Thursday, March 29, 2007
12:21 AM
Two lamps were placed on a field, one on each opposing end, set up to provide light, as most lamps are required to do. Every night both lamps would turn on, and shine their luminescense below them in a constant effort, almost willfulness to preform their duties.
One night, one of the lamps was a little sore and stiff from standing straight and looking down constantly, so he stretched his back and looked out across the field. And for the first time, he saw the other lamp. He became entranced, he couldnt stop looking at it, and when he tried to go back to work he found he couldn\'t concentrate on lighting up the ground anymore, all he could think about was the other lamp across the field. Every chance he got he\'d sneak glances, his quick subtle looks soon turning into stares.
It was on one such occasion that he looked up and there was the light as always, but it was looking back at him. From then on the lamps looked at each other at every opportunity they had, every night they would turn on and immediately gaze at each others brilliance, only averting their intent stares out of necessity when someone needed their light for a moment. This went on for a long time both lights wanting nothing but to see the others radiance to share in each others light and warmth.
Early one evening, as our first lamp was slowly warming up and flickering to life, he looked up at his beloved companion and she was dim...barely able to light the ground below her. What once was magnificent blinding white luminosity was now a dull yellow veil of shadow. The Light didn\'t know what to do, he tried shining brighter, maybe the other light was still sleeping and just needed a reminder, a wake up call.
He flashed wondrously, beating pure white light out towards his companion, hoping beyond hope that the other light would wake up. He burned so brightly that his bulb burst. A loud electric crack resounded across the field as shards of glass and plastic scattered to the ground. The Lamp reeled in agony and tried to compose himself, he looked back across at his companion, whos light was slowly getting stronger. The other lamp had heard the noise and was now shining her still somewhat subdued light across the field but could not see her friend anywhere. She didnt know what to think...she just stared, slowly getting dimmer and dimmer until she too went out.
The first lamp watched in agonizing clarity as his companion flashed out and sought for him, but she couldn\'t see him, and there was nothing he could do. He watched in sadness as his companion slowly grew dim, berating himself for worrying because in his fear, he had lost the ability to shine back.
you make my life perfect-`
Sunday, March 25, 2007
6:48 PM
omg i'm telling you Stream-Sun is a terrific writer
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here's one of Stream-Sun's works
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He walked down the road, his sighs falling upon empty ears. Frozen, he stood there. He blinked, and squinted. The bright sunlight did nothing for him. Screaming wordlessly, no-one listens.
No-one ever listens.
He walked some more, thinking. Thinking about his life. Failed suicide attempts. And the sucessful ones. He admired the ones that had the bollocks to do it. Sometimes he wished he had the courage to do it.
His thoughts moved past the constant topic, and onto her. Why did she do it? Love is not real. It never has been, and never will be. Love is the lust for another person, with no real thought involved.
Senceless fucking is not love.
Thinking used to do his head in. Now it was all he ever did. Coming up to the empty house, he looked around. People walked by, without a care in the world. He opened the door, with a tear rolling down his face. Went into the kitchen, opened the drawer. Closed it, after obtaining what he wanted. Wandered upstairs, staring at the photos. The photos of the old times. The happy times.
Happy? Sure, everyone can belive in fantasies.
Walked into the bathroom. The face stared back at him in the mirror. His hair was covering his eye, so he moved it. Took off his clothes. First the jeans, then the shirt. Then the pants.
His vibrant green eyes, were not so vibrant anymore. The looked glazed over. He raised his right hand, and dropped it. Raised the other one instead. With his free hand, he obtained the knife he had removed from the drawer.
He was scared.
Trembling, he brought the blade to his wrist. Pushed. Pushed harder, and harder still. The skin split. He felt no pain, only the certainy that it would all be over soon. No more pain.
His knees gave way.
He was still thinking about his life, when the drops were slowly forming on the floor. First his eyes flickered, then he felt weak. He barely felt his face lying on the tiles, now tinged with crimson.
The door opened, and someone called his name. Called again. He barely heard the words anymore. Someone ran up the stairs. Screamed.
His eyes closed, and his breathing slowed.
