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love and understanding

What is love? what is understanding? Can you ask yourself do you love and truly share yourself with the people in your life? I have always had trouble being open with the people in my life growing up it was tough being the only minority in our town. I have grown up with a chip on my shoulder!!! I was made fun of a lot and I developed a bad attitude with the people around me. To be honest I let them decide for me what kind of life I was having. I still in my adult life have allowed other people to dictate my livelihood. I have started to try and change my way of thinking because stress is not worth it. I know the people that I'm upset with don't go home and worry about me!! so why should I allow myself   to get so mad. So try and have positive thinking and develop your faith in God!!! Will you have bad days yes!!! you are worth opening your heart and try to understand that the people in your life are facing the same demons you are and we all deal with i...
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The Shack

The movie is something that should help you look at how you see situations. How do you react when something that you see as bad happens to you? Do you jump right to why me!!! Why is the world out to get me?? Is it always someone else fault?? We have to take a step back at look over the issue your being faced with. I am as guilty as anyone getting caught up with the why me story but I'm working on not making my choices off my emotions. next time we continue our look
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The Shack

Its a best selling book and movie I watched the movie first and I fell in love with it!!! I know many people have made very nasty comments about the movie. It made people question there own idea of God. I'm very found of this I hope god doesn't judge us the way we judge other people!!! I have something to say about some of the comments I've seen about the movie. God is white!!! who cares what color he or she is!!! God is a man!!! God is all things to all people and is what ever is called for God is demanding!!! Man is demanding if our wants are not met we through a fit!!! God could never be a woman!!! I hope and pray for understanding and many times in my life I need a woman's touch in my life to help me trough everything I have been through !!! God is Baptist!!! being what ever label you want to call yourself IS MAN MADE!!! We as a society have divided ourselves in to Catholic, Baptist, Buddhist so on and on!!! I think we all have a journey to go on its c...
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A new chapter

When Jon past away I was woke up by my mother it was 2 in the morning My mom kept shaking me Jon died he is gone!!! I didn't know what to say I just kept shaking and couldn't stop. It was a nightmare come true. The next days to follow no one really said anything too me. I was seen and not heard. My mom was pissed at my dad and I couldn't understand why. My mom went in to shock she didn't know I was there anymore. I didn't understand at the time how she could forget she had another kid. now that I have three and teenagers I can't bare the thought of loosing a child. My faith really started to grow!!! I turned to god and I had always went to church but I never felt like I fit in there. I felt closer to God when I would go for a walk ride my horse I felt like I was talking to a friend. I said my rosary a lot I know that some people think that its a way to worship Mary but its nothing like that for me. If you watch a movie such as The Shack and it inspires y...
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ever changing world

My ever changing world !!! My brother had a tough job and for many years I didn't understand how he dealt with the overwhelming demand of being the oldest. I found out one day when he abused me Its a hard fact to have to admit!!! Its something that I haven't been able to talk about for years. My brother died one January day when I was 14 and I was blown away my once very by the book life  started to change. I was upset that he past away but for some reason I couldn't cry!!! my parents never forgave me for that!!!
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childhood

growing up I was raised like I was in the military for many years. My dad had a extreme temper and could blow up over anything in a seconds notice. He served in the Army for 20 years he served in the Korean war for two tours and Germany for two years later I think he suffered from ptsd . But I had no clue what ptsd was at that time. He had many fights with my mom it was very rough to see my mom have to deal with it. I still have nightmares of seeing her blood on the walls of our home. I never understood why she stayed with him during theses insane times!!! My brother was my rock during theses crazy fights. I would pray and pray for someone to stop by or many times for my dad to die!! I don't like to admit that and it seems crazy for someone to pray for someone to die but I didn't know what else to do. My ever changing world Next time!!!!  
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keeping the faith

Keeping the faith is a hard statement Its easy to say!!! Doing it is another!!! In 2014 my health has been a issue that has sent me on the fight of my life!! I lost my job because I missed so many days we lost our home and I didn't know if I was going to live. I spent hours praying saying my rosary and received the comfort I was needing. I know there are many of you that will think I'm crazy and that's ok!!! Many times I have wondered myself "lol" Let me start off by telling you my story!!! Next time!!!
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