Thursday, December 30, 2004
nicolas is someone evil. wahaha. full of shet. keep spying on me and him! how come I never ever get you caught in the act! argh!! just got off the line with michael, him, then christie. going to marianate some food for tmr. I'm cooking!!! for him!! will cook for all you 1M05 soon. dont say I'm biased. being the evaluator for oral communication really sucks man. I giggle too much and the whole class laughs at the fact. hahaha. I skipped IAC lesson at 10am though. so darn tired today. my thurdays always end up like that. talking to janis was damn fun lar. she stays in sembawang too and we share the same late habits. hehe. gtg! i love you friends and family! have a great new year! I just read his blog! so happy! infatuated!! haha. i really hope everything goes well for my good friend. really. really. for whatever I'm doing now I'm hoping for the best.
IM SO OVER THE MOON! HE'S SO SWEET SO SWEET SO SWEET.
i dont understand why someone said he's not used to seeing me in a r/s. and asked me if I really do like him... weird. but! of course I do! without question!
IM SO OVER THE MOON! HE'S SO SWEET SO SWEET SO SWEET.
i dont understand why someone said he's not used to seeing me in a r/s. and asked me if I really do like him... weird. but! of course I do! without question!
girlwithabroken(: : 23:05
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
some people wait a life time... for a moment like this...
I just got home from work. surprised to see victor concerned about me really. it's been a year since we last chatted on msn. will be meeting ashwin tmr since he'll be enlisting on the 11th of january. freaking scary, came home seeing candles on the dinner table and a bloody lizard on the floor and all was dark. I'll be working on new year's day, but it's a sacrifice for my 90 dollar pay roll that day. I'm feeling pretty sianz. I tried calling christie but I think she's asleep already. guess I was just looking for someone to talk to.
christie: cheer dear. I'll be there for you always wan. like u've been there before. I'm touched and the sms I sent you that time? I meant it alot. still do mean it. take careeee. hugs!
pammie: get well soon. iLu!! take care dearie.
pork: get well soon too kz. hugs hugs hugs. ure my baobei. haha!!
lecturer: who you? slap u. haha. kidding.
hedz: I want too! thanks for dropping by that day yup??? your cuz is soooo cute!! handsome young boy. :p
geewee: yepyep. damn lame. lame till i cant understand at times. hehe. take care (; glad things are getting better now. whee.
I'm slipping off the edge, I'm hanging on a thread, I want to start this all over again, so I try to hold onto a time when nothing matters, when I cant explain what happened, when I cant erase the things I've done. now I cant. how could this happen to me, I've made my mistakes, got no where to run, life goes on it's not fading away, I'm sick of this life. I just wanna scream. how could this happen to me. simple plan - untitled.
I just got home from work. surprised to see victor concerned about me really. it's been a year since we last chatted on msn. will be meeting ashwin tmr since he'll be enlisting on the 11th of january. freaking scary, came home seeing candles on the dinner table and a bloody lizard on the floor and all was dark. I'll be working on new year's day, but it's a sacrifice for my 90 dollar pay roll that day. I'm feeling pretty sianz. I tried calling christie but I think she's asleep already. guess I was just looking for someone to talk to.
christie: cheer dear. I'll be there for you always wan. like u've been there before. I'm touched and the sms I sent you that time? I meant it alot. still do mean it. take careeee. hugs!
pammie: get well soon. iLu!! take care dearie.
pork: get well soon too kz. hugs hugs hugs. ure my baobei. haha!!
lecturer: who you? slap u. haha. kidding.
hedz: I want too! thanks for dropping by that day yup??? your cuz is soooo cute!! handsome young boy. :p
geewee: yepyep. damn lame. lame till i cant understand at times. hehe. take care (; glad things are getting better now. whee.
I'm slipping off the edge, I'm hanging on a thread, I want to start this all over again, so I try to hold onto a time when nothing matters, when I cant explain what happened, when I cant erase the things I've done. now I cant. how could this happen to me, I've made my mistakes, got no where to run, life goes on it's not fading away, I'm sick of this life. I just wanna scream. how could this happen to me. simple plan - untitled.
girlwithabroken(: : 23:31
Monday, December 27, 2004
and thanks xianwei for being there for these 3 years. today's our third anniversary.
girlwithabroken(: : 22:16
hmm, I'm in my thinking mode again. just feeling very grateful once again for the many many people put in my life. this year is coming to an end really soon in 5 days time and it's time I think back and realise, learn and thank.
