Sunday, April 22, 2007
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
Friends or friends?
After reading an acquaintance's blog, i feel that:
Have we been doing the wrong thing?
Does she think we're very nosy and overbearing? Does she think we are always trying to brainwash her?
Does she feel that we keep forcing her to do things she doesn't want to?
That we keep trying to brainwash and mould her into someone we can accept?
That we keep thinking we know what she is thinking when actually we don't?
There's no denying that she was unhappy with us last sat...i just want to know now (honestly) what went wrong that day? Without baggage, without judgement...what went wrong?
On a happier note: i caught Chris Richardson on AI today. AND - I'm in love with 吳尊!
After reading an acquaintance's blog, i feel that:
Have we been doing the wrong thing?
Does she think we're very nosy and overbearing? Does she think we are always trying to brainwash her?
Does she feel that we keep forcing her to do things she doesn't want to?
That we keep trying to brainwash and mould her into someone we can accept?
That we keep thinking we know what she is thinking when actually we don't?
There's no denying that she was unhappy with us last sat...i just want to know now (honestly) what went wrong that day? Without baggage, without judgement...what went wrong?
On a happier note: i caught Chris Richardson on AI today. AND - I'm in love with 吳尊!
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Skin Obsession
I went to the National Skin Centre to check the red dot on my forehead today. Thank goodness the doc said it was a scar, it will take time to fade.
I'm irritated with the doc. She seemed so 不理不睬...baka onna. She said she had to cut my skin to really tell what it is, so it's ok if she can't tell me conclusively what it is. But she said stupid stuff like 'but it can be covered easily with makeup'. Go eat shit. You're supposed to cure it, not cover it. Why do i pay money hear you tell me this? Why are YOU paid good money to tell your patients this???? やっぱりgovt "specialist"s はだめだ....
Haiz i think i'm PMS-ing. Every little thing irritates me now. Even my mum walking slowly irritates. I can't stand pple slower than me, physically or mentally :p I hate to wait. But i know i always make others wait. Ha. Shet. (can tell me if you buay song abt my tardiness...if not i no stimulus to change :p)
I bought some skincare products (wash, toner, moisturiser) at the skin centre for less than $70. Happynesssssss~~~~~~ Good skin, here i come!
I'm trying to change my eating habits. Eat heavy breakfast (full meal including fruit, carbo, fat etc), okay lunch and no carbo for dinner. And back to high-grain bread. (if i can keep it up)
I'm getting obsessed with weight and food. Once or twice, i'd contemplated making myself puke. But i never did. It's one of those things that you can't stop once you start. (And i hate physical discomfort.)
Anyway anyway ANYWAY, my point is - The more fully you possess something, the greater the fear of losing it. I'd put in so much effort to reach my weight, the fear of my efforts going to waste drives me nuts! I think this is probably why some pple turn obssessive with their bfs/gfs.
I like Chris Richardson from American Idol!
I went to the National Skin Centre to check the red dot on my forehead today. Thank goodness the doc said it was a scar, it will take time to fade.
I'm irritated with the doc. She seemed so 不理不睬...baka onna. She said she had to cut my skin to really tell what it is, so it's ok if she can't tell me conclusively what it is. But she said stupid stuff like 'but it can be covered easily with makeup'. Go eat shit. You're supposed to cure it, not cover it. Why do i pay money hear you tell me this? Why are YOU paid good money to tell your patients this???? やっぱりgovt "specialist"s はだめだ....
Haiz i think i'm PMS-ing. Every little thing irritates me now. Even my mum walking slowly irritates. I can't stand pple slower than me, physically or mentally :p I hate to wait. But i know i always make others wait. Ha. Shet. (can tell me if you buay song abt my tardiness...if not i no stimulus to change :p)
I bought some skincare products (wash, toner, moisturiser) at the skin centre for less than $70. Happynesssssss~~~~~~ Good skin, here i come!
I'm trying to change my eating habits. Eat heavy breakfast (full meal including fruit, carbo, fat etc), okay lunch and no carbo for dinner. And back to high-grain bread. (if i can keep it up)
I'm getting obsessed with weight and food. Once or twice, i'd contemplated making myself puke. But i never did. It's one of those things that you can't stop once you start. (And i hate physical discomfort.)
