Tuesday, November 30, 2004
sianz! I dont see why I should continue trying to foster a bond with her since it's I'm the only hand clapping right here. the only reason left is him. he wants me to be nice to her. I dont know how to respect someone who doesnt only doesnt show me respect but gives me utter disrespect. rude and insolent. banging down phone handsets before you even speak, firing accuses at you. arghhh. as a matter of fact i really am sick and tired of all these. my limit isnt that far off already. trigger it and i'll just give you a piece of my mind. no doubt about that. and that's my mother. ahh, and please dont tell me, mums are all like that. getting jealous when my dad is nice to me? when she exaggerated the nice-ness of him to me. oh man, get a life, fly a kite. my dad can't sleep on my bottom deck of my bed? my sis can't put her head on dad's shoulders? oh cmon!!! if you really want me to be nice to you, please at least give me the minimal respect. dont give my whole family that same shit u gave us that night. that ure always correct n stuff? FO man! fall out ^^. may stand for fuck off. and it's always your way or no way!? wtH man! no freedom! control freak. even my sis calls you that you damn... i can live without you. infact my life would be happier. thread on my toes one more time... and... well we'll see.
ill be working at 6pm later. argh. haha. kind of lost touch with work already. hmmm. my dad should be picking me after work, i told him to sms me if he's too tired to come. hee. had dinner with my family yesterday with eunice n wei too. mmm mmmx! chilli crab, sambal kang kong, fish, peanut soup! whee. nice spread! :D watched Bridget Jones after dinner. the 4 of us. had vip/director seats! whatever u call that. 16 hours with you. haha. eunice is still working at kelvin klein paragon, 100 steps away from Heeren Spinelli's. will be meeting ngee ann friends on sunday! yes!! finallyyy! just for lunch I think. I end work at 2pm. pork's the organiser. hee. so sleepy right now.
use loreal smooth intense! the whole set is only $25 I think! shampoo, conditioner and mask. lol.
ill be working at 6pm later. argh. haha. kind of lost touch with work already. hmmm. my dad should be picking me after work, i told him to sms me if he's too tired to come. hee. had dinner with my family yesterday with eunice n wei too. mmm mmmx! chilli crab, sambal kang kong, fish, peanut soup! whee. nice spread! :D watched Bridget Jones after dinner. the 4 of us. had vip/director seats! whatever u call that. 16 hours with you. haha. eunice is still working at kelvin klein paragon, 100 steps away from Heeren Spinelli's. will be meeting ngee ann friends on sunday! yes!! finallyyy! just for lunch I think. I end work at 2pm. pork's the organiser. hee. so sleepy right now.
use loreal smooth intense! the whole set is only $25 I think! shampoo, conditioner and mask. lol.
girlwithabroken(: : 16:33
Monday, November 29, 2004
the memories of the four months in school with my very lovely classmates suddenly poured back to me. maybe the start of school wasnt such a bad mark afterall right? we could do the things we used to do. like blog during IT lessons and stuff. as for sports and wellness! I wanna take up either soccer or volley ball. maybe canoeing if there is? figured that I was only interested in all these. wheeee... really really really 1m05 Im missing you all. just thinking of the so many times we took photos in the library. foto-crazeeeee. blogging in one whole row. eating lunch altogether. reading gay-arses msn conversations. laughing our heads off with cold and racists jokes. i look forward to those times again. 6 hours of break for this sem's timetable. still just as bad. the wednesday seems like the monday we used to go through and tuesdays were always the 4-hours lecture days. hmm.. dont get school blues. maybe it isnt so bad after all.
ill be working 4 days this week. ill be quitting christophori soon. my ex guitar teacher will be teaching me n yh every once fortnight on thursdays. tmr will be my last day of taking night shift, 0600-2330. thursday, 0700-1400, friday 1000-1400, sunday 0800-1400. gtg! make my atm cards, it was eaten by the machine. 2 cards will do great. hope i dont spend them dryyyyyyyyyyyy. now that ive got an extra baby to take care of. <-- that's crap.
pam: thankie for yr msn msg. it's sweettttt! thanks. take care of yrself very very well too.
cabbage: rubbish man. u stupid vegetable! hahaahha. better identify yrself before i cut u up. bleah. that didnt sound fierce... i think... mmm...
ill be working 4 days this week. ill be quitting christophori soon. my ex guitar teacher will be teaching me n yh every once fortnight on thursdays. tmr will be my last day of taking night shift, 0600-2330. thursday, 0700-1400, friday 1000-1400, sunday 0800-1400. gtg! make my atm cards, it was eaten by the machine. 2 cards will do great. hope i dont spend them dryyyyyyyyyyyy. now that ive got an extra baby to take care of. <-- that's crap.
pam: thankie for yr msn msg. it's sweettttt! thanks. take care of yrself very very well too.
cabbage: rubbish man. u stupid vegetable! hahaahha. better identify yrself before i cut u up. bleah. that didnt sound fierce... i think... mmm...
girlwithabroken(: : 13:53
alien bf: who goes there!? haha.
xianwei: haha.. thanks for your concern ^^ take care poor little lamerX ^^
my italian friend: hihi but.. uh.. whose this?
kami: whee.. thanks for reading everytime ure back from camp. hehe. take care! ice cream's nice.
jojo: here goes the one for 28th! hee. take care sweetie. im uber glad for u that he's so nice. :)
dennis: thanks for popping by! glad u had fun at sentosa yesterday! hmm, rest more! lol. =D
fk: have fun when they're at ur house! hee! thanks for doing the scoldings again. yapyap.
went out with my family to get groceries at NTUC this morning. well, i hope the family quarrell 2 nights ago has blown over already. things getting pretty much back to normal. although normal isnt that good but im satisfied and happy all the time still. time was tight and me and my dad made it to city hall 18 minutes late. gosh~ i feel so bad again. sorry. ate at nooch noodle bar and went to esplanade to play the game cashflow 101. hmmm, learnt alot about the stock markets out there, the mortages of houses, loans from banks, marketing. it wasn't really to the fun side but probably an eye-opener? nono, bad way to call it. but maybe it broadened my view and let me learn more. when to raffles city hagen daz to eat my dad's favourite greentea icecream and went to foodcourt to dine too! =) update later!
backie. owwww... feeling pain for no reason. or self-caused. thinking too much again.
of course it cant be promised. no one can promise the future. every second that passes is an uncertainty. every breath i take seems almost natural. every eye i blink seems unerving, seeing the same pink ceiling everyday seems like a daily routine. what if... ... one day these doesnt come to past?
but i want this to be the last. i want, i hope, i pray, i beg, i plead, i may, i might.
live in the moment? the perfect moment? waiting for the perfect moment which i could live in? whats with me? clause for cause.
for those on the mission trip: i just looked back on my 2003 mission trip manual and im missing those very very enriching and valuable 10days I had back in Thailand. though im not with you all now. God bless...
xianwei: haha.. thanks for your concern ^^ take care poor little lamerX ^^
my italian friend: hihi but.. uh.. whose this?
kami: whee.. thanks for reading everytime ure back from camp. hehe. take care! ice cream's nice.
jojo: here goes the one for 28th! hee. take care sweetie. im uber glad for u that he's so nice. :)
dennis: thanks for popping by! glad u had fun at sentosa yesterday! hmm, rest more! lol. =D
fk: have fun when they're at ur house! hee! thanks for doing the scoldings again. yapyap.
went out with my family to get groceries at NTUC this morning. well, i hope the family quarrell 2 nights ago has blown over already. things getting pretty much back to normal. although normal isnt that good but im satisfied and happy all the time still. time was tight and me and my dad made it to city hall 18 minutes late. gosh~ i feel so bad again. sorry. ate at nooch noodle bar and went to esplanade to play the game cashflow 101. hmmm, learnt alot about the stock markets out there, the mortages of houses, loans from banks, marketing. it wasn't really to the fun side but probably an eye-opener? nono, bad way to call it. but maybe it broadened my view and let me learn more. when to raffles city hagen daz to eat my dad's favourite greentea icecream and went to foodcourt to dine too! =) update later!
backie. owwww... feeling pain for no reason. or self-caused. thinking too much again.
integrated to be part of my life
somewhat kinship
countless similiarities
some affinity.
of course it cant be promised. no one can promise the future. every second that passes is an uncertainty. every breath i take seems almost natural. every eye i blink seems unerving, seeing the same pink ceiling everyday seems like a daily routine. what if... ... one day these doesnt come to past?
but i want this to be the last. i want, i hope, i pray, i beg, i plead, i may, i might.
live in the moment? the perfect moment? waiting for the perfect moment which i could live in? whats with me? clause for cause.
for those on the mission trip: i just looked back on my 2003 mission trip manual and im missing those very very enriching and valuable 10days I had back in Thailand. though im not with you all now. God bless...
girlwithabroken(: : 02:35
Saturday, November 27, 2004
sweetified :) rose, baby's breath and purple ones. thanks so much. im so melted inside n outside. surprised beyond words.
i really hope things will be fine for the both my dearly beloved friends. i really really really hope, pray and wish so. always want you all to be happy. and want to see you all happy. what could mean more to me than people around be being happy? especially ones that are close to me. hmm, i'll always be there for you. a phone call, an sms. 3am? 4am? 5am? i really dont mind. i guess bills and time doesnt really matter when it comes to all this. be strong be strong, ill be there for you.
ive been sleeping the whole day. the medicine prescribed to me was so super strong. makes me more retarded than what i already am. heez.
i really hope things will be fine for the both my dearly beloved friends. i really really really hope, pray and wish so. always want you all to be happy. and want to see you all happy. what could mean more to me than people around be being happy? especially ones that are close to me. hmm, i'll always be there for you. a phone call, an sms. 3am? 4am? 5am? i really dont mind. i guess bills and time doesnt really matter when it comes to all this. be strong be strong, ill be there for you.
ive been sleeping the whole day. the medicine prescribed to me was so super strong. makes me more retarded than what i already am. heez.
girlwithabroken(: : 23:56
Friday, November 26, 2004
amidst my tiredness I'm still missing you very much.
didnt go to work today... was tired. I called my manager early in the morning to tell her that. going to see the doctor soon, waiting for my brother to wake up. anyway, I had a chat with his brother... hmmm, he's somewhat sensible, sweet, speaks up for his brother and he loves his brother and stuff. wonder if my brother's like that to me too. haha. he told me he missed his brother. woah. so nice. he went to FT already.
