Lim Mei Yun.
21 November 1989.
Ngee Ann Polytechnic.
Tuesday, October 18, 2016
This whole post is going to be about my BTO journey with my boyfriend.... Housing housing woes is what I have now ><
On 21 August, me and my boyfriend submitted our HDB BTO application for Tampines GreenVerge. He came over to my place and we filled in the application online together. The application was from 17 August to 23 August 2016. Paid $10 and hoped for the best.
About 1 month later, I received a letter informing us that they have received our application. To be honest, I was so surprised to received this. I wasn't really expecting it... There was confusion all over my face when I saw the envelope with HDB's logo on it.
Fast forward to 14 October 2016 on a Friday afternoon at 4pm. I went online and saw that our results of the application has been released. So I called my silly boyfriend to get him to check his email and let me know the results.
On 21 August, me and my boyfriend submitted our HDB BTO application for Tampines GreenVerge. He came over to my place and we filled in the application online together. The application was from 17 August to 23 August 2016. Paid $10 and hoped for the best.
About 1 month later, I received a letter informing us that they have received our application. To be honest, I was so surprised to received this. I wasn't really expecting it... There was confusion all over my face when I saw the envelope with HDB's logo on it.
Fast forward to 14 October 2016 on a Friday afternoon at 4pm. I went online and saw that our results of the application has been released. So I called my silly boyfriend to get him to check his email and let me know the results.
A golden tip: Results are usually released on a weekday at 4pm onwards. I learnt about this somewhere online in a blog... It couldn't be any more true!
And now, we are back to waiting for our appointment date... I wonder how long that will be... According to HDB's timeline on their website, it's a 1 to 2 weeks wait for your appointment date to be released to you to book a flat.... I'm a bit sceptical on this... I don't think the wait is that short....
Nonetheless, our selection date to book a flat could be from anytime now till April 2017.... I hope it can happen sometime this year. And I'm desperately hoping that there will be a lot of people giving up their slots in between... So that I can have a better selection of flat on a higher floor.
Not sure if people are aware, but my boyfriend is liable to pay a resale levy of $20,000 to HDB because he previously purchased a flat from HDB with his ex-wife. To be honest, it's so unfair for me! But beggars can't be choosers. HDB and their rules.... I would like to just die please.... And it doesn't help that houses are so expensive these days and the space is getting smaller and smaller.... The amount of calculation me and my boyfriend did will be the death of me especially since I hate numbers and percentages.
Here's a look at the price of the BTO flat we selected (5 Room Flat)
Very very expensive. I don't even know if we are eligible for any grants. Technically for a 5 room flat/3 Gen Flat, we are only eligible for a $10,000 AHG... Is this even applicable for us? Any grants is helpful!!!!! Hahahah!
But honestly, a 5 room flat is the most ideal for us. And we have even visited the My Nice Home Gallery at HDB Hub. It opens during Saturdays too if you can't make it during the weekdays. A 5 room flat is spacious enough for me, him and his daughter plus our future children of our own. It has enough bedrooms and enough living space for me to walk around without feeling cramped and it's definitely a place that I would dare to invite family and friends over.
People are going to ask me why am I blogging about this.... It feels good to write things down especially about thoughts and feelings. Definitely a good place to rant! And it's also a good avenue to look back if I need to find out about certain information and of course share with other people who are keen in getting BTO!
I've chosen to update this dying space for a few reasons... Not tumblr because tumblr's layout is going to make it really hard for me to find back this post to edit.... Not Dayre because it's inconvenient to update on my phone! Blogger is the best! I update it via my laptop where retrieving information will be much easier. And honestly, blogger has improved it's template.... No complains from me.
Last updated: 18 October 2016 (Tuesday)
Ran @ 4:30 PM
Sunday, April 26, 2015
It's been a long while. I was scrolling through my past blogs and the memories just kept flowing back and back. My heart ached at certain of my old posts. I cringed at some of my old photos. I sighed at lost friendships and love that went by over the years.
I remember being 18 and having my heart broken for the first time. Silly me waited 3 years for him to change his mind and come back to me. I remember crying in the school's library because I saw photos of him and his then girlfriend and it upset me so much. My friend had to pull me of the library and accompanied me back to Bedok. 3 years I spent pinning for a guy that wouldn't come back. 3 years that I refused to be with anyone because my heart was occupied by him. But I've never regretted that 3 years. Even though I was pinning for someone, I was genuinely happy being by myself.