Anyway anyway ANYWAY, my point is - The more fully you possess something, the greater the fear of losing it. I'd put in so much effort to reach my weight, the fear of my efforts going to waste drives me nuts! I think this is probably why some pple turn obssessive with their bfs/gfs.
I like Chris Richardson from American Idol!
Sunday, February 11, 2007
It's hard to be 21
My friends are facing identity crises (like i am), wondering whether this uni thing is the right path, and getting hurt by stranger's comments about them just by being themselves, etc. They are sad but i don't know how to cheer them up w/o sounding preachy. Only they themselves can snap themselves out of it, either by changing their mentality or doing sth to change themselves. Of course having pple listen to your troubles can sometimes help too. And why not? After all, we're (21-yr-olds) all are in this state of uncertainty together.
I had a talk w/ my sis recently..and i think that everyone has issues. Sad, but true. a lot of my peers are sad kids operating under veneer of normalcy. I've learnt that i can't change the world. But i don't wish my friends and family to suffer either.
I've changed rapidly since 2005. I've worked for 6 months, i've gone to tokyo, to homestay. I've been exposed to art. I've gone through an identity crisis. I've scrapped through the horriblest term ever. I've gone on a date. I've straightened things out with my sister. I've started exercising. i've lost some weight. Now all that's left is buying some new clothes and chatting up guys. haha no lah, just kidding!! I'm eager to learn baking, belly dance, piano, guitar, etc. I want to learn how to drive and ride a motorbike too. But no money!!!!
Life is like a movie. You won't know whether a choice is right or wrong until you relate it to the events b4 and after that choice. So sometimes there's no point asking whether what you're doing is right when you've already chosen a certain path. anyway, to be human is to live your life to the best of your talents and flaws. So why get so hung up abt the 'right' path? Just go on and see where the path leads you. I think regret makes you more human.
BGR
On the BGR front....i've gotten over my uni crushes except for the very first one, called wh. Dunno why....maybe cos he's the first one i crush and instincts are most accurate? i think he knows i crush him. Cos he acts weird in front of me. Like, unnatural. Oh well. He's got a girlfriend.
I crush this guy in my class. A bit lah. I've interacted with him before so i know he's just a regular guy. That kind of diminishes my feelings for him but heck, it's fun to have eye candy in school.
My friends are facing identity crises (like i am), wondering whether this uni thing is the right path, and getting hurt by stranger's comments about them just by being themselves, etc. They are sad but i don't know how to cheer them up w/o sounding preachy. Only they themselves can snap themselves out of it, either by changing their mentality or doing sth to change themselves. Of course having pple listen to your troubles can sometimes help too. And why not? After all, we're (21-yr-olds) all are in this state of uncertainty together.
I had a talk w/ my sis recently..and i think that everyone has issues. Sad, but true. a lot of my peers are sad kids operating under veneer of normalcy. I've learnt that i can't change the world. But i don't wish my friends and family to suffer either.
I've changed rapidly since 2005. I've worked for 6 months, i've gone to tokyo, to homestay. I've been exposed to art. I've gone through an identity crisis. I've scrapped through the horriblest term ever. I've gone on a date. I've straightened things out with my sister. I've started exercising. i've lost some weight. Now all that's left is buying some new clothes and chatting up guys. haha no lah, just kidding!! I'm eager to learn baking, belly dance, piano, guitar, etc. I want to learn how to drive and ride a motorbike too. But no money!!!!
Life is like a movie. You won't know whether a choice is right or wrong until you relate it to the events b4 and after that choice. So sometimes there's no point asking whether what you're doing is right when you've already chosen a certain path. anyway, to be human is to live your life to the best of your talents and flaws. So why get so hung up abt the 'right' path? Just go on and see where the path leads you. I think regret makes you more human.
BGR
On the BGR front....i've gotten over my uni crushes except for the very first one, called wh. Dunno why....maybe cos he's the first one i crush and instincts are most accurate? i think he knows i crush him. Cos he acts weird in front of me. Like, unnatural. Oh well. He's got a girlfriend.