I've been really very happy these days. very. more than very.
eileen: awww sweetie!! lets go out before school reopens! in like one week's time. ahhhhh. so fast! hugs you! I miss you too! :)
fk: thanks thanks. you can tag anything you want. =) hee. take care of yourself.
sc: lol. ure forever that sensible and down to earth. nice one. belle thanks you ^^
just got home. got mc for 2 days. hmmm... my brother is the super infector. he was drenched on the same day i was and he passed it to his whole office and my family too. the sickness is getting to me. bad headache right now.
girlwithabroken(: : 22:42
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
my present! =D someone's envious! hehe.
girlwithabroken(: : 14:58
bleah. my eyes hurt. Im still tired now. feel like melting to the ground/bed or not get up anymore. hehe. going to meet shihong very soon to get the hamster cage and my bday present from him at like 2. thanks so much for coming down all the way from newton. well, about the losing part.. get over and all the way ya? hee. NS men bound to win i think, couz they train everyday. currently chatting with christie on msn... she's busy! =/dont feel like working later. really really. anyway yesterday was a fun day! wheeee... caught a movie then played DoD. I controlled the left side, which was the keyboard. I really cmi at controlling the mouse. met my dad for dinner, shop abit too. my parents quarrelled just before he went out with my sister. oh well... what's new. just that she's getting more unreasonable. that accounts for why the whole family avoids conversations with her. oh shit. havent met up kaiyi. i think he was surprised to see me in church the other day. I made myself scarce in a damn awkward way, i just typed an sms on his SE phone then ran off. haha. damn my stupid work schedule this week. 5 days this week. bleah. wah, I think I'll either meet him for breakfast or dinner. thursday 1630-2330. >=[ boo. seven hours to go. well, hope to be able to manage my station by tmr! which would be the 3rd time im getting at it. 12-4 for wed, fri and sat.
jacq: happy happy birthday sweetie! I dont know how ure celebrating today but I hope it'll be fun! tell me when ure free alright? if not ill just pop by to pass you ur present k! hope you'll like it. =D hugsss!
lumei: happy birthday too! =)
arch: hope you got the sms! and well, that's my hp no. ^^
edi: take care. just hope that if there's anything on your mind feel free to voice it out couz' well... im open and i wanna listen. i dont know how to put it. maybe just that some stuff i just dont say till anyone asks couz i dont want it to sound... you know... hmmm... =)
eileen: baobao. dont sad liao. hee. or dont sian liao. give you another hug. =) one in your blog one in mine. hmmm... =)
christie: yeah we're sweet. LOL. anyway, glad you and him doing fine already! yay! cheers cheers cheers. =) only source on entertainment... hahahhaha! guys! you're cute man. hugs.
might be meeting aiting tmr after my guitar lessons. afterall it's so near her place. and BEWARE yuhang! you're going to walk with me back to westmall okay! yay! wah kao. i just did smth stupid again. besides being your walking joke imma how to say, down to earth little maggot. haha. all you and jetson's fault. onitsuka2, onitsuka3. i asked him if he was going for guitar. damn. yeah, and that day I told you smth? I was half serious. thanks for the best wishes k. gotta run! late! =/ again!
jacq: happy happy birthday sweetie! I dont know how ure celebrating today but I hope it'll be fun! tell me when ure free alright? if not ill just pop by to pass you ur present k! hope you'll like it. =D hugsss!
lumei: happy birthday too! =)
arch: hope you got the sms! and well, that's my hp no. ^^
edi: take care. just hope that if there's anything on your mind feel free to voice it out couz' well... im open and i wanna listen. i dont know how to put it. maybe just that some stuff i just dont say till anyone asks couz i dont want it to sound... you know... hmmm... =)
eileen: baobao. dont sad liao. hee. or dont sian liao. give you another hug. =) one in your blog one in mine. hmmm... =)
christie: yeah we're sweet. LOL. anyway, glad you and him doing fine already! yay! cheers cheers cheers. =) only source on entertainment... hahahhaha! guys! you're cute man. hugs.
might be meeting aiting tmr after my guitar lessons. afterall it's so near her place. and BEWARE yuhang! you're going to walk with me back to westmall okay! yay! wah kao. i just did smth stupid again. besides being your walking joke imma how to say, down to earth little maggot. haha. all you and jetson's fault. onitsuka2, onitsuka3. i asked him if he was going for guitar. damn. yeah, and that day I told you smth? I was half serious. thanks for the best wishes k. gotta run! late! =/ again!
girlwithabroken(: : 13:48
Monday, November 22, 2004
xtie: no dearest I didnt okay. I bolded your name and smooched you! haha. =( you didnt read properly... hee. anyway, hope ure doing fine yeah? got so much to tell you! damn, Im working from tuesday all the way till saturday. maybe I can meet you all after four on saturday? or sunday... Im free whole day. wheee...
geewee: its okay! haha. i still did go to church in the end. I sat with guanhua and ate with andrew they all after service. haha. anyway he still remembered my birthday. lol. i miss you!! thanks for being there. muackz!
joce: you rock! haha. sorry yesterday I was talking rubbish. I was on the phone =P I cant multitask. hehe. thanks for your encouragement k! at least I know what Im doing now. ^^ date me again before school reopens k! hugs you lots!
pam: I MISS YOU!
xwei: yeays! thanks! you're dead if you'd be bad. lol. :) superstar!
dennis: best wishes for your exam today! hmmm, one more paper to go tmr before you can start chalet-ing and stuff. enjoy!
sc: i took care hor. but I still have damnned flu! and blocked nose. and cough. and no! im not sobbing! what for! take care of belle lar? hehe. sweetie pieeeee. ^^
prae: dont pms. ^^ lololololololol. you'll get over! Im your cheer leader!
okie, I got no idea why Im up so early. slept 2 hours yesterday and well.. less that 4 today. stupid pimples man. haha. =[ anyway I learnt how to make all the expresso, cappuccinos and lattes yesterday. lol. I got burnt 3 times. accident-prone ole me. haha. 130F only, that time was 180 celcius. Imma heat proof girl. I dont mind working as the barista (or however you spell that word). i work with milk all the time. =) it's pretty fun but the washing up is the killer. think I really scared my mum. think she hasnt seen me so early in the morning for a long time. I realised I lost my atm card, no I didnt lose it to be precise, it was eaten up by the machine. nvm, at least the blue posb card is chio-er. beautifies my wallet. my sister and mum's quarrelling again. hmmm, my sister is telling me right now what she said. forever so crude, forever so critical of everything, forever so pessimistic. but Im going to try to treat her a lil' better. went out with porkchop yesterday too, it was ever fuN! haha. I love being around her and having her around. ate marche, got melted by the crepes! yay! went shopping too. seeing her for 4 hours seemed so short all over again. =/ I think 6 would be good. hehe. Im going out soon! I miss you I miss you! although it's been only 8 hours. yeah, going to get some mud on my face before going out.
Daylight whipped me into shape
I must have been asleep for days
And moving lips to breathe her name
I open up my eyes
I find myself alone, alone, alone
Above a raging sea
That stole the only girl I loved
And drowned her deep inside of me.
geewee: its okay! haha. i still did go to church in the end. I sat with guanhua and ate with andrew they all after service. haha. anyway he still remembered my birthday. lol. i miss you!! thanks for being there. muackz!
joce: you rock! haha. sorry yesterday I was talking rubbish. I was on the phone =P I cant multitask. hehe. thanks for your encouragement k! at least I know what Im doing now. ^^ date me again before school reopens k! hugs you lots!
pam: I MISS YOU!
xwei: yeays! thanks! you're dead if you'd be bad. lol. :) superstar!
dennis: best wishes for your exam today! hmmm, one more paper to go tmr before you can start chalet-ing and stuff. enjoy!
sc: i took care hor. but I still have damnned flu! and blocked nose. and cough. and no! im not sobbing! what for! take care of belle lar? hehe. sweetie pieeeee. ^^
prae: dont pms. ^^ lololololololol. you'll get over! Im your cheer leader!
okie, I got no idea why Im up so early. slept 2 hours yesterday and well.. less that 4 today. stupid pimples man. haha. =[ anyway I learnt how to make all the expresso, cappuccinos and lattes yesterday. lol. I got burnt 3 times. accident-prone ole me. haha. 130F only, that time was 180 celcius. Imma heat proof girl. I dont mind working as the barista (or however you spell that word). i work with milk all the time. =) it's pretty fun but the washing up is the killer. think I really scared my mum. think she hasnt seen me so early in the morning for a long time. I realised I lost my atm card, no I didnt lose it to be precise, it was eaten up by the machine. nvm, at least the blue posb card is chio-er. beautifies my wallet. my sister and mum's quarrelling again. hmmm, my sister is telling me right now what she said. forever so crude, forever so critical of everything, forever so pessimistic. but Im going to try to treat her a lil' better. went out with porkchop yesterday too, it was ever fuN! haha. I love being around her and having her around. ate marche, got melted by the crepes! yay! went shopping too. seeing her for 4 hours seemed so short all over again. =/ I think 6 would be good. hehe. Im going out soon! I miss you I miss you! although it's been only 8 hours. yeah, going to get some mud on my face before going out.
Daylight whipped me into shape
I must have been asleep for days
And moving lips to breathe her name
I open up my eyes
I find myself alone, alone, alone
Above a raging sea
That stole the only girl I loved
And drowned her deep inside of me.
girlwithabroken(: : 07:39
Sunday, November 21, 2004
headache headache headache. sleepy sleepy sleepy. hybrid hasn't replied my sms! I wish I could see her for longer. haha. the altec lansing headset thing is great. love it.
i guess im finally letting go already. like... finally. sherbet's interrogating me... lol. about dennis thingy. kkz. decided to tell him half of the answer to his question. i cant stand it already! going to lie down again. i hate pimples. i was so tired i didnt want to go for the test drive with my brother and dad. i wanna ride in a sports car though... ahh! good bye blog. tired. damn. went to ts and no one talked to me again. haha. i always happen to be so soft. =/
i guess im finally letting go already. like... finally. sherbet's interrogating me... lol. about dennis thingy. kkz. decided to tell him half of the answer to his question. i cant stand it already! going to lie down again. i hate pimples. i was so tired i didnt want to go for the test drive with my brother and dad. i wanna ride in a sports car though... ahh! good bye blog. tired. damn. went to ts and no one talked to me again. haha. i always happen to be so soft. =/
girlwithabroken(: : 12:08
Saturday, November 20, 2004
wah im really going to vomit blood. really. hahaha. over means over! some people just dont get it right!?!?!? and what, feelings dont fade over night. wtF man! it's been so long. and it's been fading even way before the break up right! dang. dont you just get it and please stop living in that self denial that we haven't broke up. and what?! you expect the time out for two years for me to wait for you? a big fat NO. and do you know what? Im going to tell you there are so many other people out there better than you. and Id rather like anyone else than you. yeah, it hurts right? sounds like im mean right? ive learnt, the truth hurts. so how? and okay you wanted me to say this myself, yeah, you didnt matter to me then and definately not now. yeah. and i really dont understand how to go about being your friend when you talk to me like that, please understand that definately ill still be nicer to anyone else till all these have blown over for you. and i tell you what, i didnt read the letter myself. angry? basically i dont give a shit anymore. I think ive got better things to read than all these. and HELLO!? I go out with whoever I like, and btw, that time i went out with jingrong, he's already attached. didnt know right? he had it low profile and i dont see why im explaining all these to you. feeling cheated? i dont think you have any reason to. no strings attached after all right. and dont EVER give me that shit that we havent broken up. sadly, ironically, poorly, unfortunately, simply, that's plain self denial ^^. get that clear and into your head. i dont even want to be friends now. so please, dont contact me anymore. i think that makes alot of peoples lives easier. I like who I like and yeah, so what? Im so in love with him. I still am so in love with him. and It'll always be. wanna meet him? he's really nice. wanna see him? I'll show you his pic. and what the fuck man, i never saw u look at me before okay. since when did you not look grouchy. and up till today, i dont find anything any reason or any meaning for me to meet you up just to talk things over. over is over. I dont want to hear your side of the story. Ive listened it thru letters upteenth times and Ive decomposed disintergrate into the ground just reading/hearing them. I dont have my side of the story anymore, couz I dont feel anything for you, I dont feel anything about the "issue", I dont feel anything about any of these anymore. too bad. Im currently expressing my very interesting uninterest in all these. dont keep insisting i have feelings for you man. get a life. need me to say it? I love dennis goh. i told him i love him face to face before. yeah so? so? so? so? me and you over. i dont care who misses me or what. btw, God wouldnt give you someone till you're totally in content with His love alone. I just read that from my friend's cellgroup webpage. yeah, so tell Him if you have anything, dont bother replying what Ive said here. couz your reply is totally unwanted. and dont say "oh... i never broke up with you." woah, I remembered that day clearly. i told you to wait till 12am till you make up your mind and you called me back instantly and said you wanted a break up. yeah, it's not a time out. you can take if as a time out for all i care you know? go ahead, you can wait 2 years on your part. and I didnt promise you I'd keep myself free for 2 years. and I got no intention of getting back together with you. I dont want to! and you can read my blog, but please dont tag, unless you have something not-crude to say. dont tell me about date rapes shit. do you think anyone would allow me to get drunk? no. I trust my friends enough and I love them. and did you not learn summary before? Ms Lim was a great teacher you know, so dont come typing thousands of words to me. summarise would be good. but there's no need to. save the words and store the finger muscles. and even though you're upset with me you dont have a reason to be cold to my good friend ok. wah kao, she was just being friendly and what! maybe you didnt see her is it? couldnt be. so save the excuses. she was in right in front of you. okay GG, dont reply please thanks.