and I'm very very grateful who those who were there during my JC days to advice and guide me in my choices if you all think I've forgotten you all. nope, no way. I wont forget the times we gamed and dinnererd and the times you all watched me cry. thankew so much. I'm grateful beyond words. andrew, zhong he, wei sheng, guan hua.
and for jacq and yuwen for being there every morning to go with me to SAJC and listen my constant whinings about "him" then and spending valentine's day with me. Janice and jocelyn for taking time out of thier busy church/family schedules to spend time with me, hear me out and being my buddies for 2 years and a month and still counting. jocelyn, janice, aiting, geewee, michael, edison, sc, xianwei, mirza, pamela, eunice, christie, liyana, hedzlyn, alicia, weisheng, guanhua, grabrielle and eileen for being there in my saddest moments as well as for sharing my joys.
there's still many ppl. current interruption to my thoughts.
and I'm very very grateful who those who were there during my JC days to advice and guide me in my choices if you all think I've forgotten you all. nope, no way. I wont forget the times we gamed and dinnererd and the times you all watched me cry. thankew so much. I'm grateful beyond words. andrew, zhong he, wei sheng, guan hua.
and for jacq and yuwen for being there every morning to go with me to SAJC and listen my constant whinings about "him" then and spending valentine's day with me. Janice and jocelyn for taking time out of thier busy church/family schedules to spend time with me, hear me out and being my buddies for 2 years and a month and still counting. jocelyn, janice, aiting, geewee, michael, edison, sc, xianwei, mirza, pamela, eunice, christie, liyana, hedzlyn, alicia, weisheng, guanhua, grabrielle and eileen for being there in my saddest moments as well as for sharing my joys.
there's still many ppl. current interruption to my thoughts.
girlwithabroken(: : 19:28
Saturday, December 25, 2004
he's sleeping on my bed right now. he's mastered the 1000 sleeping manuvers possible. sleeps standing up too. hmm, went to janice's church just now! watched the kungfu show, came home to eat. there's so muchhhhh food. impossible to finish. nasi briyani, chicken curry, log cake, rendang, vegetable curry, tau suan, cocktail, wine, ham, turkey and so on... oh he liked the gift for him! and jan gave him a postie too. wanted to meet jacq today but she ends work at 930pm and meet the fockers movie starts at 840pm. kind of clashes. arghh.
girlwithabroken(: : 17:34
Friday, December 24, 2004
I worked till 1am again yesterday. I'm really dead beat. knocked out during maths lecture for that 1hour and 15 minutes. spent the remaining lecture time talking to him. I'll spent christmas eve at home today, if not at my cousin's.
went towning with my dearest christie and porkie. jerky ride all the way there. the bus driver breaks 3 times before she comes to a complete stop at each bus stops. so counting the number of bus stops from KAP till heeren could just make anyone puke. laughter allowed us to resist the lovely puking sensation. I'll be working till 4am next saturday. I hope to see most of my friends even when I'm working. and maybe... ... I have a lot to type but I dont know how to put it anymore. I just know I'm growing fatter and fatter. might be going to janice church tmr. but i wont be surprised if some plans are changed.
opinionated detanoinipo. differed difference. the best of both for both is still de goal. but why are there still buts? and why the friction? and why the fiction? and why the tale? I'm doubting it all. they are changes. compromise works not. why why why why why. drowning in something I know not. bathtub-self-caused. sea. ocean. so relentless. ease the pain, seal the cut platelets, plaster the wounds, cast the broken, mould the dislocation.
I can see tha pain living in your eyes, and I know how hard you try. you deserve to have so much more. airsupply-goodbye. you would never ask me why my heart is so disguised. I just can't live a lie anymore. I would rather hurt myself than make you cry. there's nothing left to say but goodbye.
went towning with my dearest christie and porkie. jerky ride all the way there. the bus driver breaks 3 times before she comes to a complete stop at each bus stops. so counting the number of bus stops from KAP till heeren could just make anyone puke. laughter allowed us to resist the lovely puking sensation. I'll be working till 4am next saturday. I hope to see most of my friends even when I'm working. and maybe... ... I have a lot to type but I dont know how to put it anymore. I just know I'm growing fatter and fatter. might be going to janice church tmr. but i wont be surprised if some plans are changed.
opinionated detanoinipo. differed difference. the best of both for both is still de goal. but why are there still buts? and why the friction? and why the fiction? and why the tale? I'm doubting it all. they are changes. compromise works not. why why why why why. drowning in something I know not. bathtub-self-caused. sea. ocean. so relentless. ease the pain, seal the cut platelets, plaster the wounds, cast the broken, mould the dislocation.