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you make my life perfect-`
Sunday, March 18, 2007
5:24 AM
i was too bored. so pardon me
Answer these questions:
1. Would you make a fool out of yourself in public if it meant you were making your partner laugh?
Probably not.
2. Would you prefer the lights on or off during sex?
I...would prefer the light off.
3. Do you judge people solely by their musical preferences?
No, you mean u can tell how a person is like by their musical preferences?
4. If you could 'take back' your virginity from your first partner, would you?
I wouldn’t know. I’m pure.
5. Would you ever start a relationship with someone who was still living with an ex for financial reasons?
No, I wouldn't be able to deal with the drama. I might end up hating him.
6. Do you need to know everything about someone's past?
Not too much, I just need those that are necessary and those which would tell me more about his character.
7. It is more worthwhile and satisfying to improve the world or appreciate the world?
There ain’t anything wrong with the world. It’s just the people living in it; they’re just destroying it.
8. Do you feel you have a purpose or calling in life?
Somehow..well I sometimes lose that purpose.
9. Do you believe that dreams can be messages from a "higher level"?
Yea why not? But I don’t think they can and should be interpreted.
10. Would you rather have a great friend you could share everything with or a great lover you can't really talk to?
A great friend duh, although I personally prefer a great lover I could share everything with. It’s like..everyone’s choice.
11. Is the male or female body the closest to perfection?
I don't there is any perfection in anything.
12. Should a child who's caught masturbating be punished?
Um...no. Some people just need to fulfill their sexual desires, but it’s still wrong somehow.
13. Do you like kissing in public?
Haha! For sure.
14. Do you have a fetish that you would like to employ in your next relationship?
What kind of fetish? o.O
15. Did America really put a man on the moon?
Gah I can’t really be bothered with Neil Armstrong or something like that.
16. Would you date someone significantly (9 years or over) older than you?
Ah…if I really love him. Not too old please!
17. Generally, in life, what makes you happy?
I seek happiness from spiritual beings.
18. How well do you handle criticism?
To a certain extent.
19. Would you like to date someone a lot purer than you?
I don't think it would matter...
20. When fooling around with someone, do you sometimes have sexual fantasies about other people?
I wouldn't know.
21. Is it possible for full-figured women to be equally attractive as thinner women?
Oh freakin' yeah! I hope that's what people see in me!
22. You've just met someone incredible while out with friends, and (s)he's been kind enough to cough up a phone number. How long would you wait to call?
I'd call that night.
23. Do you think the family of a murder victim should have any say in what punishment is given to the murderer?
I don't know. I suppose.
24. Would you have a 'Happy Button' installed on your body, connected to your brain, which would instantly make you very happy whenever you pressed it?
Heck no. I don't want to feel anything fake.
25. Would you rather know everything about your mate, or be regularly surprised?
A little bit of both.
26. We are all human, do you judge someone for a past indiscretion?
Heck no. The past is the past and you need to get over it.
27. What is sexiest on a woman or a man?
Oh baby the eyes.
28. Would you rather have your dream job or your soul mate for the rest of your life?
Soul mate.
29. Do you consider yourself sexually open minded?
Depends...
30. Should your mate also become your best friend?
Of course, I think he needs to know how to open up to me too.
31. Would you rather marry a virgin or someone experienced?
I marry someone for who he is, not what he went through.
32. Have you ever had a true one-night stand?
Psh! What part of "I wouldn't know" don't you understand?
33. Have you ever posed as a nude model?
Obviously…not.
34. Would you prefer if good things happened, or interesting things?
Hmmm...That's a good question.
35. Is it better to have loved and lost then never to have loved at all?
Maybe...can I love and be loved instead?
Listening to:
“Some hearts” by Carrie Underwood
Reading:
This entry
Watching:
The computer screen
Programs opened:
Windows Live Messenger
DeviantART
Real Player
Blogger.com
Thoughts:
Why am I doing such a dumb thing ><
People chosen to answer these questions:
Well..heck. No one is THAT bored; as I am.
you make my life perfect-`
Sunday, February 25, 2007
3:24 PM
I promise, this time if you’re back, we’ll be different.
I assure, I’m not gonna be a player.