we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over. period. finish. fullstop. end of story. that's about it. the end. enough said. please kindly understand this. if you really love (as u claimed) you've got to let me go. go download, only heaven knows. "if you really love her... you gotta, set her free." I love him, not you.
whee! im meeting hybrid tomorrow! Im so happy! so much to talk about. im going to pick her up from guitar class at dhobby. she's so nice can. anyone wanna join us? hee. haha. guess she's been having fun at her 2 chalets this week! sorry darlings im working on sunday so I cant go out with you sweeties. when i get my work schedule ill tell you all again ok! promise! hug all of you all together. i miss pam too, she's been at camp. MUACKS. gimme a kiss pweasssssss!!! hahaha. ive been asking for one since school started. argh! and i never got it. hee hee. i miss eunice too, the times i talk to her she's always "im late already!" hehe. eileen too! she's been on holiday and she only misses robyn! >=[ hee nvm, i still miss you anyway. alicia,cutie, hee. thanks so much for the testimonial, big hugsssssss. i hope ure doing so fine! baobao. hedzieee... dont worry about your hp thingy, still can trade it in without signing a new plan, i did that before. hee. miss you and happy birthday again. mirza i miss you guy! he's so she! lol. hope everythings fine for you too. havent seen you online in years. haha. =p. give you a hug too, virtual. and i dont want you for one night. im going to get killed for that and you too! haha! yanxia's been lazing around too. seeing her online alot. heehee. i miss you. outing next week! maybe we all can go beach since the fasting thing is over! wheeeeeeeeeeee! christie!! smuacKZKZKZKZ. smooches you. hee. dont scold me!!! hugs, missed you. quick say ive been you great n free entertainment when you're at work! hee. i miss eating with you all in school too. ew, schools starting soon. ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. timetable's out already. i still havent got my results slip. =/ opps, hrbrid's lesson is today, not tmr. haha. but im still meeting her. sadly, i cant meet jacq again today. =[. she's busy with drama. ='[. her performance is coming up but im not going this time. I couldnt confirm on time.
okok, DoD talk time. hee. so happy. got 10-1 in SK server yesterday. lol. sudden on-formness for the belleeeeeeeee who hasnt played for 5 days. my first death came to past when that sniper shot me. bleah. nvm, he was my first kill too. ahahaha. me n dominium failed to train together again, he asked me to go to SK but he himself went to MIW. that boy ah. or more like, that gay ah. yalah yalah, im lesbian. still rem the first time you talked to me on msn, you said "good luck with your girl and good night". ROFL. 69 is gay. haha, go check out the CM webby and look at they're faces. =X hee. kidding~
slept 4 hours plus only. super tired still. going out with my family soon. family... hmm family... I still cant decide where to go. I dont like decision making! arghh! might be going to church later on. hee. yeah im the wholely unholy. i gave my dad a hug when i saw him this morning. i miss him so much. wish he wouldnt go back to china anymore. sigh sigh sigh. everytime he leaves i feel im missing something again. like what eunice explained to me the other time... it's been a long time. everytime he leaves I cry. or everytime I leave I cry. still remember the time i took a plane back to singapore myself, I walked through the boarding gate, I didnt want to look back. didnt want him to see me cry. dont come n go. =[ wah lau. he's trying to plaster my mouth with a plaster. haiya. he keep saying im in love. couz i wanted to buy make up and couz he spotted he combing my hair. haha. he's cute man. best dad!
weiqiang: hmm what's with ballerina! omg! haha. anyway i DoD like, 6 days out of 7 days. now... 2 times a week? ahaha. take care! cya around church or smth!
jo: i read your blog! ure so cute! you're so surprised I wore skirt. hehe. im girly okay. =P hugs you again. dont spend so much k pretty. make him PAY! lol.
can someone suggest a nicer blog address than this? something that makes more sense! please!!! hee.
we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over we're over. period. finish. fullstop. end of story. that's about it. the end. enough said. please kindly understand this. if you really love (as u claimed) you've got to let me go. go download, only heaven knows. "if you really love her... you gotta, set her free." I love him, not you.
whee! im meeting hybrid tomorrow! Im so happy! so much to talk about. im going to pick her up from guitar class at dhobby. she's so nice can. anyone wanna join us? hee. haha. guess she's been having fun at her 2 chalets this week! sorry darlings im working on sunday so I cant go out with you sweeties. when i get my work schedule ill tell you all again ok! promise! hug all of you all together. i miss pam too, she's been at camp. MUACKS. gimme a kiss pweasssssss!!! hahaha. ive been asking for one since school started. argh! and i never got it. hee hee. i miss eunice too, the times i talk to her she's always "im late already!" hehe. eileen too! she's been on holiday and she only misses robyn! >=[ hee nvm, i still miss you anyway. alicia,cutie, hee. thanks so much for the testimonial, big hugsssssss. i hope ure doing so fine! baobao. hedzieee... dont worry about your hp thingy, still can trade it in without signing a new plan, i did that before. hee. miss you and happy birthday again. mirza i miss you guy! he's so she! lol. hope everythings fine for you too. havent seen you online in years. haha. =p. give you a hug too, virtual. and i dont want you for one night. im going to get killed for that and you too! haha! yanxia's been lazing around too. seeing her online alot. heehee. i miss you. outing next week! maybe we all can go beach since the fasting thing is over! wheeeeeeeeeeee! christie!! smuacKZKZKZKZ. smooches you. hee. dont scold me!!! hugs, missed you. quick say ive been you great n free entertainment when you're at work! hee. i miss eating with you all in school too. ew, schools starting soon. ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. timetable's out already. i still havent got my results slip. =/ opps, hrbrid's lesson is today, not tmr. haha. but im still meeting her. sadly, i cant meet jacq again today. =[. she's busy with drama. ='[. her performance is coming up but im not going this time. I couldnt confirm on time.
okok, DoD talk time. hee. so happy. got 10-1 in SK server yesterday. lol. sudden on-formness for the belleeeeeeeee who hasnt played for 5 days. my first death came to past when that sniper shot me. bleah. nvm, he was my first kill too. ahahaha. me n dominium failed to train together again, he asked me to go to SK but he himself went to MIW. that boy ah. or more like, that gay ah. yalah yalah, im lesbian. still rem the first time you talked to me on msn, you said "good luck with your girl and good night". ROFL. 69 is gay. haha, go check out the CM webby and look at they're faces. =X hee. kidding~
slept 4 hours plus only. super tired still. going out with my family soon. family... hmm family... I still cant decide where to go. I dont like decision making! arghh! might be going to church later on. hee. yeah im the wholely unholy. i gave my dad a hug when i saw him this morning. i miss him so much. wish he wouldnt go back to china anymore. sigh sigh sigh. everytime he leaves i feel im missing something again. like what eunice explained to me the other time... it's been a long time. everytime he leaves I cry. or everytime I leave I cry. still remember the time i took a plane back to singapore myself, I walked through the boarding gate, I didnt want to look back. didnt want him to see me cry. dont come n go. =[ wah lau. he's trying to plaster my mouth with a plaster. haiya. he keep saying im in love. couz i wanted to buy make up and couz he spotted he combing my hair. haha. he's cute man. best dad!
weiqiang: hmm what's with ballerina! omg! haha. anyway i DoD like, 6 days out of 7 days. now... 2 times a week? ahaha. take care! cya around church or smth!
jo: i read your blog! ure so cute! you're so surprised I wore skirt. hehe. im girly okay. =P hugs you again. dont spend so much k pretty. make him PAY! lol.
can someone suggest a nicer blog address than this? something that makes more sense! please!!! hee.
girlwithabroken(: : 13:26
yizhi: aye sweetie. hee. im surprised! thanks for popping by anyway. ^^ anyway, how are you and how's you n him and how's everything. hope you're doing fine. i miss you! ^^
dennis: hmmm, study hard. dont want the same thing which happened to you 2 years ago to happen again. haha. i still care lar okay? study for your own sake at least. ^^ take care. cheery cheery guy.
estel: sorry i didnt reply you! was on the phone. so sorry. =/ i thought my status could tell. hee. good nites!
currently chatting with opio and sherbet at this hour. hmmm, i really hope sherbet is fine lar. at least he's telling me what happened now that i asked. bleah. he's pretty nice afterall. hope things get well soon. heex. it's been raining since 11 till now. 5 hours consecutive already. anyway, peili aiting and iris were over at my place today. they gave me this deco item, esther gave me shower foam and some cute colourful looking finger puppet like things. heez. congrats on getting the starhub job thing! ^^ spoke to joce on the phone anyway, so miss you so miss you. im going to let you feel loved. haha. *a big thank you hug again!* anyway! im super happy for you! haha. found a nice guy! and musically inclined! yeah, let's review on our expectations again. musically inclined (great plus point, guitarist sounded good? =P) , taller than us, handsome, cute, good-looking, humourous, gentlemently, sweet, caring, smart (or at least we must feel so), not flirt (guys...), nice figure, sportsman. lolololol. too many already. bleah.
im pretty much less in thought already. janice and joce made me promise them not to think so much already.
dennis: hmmm, study hard. dont want the same thing which happened to you 2 years ago to happen again. haha. i still care lar okay? study for your own sake at least. ^^ take care. cheery cheery guy.
estel: sorry i didnt reply you! was on the phone. so sorry. =/ i thought my status could tell. hee. good nites!
currently chatting with opio and sherbet at this hour. hmmm, i really hope sherbet is fine lar. at least he's telling me what happened now that i asked. bleah. he's pretty nice afterall. hope things get well soon. heex. it's been raining since 11 till now. 5 hours consecutive already. anyway, peili aiting and iris were over at my place today. they gave me this deco item, esther gave me shower foam and some cute colourful looking finger puppet like things. heez. congrats on getting the starhub job thing! ^^ spoke to joce on the phone anyway, so miss you so miss you. im going to let you feel loved. haha. *a big thank you hug again!* anyway! im super happy for you! haha. found a nice guy! and musically inclined! yeah, let's review on our expectations again. musically inclined (great plus point, guitarist sounded good? =P) , taller than us, handsome, cute, good-looking, humourous, gentlemently, sweet, caring, smart (or at least we must feel so), not flirt (guys...), nice figure, sportsman. lolololol. too many already. bleah.
im pretty much less in thought already. janice and joce made me promise them not to think so much already.
girlwithabroken(: : 04:34
Friday, November 19, 2004
can someone tell me what to do? can someone tell me what is right? can someone tell me yesterday was a dream? can someone make me stronger? can someone please help me?
