SHE.HER.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

bAck with postings....bloggings...

WORST GF ON TH E EARTH

well.. seeing the title.. everyone should have guessed, YES I AM SINGLE AGAIN, unfortunately.. i guess the person who is most happy now is Ronald Lee.... well.. u must be so happy that i broke up with Jon and that i am the earth most suckies gf of all...

DAY 1 - without him
it isnt a nice feeling...nvr had this kind of lost feelings before....i am so lost that i don't knw what to do..am i really so stupid? am i really that bad? am i really that fcuked up?

tO Him,
i am really sorry for all these while which i had crush ur feelings down...i really did not realise till u blew up... i cannot deny that i am devastated.. what u said bout me is right, i am FON, i really take things for granted...i'm glad that u learnt to ignore me... so i guess i really should have just walked away quietly last night and shouldnt have called u to clear things up... it hurts so much... but it doesnt matter anyway, i deserve it... i knw no matter how many sorries i said it will be no use... i've finally understand ur feelings... i get it now.. its not fun... itz hurtful... i am really sorry...

i have my reasons when i said we shouldnt be together in the future, itz because i do not want to hurt u anymore coz i know i will... i rather stay at corner watching you and may u get ur own happiness... i admit i cant bear to let it go but i have to... don't worry about me i will be fine... hope u will be too... i kept saying i do not want to call u anymore sms u anymore, itz all a lie.. i cant stop myself.. but... i guess i really have to stop calling u... so that u wont be irritated by me...

i.. really grateful to have met u... thanks for the happy times... i wont forget the times u stood by me, fed me with medicine...waiting for me at the lobby for hours....

thanks for everything....

from,
Her...dUmbest stupiest girl on earth who does not knw how to appreciate Him...

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

请不要分了以後还记得
亲吻过的承诺你的永久
已不属於我默默低头
那时我很多话梗在喉咙你的笑你的快乐不是我
爱太多想太多我能感受他比我适合爱放了手
我伪装冷漠比你先说分手请原谅我
原谅我不成熟不爱你是藉口好让你离开我请原谅我
好想自私将你占有一个寂寞就给我承受
换你过更好的生活请不要分了以後还记得
亲吻过的承诺你的永久已不属於我默默低头
那时我很多话梗在喉咙你的笑你的快乐不是我
爱太多想太多我能感受他比我适合爱放了手
我伪装冷漠比你先说分手请原谅我
原谅我不成熟不爱你是藉口好让你离开我请原谅我
好想自私将你占有一个寂寞就给我承受
换你过更好的生活爱过恨过哭过也笑过亲吻过你的脆弱其实我比谁都要懦弱原谅我
必须假装爱错别让时间倒流我怕说不出口原谅我
没有解释太多心痛别无所求彻底忘了我爱原来要舍得我难过我才懂

Monday, August 04, 2008

i don even think i need to do blogging anymore... so many thingz happen... which i knw alot of pple cares and concern bout me and stuff but... to be sweet and short

i am so dead in my heart, just like a walking zombie... everyone hates the choice i've made..
sweetie ron i knw u are reading this and plz don say anything about me..

mummy still cares for u and me.. but i am really tire already... did i really walk the wrong path of my life? i knw my mom doesnt wan me to get hurt i knw i knw, cant u all juz trust me ?

if i am really being cheated and pregnant or anything, don worry i wont tell u all, i will handle it myself. i no nd u all the sympathy and end up luffing at me. i knw thatz wad i shud get back but still i rather be alone.

so in the end all i have to say is...

this blogger gal is dead, no nd to visit this website again

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

i am back again to blog hahahaa.. dead and alive again ya... so many things happen this few mths... so much till i dunoe wad to say also... so fcuked up with mini toons also wtf is this company also..

anyway... i am blogging today because of my noisy customer ask me to link her lol but i did lah shun bian change my template...

anyway... somehow i felt that i missing someone whom i am not suppose to be missing also.. nvr met b4.. again another game person but he pei me n walk me thru n speak sense to me during my down period... so much that i keep telling myself that he is juz a fren of mine definitly not more than that cnt be more than that.... definitly not ... but i dun wish to knw further also...

