I am so very grateful for insightful inspired friends and family who are instruments in the Lord's hands for me! They call me or show up or say something at "non-coincidental" times! I want to get myself back on track so that I can return the blessings! I have been so focused and engulfed in my own stress and I just want to be the mother, friend, servant of the Lord that I am meant to be! It has been a difficult past year and I know it is time for me to let go of the past and reach forward to a happy tomorrow of promise and joy! I feel so taken care of by my Heavenly Father! No more fear--- only faith!

Josh turned 12! A big milestone in our family! Cellphones suddenly become allowed--- but sadly... Josh lost his cell phone the day after his birthday! hahaha-- I can only laugh or I would cry!
but... on a happier note--- Josh was ordained to the Priesthood. And... both sets of grandparents were there to witness and honor Josh!





IT WAS A WONDERFUL DAY FOR THE KIDS!

Oh my gosh... I am so down in the dumps of life as of late. I actually feel likeI am on a 'bi-polar' emotional rollercoaster. I have to keep telling myself that... Everything is going to be ok... I am going to be ok and better in the longrun. It's difficult to deal with my children's sadness when I am such an emotional wreck myself. I fear I am wearing out my friends and family with my neediness. I just want to have a great job instantly and have my heart not be sad or longing for what was. Wish I could fast forward to happier times... I know they are on the horizon. Please continue to pray for me and my children that we can be carried through this season of change.

I am trying to organize myself this morning... and feeling some sadness as I prepare to go downtown Dallas to file the Petition for Divorce. I really never thought this would happen. That's all I can say right now as I struggle to type with my heart tightening up and tears wetting my cheeks. Please pray for my children's hearts.

Oh so thankful for a Thanksgiving of family togetherness! and what better place to be than NYC!! Here we all are in Central Park standing on a big rock!
Here is Grandpa and his 5 grandkids! It was so wonderful! Words cannot express how needed this trip was for my soul! Just so grateful for everything--- Love to you Dad... and to Mike and Jen, Kenna, and Jack!

Jillian was a pilgrim in her school first grade Thanksgiving program