blah blah. it's over if i said it's over. and now i say it's over. yah so dont come talking to me about it anymore or telling me it's wasted. ill kill anyone who does that from today onwards. heh. really! im a dumbfuck man. i changed my blog address and now i cant get it back to the old one. wtf man. hahahha. anyway i spent my day with jan n jo! it's our 2nd anniversary. picture perfect! dinner at marche, 6 dishes! softshell crab, swiss rosti,fried mushrooms, cheese hotdog, pizza and calamari, plenty of calls too. I enjoyed myself alot! wish there werent any time constraints anyway. haha! i love you all! meeting kaiyi next week and christie will be visiting me and work place soon lol. meeting shihong to get my present from him. thanks alot!chalet next week? LOL. kidding... ahh i gtg. going to ring ring. super tired though. nites world.
really you whine so well I give in to your whinings. bleah. I tried resisting it abit anyway. I hope I sleep 12 hours. =X heez. and fine, you're a gentleman... I hope. jurong and ps is equally far for me btw! haha! nevermind, uve got a point anyway. I have sorethroat too. your date, not mine.
blah blah. it's over if i said it's over. and now i say it's over. yah so dont come talking to me about it anymore or telling me it's wasted. ill kill anyone who does that from today onwards. heh. really! im a dumbfuck man. i changed my blog address and now i cant get it back to the old one. wtf man. hahahha. anyway i spent my day with jan n jo! it's our 2nd anniversary. picture perfect! dinner at marche, 6 dishes! softshell crab, swiss rosti,fried mushrooms, cheese hotdog, pizza and calamari, plenty of calls too. I enjoyed myself alot! wish there werent any time constraints anyway. haha! i love you all! meeting kaiyi next week and christie will be visiting me and work place soon lol. meeting shihong to get my present from him. thanks alot!chalet next week? LOL. kidding... ahh i gtg. going to ring ring. super tired though. nites world.
really you whine so well I give in to your whinings. bleah. I tried resisting it abit anyway. I hope I sleep 12 hours. =X heez. and fine, you're a gentleman... I hope. jurong and ps is equally far for me btw! haha! nevermind, uve got a point anyway. I have sorethroat too. your date, not mine.
hedz: happy happy birthday to you! muackz! =] love you! =D
girlwithabroken(: : 03:33
for once in a long time we're looking gentle. yay!
girlwithabroken(: : 03:30
the soft shell crab didnt fit very well in the other photo. so 5 dishes will do! thanks my loves! =D
girlwithabroken(: : 03:29
Thursday, November 18, 2004
to you know who: thanks alot for everything but i really hope u'll move on couz i only like him... and well, take care =]
thanks everyone for the wishes! cass, pam, xianwei, estel, praetor, dennis, fette, weisheng, mervyn, zhong he, hedzlyn, hadi, hedzlyn, god-ma, esther, aiting, andrew, guan hua, peishan, evan, sherbet, geewee, domi, weiqiang, shihong, korkor, evan, alex, yanxia, gabriel, alicia, joce, nicolas, eunice, evelyn, liyana, christie, jacq mirza, Iris, esther! thanks people! you all are so sweet! =D
today was great. my heart broke less.
thanks everyone for the wishes! cass, pam, xianwei, estel, praetor, dennis, fette, weisheng, mervyn, zhong he, hedzlyn, hadi, hedzlyn, god-ma, esther, aiting, andrew, guan hua, peishan, evan, sherbet, geewee, domi, weiqiang, shihong, korkor, evan, alex, yanxia, gabriel, alicia, joce, nicolas, eunice, evelyn, liyana, christie, jacq mirza, Iris, esther! thanks people! you all are so sweet! =D
today was great. my heart broke less.
girlwithabroken(: : 01:09
Monday, November 15, 2004
I hope you'll be seeing this. Couz' I just read your blog. I hope you won't see things just as they are, or can you just look at both sides of the story before getting angry? Couz' I dont see any reason why you should be getting upset over all these. Or even getting affected. He didn't turn his back on Spoink. He did try talking to Spoink on MsN alright, and I read the logged chat. And he was banned from their server too. I mean, he can he considered an innocent CataclysM member. I think you really dont see what's happening on the side of CM, so we're always the bad guys. Thanks for that. Im not being sarcastic here. I just really hope you ask or smth before commenting. Sigh.
My week sucked. Dullsville. And I ache to the bones, even my hands ache like that. Work starts in 2 hours. =] Hope I can see my fellow CMs this tuesday. Depends on my work scheduled. =/ I have a bad feeling about that... Lol. I trust you that he's changed now that I've seen it for myself darling. Thanks man. Will be seeing Arch and his soon-to-be other half later! Pretty happy.
Eunice: Hugsssss... Im working at 6pm. Bleah. =P Hugsssss...
Pam: Hope camp will be fun for you! Dont tire out though! 8am at Habour front this morning? Or tmr? Heex. Take care! Muacks!
My week sucked. Dullsville. And I ache to the bones, even my hands ache like that. Work starts in 2 hours. =] Hope I can see my fellow CMs this tuesday. Depends on my work scheduled. =/ I have a bad feeling about that... Lol. I trust you that he's changed now that I've seen it for myself darling. Thanks man. Will be seeing Arch and his soon-to-be other half later! Pretty happy.
Eunice: Hugsssss... Im working at 6pm. Bleah. =P Hugsssss...
Pam: Hope camp will be fun for you! Dont tire out though! 8am at Habour front this morning? Or tmr? Heex. Take care! Muacks!
girlwithabroken(: : 15:59
Sunday, November 14, 2004
desufnoc. cdesufno. ocdesufn. nocdesuf. fnocdesu. ufnocdes. sufnocde. esufnocd. desufnoc.
naip. pnai. ipna. aipn. naip.
tahw ot eveileb? hichw enil fo sruoy si rof laer? hichw did uoy yllaer naem? nehw era uoy ginog ot egahc ru dnim niaga? semitemos eht naip si os laer niaga. =`[
naip. pnai. ipna. aipn. naip.
tahw ot eveileb? hichw enil fo sruoy si rof laer? hichw did uoy yllaer naem? nehw era uoy ginog ot egahc ru dnim niaga? semitemos eht naip si os laer niaga. =`[
girlwithabroken(: : 13:10
estel: OMG!!!! You mean you were there!?!?!?!? How come I didnt see you! I felt so weird yesterday. Staring at all those who ordered cookie spin. LOL. How come you didnt say hi?! I didnt hear your PLeAsE either. =[ Uh oh... Sorry kitty. I feel bad now. Bleah.
Toshi: Dont know who. Tell me? Lol. Please tell me...?
kenneth: You idiot! I didnt see anyone belle-ing away. Im so vexed now. Lol. You never fail to make me feel like slapping you. Hehe. Enjoy your day out to "find" me. Your big FAT lie.
PaMMie: Haiyo, Im love sick, I keep missing people nowadays. You're not excluded really! =D Hug me! Hug me! =]
fK: miss ya! lololololol. wonder if ure pms-ing there in malaysia.
Well, I bought the bag yesterday! I was really dreaming, when I was walking by mandrin hotel I thought I was still very far from Heeren when Heeren was just opposite. =/ I saw Xiao Ying when I was walking into Heeren. Hehe. Fun...? Hmm... Pretty fun. I did pretty well yesterday only mixing one wrong, the sunkist twist. Arghh! Add the wrong ratio of 8:2 Sunkist Mix: Hi-Lo Milk instead of 6:2. =[ Haha, but I learnt how to make the hazelnut spin. It sounds ewww okay! Hazelnut with milk coffee. The most cups I had queued up was around... 10 maybe? Haha. There's this person nagging by my side, I find her a hindrance couz Belle cant multitask! Keep saying the same thing and stuff. Ask me if I'm right handed or left handed. Blah, when the queue of cups were quite long. goodness. No wonder the guys working there told me most of the girls working there are pretty bossy. Woah, I hope I wont be like them next time. Hahaha. As expected, Im aching badly. Couldnt count the number of times I scooped the big pail of ice and topped up the icebox. Lol. Didnt seem to have the time to feel hungry or thirsty too.
I finished my closing at 1220. Before that I helped Jeremy wash all the cups and utensils that his station used. Anyway I was at the sink so might as well help other people. I shared a cab home with him, he was going to Thomson for his ex class party (sec sch). So fun. Look! I can remember someone's name! Till now i still cant remember my classmates name. T_T. He's freaking quiet when he works, the most he just nods or ignores them to prevent their further comments. LOL. he told me NYP had lotsa people working in Spinelli's. martin was super rich etc... xinying was super kp... he said I was doing a good job for 3rd day at work. I actually thought I was doing badly. He said many many others are much worst. Lucky me. I wanted to play DoD the whole night so that I could sleep the next full day but by the time i took my bathe i was half-way to dreamland. was on the phone till 2.30am anyway. so touched to recieve the call (the fact that it was quite late already). every night I take an hour or so to fall asleep. and get up at 8+ once every morning.
Toshi: Dont know who. Tell me? Lol. Please tell me...?
kenneth: You idiot! I didnt see anyone belle-ing away. Im so vexed now. Lol. You never fail to make me feel like slapping you. Hehe. Enjoy your day out to "find" me. Your big FAT lie.
PaMMie: Haiyo, Im love sick, I keep missing people nowadays. You're not excluded really! =D Hug me! Hug me! =]
fK: miss ya! lololololol. wonder if ure pms-ing there in malaysia.
Well, I bought the bag yesterday! I was really dreaming, when I was walking by mandrin hotel I thought I was still very far from Heeren when Heeren was just opposite. =/ I saw Xiao Ying when I was walking into Heeren. Hehe. Fun...? Hmm... Pretty fun. I did pretty well yesterday only mixing one wrong, the sunkist twist. Arghh! Add the wrong ratio of 8:2 Sunkist Mix: Hi-Lo Milk instead of 6:2. =[ Haha, but I learnt how to make the hazelnut spin. It sounds ewww okay! Hazelnut with milk coffee. The most cups I had queued up was around... 10 maybe? Haha. There's this person nagging by my side, I find her a hindrance couz Belle cant multitask! Keep saying the same thing and stuff. Ask me if I'm right handed or left handed. Blah, when the queue of cups were quite long. goodness. No wonder the guys working there told me most of the girls working there are pretty bossy. Woah, I hope I wont be like them next time. Hahaha. As expected, Im aching badly. Couldnt count the number of times I scooped the big pail of ice and topped up the icebox. Lol. Didnt seem to have the time to feel hungry or thirsty too.
I finished my closing at 1220. Before that I helped Jeremy wash all the cups and utensils that his station used. Anyway I was at the sink so might as well help other people. I shared a cab home with him, he was going to Thomson for his ex class party (sec sch). So fun. Look! I can remember someone's name! Till now i still cant remember my classmates name. T_T. He's freaking quiet when he works, the most he just nods or ignores them to prevent their further comments. LOL. he told me NYP had lotsa people working in Spinelli's. martin was super rich etc... xinying was super kp... he said I was doing a good job for 3rd day at work. I actually thought I was doing badly. He said many many others are much worst. Lucky me. I wanted to play DoD the whole night so that I could sleep the next full day but by the time i took my bathe i was half-way to dreamland. was on the phone till 2.30am anyway. so touched to recieve the call (the fact that it was quite late already). every night I take an hour or so to fall asleep. and get up at 8+ once every morning.
girlwithabroken(: : 11:12
Saturday, November 13, 2004
Im going off for work soon! And well... Im going to get that handbag. Cant resist it anymore. Lol. Dominium you suck, I went into MIW server unable to find you. How many times are you going to disappear into thin air again!? =[ Nervous! Will be seeing ArchAngel in a few hours time and he'll he asking for his cookie spin. Gosh~ Hmmm... 6 hours work from 7pm till 1am. Really hope it doesnt kill my legs couz they've just recovered from a big ache. I miss pork! She's at chalet. Ahh, getting more and more nervous by the day. Makes me unable to sleep. Hhaha, Im drowning in my own thoughts. My two chickens in China have passed away. Well, one was lost and I guess the other was so love sick it died. =`[ I miss them. Rest in peace sweeties.
sweetie cotton candy chocolate cherry pie raisined little strawberry cupcake pie baby.
so sweet of you to call me like that but the wrong place, not in DoD. lol. yawN! off i go!