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

9.11pm.... *yawnz* watchIng titanic now with lots lots of fantasy going in every girls' mind, aint it?

oright today i was thinking of lotsa lotsa thingx...

1st : as i was watching entertainment 100% today i saw kelly in the show ok i was like... wth... when will i ever become a star and attend his show? well.. don think it will ever come thru if i don put in any effort u knw...

2nd: i juz came to realize that... i have lost contacts with LOTZ OF FRENZ IN MY LIFE..... well.. it seems true coz my fone became really silent... no one messaging me.. or anything... i miss my life back then really.... wad a frenz ?

now everyone had grown up, had their own life... jobz...gf...bf.... and frenz? forgotten... sad.... but cHerish wad u have now, thatz wad i cud say....

haiz... really miss ALL MY FRENZ....

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

HI, LET ME SHOW U MY HOUSE~
THE BED ROOM IS OVER THERE~
THE KITCHEN IS OVER THERE~
CHECK OUT MY MATCHING PIPES~

haha ok enduf of this lamest thing of all now....

CHECK OUT MY NEW HANDPHONE~ XD

nice mahx? lOlx although itz not the colour i wanted, WHAT I WANTED IS THE GREEN WHOLE SET BLACKKK but oh well itz ok~ itz special too for blue lolxxx

ytd i recieve a letter from RENU MEDICENTRE... regarding a new tactic they have for slimming down that is injecting carbon dioxide in2 the fatty fatty area hmmm i wonder how much will it be, i feel like trying LOLxxx

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

*yAwNz* damN i wOke uP late wtf~ i tot i cud wake at 1pm but who knws i slept till3pm... juz don get it why recently i cant slp earli like last time.. ever since sat... i met moi zaiduizzzz rOfL~

hMMMMm... letz begin with sat

well, i am happy but find it rather mo sHen~ bcOz we havent been meeting up sO it was quite quiet when we met up and talk u see.. and itz like onli lIam, kaiwei, mOO, me, meijiE, lUcky and han and his gf.. suRprsing lUcky camE rIgHt LOL the most bu zai one LOL... well we went m.sOuth foR makan-ing~ not really nice and we left quite early then liam take us home lol but i alight at khathi lah coz liam don realli knw the roads also *oOPz* but still muz thanks to him lor.. haha but b4 we hit the road, liam actually bring us to the mrt there.. but yuan lai bu shi drop us is PICK LUCKY UP i meanwth.. end up i sit in the middle of him and meijie.. and funny thingz is liam send them back first but we nearli mi lu lol that was fun though really but liam lOok pek lah coz cnt find the roads...

in the car, lucky and i were like kids keep hitting him.. and here comes the part that puzzle me... DAMN I AM A FLIRT AINT I? u see...i used to like him.. YEARS BACK... then come spider, come addi, come dillon, end up like goes in a round back to him and hARLOW ? I M LIKE ATTACHED AND GETTING ROM NEXT YEAR? WTF AM I THINKING? but juz dUnoe why that night i couldnt slp and i was thinking bout the past u knw.. at motorola.. at cLubz at pUbz... those times...i knw he got a gf too but it juz seems.. i don mind hiding in a corner liking him w/o letting him knw, i don call him nor sms him also lor... funny right? or am i thinking too much? hMMmmm...well i also dunoe... at least i knw i am not normal? and wtf with g0in` round and u realise u still like lucky? i still thought i could forget him when i went to siMei~! and grad liao no contact end up? jEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEz cud s0meone juz slap me...

i told my bro one lame thing ytd... "shud i tell him i like him b4 befOre the day i get engage?" he scold me siao wait i mislead him.. but i juz feel like saying lehx... then i marry ler i an xing ...

h..oo...w..z.........

y... muz dis still happen...?