for me when i need them....

Sometime i feel typing in this blog can only express myself out... but i'm jus too lazy to type...

Good Nite... This had been a long-winded blog i ever type...

-♥-Connie-♥- 1:38 AM