Dennis: you're sweet.
Hedz: I tried to tag your blog! But I can't seem to... How come! Hee. Take care. 99 Red balloons are nice! Hugs!
sweetie cotton candy chocolate cherry pie raisined little strawberry cupcake pie baby.
so sweet of you to call me like that but the wrong place, not in DoD. lol. yawN! off i go!
Dennis: you're sweet.
Hedz: I tried to tag your blog! But I can't seem to... How come! Hee. Take care. 99 Red balloons are nice! Hugs!
girlwithabroken(: : 17:32
Friday, November 12, 2004
my heart goes sha la la la la~ sha la la la in the morning~ oh oh oh~ sha la la la la~ sha la la la la~ just for you!
im oh-so-infatuated and over the moon even though my results suck! whee! sc and pork can share with you what ive been saying to them. mmm mmm! =D my anime take 12 hours to download and it still hasn't finished. christie is coming over soon, i think. after her work to play DoD on muh' com! i hope she likes it. oh yeah, girl team, oh yeah. wheeee... might be meeting my MU gaming friends for dinner tonight, either them or my sec school friends! exciting. lolz. i love you!
and everytime after the happy part I ne^er fail to feel the pain surge through me all over again. what to feel? what to expect? how to react? why this happens? when does it happen? how come I feel what I feel?
it's the fear, phear, feer, pheer, feaar, pheaar, feear, pheear. ={
im oh-so-infatuated and over the moon even though my results suck! whee! sc and pork can share with you what ive been saying to them. mmm mmm! =D my anime take 12 hours to download and it still hasn't finished. christie is coming over soon, i think. after her work to play DoD on muh' com! i hope she likes it. oh yeah, girl team, oh yeah. wheeee... might be meeting my MU gaming friends for dinner tonight, either them or my sec school friends! exciting. lolz. i love you!
and everytime after the happy part I ne^er fail to feel the pain surge through me all over again. what to feel? what to expect? how to react? why this happens? when does it happen? how come I feel what I feel?
it's the fear, phear, feer, pheer, feaar, pheaar, feear, pheear. ={
girlwithabroken(: : 16:37
Thursday, November 11, 2004
"fear of something can cause someone elses' eternal misery." picked this line up from a show. haha. recalling the time I was fearful of getting hurt... it wasn't fair to him.
I've been hibernating since 8pm yesterday! it feels good! but I fear the fats building up in me. =[ sleep eat sleep eat sleep eat. i might beat janice in doing that. argh! i hate it when people mention my eyebags. stupid tanya. stupid boy. my sleeping marathon shall remove them all. booooooooooooo... im still aching from work, going to sleep till i wont ache anymore. im getting my results tmr so i'm kind of jittery, i know i did badly... i wasn't strong enough to put aside everything and study. in fact i played even more than i usually did. sighs. mind over body mind over body. well, we'll see tmr afternoon.=/ so dont bother getting up early to check couz my friend said at least 12pm...
might be going pulau ubin on monday if i have no work with some of my church people and geewee of cuz. hee. geez. i just realised i have chalet on the 15th-17th and another on 16th-18th and porky has her's on the 16th-18th too. but i dont think i'll be going. maybe just pop by if im not working that is. and 17th im going out with him. 18th with muh' two dearest sec sch friends. 19th my another bunch of sec sch friends might wanna stay over. 20th im going out with jacq! i havent met her for so super long. i miss you soooooooooooo much ='[ i hope im not working in 21st! then i can see my ngee ann friends! ooooo so miss them too. suddenly feel like crying. her bday is on 23rd! and hedzy's on 18th! haha. must go get smth prepared. heeeeee. i love my friends so much. im love sick~~~~~~~ i wonder what i'd be like when i see him again on wednesday. thinking of it makes my knees go weak... i know it'll be fun. but i hope after that day, i'd still be able to enjoy the rest of the days with my friends. =/ i wonder i wonder... and im missing you again.
just read my friend's blog. he's so... nice. although i little mushy but i marvel at the way he loves her. i told him to love her! haha, and i said i love him too. =)
archangel: ure kinky. =[ can i have a cookie spin and an extra serving of belle? =[ lols! nite!
shihong: thanks for preparing whatever you've prepared for me. =D im so sorry i cant remember many people's birthday. =[ sobs. sorry!
joce: =[ im upset. you didnt hug me. sob sob sob sob sob sob sob. haha. okay! i treat you all or smth lar! haha i cant make them from home. hee. take care. see you at thurs! remember to confirm the time with me ok? that janice might come a little later. btw, you can stay over??? watch Lord of the Rings the whole night ^ ^ sms me arh. -hugs you- =D Lord of the flies!
jan: meanieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. you only tag when i talk about food. haha. =P im growing fat! this time it's real! hahaha. take care! i havent got the DVDs yet. my stupid friend havent passed it to me. he's been hunting for them since one week ago. lolz. muacks. so love u. =)
xwei: donno if i can go tmr. sorry. and i dont call guys! maybe ill just sms u. gd enuff. haha. my sec sch friends wanna meet me! please call the rest and tell them. good boy, i gave you their numbers. but i still wont call. and im not egoistic. =( i wont smile at you. no way. *frowns* =(
nis: rest well ^ ^. don't overwork. :)
prae: take things slow! hee. doesnt matter who she likes, just think on your part first ok? make sure you really like her first. not infatuation hoh. i guess time tells it all. 2 days isnt really enough to tell right =P all the best. belle cheers you on! =D im the CL.
bestie: im glad ure back in ts... i dont know what to say. but im happy. take care :)
I've been hibernating since 8pm yesterday! it feels good! but I fear the fats building up in me. =[ sleep eat sleep eat sleep eat. i might beat janice in doing that. argh! i hate it when people mention my eyebags. stupid tanya. stupid boy. my sleeping marathon shall remove them all. booooooooooooo... im still aching from work, going to sleep till i wont ache anymore. im getting my results tmr so i'm kind of jittery, i know i did badly... i wasn't strong enough to put aside everything and study. in fact i played even more than i usually did. sighs. mind over body mind over body. well, we'll see tmr afternoon.=/ so dont bother getting up early to check couz my friend said at least 12pm...
might be going pulau ubin on monday if i have no work with some of my church people and geewee of cuz. hee. geez. i just realised i have chalet on the 15th-17th and another on 16th-18th and porky has her's on the 16th-18th too. but i dont think i'll be going. maybe just pop by if im not working that is. and 17th im going out with him. 18th with muh' two dearest sec sch friends. 19th my another bunch of sec sch friends might wanna stay over. 20th im going out with jacq! i havent met her for so super long. i miss you soooooooooooo much ='[ i hope im not working in 21st! then i can see my ngee ann friends! ooooo so miss them too. suddenly feel like crying. her bday is on 23rd! and hedzy's on 18th! haha. must go get smth prepared. heeeeee. i love my friends so much. im love sick~~~~~~~ i wonder what i'd be like when i see him again on wednesday. thinking of it makes my knees go weak... i know it'll be fun. but i hope after that day, i'd still be able to enjoy the rest of the days with my friends. =/ i wonder i wonder... and im missing you again.
just read my friend's blog. he's so... nice. although i little mushy but i marvel at the way he loves her. i told him to love her! haha, and i said i love him too. =)
archangel: ure kinky. =[ can i have a cookie spin and an extra serving of belle? =[ lols! nite!
shihong: thanks for preparing whatever you've prepared for me. =D im so sorry i cant remember many people's birthday. =[ sobs. sorry!
joce: =[ im upset. you didnt hug me. sob sob sob sob sob sob sob. haha. okay! i treat you all or smth lar! haha i cant make them from home. hee. take care. see you at thurs! remember to confirm the time with me ok? that janice might come a little later. btw, you can stay over??? watch Lord of the Rings the whole night ^ ^ sms me arh. -hugs you- =D Lord of the flies!
jan: meanieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. you only tag when i talk about food. haha. =P im growing fat! this time it's real! hahaha. take care! i havent got the DVDs yet. my stupid friend havent passed it to me. he's been hunting for them since one week ago. lolz. muacks. so love u. =)
xwei: donno if i can go tmr. sorry. and i dont call guys! maybe ill just sms u. gd enuff. haha. my sec sch friends wanna meet me! please call the rest and tell them. good boy, i gave you their numbers. but i still wont call. and im not egoistic. =( i wont smile at you. no way. *frowns* =(
nis: rest well ^ ^. don't overwork. :)
prae: take things slow! hee. doesnt matter who she likes, just think on your part first ok? make sure you really like her first. not infatuation hoh. i guess time tells it all. 2 days isnt really enough to tell right =P all the best. belle cheers you on! =D im the CL.
bestie: im glad ure back in ts... i dont know what to say. but im happy. take care :)
girlwithabroken(: : 19:05
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
I learnt to make smoothies, milkshakes and spins yesterday at work. got to memorise all of them by heart by saturday if not It'll be a mess. Work's been pretty fun except for one girl whose a thorn in the skin to everyone, including even me. a part-timer who just bosses even the assistant manager around. haha. but luckily she's quitting in Dec. yeay! resignation! hee. anyway, Im aching all over badly, backache too. have to keep standing and squatting alot couz I have to take the mixtures out of the fridge which is at squat level. =[ hee. but I made a new friend, Rachael. =] my assistant manager and she lives at Admiralty and we have alot in common. and we love food. I found a new handbag I like. It's in wisma's Billabong. right opposite where I bought my dress. haha. trying to get my mother to buy it for me! I brought Rach to go see the dress and shop for the handbag too. she was looking for a christmas tree for her friend's christmas present. fuN.
guitar was darn boring. my friend didnt tell me he wasnt going. he make me learn those damnnnn boring songs. sudden urge to quit. ahh i have alot to say but I'm too tired to blog...
upon seeing my friend's nick, i thought of something... his nick was "invulnerbility thru insanity."
my flow of thoughts were as follow...
it's thru the passion for a something you love that you'd work hard giving you the dilligence to train and the will to win gives the determination to train, bringing in the belief to win and the trust in ourselves to achieve, and knowing that that isn't false hope builds faith in us hence, allowing us to experience a dream, and the power to dream, which in turns bring hope for us making time for practice, making us invulnerable.
porK: take care darling... fette told me you're ill =[. take good care. dont work too hard yas? =D
ye: err you are...? =]
pam: aye.. working already. haha. tired seh. anyway, try the cookie spin! super nice! shall tell u the recipe. two 6cm radius cookies blended with spin mix and plenty of ice. MmmmM MmMMMmm! =D
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-for your eyes only-
I was thinking about something at the bus stop.. realised it's been just nice a month since we parted... since that day doubted my feelings for him anymore and i haven't thought of the day I'd stop liking him... and thankew so much to the person who asked me a simple question to make me realise... aren't the simplest things in life the most meaningful?
guitar was darn boring. my friend didnt tell me he wasnt going. he make me learn those damnnnn boring songs. sudden urge to quit. ahh i have alot to say but I'm too tired to blog...
upon seeing my friend's nick, i thought of something... his nick was "invulnerbility thru insanity."
