He loved coffee
And I loved tea.
He loved summers
And I love winters.

He loved a good laugh
And I loved a good cry.
He loved cool nights on the rooftops
And I loved cold nights, snuggled tight in front of the fire.

He fancied himself a fish,
Exploring the depths of the seas.
And I saw myself as a bird,
Drifting through the winds.

He loved the endless dark oceans
And I loved the infinite night sky.
But somewhere in between,
We fell in love.

When did we start this nasty habit

I read that there're many ways to say
I love you
And you've just got to listen closely.
So I listened, and this is what I heard:

How was your day?
I love you.
Have you eaten?
I love you.
You should get some sleep.
I love you.
Text me when you get home.
I love you.

And they're all lovely,
But then I heard a painful one:
Yeah, it's fine.
I love you.

Can we just stay friends?
Yeah, it's fine.
Are you sure?
Yeah, it's fine.
Are you ok?
Yeah, it's fine.
We cool?
Yeah.

After we parted, I looked up.
And I think it was then,
Under a lemon moon,
Under a cloudless night sky,
That I fell for you.

And before I went to sleep,
(And maybe this is where I went wrong)
I thought about an us,
The endless possibilities of us.

And whenever we met,
And we'd just look at each other,
I'd look around and I'd see them all;
(And this is why I smile to myself sometimes)
The many versions of us.

But then I saw them all slowly disappear,
I saw us slowly disappear,
Under the same lemon moon,
Under the same cloudless night sky.

And before I went to sleep,
(And this is where I fought with myself for hours)
I mourned the death of us.

You're too good for them.

No.
I am not.
I am so flawed.
And in so many ways.

I think maybe they could feel it.
That a gentle sadness lies behind these eyes.
That this heart was once broken.
That I'm broken.

And I can't remember what it felt like,
Not being broken.
Because I think life only started when
He broke me.

Ah,
The world is real.
This pain is real.
And this hole where you used to be is real.

One day,
I heard a dog saying,
"Ah, I wish I could become a human,"
As I ate my dinner at the table.

The next day,
I heard a fish saying,
"Ah, I wish I could become a human,"
As I felt the sand pouring in between my toes.

The day after,
I heard a bird saying,
"Ah, I wish I could become a human,"
As I held your hands to keep you warm.

I smiled.

But today,
I heard myself saying,
"Ah, I wish I wasn't human."
As I burnt every photo of us.

I often fantasize about how our lives
Could casually intersect at any moment
And that any day now,
I could be happy
With you.

I could be out at the grocer's
Getting a fresh pint of milk,
But I could end up getting more eggs
To make breakfast for two.

Or maybe I'd be on the bus
Tired from a long day of work
But end up in a pub
Wondering what drink to have next.

And heaven forbid, I'd be in a hospital
Visiting a loved one
But instead, spend the rest of my day
Beside the neighbouring bed.

I think the worst of all though,
Is that I could be anywhere, maybe Rome, or Tokyo,
And I'd see you smiling, laughing,
With another love beside you.