I can see tha pain living in your eyes, and I know how hard you try. you deserve to have so much more. airsupply-goodbye. you would never ask me why my heart is so disguised. I just can't live a lie anymore. I would rather hurt myself than make you cry. there's nothing left to say but goodbye.
girlwithabroken(: : 16:12
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
bleah! I cant believe what I just did. I just skipped microbiology practical without intention. arghhhh. I thought my lesson was at 10am! it's at 9am! I think I skipped everything once except for math practical and thursday. wahaha. what am i doing... what am i doing...
girlwithabroken(: : 09:00
Monday, December 20, 2004
I asked God to take away my pride.God said,
"No. It is not for me to take away, but for you to give it up.
" I asked God to make my handicapped child whole.God said,
"No. Her spirit was whole, her body was only temporary.
" I asked God to grant me patience.God said,
"No. Patience is a by-product of tribulations; it isn't granted, it is earned."
I asked God to give me happiness.God said,
"No. I give you blessings, happiness is up to you."
I asked God to spare me pain.God said,
"No. Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to me."
I asked for all things that I might enjoy life.God said,
"No. I will give you life so that you may enjoy all things."
I asked God to help me LOVE others, as much as God loves me.
God said... "Ahhhh, finally you have the idea!"
"There's a time and place for everything, for everyone.
God works in a mysterious way."Just trust in God,
"No. It is not for me to take away, but for you to give it up.
" I asked God to make my handicapped child whole.God said,
"No. Her spirit was whole, her body was only temporary.
" I asked God to grant me patience.God said,
"No. Patience is a by-product of tribulations; it isn't granted, it is earned."
I asked God to give me happiness.God said,
"No. I give you blessings, happiness is up to you."
I asked God to spare me pain.God said,
"No. Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to me."
I asked for all things that I might enjoy life.God said,
"No. I will give you life so that you may enjoy all things."
I asked God to help me LOVE others, as much as God loves me.
God said... "Ahhhh, finally you have the idea!"
"There's a time and place for everything, for everyone.
God works in a mysterious way."Just trust in God,
girlwithabroken(: : 22:26
geewee: ure most welcome. haha. glad u like the gift. i havent used the key chain u give me yet. afraid I might ruin it. hehe. take careee... dont feel lost. anything can always call me. I'm here for you always! all ways! :) and I'm sure He has the best for you and not anyone else on this face of the earth. and whatever you do I'll root for you k! must make your own stand. dont be like meeee.
ting: read your blog. dont sound so sad kk. must have faith in him and yourself and the both of you. cheery! things arent that screwed really (: dont think so much. hope u can come! then bring him too!
sebastian: oh! you found me! thanks thanks for reading. haha. yupp I talk alot I think. hehe. so surprised to see your name on that tagboard :D
hedzie: huggie! dont upset hoh. u've got me to entertain you everyday. and rooney runi arg i dunno how to spell, the bun ch of them will be there for you as well as 1M05. hee. -hugs you real tight- hope u can come on boxing day.
eunice: get well soon!!!! :)
I hate work. the afternoon shift people really arh.. sigh. anyway the point is there wasn't enough top-ups for Spinelli's to run the next morning so we stayed back... supposed to knock off at 11pm but ended up leaving only at 1am. I slept at 3 and woke up at 6. reached school at 7am and knocked out on the bench and as well as the 2 hours IPC lecture. meaningless lessons. that goes to say for IPC tutorial too. shared tomyam noodles for lunch at 10am. ate nice beancurd after school with pam, xtie and pork. shared fried kway teow. met him. tummy bloat for almost the wholeday. idiotic.
i still miss my dad nowadays. felt like crying two days ago. emo emo. haha. I'll be getting wine from my godfather for friday and sunday's celebrations. whee. and belle made pasta for sunday!
sometimes somethings... well... bitterteews and strange.