my flow of thoughts were as follow...
it's thru the passion for a something you love that you'd work hard giving you the dilligence to train and the will to win gives the determination to train, bringing in the belief to win and the trust in ourselves to achieve, and knowing that that isn't false hope builds faith in us hence, allowing us to experience a dream, and the power to dream, which in turns bring hope for us making time for practice, making us invulnerable.
porK: take care darling... fette told me you're ill =[. take good care. dont work too hard yas? =D
ye: err you are...? =]
pam: aye.. working already. haha. tired seh. anyway, try the cookie spin! super nice! shall tell u the recipe. two 6cm radius cookies blended with spin mix and plenty of ice. MmmmM MmMMMmm! =D
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-for your eyes only-
I was thinking about something at the bus stop.. realised it's been just nice a month since we parted... since that day doubted my feelings for him anymore and i haven't thought of the day I'd stop liking him... and thankew so much to the person who asked me a simple question to make me realise... aren't the simplest things in life the most meaningful?
girlwithabroken(: : 19:24
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
tomorrow I'll be starting work, finally something that can restore the running numbers in my bankbook =X. and let me indulge myself in it. have a feeling I'll see many people on saturday. bleah... anyway, thanks for all the fun today pork, xtie and ... luckily we didnt see that 10 seconds black man. I'm so sway can today! keep on meeting china people and indians. omG. sorry for the racist statements. arghh. and I got off at the wrong stop, newton. I think I was too tired or something... went to pacific plaza and saw his that shirt... the roxy shops there are renovated and opened already.
played for SmD just, was pretty fun. haha. at least not too messy like... I was so scared! couz i was the only one with the mic going to plaza so I had to command for them. haha. but i didnt do much lar. in the end they say just anyhow play. freestyle rocks our world. lolz. oh oh, me and pork got flu. haha. we share too much drinks! you take care lar you. hehe. lucky today had enough people. wah... i really need to train :( . I capped the most flags but my frags... uh... hehe. =P
I need security too... well, no call today. hmmm... cant sleep again, so this is the second time Im switching on my laptop. sigh I wonder what you're thinking of tonight. =/ gabriel thanks, although you wont see this. sometimes you really woke up my idea but I really dont know where my faith is. maybe Im just keeping it couz' I dont want to be disappointed anymore. "it's not false hope, it's called faith." faith in what? hope in what? I myself annabelle khan zhi yan have no idea at all. and porkie, thanks for consoling me about the cm thingy, haha. oh well... guys! =/ hahaha. oh you take care. flu rocks. make us suffocate every night in mucous. eww!
cyan: she's fat! hehehe. he's handsome yep! hmmm... :D
geewee: alright alright. take care. biggest hug! :)
ed: thanks! you've been a great friend.
sc: you're so act cute. but cute still. im not a sweetie, im a saddie. hee.
prae: ure not dead. Im still listening k... hang in there like Im hanging. I hope things get better anyways.
played for SmD just, was pretty fun. haha. at least not too messy like... I was so scared! couz i was the only one with the mic going to plaza so I had to command for them. haha. but i didnt do much lar. in the end they say just anyhow play. freestyle rocks our world. lolz. oh oh, me and pork got flu. haha. we share too much drinks! you take care lar you. hehe. lucky today had enough people. wah... i really need to train :( . I capped the most flags but my frags... uh... hehe. =P
I need security too... well, no call today. hmmm... cant sleep again, so this is the second time Im switching on my laptop. sigh I wonder what you're thinking of tonight. =/ gabriel thanks, although you wont see this. sometimes you really woke up my idea but I really dont know where my faith is. maybe Im just keeping it couz' I dont want to be disappointed anymore. "it's not false hope, it's called faith." faith in what? hope in what? I myself annabelle khan zhi yan have no idea at all. and porkie, thanks for consoling me about the cm thingy, haha. oh well... guys! =/ hahaha. oh you take care. flu rocks. make us suffocate every night in mucous. eww!
cyan: she's fat! hehehe. he's handsome yep! hmmm... :D
geewee: alright alright. take care. biggest hug! :)
ed: thanks! you've been a great friend.
sc: you're so act cute. but cute still. im not a sweetie, im a saddie. hee.
prae: ure not dead. Im still listening k... hang in there like Im hanging. I hope things get better anyways.
girlwithabroken(: : 01:08
Monday, November 08, 2004
"it was 3 am when you woke me up, then we jumped in the car and drove as far as we could go. just to get away. talked about our lives, till the sun came up. now Im thinking about, how i wish i could go back just for one more day. just for one more day with you. everytime i see your face, everytime you look my way. it's like it all falls into place. everything feels right. eversince you walked away, left my life in disarray, all I want is one more day. all i need, one more day with you."
Woah, I slept at 5am again. Like the day before. Goodness. Super tired can? Anyway I'll be going out very soon! =D Oh, I like this song alot, it's sweettttt! I was doing A maths for a total stranger. I dont know why I bothered anyway. She's my aunt's friend's daughter. Hmm hope she passes and does well anyway. I gave back half of what I learned to the teacher! $%^&*()@#$%^&*() Hee.
"When the car broke down we just kept walking along, till is hit this town. there was nothing there at all. but that was all okay. We spent all out money on stupid things. but if i looked back now I'd probably give it all away. just for one more day, one more day with you. everytime i see your face, everytime you look my way. it's like it all falls into place. everything feels right. eversince you walked away, left my life in disarray, all I want is one more day. all i need, one more day with you."
nis: thanks for talking to me yesterday. I was thinking why I didnt tell you already. I know why already. take care ^ ^
"now im sitting here like we used to do I think about my life. and there's nothing i wont do, just for one more day, one more day with you. everytime i see your face, everytime you look my way. it's like it all falls into place. everything feels right. everytime i hear your name, everytime i feel the same. it's like falls into place. everything, everything feel's right." iLu.
You walked away. just one more day, It’s all I need Is one more day with you.
Pam: I wish you could come!!! >=[ hee. have fun teaching chem! and thanks for giving me the shop name and stuff. take care!! force hug you!
Eunice: Meet us for dinner! BK at fareast! =D Hope you can come tooz! =D
noooooo... Im late again! hee. havent even bathed!
Woah, I slept at 5am again. Like the day before. Goodness. Super tired can? Anyway I'll be going out very soon! =D Oh, I like this song alot, it's sweettttt! I was doing A maths for a total stranger. I dont know why I bothered anyway. She's my aunt's friend's daughter. Hmm hope she passes and does well anyway. I gave back half of what I learned to the teacher! $%^&*()@#$%^&*() Hee.
"When the car broke down we just kept walking along, till is hit this town. there was nothing there at all. but that was all okay. We spent all out money on stupid things. but if i looked back now I'd probably give it all away. just for one more day, one more day with you. everytime i see your face, everytime you look my way. it's like it all falls into place. everything feels right. eversince you walked away, left my life in disarray, all I want is one more day. all i need, one more day with you."
nis: thanks for talking to me yesterday. I was thinking why I didnt tell you already. I know why already. take care ^ ^
"now im sitting here like we used to do I think about my life. and there's nothing i wont do, just for one more day, one more day with you. everytime i see your face, everytime you look my way. it's like it all falls into place. everything feels right. everytime i hear your name, everytime i feel the same. it's like falls into place. everything, everything feel's right." iLu.
You walked away. just one more day, It’s all I need Is one more day with you.
Pam: I wish you could come!!! >=[ hee. have fun teaching chem! and thanks for giving me the shop name and stuff. take care!! force hug you!
Eunice: Meet us for dinner! BK at fareast! =D Hope you can come tooz! =D
noooooo... Im late again! hee. havent even bathed!
girlwithabroken(: : 10:05
Sunday, November 07, 2004
how do I put this. 3rd time crying when Im playing DoD. ='[
girlwithabroken(: : 22:39
went to catch a movie with Janice today. hee. was really nice! watched Princess Diaries 2! =) thanks for today although it was pretty last minute. =D hope you enjoyed your bbq yep? picked up a phrase from the movie too. "the heart does things that reason can ne^er understand." and a question too. "have you ever experienced the perfect moment where time seems to stop and you could live in that moment fore^er?". followed by, "some people take a life time to get this feeling, and some ne^er do."
my heart's in knots again. sometimes i just wonder why. and i guess that if he really wanted to call he'd call earlier right? and if he wanted to talk to me he'd ask me right? dont know why these questions always flood into my head at this hour. and then the pain comes back again... do you really care anymore...? waiting without fail every night really shows me something. suddenly thought of what eveline said again... sometimes you really want to stop and really want to give up but you just cant. that's <3.>
"i dont what it is, that makes me feel like this. i dont know who you are, but you must be some kind of superstar. couz' you've got alot of eyes on you no matter where you are." Jamelia - Superstar.
fk: thanks for it. i dunnoe what's it. but thanks. ^^ hope yr eyes get better.
xw: YOU better organise smth. haha couz' its your gd friend's bday. ahaha. dont let me do it. btw, fish n co. fish n co. fish n co. fish n co. fish n co. kidding.
orchard outing on monday, 2pm at orchard control! beware of the ten seconds black man!
my heart's in knots again. sometimes i just wonder why. and i guess that if he really wanted to call he'd call earlier right? and if he wanted to talk to me he'd ask me right? dont know why these questions always flood into my head at this hour. and then the pain comes back again... do you really care anymore...? waiting without fail every night really shows me something. suddenly thought of what eveline said again... sometimes you really want to stop and really want to give up but you just cant. that's <3.>
"i dont what it is, that makes me feel like this. i dont know who you are, but you must be some kind of superstar. couz' you've got alot of eyes on you no matter where you are." Jamelia - Superstar.
fk: thanks for it. i dunnoe what's it. but thanks. ^^ hope yr eyes get better.
xw: YOU better organise smth. haha couz' its your gd friend's bday. ahaha. dont let me do it. btw, fish n co. fish n co. fish n co. fish n co. fish n co. kidding.
orchard outing on monday, 2pm at orchard control! beware of the ten seconds black man!
girlwithabroken(: : 00:50
Friday, November 05, 2004
but he will die for his convictions.There is a vast difference between holding a belief and entering into a conviction. One is a matter of the intellect, the other a matter of the will. One says, "I am convinced." The other says, "I am committed." A man may argue for his beliefs, but he will die for his convictions. A belief is something held in the hand. If the pressure is great enough, if the storm is fierce enough, a belief may become dislodged from the grip and slip away in the current. A conviction, however, is held in the heart. It is stitched into the fabric of one's very being. No pressure, no storm - no matter how violent- can destroy a conviction without destroying something of the one who holds it. A conviction is nothing more than a belief with its boots on...ready to march, ready to fight, ready to die.- from Introduction to Daniel
wish i'd be convicted. couz im living in pain again. wondering what everyday would be like. would you still talk to me? do you really <3>
wish i'd be convicted. couz im living in pain again. wondering what everyday would be like. would you still talk to me? do you really <3>
girlwithabroken(: : 23:57
yesterday was so fuN again! thanks so much girls! hee. really super fun. and the best part is the way we eat everytime we go out. =) sakae sushi buffet. hmmm, im feeling hungry again right now. need the scallop thingy. lolz. i could eat 10 plates of that . lots of pictures and hugs too! went shopping after buffet. eunice, christie and me each got something from Top Shop. i bought a dress too... haha. those beach kind! suddenly im wondering why i bought it couz it's going to be weird if i wear if around right?? or no?? couz people seldom wear dresses right? lucky i didnt buy the pink one.. couz it's alittle revealing. shy*. thanks for helping me shop. if not i really dont know what to wear when i go out on those few "celebration days". lazed at coffee club after shopping... hee. i found a nice hand bag too and another few dresses. haha. havent bought them yet. hugs you all! so happy!
