tall tales of a foreigner.

Let's get this done and over with. Selamat Hari Raya (:

eNd.

its almost over. the month's been kind though some parts were a mess due to self idiocy. i am not fit to be human. i will lose eventually. everything was taken for granted. give me peace of mind. let me spark my own interest and set fire to my lust & greed. maybe then my motivation for life can ignite.

eNd.

it has been a long time. it definitely has. just felt like putting something down. i have lost almost everything again. how are you suppose to give someone else your heart when there's nothing to give in the first place? they say happiness is a choice, well it ain't no easy pick. that's all for now. shit happens. fuck everything.

eNd.

eNd.

i guess the problem that i didn't see as one actually became a big one. i just didn't want to believe it but i guess i was wrong to have faith. i knew that it was going to be trouble right from the start. my instincts lead me to the truth but my heart just didn't want to accept it. its funny, how in 08' the same thing happened to me. i was waiting but in the end it just fell apart. its tiring to be in this state but its life. again, i'm just thinking too much. wait..i don't think i am cause this right here is trust issues so thinking too much can't be a big deal. i don't even know whether what i'm saying is right or wrong. well that's it for now.

eNd.

i left this blog for a very long time so i think its time to get back. writing on my blog takes my mind off things or releases whatever i'm feeling that can't be described through speech. my point is i think i've compiled enough to write again. that's what i think. i feel as if something's not right but i've got everything that i've ever wanted. i feel so very empty. anyways, i'm having problems with my relationship. i don't know what the problem is, maybe i do but i just don't want to admit that it is a problem. i just don't know what to say or what to do. the more i think about it, the more i become depressed. my heart feels like its at the bottom of somewhere that's quite deep, being chained to something heavy. usually a heavy burden weighs the heart down but that's just not it. maybe its just one of those days, maybe its not. maybe its just me. maybe i'm just thinking too much. entah ehh..f*ck it :)

here's a song that'll say a few words to what i'm feeling:

Rascal Flatts - What Hurts The Most.

eNd.