I was really hurt on friday. I dont know why also really. doesnt mean I seldom go to church then all of us can't be friends anymore right? why...? I always say I dont care about them but the fact is I still care alot. maybe I have never been thought of as their friend but at least an aquaintance right? watched ocean's twelve on friday midnight movie! inspired me to be a high-class thief. some kindda syndicate.
jet - look what uve done
ting: read your blog. dont sound so sad kk. must have faith in him and yourself and the both of you. cheery! things arent that screwed really (: dont think so much. hope u can come! then bring him too!
sebastian: oh! you found me! thanks thanks for reading. haha. yupp I talk alot I think. hehe. so surprised to see your name on that tagboard :D
hedzie: huggie! dont upset hoh. u've got me to entertain you everyday. and rooney runi arg i dunno how to spell, the bun ch of them will be there for you as well as 1M05. hee. -hugs you real tight- hope u can come on boxing day.
eunice: get well soon!!!! :)
I hate work. the afternoon shift people really arh.. sigh. anyway the point is there wasn't enough top-ups for Spinelli's to run the next morning so we stayed back... supposed to knock off at 11pm but ended up leaving only at 1am. I slept at 3 and woke up at 6. reached school at 7am and knocked out on the bench and as well as the 2 hours IPC lecture. meaningless lessons. that goes to say for IPC tutorial too. shared tomyam noodles for lunch at 10am. ate nice beancurd after school with pam, xtie and pork. shared fried kway teow. met him. tummy bloat for almost the wholeday. idiotic.
i still miss my dad nowadays. felt like crying two days ago. emo emo. haha. I'll be getting wine from my godfather for friday and sunday's celebrations. whee. and belle made pasta for sunday!
sometimes somethings... well... bitterteews and strange.
I was really hurt on friday. I dont know why also really. doesnt mean I seldom go to church then all of us can't be friends anymore right? why...? I always say I dont care about them but the fact is I still care alot. maybe I have never been thought of as their friend but at least an aquaintance right? watched ocean's twelve on friday midnight movie! inspired me to be a high-class thief. some kindda syndicate.
jet - look what uve done
girlwithabroken(: : 18:58
Saturday, December 18, 2004
scandalous and shameless. caught!
girlwithabroken(: : 12:48
havent felt so embarassed thanks for jan and joce! woah! read out my smses to him in front of us. haha. and they like to purposely leave me out during comic talks. comic pictures just doesnt seem to flow for me! ah! and make fun of the way I speak chinese. haha! they met him yesterday, edward didnt come though. he went to meet his daddy. I waited for benson 2 hours just to pass him my OBC and CBO notes. owe me a treat k! hehe.
1M05 dearests: keep your boxing days free hor. haha. and I think it'll be held at Venessa's house. potluck. gift exchange. something like that. hee. volunteer foods to bring. I hope can use class funds! lolol.
geewee: so happy! will be able to meet you today! whee! rest well. dont tire out yuppp.
okay, i go prep stuff for sunday and friday already!
1M05 dearests: keep your boxing days free hor. haha. and I think it'll be held at Venessa's house. potluck. gift exchange. something like that. hee. volunteer foods to bring. I hope can use class funds! lolol.
geewee: so happy! will be able to meet you today! whee! rest well. dont tire out yuppp.
okay, i go prep stuff for sunday and friday already!
girlwithabroken(: : 10:28
Friday, December 17, 2004
MD: haha I think so too. appalled by the number of minutes man. aha. take care (:
Zer: sorry I didnt update you the new addy. hope u recieved my sms! miss u lots and lots. merry merry christmas (: love you.
Dorothy: uH! I tagged your blog too! take care har u. (: dont tire out studying lawwsss. hee.
Mclairs: you! haha. thanks for popping by. yah looks like a barbie doll's blog. tc!!!
hedz: love you always all ways. (: glad ure in the same group as me! :)
xw: get more rest. you look so tired! -hugs you- it wont affect, nope it wont. unless me or you allow it to.
jan and joce: oh my oh my. look what you both have done! haha! was fun today! thanks for today. hope you all like ur teeny weeny gifts. so love you both so love you both.
aww. damn tired again now. hee. all yoga's faulttttt. haha. or maybe Im weak!
Zer: sorry I didnt update you the new addy. hope u recieved my sms! miss u lots and lots. merry merry christmas (: love you.
Dorothy: uH! I tagged your blog too! take care har u. (: dont tire out studying lawwsss. hee.