I crush this guy in my class. A bit lah. I've interacted with him before so i know he's just a regular guy. That kind of diminishes my feelings for him but heck, it's fun to have eye candy in school.
Saturday, February 03, 2007
WFH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (wfh= western film histoy ;D)
So glad i'm done with the film history presentation.....i'm sorry to say this, but my partner wasn't very helpful. Luckily i borrowed a library book...if not our presentation would have been really short of content. It's a drag working w/ a Malay. Haiz...not that i don't like her, but i didn't like her not putting in enough effort in the project. AND her computer had to be spoilt at this time...Anyway thank god it's over!
I'm 54kg now but is it enough? i feel like going down some more, to 52kg. In part because of my belly....my limbs have slimmed down but my belly just won't budge! And my biceps are big as ever.
My low-carbo diet is driving me crazy. When i'm having sch, i won't think about food but now that the weekend is here....aahhhhhhhhh i suddenly miss the taste of kit-kat! But if i keep eating junk, my stomach will stay :( I'll try doing weights in addition to swimming. Exercising is sth i can do, but controlling my diet is really...very difficult. i can't live without rice & white bread. But there's my studies to worry abt too. I think i'm putting more effort into exercise than in my studies, which i know should not be the case.
I've been mean to stella. i feel bad about it but i can't help being mean. in fact, i don't have any warm/kind thoughts towards her at all. Just revulsion. Am i just not admitting to myself that i don't like her anymore?
So glad i'm done with the film history presentation.....i'm sorry to say this, but my partner wasn't very helpful. Luckily i borrowed a library book...if not our presentation would have been really short of content. It's a drag working w/ a Malay. Haiz...not that i don't like her, but i didn't like her not putting in enough effort in the project. AND her computer had to be spoilt at this time...Anyway thank god it's over!
I'm 54kg now but is it enough? i feel like going down some more, to 52kg. In part because of my belly....my limbs have slimmed down but my belly just won't budge! And my biceps are big as ever.
My low-carbo diet is driving me crazy. When i'm having sch, i won't think about food but now that the weekend is here....aahhhhhhhhh i suddenly miss the taste of kit-kat! But if i keep eating junk, my stomach will stay :( I'll try doing weights in addition to swimming. Exercising is sth i can do, but controlling my diet is really...very difficult. i can't live without rice & white bread. But there's my studies to worry abt too. I think i'm putting more effort into exercise than in my studies, which i know should not be the case.
I've been mean to stella. i feel bad about it but i can't help being mean. in fact, i don't have any warm/kind thoughts towards her at all. Just revulsion. Am i just not admitting to myself that i don't like her anymore?
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Last Friday
Last friday, I met this guy. After meeting him, i thought i had said goodbye to a part of myself. For the first time, I didn't imagine a cute guy as my boyfriend!
He's my uni friend Jasmine's friend, and was helping her out as her model (as was I) for her photography project...at kbox. haha. He invited his friend along so i sang kbox with 2 strangers. I had a good impression of him right from the start cos he was very warm and approachable...which helped to break the ice. Another reason why i could speak naturally to him was cos there was the karaoke to distract us. It would have been a million times more awkward if we were made to sit across each other and had to engage in small talk. It was the first time i engaged with a guy as a person, and not suss him out as 'potential boyfriend material', like i used to do. In fact, it seemed natural that he had a girlfriend (which he does). I was disappointed later on...i wished his attention on me was real attraction and not just friendliness...oh well.....Treat him as a 好榜樣.
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Okay......So now i've got a crush on him! :PPPPPP
He purposely搞怪in front of jasmine's camera when she was trying to take a photo - remind me of my sister. He looks like a cross btwn my sister and shen weijun :p
Anyway now i look at guys differently....not as boyfriend material but as people.