The year I was supposed to turn 21, I met someone and we dated 1 year before I met someone else yet again. I met J. And I ended being with J for 2.5 years.
I had many ups and down with J. He would sit right by my side while I skype-d with my friend in the US. During the weekends, I would help him with his work and we'd sit side by side working quietly on our laptops. Sometimes after I was done with classes, he would surprise me at my school and send me back home during the early stages of our relationship.
After 1 year of dating, I've already made up my mind that I'd spend the rest of my life with him. All my friends knew him, all his friends knew me. He knew all my friends as well. He was the one person who knew me very well. He knew that food distracts me very well. He reads my facial expression very well. He'd always ask what's wrong whenever he sensed that I was unhappy. He always showed patience towards me. He always made sure I knew he loved me. Our most difficult time was when he was away for 1 month. But I waited for him. Everyone called me silly for waiting that I should move on. But you don't give up on the person you love.
Then came a day when I asked for a separation. He cried. He ordered my favourite 20pc McNuggets and had it delivered to my house. Eventually my heart soften when I saw how sincere he was and how much feelings he had for me and realized that no one would know me the way he does. He sends me back home after lessons, fetches me after my drinking sessions with my friends because I was upset that we fought yet again. He chases after me everytime I walk away because he knew if he doesn't, I will be more upset. (I remember how sweet that conversation went when I chided him for not leaving me alone when I specifically ask him not to follow me)
But eventually we went separate ways in March 2014. It was the hardest breakup I had in my life. It took me about 7 months to finally be okay. I knew I made everyone worry for me because I was losing a lot weight and my soul never seemed to be around even though my body was there with them.
Here I am. After about 4 months being with A. 4 months of being on and off. And now I don't know what to make of us. I am really upset, disappointed and angry. I'm upset because I don't know how much I mean to him. I'm disappointed because it seems like he doesn't bother about me anyone, kind of like whatever we had wasn't real. I'm angry because I felt played, that it seems like I'm invisible towards him.
He's called me stupid, lan (useless/lousy), paranoid and what not... I felt like I was his dirty little secret. He'd rather do all the cool things with his friends and not me. I felt that he has nothing to say to me, that his phone was somehow more interesting than me. I felt that I was a burden to him. I felt that he changed. I remember our first date, he didn't even look at his phone. What happened? Since when did the phone become more interesting than me?
I tell myself if I can get through the breakup with J, everything else should be easy. And that's what everyone keeps telling me. Everyone believed that the breakup with J was the hardest I've had so far. HF once told me that I've become more strong and independent. She said I don't always rely on my boyfriend now as compared to last time when my world revolved around my boyfriend. But sometimes even the strong ones are allowed to fall right?
I just yearn to be that girlfriend that relies on the boyfriend all the time. As strong as I seem on the outside. I just want to have someone reliable to lean on at the end of the day. I want to have someone who is going to hear me rant randomly and whine randomly. I want someone who is going to be there at the end of the day no matter no hard it is to be with me. I'm just so tired of this. Sometimes I think I am destined to be alone.
I remember being 18 and having my heart broken for the first time. Silly me waited 3 years for him to change his mind and come back to me. I remember crying in the school's library because I saw photos of him and his then girlfriend and it upset me so much. My friend had to pull me of the library and accompanied me back to Bedok. 3 years I spent pinning for a guy that wouldn't come back. 3 years that I refused to be with anyone because my heart was occupied by him. But I've never regretted that 3 years. Even though I was pinning for someone, I was genuinely happy being by myself.
The year I was supposed to turn 21, I met someone and we dated 1 year before I met someone else yet again. I met J. And I ended being with J for 2.5 years.
I had many ups and down with J. He would sit right by my side while I skype-d with my friend in the US. During the weekends, I would help him with his work and we'd sit side by side working quietly on our laptops. Sometimes after I was done with classes, he would surprise me at my school and send me back home during the early stages of our relationship.