Mclairs: you! haha. thanks for popping by. yah looks like a barbie doll's blog. tc!!!
hedz: love you always all ways. (: glad ure in the same group as me! :)
xw: get more rest. you look so tired! -hugs you- it wont affect, nope it wont. unless me or you allow it to.
jan and joce: oh my oh my. look what you both have done! haha! was fun today! thanks for today. hope you all like ur teeny weeny gifts. so love you both so love you both.
aww. damn tired again now. hee. all yoga's faulttttt. haha. or maybe Im weak!
girlwithabroken(: : 22:21
please some one whack me! today's really not my day couz I recieved both my starhub bill and bankstatements at one go. woah. I really am spendthrift! I think it's couz I started working. I'm getting my pocket money today but I still am not feeling good about this. arghhh. so upset with myself. with my dad paying for my meals during that two weeks I still can spend $500!? to cover up, next week is budget week. at least I've got most of the little little christmas gifts ready. still busy preparing them for my dearies and darlings and dweebies. haha. so love you all.
her mum's so nice and hospitable! christie! was fun! did yoga in the middle of the night some more! Im aching roots here couz I had yoga for sports and wellness instead of volleyball, volleyball court and the track was really wet.
went town-ing again today. w liyana and christie! spent again! like what's new belle! argh!!! got the heeren card! so shoppers and my lovely friends who always shop there please get the card from me. can get it from me even if I'm working! really! share with you sweeties. heez. going to meet jan and maybe meet him this evening. have to pass her her bday + christmas gift + a big hug. no card though. Im too lazy. sorry everyone. no cards again this year, I take 2 hours to do up one card... I'm not really efficient really. hehe. no movies for me next week except for the promised, Phantom of the Opera.
busy week to come. I dont know my work schedule yet but I think it's wednesday, thursday and christmas morning :) . monday not free, tuesday helping out the red cross home people in orchard, dinner w michael and sc. shit. gtg. going out. bye. nono back. false alarm. hmmm. work, work, friday out with ngee ann sweetie piex then saturday out again.
winner man. I used 965 mins and 15 secs on my handphone this month. thats more than 150 hours you know! wow wow wow... going to meet jan soon, then joce, then he can meet the best friends session asap.
her mum's so nice and hospitable! christie! was fun! did yoga in the middle of the night some more! Im aching roots here couz I had yoga for sports and wellness instead of volleyball, volleyball court and the track was really wet.
went town-ing again today. w liyana and christie! spent again! like what's new belle! argh!!! got the heeren card! so shoppers and my lovely friends who always shop there please get the card from me. can get it from me even if I'm working! really! share with you sweeties. heez. going to meet jan and maybe meet him this evening. have to pass her her bday + christmas gift + a big hug. no card though. Im too lazy. sorry everyone. no cards again this year, I take 2 hours to do up one card... I'm not really efficient really. hehe. no movies for me next week except for the promised, Phantom of the Opera.
busy week to come. I dont know my work schedule yet but I think it's wednesday, thursday and christmas morning :) . monday not free, tuesday helping out the red cross home people in orchard, dinner w michael and sc. shit. gtg. going out. bye. nono back. false alarm. hmmm. work, work, friday out with ngee ann sweetie piex then saturday out again.
winner man. I used 965 mins and 15 secs on my handphone this month. thats more than 150 hours you know! wow wow wow... going to meet jan soon, then joce, then he can meet the best friends session asap.
girlwithabroken(: : 15:37
Thursday, December 16, 2004
ht is so mean. stupid guy. hmm. idiot. and oh, his sis name is eunice too. today's a great day besides the part where I didnt get to see him. I misssss you. slept for 4 and a half hours just now. clear those dark eye circles. haha. collected the photos today! they're so nice! love them! going to do facial then zzz. nono. think I'm going to zzz right now. went to teamspeak just now and there wasnt anyone there. is it me..? or is everyone just plain busy? I miss CM... but my existance there doesnt matter anymore anyways. so.. haw haw haw. will be staying at christie's house tmr. yay. fun. and Im going for volleyball training after my sports and wellness volleyball. someone tell me I'm fit and I wont die. haha! will be going to queensway after that and probably go meat-balling or something then go to her house. hope can go mount faber in the night. It's so damn nice there... i miss him... i miss him... @#$%^&*(*^%$@#$%^
the song "I'll never get over you, getting over me". damn nice. but the title really doesnt apply to me. just like the lyrics. kindda sweet.
and fuck you for quitting just in my face like that. I dont believe in coincidence anymore. fuck it man. I didnt betray you, I didnt leave you. just the god damned way you're behaving is driving everyone away. it's not only me. at least 3 others? fucking selfish. just couz you didnt want to go to the gathering and thought it wasnt nice couz' it's someone else's house so you didnt ask others? I pity the person who entrusted you the job of inviting the all of us. I've said my peace. if you got nothing to say then I guess this is it. 9 months of friends for nothing. I dont even know whether to call that friendship or clanship or I was just another of your fucking aquiantance. I really have enough of your shit and your pmses. get a life plz. I dont owe you shit and I'm tired of having to understand shitty shit all the time. off my msn list you go, I believe I'm off yours too. I just knew that too. you know I'm stupid but not that stupid. time to get over with somethings you can't get over with. no point brooding in there and rotting. my last few words couz I still regard you as a friend... with that care left. all these ure doing and behaving is going to harm urself. so pls...