total twist of feelings when i got home for training. this time i really play till i wanted to cry. bleah. im going to leave out the details for this. yuck yuck yuck. it wasn't couz of myself. it's couz of the teamwork part. im not saying im that perfect but im really trying at least. at least someone called to check if im alright yesterday. =[ thanks so much. and he called too. so happieeee. lolz.
eileen: thanks for helping me to kick start the sms thingy. haha. =) thanks for yesterday too! =D
pork: cheery! haha. and dont feel bad you couldnt play yesterday ya? haha. i understand how you feel. my brother's like that too. =) and dont think so much ah... hugz! thanks for ytd!
pam: ure welcome! hee hee. gald you liked it. take care. rem to tell me if ure going to sentosa tmr. ^^ thanks for ytd!! muack!
eunice: whee! hugs! thanks! =D
xtie: ^^ sorry you had to send the pics for me! hee. glad you had fun and liked pressie! haha. take care! ^^
nis: hugs.. :)
will everyone stop pms-ing? sometimes i feel like saying enough is enough! it's not just one person it's peoPLE. AHHHHH! person no 1: stop it. stop trying to dig information out of me couz there's nothing much to know. just play your game and stfu. why? did something wrong and afraid that people might say smth? or do you just want to feel needed in that team? dont give me that "belle you dont understand" kind of thing. yah i dont understand so dont tell me. person no 2: well you recovered already. stopped your pms-ing. thank God. dont start again after I said this. person no 3: i deserve a chance to talk. and im really sick n tired of you being like that. like you said, i dont deserve being treated like this. i agree this time, couz im really trying hard to be your friend. didnt leak out any information. and look, when i ask questions, please dont think that other people sent me to ask. i ask for my own knowledge sake. and when i ask you questions, please dont give me vague and ambiguous answers such as some people, sometimes. stuffx like that. i really dont want to guess. so dont leave me in that kind of spot. it's not nice feeling helpless! and look, it's not just one incident that makes me like that! why not you count how many times uve vented your anger on me? i ne^er gave up trying to be there for you even though thosands of times i get rejected during these 10 months of knowing you. please... stop this. i think friendships work better without guessing games. and if there's anything you wanna ask, just shoot. why would i not tell you? what's there to hide now that ive told you almost everything? person no 4: stop saying you want to quit lar.
having said all these. im not angry, just hope to get my point across and let you all know how i feel. ='[ im not yet tired of listening yet. im not tired of being your friends at all.
all wake up please wake up. im getting some kind of emotional and mental burden from all of you. im not saying im that perfect either. gg to all. erm, thanks for listening for those who listen n read what has gone on these months to go. good nite. uh someparts got cut off again. i dunno why. nvm. nite.
total twist of feelings when i got home for training. this time i really play till i wanted to cry. bleah. im going to leave out the details for this. yuck yuck yuck. it wasn't couz of myself. it's couz of the teamwork part. im not saying im that perfect but im really trying at least. at least someone called to check if im alright yesterday. =[ thanks so much. and he called too. so happieeee. lolz.
eileen: thanks for helping me to kick start the sms thingy. haha. =) thanks for yesterday too! =D
pork: cheery! haha. and dont feel bad you couldnt play yesterday ya? haha. i understand how you feel. my brother's like that too. =) and dont think so much ah... hugz! thanks for ytd!
pam: ure welcome! hee hee. gald you liked it. take care. rem to tell me if ure going to sentosa tmr. ^^ thanks for ytd!! muack!
eunice: whee! hugs! thanks! =D
xtie: ^^ sorry you had to send the pics for me! hee. glad you had fun and liked pressie! haha. take care! ^^
nis: hugs.. :)
will everyone stop pms-ing? sometimes i feel like saying enough is enough! it's not just one person it's peoPLE. AHHHHH! person no 1: stop it. stop trying to dig information out of me couz there's nothing much to know. just play your game and stfu. why? did something wrong and afraid that people might say smth? or do you just want to feel needed in that team? dont give me that "belle you dont understand" kind of thing. yah i dont understand so dont tell me. person no 2: well you recovered already. stopped your pms-ing. thank God. dont start again after I said this. person no 3: i deserve a chance to talk. and im really sick n tired of you being like that. like you said, i dont deserve being treated like this. i agree this time, couz im really trying hard to be your friend. didnt leak out any information. and look, when i ask questions, please dont think that other people sent me to ask. i ask for my own knowledge sake. and when i ask you questions, please dont give me vague and ambiguous answers such as some people, sometimes. stuffx like that. i really dont want to guess. so dont leave me in that kind of spot. it's not nice feeling helpless! and look, it's not just one incident that makes me like that! why not you count how many times uve vented your anger on me? i ne^er gave up trying to be there for you even though thosands of times i get rejected during these 10 months of knowing you. please... stop this. i think friendships work better without guessing games. and if there's anything you wanna ask, just shoot. why would i not tell you? what's there to hide now that ive told you almost everything? person no 4: stop saying you want to quit lar.
having said all these. im not angry, just hope to get my point across and let you all know how i feel. ='[ im not yet tired of listening yet. im not tired of being your friends at all.
all wake up please wake up. im getting some kind of emotional and mental burden from all of you. im not saying im that perfect either. gg to all. erm, thanks for listening for those who listen n read what has gone on these months to go. good nite. uh someparts got cut off again. i dunno why. nvm. nite.
girlwithabroken(: : 18:19
Thursday, November 04, 2004
OpioX.Ed!t!oN'6 - First step towards breaking into e angmoh world . Thrash Clan [uBp] . gg gl hf allx. says:
always a pleasure to assist cute dumb fucks
direct. lol. thankie. today is a happy day, couz i slept for 10 hours, although i woke up 3times. hee. yays! going out soon! >.<>
fk: my fever's gone. i didnt mean ill wait till 6am. i meant that, if u call my hp, ill wake up. what i want to talk about matters aloT to me although you think i support... tc.
cl: :] smile!
hybrid: where got nice. wtf. wtf. hahaha. slap his ass. =p you are sooooooo cute. hugs. hugs. set, kater dont wear anything. lolz...! smuackzz!
estel: thankie. ^ ^.
always a pleasure to assist cute dumb fucks
direct. lol. thankie. today is a happy day, couz i slept for 10 hours, although i woke up 3times. hee. yays! going out soon! >.<>
fk: my fever's gone. i didnt mean ill wait till 6am. i meant that, if u call my hp, ill wake up. what i want to talk about matters aloT to me although you think i support... tc.
cl: :] smile!
hybrid: where got nice. wtf. wtf. hahaha. slap his ass. =p you are sooooooo cute. hugs. hugs. set, kater dont wear anything. lolz...! smuackzz!
estel: thankie. ^ ^.
girlwithabroken(: : 11:05
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
So I said I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming all this love
Melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love
Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Ne^er e^er end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your lo^e
i wish work started earlier. earlier the better. that plants my escape routes. sometimes wish i was long gone. think i really need a break... like that time i took a break and went to China. i missed Yw alot when i was there too. but upon realising that being in Sg and in China made no difference. some things just dont change. i opened my heart again after that 8 months. but... hmmm. nap time.
DoD time. im back. 32:9 was my score. it sounds pretty good but i missed big time. i think i need to increase my sensitivity. currently it's 2.3. anw i was playing with a few newbies but they werent as bad as me. first time i played DoD, i didnt even know how to change my nick or chat. bleah. horrendous. im tired... anyway, i hate all the talk about sgdod and the joke about joining it. didnt seem that funny as the way they said it. well... maybe they're serious. but just go ahead. why not you join already then you tell me? not dicuss your plans in front of me? really pains me... and someone else to hear all this.
wah im not feeling too good again today. think ive caught a cold again. or sup with my headaches. mmm. feeling feverish again. anyway i caught the show cellular today. quite alright only but the main actor was very good looking. hee. argh, i havent got down to writing they're birthday postcards, one's belated one's today. spoke to sean on the phone today awhile. sk will get it. kick and ban more people lar, hope everyone boycotts you. so you'll survive on your own members strength only. hmpph. bah. i owe him an email. havent explained everything yet. anyway i figured out he's rather know and things will only be settled once we talk it over. hmmm. sorry again. have been thinking about it since last night till today. my precious thoughts. anyway, al's became so much more toned since the last time i saw him. haha! too bad you're short. 164. lolz. sorry im sorry for stating figures. watched them played pool today too. and i got trashed for the one round i played. >.<>
postcard-ing time. all my chat mates have disappeared offline. bleah. nites all.
estel: take care of yr stomach kies! =) get well soon. eat yr meals regularly. could feel yr pain sometimes. haha. meow.
bestie: thanks for asking me out on my bday. ure sweet. ^ ^ and.. cheer up! :)
prae: ure the freak! LOL. dont s*** me. LOL. kiddin'.
cyan: haha! ive been there and been back! i did that for a whole month. dont fall ill yas? haha. you soon have eyebags like mine! haha! you've been on the line right! yes! i knew it. hahaa. sooo sweet.
hedz: hugs! love you!
Running down into the spring that's coming all this love
Melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love
Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Ne^er e^er end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your lo^e
i wish work started earlier. earlier the better. that plants my escape routes. sometimes wish i was long gone. think i really need a break... like that time i took a break and went to China. i missed Yw alot when i was there too. but upon realising that being in Sg and in China made no difference. some things just dont change. i opened my heart again after that 8 months. but... hmmm. nap time.
DoD time. im back. 32:9 was my score. it sounds pretty good but i missed big time. i think i need to increase my sensitivity. currently it's 2.3. anw i was playing with a few newbies but they werent as bad as me. first time i played DoD, i didnt even know how to change my nick or chat. bleah. horrendous. im tired... anyway, i hate all the talk about sgdod and the joke about joining it. didnt seem that funny as the way they said it. well... maybe they're serious. but just go ahead. why not you join already then you tell me? not dicuss your plans in front of me? really pains me... and someone else to hear all this.
wah im not feeling too good again today. think ive caught a cold again. or sup with my headaches. mmm. feeling feverish again. anyway i caught the show cellular today. quite alright only but the main actor was very good looking. hee. argh, i havent got down to writing they're birthday postcards, one's belated one's today. spoke to sean on the phone today awhile. sk will get it. kick and ban more people lar, hope everyone boycotts you. so you'll survive on your own members strength only. hmpph. bah. i owe him an email. havent explained everything yet. anyway i figured out he's rather know and things will only be settled once we talk it over. hmmm. sorry again. have been thinking about it since last night till today. my precious thoughts. anyway, al's became so much more toned since the last time i saw him. haha! too bad you're short. 164. lolz. sorry im sorry for stating figures. watched them played pool today too. and i got trashed for the one round i played. >.<>
postcard-ing time. all my chat mates have disappeared offline. bleah. nites all.
estel: take care of yr stomach kies! =) get well soon. eat yr meals regularly. could feel yr pain sometimes. haha. meow.
bestie: thanks for asking me out on my bday. ure sweet. ^ ^ and.. cheer up! :)
prae: ure the freak! LOL. dont s*** me. LOL. kiddin'.
cyan: haha! ive been there and been back! i did that for a whole month. dont fall ill yas? haha. you soon have eyebags like mine! haha! you've been on the line right! yes! i knew it. hahaa. sooo sweet.
hedz: hugs! love you!
girlwithabroken(: : 11:17
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
i need some sleep i need some sleep i need some sleep i need some sleep i need some sleep i need some sleep i need some sleep i need some sleep i need some sleep i need some sleep i need some sleep!