I swear, my love for you so true.
I’ll try, to keep those tears at bay.
Even though those unspoken words you never said, darling I’ll always know what’s on your mind.
Just pray, you’ll start to cherish and love me more each day.
I love you with all my heart.
I wish I could wipe away all your tears.
Look you in your eyes and somehow take away all your fears.
Love you in such a way that make you feel you’ve everything.
I want to take you in my arms and hold you ever so tight.
Show you that you’re the one I love with all my might.
I’m ever consumed by your presence.
It only takes your essence; the chemistry between us is on fire.
My love for you will never tire.
Rainy days and cold nights.
These are days I need you to hold me tight in your arms.
Hold me close and keep me warm.
Tell me I’m your good luck charm.
Look me in my eyes and tell me I’m the one for you.
Tell me I’m your every wish come true.
Lay me down very gently,
Then make love to me essentially.
Caress my body from head to toe not missing a spot.
Let’s play around like connect the dots,
Let’s make each other hot till out body heat rise like a rollercoaster ride.
Take my body on a journey that never ends,
It always seems to just begin…
Make me climax like I never done before.
Do what you want; my body is all yours.
Kiss me, tease me; do whatever you want to me.
Abuse me sexually, even till I cannot take it anymore.
Love me without fear.
Trust me without questioning.
Need me without demanding.
Want me without restrictions.
Accept me without change.
Desire me without inhibitions.
For a love so free…
Promise me you’ll never fly away.
Sweetheart, you have my word,
I’ll be yours now and forever.
You’re my love, my soul, my world.
I’ve got hold of you; you’re never gonna run away.
you make my life perfect-`
Saturday, August 12, 2006
11:30 PM
i just realised that i've reached a point
where i can no longer use words to describe how i feel
anymore.
you make my life perfect-`
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
3:12 PM
bbye all..leaving for KL le..
i might just die there...so just wanna take this last chance to say
I LOVE ALL OF YOU AND GOD BLESS!
jiayou for everything and never give up
if i ever did anything wrong to any of you
i offer my sincere apologies...
dont blame me le ok ^^
thank you all for what you have given me...
blessed be.
you make my life perfect-`
Monday, July 17, 2006
12:07 AM
i love my parents...
how i wish i was in the olden times
where kneeling down is such a normal thing...
cos..i wanna kneel down in frnt of my parents and thank them
and it would feel weird and they might admit me to imh if i did that now
i dun wanna anything to happen to my parents...
i love them so much..
*sighs*
im so ungrateful
i take things for granted
so i must appreciate my parents now for all that they've done for me
i must be filial!!!
dear ar...why so angry...dun angry le k =)
i dunno who or what made u angry
but why make your blood pressure rise because of them?
anw...i just love talking to u =)
you never fail to make me happy haha...
xD dear ar finally found the meaning of wols =X
so cute!!!
dun worry la..i wun beat u when i meet you de
wo cai bu she de...
you know the law...
no cruelty to animals...
xDD jkjk =X
hmm u seldom check my blog..i wonder whether you'll read this part haha
ohyea thanks john and jose for bringing life to my blog xD
made me feel like posting ^^
*sighs*
12.12 am
just 9 more days to my birthday
i dun wanna get old...
i wanna be a little baby and so close to my parents forever
i'd rather stay in my mama's womb xD
but it'll be taxing for my mama so i shall just be a little kid
yay!!! xDD
2 ppl said the same thing to me today...
i wanna woo you =.=
how crazy
then one ask for picture
one ask to meet
they're so ego centered lar
thought that i liked them and wanted to meet them
for eg:
him: you can meet me at 7pm at city hall
me: are u crazy? i have school tomorrow
him: when are u free?
me: there's cross country this friday morning but im exempted
him: ok meet you at 7pm city hall
ain't that crazy? and...
him: i know why you're so cold towards me
me: why?
him: cos you havent met me
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
so bhb...crazy
gah i'll forget all about them
TT havent done any homework till now
i dun feel like touching it
i'll just be scolded by the teacher
lols gambling tomorrow
mr ku is funny
cya peeps
cheers~
you make my life perfect-`