the song "I'll never get over you, getting over me". damn nice. but the title really doesnt apply to me. just like the lyrics. kindda sweet.
and fuck you for quitting just in my face like that. I dont believe in coincidence anymore. fuck it man. I didnt betray you, I didnt leave you. just the god damned way you're behaving is driving everyone away. it's not only me. at least 3 others? fucking selfish. just couz you didnt want to go to the gathering and thought it wasnt nice couz' it's someone else's house so you didnt ask others? I pity the person who entrusted you the job of inviting the all of us. I've said my peace. if you got nothing to say then I guess this is it. 9 months of friends for nothing. I dont even know whether to call that friendship or clanship or I was just another of your fucking aquiantance. I really have enough of your shit and your pmses. get a life plz. I dont owe you shit and I'm tired of having to understand shitty shit all the time. off my msn list you go, I believe I'm off yours too. I just knew that too. you know I'm stupid but not that stupid. time to get over with somethings you can't get over with. no point brooding in there and rotting. my last few words couz I still regard you as a friend... with that care left. all these ure doing and behaving is going to harm urself. so pls...
girlwithabroken(: : 03:04
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
I hope the next 3 days to come wouldnt past too slowly. for the first time I'd say this, thank God there was smth called school that could pass my time away. I'll be missing you alot for sure. as usual. without question. ^^ for the answer to your question.. hmm... I'll be in ruins. and I want you to know iLu v much.
work sucked again. or maybe I suck. or maybe I'm stupid and useless. sighs. I wonder. I wonder.
xw: thankew for sending me home from work. (: enjoy camppp.
ting: must thank what. heeeeee. see you in school!
work sucked again. or maybe I suck. or maybe I'm stupid and useless. sighs. I wonder. I wonder.
xw: thankew for sending me home from work. (: enjoy camppp.
ting: must thank what. heeeeee. see you in school!
girlwithabroken(: : 23:24
Monday, December 13, 2004
It's 4 in the afternoon and I'm staring at the table and the table is staring at me. wasted my whole day again. sometimes things really do stand in the way or did I let them stand in the way or my view's just obliterated always. a perpetual stone I am. what my IPC lecturer spoke went into my ears in my sleep mode. I'm looking forward to the weekend so early in the week and awaiting the season of giving. I looked forward to my short day today so that... but things doesnt really matter anymore. just have to let today past feeling the wastage of it. waft over like the breeze please and sweep me on my feet.
christmas party's half planned. we havent got the class to agree on it but I hope we'll carry on whether it is a class event or not. red wines and vodkas matched the turkey, salsa, pizza and tomato pasta and a log cake for boxing day plus that one night stay-over sounded perfect. at least it didnt screech like the IPC lecturer's voice did. something new.
I really do hate to appear petty or emotional. Just want today to end quick. a phone call from my manager woke me leaving me and my thoughts whirling. yawn.
christmas party's half planned. we havent got the class to agree on it but I hope we'll carry on whether it is a class event or not. red wines and vodkas matched the turkey, salsa, pizza and tomato pasta and a log cake for boxing day plus that one night stay-over sounded perfect. at least it didnt screech like the IPC lecturer's voice did. something new.
I really do hate to appear petty or emotional. Just want today to end quick. a phone call from my manager woke me leaving me and my thoughts whirling. yawn.
girlwithabroken(: : 16:11
Sunday, December 12, 2004
MD: hmm you are? hahaa! Im not skinny hor! eeeee. I just gained back what I lost I think. hehe.
pammie: yay! lets organise then. my uncle willing to provide alcohol etc. hmm. IF you all want. haha. hope ven's house is open to all these. or you all can come my house potluck. although it's a small house. :p love u.
hedz: ayee! I tagged you back already. dont sound so sad. makes me sad too. hugzz.