After 1 year of dating, I've already made up my mind that I'd spend the rest of my life with him. All my friends knew him, all his friends knew me. He knew all my friends as well. He was the one person who knew me very well. He knew that food distracts me very well. He reads my facial expression very well. He'd always ask what's wrong whenever he sensed that I was unhappy. He always showed patience towards me. He always made sure I knew he loved me. Our most difficult time was when he was away for 1 month. But I waited for him. Everyone called me silly for waiting that I should move on. But you don't give up on the person you love.
Then came a day when I asked for a separation. He cried. He ordered my favourite 20pc McNuggets and had it delivered to my house. Eventually my heart soften when I saw how sincere he was and how much feelings he had for me and realized that no one would know me the way he does. He sends me back home after lessons, fetches me after my drinking sessions with my friends because I was upset that we fought yet again. He chases after me everytime I walk away because he knew if he doesn't, I will be more upset. (I remember how sweet that conversation went when I chided him for not leaving me alone when I specifically ask him not to follow me)
But eventually we went separate ways in March 2014. It was the hardest breakup I had in my life. It took me about 7 months to finally be okay. I knew I made everyone worry for me because I was losing a lot weight and my soul never seemed to be around even though my body was there with them.
Here I am. After about 4 months being with A. 4 months of being on and off. And now I don't know what to make of us. I am really upset, disappointed and angry. I'm upset because I don't know how much I mean to him. I'm disappointed because it seems like he doesn't bother about me anyone, kind of like whatever we had wasn't real. I'm angry because I felt played, that it seems like I'm invisible towards him.
He's called me stupid, lan (useless/lousy), paranoid and what not... I felt like I was his dirty little secret. He'd rather do all the cool things with his friends and not me. I felt that he has nothing to say to me, that his phone was somehow more interesting than me. I felt that I was a burden to him. I felt that he changed. I remember our first date, he didn't even look at his phone. What happened? Since when did the phone become more interesting than me?
I tell myself if I can get through the breakup with J, everything else should be easy. And that's what everyone keeps telling me. Everyone believed that the breakup with J was the hardest I've had so far. HF once told me that I've become more strong and independent. She said I don't always rely on my boyfriend now as compared to last time when my world revolved around my boyfriend. But sometimes even the strong ones are allowed to fall right?
I just yearn to be that girlfriend that relies on the boyfriend all the time. As strong as I seem on the outside. I just want to have someone reliable to lean on at the end of the day. I want to have someone who is going to hear me rant randomly and whine randomly. I want someone who is going to be there at the end of the day no matter no hard it is to be with me. I'm just so tired of this. Sometimes I think I am destined to be alone.
Ran @ 7:21 PM
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
For some dumb reason,
I can't seem to go onto Livejournal.
Hence back to blogger for now only.
I'm in this very thoughtful mode right now.
Guess it won't die to share it out here with......?
Okay, never mind.
I am totally missing the way when you told me
"Don't push me away."
All my life,
as I pushed my boyfriend away...
All I got was a fustrated tone.
Asking me what's my problem, why do I keep pushing them away.
Before I know it, the both of us got pissed at each other and refuse to talk.
But that fateful night.
when you told me in the most gentle way not to push you away.
I surrendered.
It's like for a mintue as much strangers as we were...
It felt like you understood me and what I needed.
One step at a time.
That was what we shared in common.
We'll go where ever the river brings us to.
Its been a long time since so many things.
Really.
It sucks to be me.
I think everybody will make such a statement in their life somewhere somehow.
Loves,
Meiyun
I can't seem to go onto Livejournal.
Hence back to blogger for now only.
I'm in this very thoughtful mode right now.
Guess it won't die to share it out here with......?
Okay, never mind.
I am totally missing the way when you told me
"Don't push me away."
All my life,
as I pushed my boyfriend away...
All I got was a fustrated tone.
Asking me what's my problem, why do I keep pushing them away.
Before I know it, the both of us got pissed at each other and refuse to talk.
But that fateful night.
when you told me in the most gentle way not to push you away.
I surrendered.
It's like for a mintue as much strangers as we were...
It felt like you understood me and what I needed.
One step at a time.
That was what we shared in common.
We'll go where ever the river brings us to.
Its been a long time since so many things.
Really.
It sucks to be me.
I think everybody will make such a statement in their life somewhere somehow.
Loves,
Meiyun
Ran @ 12:18 PM
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Saturday, April 17, 2010
OH MY GOD!