Salsa class is quite fun. Sara: We learned the simple turn today! It's a mixed class, with guys and girls so we have partners to practise with. Last week, i had a good impression of a guy but this week he seemed more giggly/smiley than last week. (which dashed my impression of him) Another guy whom i briefly spoke to last week was more friendly this week too. Is it cos i dressed up and put on a skirt???? Or maybe he just dunno much people there...Guys will be guys.....once, when i wore skirt to sch, a guy opened door and held it for me. i don't get such treatment when i'm wearing jeans, that's for sure :p
Last friday, I met this guy. After meeting him, i thought i had said goodbye to a part of myself. For the first time, I didn't imagine a cute guy as my boyfriend!
He's my uni friend Jasmine's friend, and was helping her out as her model (as was I) for her photography project...at kbox. haha. He invited his friend along so i sang kbox with 2 strangers. I had a good impression of him right from the start cos he was very warm and approachable...which helped to break the ice. Another reason why i could speak naturally to him was cos there was the karaoke to distract us. It would have been a million times more awkward if we were made to sit across each other and had to engage in small talk. It was the first time i engaged with a guy as a person, and not suss him out as 'potential boyfriend material', like i used to do. In fact, it seemed natural that he had a girlfriend (which he does). I was disappointed later on...i wished his attention on me was real attraction and not just friendliness...oh well.....Treat him as a 好榜樣.
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Okay......So now i've got a crush on him! :PPPPPP
He purposely搞怪in front of jasmine's camera when she was trying to take a photo - remind me of my sister. He looks like a cross btwn my sister and shen weijun :p
Anyway now i look at guys differently....not as boyfriend material but as people.
Salsa class is quite fun. Sara: We learned the simple turn today! It's a mixed class, with guys and girls so we have partners to practise with. Last week, i had a good impression of a guy but this week he seemed more giggly/smiley than last week. (which dashed my impression of him) Another guy whom i briefly spoke to last week was more friendly this week too. Is it cos i dressed up and put on a skirt???? Or maybe he just dunno much people there...Guys will be guys.....once, when i wore skirt to sch, a guy opened door and held it for me. i don't get such treatment when i'm wearing jeans, that's for sure :p
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
| Your Dominant Intelligence is Linguistic Intelligence |
You are excellent with words and language. You explain yourself well. An elegant speaker, you can converse well with anyone on the fly. You are also good at remembering information and convicing someone of your point of view. A master of creative phrasing and unique words, you enjoy expanding your vocabulary. You would make a fantastic poet, journalist, writer, teacher, lawyer, politician, or translator. |
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
| Your Personality Profile |
You are dignified, spiritual, and wise. Always unsatisfied, you constantly try to better yourself. You are also a seeker of knowledge and often buried in books. You tend to be philosophical, looking for the big picture in life. You dream of inner peace for yourself, your friends, and the world. A good friend, you always give of yourself first. |
Saturday, January 13, 2007
Which Death Note character is your sexual archetype? | ||
5. You are Naughty Neiar. You are an eternal child at heart and people cant help but find you irresistibly cute. But little do they know how unbelievably out-there you can be when it comes to sex. Tantra and mind-blowing orgasms is totally your thing. You calm and collected nature is what make you smart. Unfortunately, sometimes you are way too relaxed that before you know it, people are dropping dead around you. Take this quiz!
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2nd Post of the Year
Slacking at home...i'm supposed to do work but who cares? i'm feeling more confident of myself this sem, like i can face any challenge. The future may be fraught with obstacles but i'm not afraid! i'll do what there is to be done. I'm growing up.
It has been a busy first week, with many errands to do: borrow and buy textbks, buy notebks, went to the doc's, buy a handphone pouch, grocery shopping. Previously, i would procrastinate and ignore my errands but this time i did them as soon as i could. And the feeling is great! It really feels good to complete goals that you'd set.
i enjoyed directing class on friday. we did script analysis, which is like, breaking a script into beats. (Beats are moments of transition in a scene.) I like breaking things down into simpler units (maybe that's why i like to eat?!!!). The lesson made me aware of what a script is (it's not meant to be read like book!), and how to really read and use it. Yay! i like productive lessons (^ - ^)v
I just watched 'Oku~ Hana no Ran'. Nice show! It's these times that i'm really thankful for TV. ..Cos it makes life more interesting :D My fave shows now are: CSI: New York, CSI: Miami, Amazing Race Asia, Death note anime (thank you, youtube!) and soon: American Idol. I dream of writing a good script to change Singapore TV for Singaore audiences. Or one day making an entertaining TV programme.