just got waken up by my mother. bleahh. i cant stand her. she wants to control everything, from the speed of my fan to everything i do. sometimes it really drives me crazy. give me some space, at least let me rest when u see that my room lights are off. is that too much to ask?
uh.. happy birthday Christie and Kaiyi! =) have fun tmr! happy 17th ^ ^ birthday again!
nooooo... im logging on for the 3rd time in 45 minutes. just cried abit. ahh.. i dont know why also. i think im psycho. maybe it's just my mind. oh yeah, it's all in the mind isnt it? bleah. yeap, it's that insecurity im feeling now. wondering when things might change. feel like im walking on eggshells these days. weirdo. guess ure still etched in my mind. and im feeling bad for one more thing. so i cried. sighz. sorry dude. im so sorry. i really didnt mean to hurt u... i cant believe we squabble everyday! ahh! but ure still my good friend okays. #$%^&*()_(*&^%$ sorry im a meanie~.
my blog is an appetite stimulating blog. oh yeah.
eileen: wheee! nice food right? haha. shall bring u there soon! maybe this thursday! hahaz. take care! ^ ^
geeweez: hee hee. my friend did it for me... he's so nice can! hahah. im hopeless at html >.< saddededed. haha. take care gd nite! rmb it's kaiyi's bday yeah? i smsed him already. =D
just got waken up by my mother. bleahh. i cant stand her. she wants to control everything, from the speed of my fan to everything i do. sometimes it really drives me crazy. give me some space, at least let me rest when u see that my room lights are off. is that too much to ask?
uh.. happy birthday Christie and Kaiyi! =) have fun tmr! happy 17th ^ ^ birthday again!
nooooo... im logging on for the 3rd time in 45 minutes. just cried abit. ahh.. i dont know why also. i think im psycho. maybe it's just my mind. oh yeah, it's all in the mind isnt it? bleah. yeap, it's that insecurity im feeling now. wondering when things might change. feel like im walking on eggshells these days. weirdo. guess ure still etched in my mind. and im feeling bad for one more thing. so i cried. sighz. sorry dude. im so sorry. i really didnt mean to hurt u... i cant believe we squabble everyday! ahh! but ure still my good friend okays. #$%^&*()_(*&^%$ sorry im a meanie~.
my blog is an appetite stimulating blog. oh yeah.
eileen: wheee! nice food right? haha. shall bring u there soon! maybe this thursday! hahaz. take care! ^ ^
geeweez: hee hee. my friend did it for me... he's so nice can! hahah. im hopeless at html >.< saddededed. haha. take care gd nite! rmb it's kaiyi's bday yeah? i smsed him already. =D
girlwithabroken(: : 23:31
Monday, November 01, 2004
it's developing it's developing!
hmm my stomach muscles are developing! lol. yays! hmm, quite tired right now, currently feeling kind of feverish but today's ever so great! i went out w liyana! and we got down to excercise! like finally ^ ^ 8 laps length of the pool. whee...! fortunately we didnt go on more... couz it rained cats and dogs right after we reached our lunch-ing destination. heez. after lunch we went shopping but i didnt get anything. she bought a levi's tee. so chio! =D hunted for the perfect gift for our friend too! looked at laptops, mp3 players, digital cameras and mouses. woah! that i-pod thingy? it's 4 giga bytes! woah. can store a whole computer. mmm, i changed my mine, i dont want to muvo slim by creative anymore, getting another model... couz this one, the battery can only be charged by laptop/desktop and the battery gets loose easily. and the USB is plugged in externally! =[ but it looks good! slim, silver, black, rectangular. we movied too. watched the show "yesterday once more." super super sweet show. a love comedy. they had a really special relationship. reminded me of him once again.
well they were life partners as well as partners in crime. i guess this story's something new for a change. pretty interesting. =) and we also found out that GV has 15 minutes advertisment time before the film actually starts rolling... after that we ate cakes at Secret Recipe! so much for exercising right! we eat a ton more. >_< thankewwwww =")
oh yar, im in love... in love with the carbine! it's a great gun, low recoil, accurate and manual. the fastest finger first! =D
cyan: haha! want some? they have student offers now.. bring her there with you! haha. =D =D. the oreo one's nicer i feel... mmm mmm...
pam: hugs! see you this thursday!!!! =) hope you like the gift anyways! =D will let you see it on thursday.. =)
xianwei: heehee. if not how to thank you. want some cake? =p mmm... anw, im sure everyone would agree ure full of crap. haha. enjoy yr last week of school (if im not wrong). gee =D
nis: gald you're better. see, you worry too much! ^ ^ hugs you.
hmm my stomach muscles are developing! lol. yays! hmm, quite tired right now, currently feeling kind of feverish but today's ever so great! i went out w liyana! and we got down to excercise! like finally ^ ^ 8 laps length of the pool. whee...! fortunately we didnt go on more... couz it rained cats and dogs right after we reached our lunch-ing destination. heez. after lunch we went shopping but i didnt get anything. she bought a levi's tee. so chio! =D hunted for the perfect gift for our friend too! looked at laptops, mp3 players, digital cameras and mouses. woah! that i-pod thingy? it's 4 giga bytes! woah. can store a whole computer. mmm, i changed my mine, i dont want to muvo slim by creative anymore, getting another model... couz this one, the battery can only be charged by laptop/desktop and the battery gets loose easily. and the USB is plugged in externally! =[ but it looks good! slim, silver, black, rectangular. we movied too. watched the show "yesterday once more." super super sweet show. a love comedy. they had a really special relationship. reminded me of him once again.
well they were life partners as well as partners in crime. i guess this story's something new for a change. pretty interesting. =) and we also found out that GV has 15 minutes advertisment time before the film actually starts rolling... after that we ate cakes at Secret Recipe! so much for exercising right! we eat a ton more. >_< thankewwwww =")
oh yar, im in love... in love with the carbine! it's a great gun, low recoil, accurate and manual. the fastest finger first! =D
cyan: haha! want some? they have student offers now.. bring her there with you! haha. =D =D. the oreo one's nicer i feel... mmm mmm...
pam: hugs! see you this thursday!!!! =) hope you like the gift anyways! =D will let you see it on thursday.. =)
xianwei: heehee. if not how to thank you. want some cake? =p mmm... anw, im sure everyone would agree ure full of crap. haha. enjoy yr last week of school (if im not wrong). gee =D
nis: gald you're better. see, you worry too much! ^ ^ hugs you.
eunice: ahhh twin. it's okay. hmmm, my first pay ill treat the bunch of you. ^ ^ winks. i go game already! hmm, thanks for yr testi!
girlwithabroken(: : 20:04
Sweet Recipe's oreo cheesecake! 1/11/2004
girlwithabroken(: : 20:00
Sweet Recipe's chocolate cake! 1/11/2004
girlwithabroken(: : 19:59
i love photography! comment? =)
girlwithabroken(: : 19:56
this is crap. my wireless connection at home is failing me. ahhh! argh! the signal is either low, or none at all, so i cant send out today's photos! gosh~ today was fuN! as usual. went to marina for steamboat/bbq! haha. although I was quite tired, got up a few times in the morning and I slept at 4+am. mmm.. took 3 videos on how we tried to kill the live prawns. man, for a moment i felt like a heroine. lolz. anyway, i kept saying i wasn't afraid, and everytime i open the cover for those prawns, i'd scream my head off. prawning was fun still anyway! haha! the prawns jump alot can!? scary! like some drama, couz all of us were standing up and screaming away. geez~ msg me on msn for the videos! ^^ we reeked of smoke on our way home. urgh. we're a crazy bunch anyway, could share anything under the sun, crap about anything in the world and eat the most! (to the max 4 litres!) i love food.
just chatted on the phone for 20 mins with someone. hee hee. im over the moon again! lol. nah... kidding. got to turn in by 2am before i get my punishment of... heh heh heh. muacks. *sayang your tummy*.
feeling quite sian right now, i wonder where's the significance of us in my friend's life. seems like we always come in as last priority, or maybe we're not even a priority. sighs. or maybe we're not even in your eyes. i cant even play DoD now that my connection's so bad. i think i've found enough girls to form a girl team! that will be so cool can!? me, hybrid, hybrid's sis, christie... and maybe a few others from CS. wheez! *dances around* a dream come true i hope.
im falling asleep while blogging again right now. hee hee! comment on the new skin yas? and special thanks to edison! *curtseys* ^ ^. thanks so much. and whacks you with a pillow too. i like caramel ice-cream.
xianwei: hi mookie! lol. okays im sorry i wont call you that anymore. the last time ok, mookie? mmm, rmb to go to school kk! haha. btw, recalling the times we talked. thanks for being there lar. i no longer cry in buses and outside my examination rooms anymore. =) your crap has cheered belle up! lolz.
jan: mmmx! chocolate ice-cream! hahah! did you haf to sms me to remind me! haha! i still tot you smsed the wrong person. la la la la~ havent seen that from you before. couz both of us always use up all 160 chars in an sms. lolz. treat u to ice-cream when i get my 1st pay! anyway, wanna go swimming!!!! aye! contact me again kz! and remember our date... cityhall! =D hugz!
eileen: you!tell me what did you two do! sounded fun. arghhh. envious. lolz. kk im kidding again right now! i hope u can go this thursday, then you can see how infatuated i am again. hee hee hee! *winks* i love yar pretty! ;)
nis: hmm, wanted to give you a hug. but i cant get to your comment page. argh, sorries =[ hope yr stomach gets better. dont worry so much k? doubt it'd be an internal injury. if it is then... help u sayang. hahahaha. =$ thanks for worrying about me anyway. :)
just chatted on the phone for 20 mins with someone. hee hee. im over the moon again! lol. nah... kidding. got to turn in by 2am before i get my punishment of... heh heh heh. muacks. *sayang your tummy*.
feeling quite sian right now, i wonder where's the significance of us in my friend's life. seems like we always come in as last priority, or maybe we're not even a priority. sighs. or maybe we're not even in your eyes. i cant even play DoD now that my connection's so bad. i think i've found enough girls to form a girl team! that will be so cool can!? me, hybrid, hybrid's sis, christie... and maybe a few others from CS. wheez! *dances around* a dream come true i hope.
im falling asleep while blogging again right now. hee hee! comment on the new skin yas? and special thanks to edison! *curtseys* ^ ^. thanks so much. and whacks you with a pillow too. i like caramel ice-cream.
xianwei: hi mookie! lol. okays im sorry i wont call you that anymore. the last time ok, mookie? mmm, rmb to go to school kk! haha. btw, recalling the times we talked. thanks for being there lar. i no longer cry in buses and outside my examination rooms anymore. =) your crap has cheered belle up! lolz.
jan: mmmx! chocolate ice-cream! hahah! did you haf to sms me to remind me! haha! i still tot you smsed the wrong person. la la la la~ havent seen that from you before. couz both of us always use up all 160 chars in an sms. lolz. treat u to ice-cream when i get my 1st pay! anyway, wanna go swimming!!!! aye! contact me again kz! and remember our date... cityhall! =D hugz!
eileen: you!tell me what did you two do! sounded fun. arghhh. envious. lolz. kk im kidding again right now! i hope u can go this thursday, then you can see how infatuated i am again. hee hee hee! *winks* i love yar pretty! ;)
nis: hmm, wanted to give you a hug. but i cant get to your comment page. argh, sorries =[ hope yr stomach gets better. dont worry so much k? doubt it'd be an internal injury. if it is then... help u sayang. hahahaha. =$ thanks for worrying about me anyway. :)
girlwithabroken(: : 01:06