"The more you know,
the more you hurt yourself."
"The less you know,
the less you hurt yourself."
Agreed?
I couldn't agree more
after knowing too much for my own good.
:)
With love,
Meiyun
"The more you know,
the more you hurt yourself."
"The less you know,
the less you hurt yourself."
Agreed?
I couldn't agree more
after knowing too much for my own good.
:)
With love,
Meiyun
Labels: agreed.
Ran @ 2:36 AM
Friday, April 16, 2010
AHEM AHEM.
Just a quick and random post today...
I really just want to make it quick.
Zirca and Rebel on wednesday night.
Great company!
Okay.
Things have happened.
And it got me thinking so much.
It allowed my heart to rewind back.
And I could almost feel it.
It makes me sad.
It makes me so sad.
It made me think about so much stuff.
So much that I'll think I'll keep it in my little heart for now.
With love,
Meiyun
Just a quick and random post today...
I really just want to make it quick.
Zirca and Rebel on wednesday night.
Great company!
Okay.
Things have happened.
And it got me thinking so much.
It allowed my heart to rewind back.
And I could almost feel it.
It makes me sad.
It makes me so sad.
It made me think about so much stuff.
So much that I'll think I'll keep it in my little heart for now.
With love,
Meiyun
Labels: thinking.....
Ran @ 1:24 AM
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
YOU MAKE ME SICK. (guess who!)
From young, we were taught to ask questions when we we didn't understand something.
Like why birds can fly.
Why the ocean is blue.
Why is moon only up at night.
But as we grow up.
I come to realize.
We can't get all the answers to all the questions we want.
Which result in this statement.
"I simply do not understand"
Not everyone is going to tell you the truth.
Some people decide that keeping you in the dark would be the best for you.
Some choose to lie for their own personal benefit.
And the others just pretend to be oblivious to everything and say that they don't know a single thing.
Moments like these...
Set me thinking.
"I wish I know it all. I wish I had answers for everything."
And then maybe life would be much more straightforward.
And I wouldn't have to scratch my brains so much.
Which results to a huge loss of brain cells.
dear friend, I'm thinking of you so much lately.
and I wonder if you do.
because i suddenly thought of the trouble we once created together.
Playing mind games isn't my forte anymore.
I'm getting tired of guessing this and that.
Tired of having people explain the truth to me,
and choosing to tell them that I still don't understand even after all the explaination given to me.
Like a child being fed on a golden spoon but refuses to eat it all up.
I don't expect anyone to actually understand what is going through my mind as I share my thoughts over here at this space.
Nothing serious happening.
Just a random post which led to some random thoughts.
And if there is any painful lessons I have learnt lately...
It would be to be careful of what kind of promises one makes.
I learn it the hard way.
I learn it tough.
So so unbelievable.
With love,
Meiyun.
From young, we were taught to ask questions when we we didn't understand something.
Like why birds can fly.
Why the ocean is blue.
Why is moon only up at night.
But as we grow up.
I come to realize.
We can't get all the answers to all the questions we want.
Which result in this statement.
"I simply do not understand"
Not everyone is going to tell you the truth.
Some people decide that keeping you in the dark would be the best for you.
Some choose to lie for their own personal benefit.
And the others just pretend to be oblivious to everything and say that they don't know a single thing.
Moments like these...
Set me thinking.
"I wish I know it all. I wish I had answers for everything."
And then maybe life would be much more straightforward.
And I wouldn't have to scratch my brains so much.
Which results to a huge loss of brain cells.
dear friend, I'm thinking of you so much lately.
and I wonder if you do.
because i suddenly thought of the trouble we once created together.
Playing mind games isn't my forte anymore.
I'm getting tired of guessing this and that.
Tired of having people explain the truth to me,
and choosing to tell them that I still don't understand even after all the explaination given to me.
Like a child being fed on a golden spoon but refuses to eat it all up.
I don't expect anyone to actually understand what is going through my mind as I share my thoughts over here at this space.
Nothing serious happening.
Just a random post which led to some random thoughts.
And if there is any painful lessons I have learnt lately...
It would be to be careful of what kind of promises one makes.
I learn it the hard way.
I learn it tough.
So so unbelievable.
With love,
Meiyun.
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Ran @ 1:05 AM