ting: thanks! I tagged u too liao! u take care too. see me snooze in class. thanks for popping by yep! :)
kindy: I smile all the time hor. it's nothing special. hehe. take care yep! hope everything is going well for u :P
drank 2 glasses of wine. italian then french. drank abit of vodka with sprite ytd. hehe. ytd was my friend's party, today my god father's and cousins. hehe. work was alright only. except for an ass always in my way. stupid. but he's quite nice after all. just abit kaypo and nonsensical. gotta call him already. and then xtie dear. haha. take care my friends. so love u all.
pammie: yay! lets organise then. my uncle willing to provide alcohol etc. hmm. IF you all want. haha. hope ven's house is open to all these. or you all can come my house potluck. although it's a small house. :p love u.
hedz: ayee! I tagged you back already. dont sound so sad. makes me sad too. hugzz.
ting: thanks! I tagged u too liao! u take care too. see me snooze in class. thanks for popping by yep! :)
kindy: I smile all the time hor. it's nothing special. hehe. take care yep! hope everything is going well for u :P
drank 2 glasses of wine. italian then french. drank abit of vodka with sprite ytd. hehe. ytd was my friend's party, today my god father's and cousins. hehe. work was alright only. except for an ass always in my way. stupid. but he's quite nice after all. just abit kaypo and nonsensical. gotta call him already. and then xtie dear. haha. take care my friends. so love u all.
girlwithabroken(: : 22:35
just got home. going to work after I eat my breakfast. another great day. the 6th time. (: think I have sore eyes. my right eye is red... :/
girlwithabroken(: : 11:00
Saturday, December 11, 2004
im left in care of a pot of macoroni soup right now. haha. my mummmmm... she was rushing out and just told me to add the potatoes in 15 mins. I prepared extra ingredients! mushrooms. whee... :) I suggested to yanxia about having a christmas barbaque already. me, pork and eunice in favour so far.. I havent consulted the rest. hee. I hope everyone's fine with it. boxing day sounds like a good day to bbq... rain not welcomed. oh she replied liao! I hope everyone can make it. but it never works this way.
meeting clar for lunch on monday and geewee for lunch on tuesday/ thurday? hopefully. might be meeting him tonight too. go to some gathering. wah fuck. im forced to go out today. to get my god father a present, my mum doesnt even want to share cost with me. so you take it and say it's from the family when it's from me. yeahh. nice move. yet to reply her bday postcard for me. haha. Im not going for maths lecture in tuesday. this would my first skip, IPC lecture I skipped once already. skip now so i deprive myself a chance to skip when all the important topics come in..and i cant skip those important lectures no matter how lazy I am. force myself. i guess. hehe. this might make me left out in class though? but I wont do it anymore from week 2 onwards.
my math teacher is really an old hag. and i figured taking the backseats in the lecture hall is good couz her screechy loud voice wont reach our inner ear that easily. 10 weeks you know? might spoil our hearing. crappp.
meeting clar for lunch on monday and geewee for lunch on tuesday/ thurday? hopefully. might be meeting him tonight too. go to some gathering. wah fuck. im forced to go out today. to get my god father a present, my mum doesnt even want to share cost with me. so you take it and say it's from the family when it's from me. yeahh. nice move. yet to reply her bday postcard for me. haha. Im not going for maths lecture in tuesday. this would my first skip, IPC lecture I skipped once already. skip now so i deprive myself a chance to skip when all the important topics come in..and i cant skip those important lectures no matter how lazy I am. force myself. i guess. hehe. this might make me left out in class though? but I wont do it anymore from week 2 onwards.
my math teacher is really an old hag. and i figured taking the backseats in the lecture hall is good couz her screechy loud voice wont reach our inner ear that easily. 10 weeks you know? might spoil our hearing. crappp.
girlwithabroken(: : 14:34
Friday, December 10, 2004
slept half the time during my lecture today. again! went towning with liyana n xtie just now and we ate nydc! had a free meal though. they forgot to include another set lunch in the bill. hmm. thanks alot. but bad service. that's the penalty. hehe. secret recipe still has the best oreo cheese cake! it's really fun going out with these people! haha! arghh. i put on weight again. sighhhh. went to watch the movie Blade with three of my friends! it was great... my handphone was dead by 4pm, so sorry for not replying ur message eunice... :
bought a bag today and a skirt from topshop! 143 was the bill. at least the no of hours I worked this week was able to cover costs. I must eat less. must eat less. I need exercise. must exercise. hee. going to turn in right now... pimples pop too many. 12 hours of sleep is the perfect remedy. I'm missing you... like I always do. (: even when I'm with you.