I bought a period manga becoz of my Oku craze hee hee :) It's called '遥かなる時空の中で’ (in a distant time). I also rented Black Cat manga bk 6. I shan't return the book b4 i can draw like that manga artist!
I got my new phone on tuesday: a Sony Ericsson w850i in Precious Black. I call it Kira XD I love it!
I'll treasure it, Mum! I swear to use it for the next 5 years (my prrecioussssss).
In the midst of my battle to lose weight. I've started swimming and dieting...My ideal weight is 48kg. I want to lose 1 kg per month. Hope i can lose 1 kg before CNY. Everyday, i try to eat different food from different nutrient groups but try to stay away from carbohydrates. Eat more in the day but less for dinner. My spirits have been quite low cos I'm not free to eat as much as i want. Very tong4 ku3. And now my joints keep creaking...
BUT I'LL CARRY ON!!
Slacking at home...i'm supposed to do work but who cares? i'm feeling more confident of myself this sem, like i can face any challenge. The future may be fraught with obstacles but i'm not afraid! i'll do what there is to be done. I'm growing up.
It has been a busy first week, with many errands to do: borrow and buy textbks, buy notebks, went to the doc's, buy a handphone pouch, grocery shopping. Previously, i would procrastinate and ignore my errands but this time i did them as soon as i could. And the feeling is great! It really feels good to complete goals that you'd set.
i enjoyed directing class on friday. we did script analysis, which is like, breaking a script into beats. (Beats are moments of transition in a scene.) I like breaking things down into simpler units (maybe that's why i like to eat?!!!). The lesson made me aware of what a script is (it's not meant to be read like book!), and how to really read and use it. Yay! i like productive lessons (^ - ^)v
I just watched 'Oku~ Hana no Ran'. Nice show! It's these times that i'm really thankful for TV. ..Cos it makes life more interesting :D My fave shows now are: CSI: New York, CSI: Miami, Amazing Race Asia, Death note anime (thank you, youtube!) and soon: American Idol. I dream of writing a good script to change Singapore TV for Singaore audiences. Or one day making an entertaining TV programme.
I bought a period manga becoz of my Oku craze hee hee :) It's called '遥かなる時空の中で’ (in a distant time). I also rented Black Cat manga bk 6. I shan't return the book b4 i can draw like that manga artist!
I got my new phone on tuesday: a Sony Ericsson w850i in Precious Black. I call it Kira XD I love it!
I'll treasure it, Mum! I swear to use it for the next 5 years (my prrecioussssss).
In the midst of my battle to lose weight. I've started swimming and dieting...My ideal weight is 48kg. I want to lose 1 kg per month. Hope i can lose 1 kg before CNY. Everyday, i try to eat different food from different nutrient groups but try to stay away from carbohydrates. Eat more in the day but less for dinner. My spirits have been quite low cos I'm not free to eat as much as i want. Very tong4 ku3. And now my joints keep creaking...
BUT I'LL CARRY ON!!
Friday, January 12, 2007
Watched summary today..it's a concert to celebrate Johnny's 50yrs in business, by NEWS, KATTUN & the jrs. Yay Masuda is so cute! I like his voice a rot!
| You Are a Centaur |
In general, you are a very cautious and reserved person. However, you are also warm hearted, and you enjoy helping others in practical ways. You are a great teacher, and you are really good at helping people get their lives in order. You are very intuitive, and you go with your gut. You make good decisions easily. |
Monday, January 08, 2007
2007 First Post
School's starting again! SHET.
I wanna get the Sony Ecrisson phone today but couldn't cos my mum didn't bring her company pass which allows us to have some discount. So we'll have to go back on tues to get it. Arrghh.
Thursday, January 04, 2007
| Your Hidden Talent |
You're super sensitive and easily able to understand situations. You tend to solve complex problems in a flash, without needing a lot of facts. Decision making is easy for you. You have killer intuition. The right path is always clear, and you're a bit of a visionary. |
| You Should Be A Taurus |
What's good about you: you're stable, responsible, and loyal to those around you What's bad about you: you're stubborn and overly cautious - change is not easy In love: it's easy to melt your heart with traditional romantic gestures In friendship, you're: loyal - you'll do almost anything for a friend Your ideal job: chef, jewelry designer, or actor Your sense of fashion: sleek, designer, and very expensive You like to pig out on: steak and cheesecake |
Disappointed with a friend.
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
| Your Hidden Talent |
You have the natural talent of rocking the boat, thwarting the system. And while this may not seem big, it can be. It's people like you who serve as the catalysts to major cultural changes. You're just a bit behind the scenes, so no one really notices. |
Yay cant wait for sleepover on thurs.
Today was a blast! i enjoyed myself w/ the 03S13 girls.
My sister's back.
A few more days of vacation left to catch up with old friends.
Life's good.
Friday, December 29, 2006
| You Are 24% Slacker |
You have a few slacker tendencies, but overall you tend not to slack. You know how to relax when the time is right, but you aren't lazy! |
When are the pple going to upload the subbed version for deathnote ep 12??????!!!!!!!! GRRRRRRR.
Went out by myself today. Feels going stepping out of the house :) Baxia!
Friday, December 22, 2006
Damn sleepy. Hope sis' concert tickets payment is settled b4 the concert. Enjoy yourself fatty!
| Your Blog Should Be Purple |
You're an expressive, offbeat blogger who tends to write about anything and everything. You tend to set blogging trends, and you're the most likely to write your own meme or survey. You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you - not what anyone else has to say. |
Just watched The Curse of the Golden Flower. Not bad. The art direction is crazy! The costumes and sets are just beautiful, esp Gong Li's makeup :p I regret missing 雷雨, the play on which the film is based, when it came out a few months ago. Anyway, the plot's really depressing....it starts from shit in the front and the shit just get progressively worse as the movie goes on. But it was strong enough to take my attention away from the numerous bosoms on display. After a while, the sight of jiggly boobs didn't jar anymore.
Premise of the movie...Ruthlessness leads to death of all around it.
Gong Li is a great actress! She's my fave actress now. haha.
Premise of the movie...Ruthlessness leads to death of all around it.
| People Envy Your Compassion |
You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain. People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them. |
Gong Li is a great actress! She's my fave actress now. haha.
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
| You Are 40% Happy |
You're not miserable, but you could stand to be a lot happier. Focus on what's right in the world, and you'll be happier than you ever thought possible. |
Friday, December 15, 2006
I watched Eragon & The Holiday today. Eragon is okay. The Holiday is a no-no for me. It was so, so slow!!!!!
Anyway, pics of the cute actor from Eragon: Ed Speleers

Shuai hor?

I like the actor on the right too...quite cute. Garett Hunlland or sth like that...

My sis concluded that he has slightly asian features. I just love his 八字眼!!!!
Waiting for someone to upload Deathnote anime episode 11 with subtitles.
Anyway, pics of the cute actor from Eragon: Ed Speleers
Shuai hor?
I like the actor on the right too...quite cute. Garett Hunlland or sth like that...
My sis concluded that he has slightly asian features. I just love his 八字眼!!!!
Waiting for someone to upload Deathnote anime episode 11 with subtitles.
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
I plucked my wisdom tooth today. The dentist broke it into 3 parts b4 extracting it. Surprisingly, the injection for the anaesthesia wasn't that painful. Really, it was just like an ant-bite, like the nurse said. The extraction process was more painful though....the dentist kept stretching my mouth!
It's been 3 hrs but the anaesthesia has yet to wear off. The left side of my face , from my cheek to my ear, is numb. My lips and my tongue too!
My gums are still bleedin'. Don't think i'll eat food for another...2 days? Next week 20 dec gotta go back to remove the stitches. Yeah! At most this will hurt 4 another week :p
It's been 3 hrs but the anaesthesia has yet to wear off. The left side of my face , from my cheek to my ear, is numb. My lips and my tongue too!
My gums are still bleedin'. Don't think i'll eat food for another...2 days? Next week 20 dec gotta go back to remove the stitches. Yeah! At most this will hurt 4 another week :p