bought a bag today and a skirt from topshop! 143 was the bill. at least the no of hours I worked this week was able to cover costs. I must eat less. must eat less. I need exercise. must exercise. hee. going to turn in right now... pimples pop too many. 12 hours of sleep is the perfect remedy. I'm missing you... like I always do. (: even when I'm with you.
girlwithabroken(: : 23:20
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
I'm burned. had school from 8-5 then work from 6-1230am yesterday. got home at 130pm. today was good! besides the being stoned n so tired part. skipped IPC lecture and Microbiology tutorial. I really didnt want to wait. a three hour long break out of a four hour long day. went to play pool during break and I didnt go back in the end. ahah. meet xw and ed after that. saw arif, yq, alvin, dunnoe-what's his name, ven, apple and pinkys at pool factor. Im a really lousy pooler. hee. saw john, eve, benson, yuhang, weiqiang, daphane around school too. national treasure's a nice show.. hmm I like the way the show flowed and well, kindda solving mystery, fantasy and science fiction kind of thing. 8 hours till dodge ball download is complete! going to turn in now. niteeeeeeeee! I really hope my timetable can be altered... pleaseeeeeee...
girlwithabroken(: : 22:05
Monday, December 06, 2004
damn~ can only quit christophori in one month. couz we need one month's notice.
today was a great day... well as usual, tired, but fun. couz we're back in action. the 1M05 thing. :) hee. I missed them lots! well, there's already homework starting from today. hope my timetable can be altered so that I dont need to go home at 5pm on wednesday and thursday, tmr is a really no-escape day. :( no mood liao! i got to go. got stupid homework on stupid mel already. that's fast. info flowed from eileen to xtie, xtie to me, me to pam. arghhhh. sianzified. ahaha. inorganic and physical chemistry was for today. saw jr, grace, sherman, dingsheng, yuanhang. where's my jo!!! took photos today too... met xw too. hmm. the spoiler of the day was Spinelli's. my manager forgot I took off for monday, she scheduled me 6pm-1230am. I stood up and told her I wont be working today. like finally I'd learn to do something like that. my physique caused me to do so. tired till I had a throbbing headache. pork has headache too. must take care k u all. school merely started. lol.
my dad's in china liao! his factory :) safe and sound. thank God. and the mission trippers are back! thank God too!
nites!
xw: haha. I thought that part got deleted. shettttt. haha. good night, you sleep tight :) slap*
xtie: upset! so much shit to print! shit! hahaha. sorry lar, I tot I tagged all your blogs informing. haha. take care yeps! see u in 7 hours T_T oh noo!! u tagged that blog! oh no! haha.
pammie: enjoy sch! hee :p
eunice: NO WAY MAN. SIA SUAY. ILL QUIT SCHOOL. LOL.
today was a great day... well as usual, tired, but fun. couz we're back in action. the 1M05 thing. :) hee. I missed them lots! well, there's already homework starting from today. hope my timetable can be altered so that I dont need to go home at 5pm on wednesday and thursday, tmr is a really no-escape day. :( no mood liao! i got to go. got stupid homework on stupid mel already. that's fast. info flowed from eileen to xtie, xtie to me, me to pam. arghhhh. sianzified. ahaha. inorganic and physical chemistry was for today. saw jr, grace, sherman, dingsheng, yuanhang. where's my jo!!! took photos today too... met xw too. hmm. the spoiler of the day was Spinelli's. my manager forgot I took off for monday, she scheduled me 6pm-1230am. I stood up and told her I wont be working today. like finally I'd learn to do something like that. my physique caused me to do so. tired till I had a throbbing headache. pork has headache too. must take care k u all. school merely started. lol.
my dad's in china liao! his factory :) safe and sound. thank God. and the mission trippers are back! thank God too!
nites!
xw: haha. I thought that part got deleted. shettttt. haha. good night, you sleep tight :) slap*
xtie: upset! so much shit to print! shit! hahaha. sorry lar, I tot I tagged all your blogs informing. haha. take care yeps! see u in 7 hours T_T oh noo!! u tagged that blog! oh no! haha.
pammie: enjoy sch! hee :p
eunice: NO WAY MAN. SIA SUAY. ILL QUIT SCHOOL. LOL.
girlwithabroken(: : 23:34
Saturday, December 04, 2004
not going. that defeats the purpose of me going there. seeing her than day brought back memories too. I really wished somethings just didnt have to happen. couz till now I dont understand what could be better than me and her being the good friends we used to be. used to spend seven days together, bitch our lives away and stuff like that. that was seventh heaven, it wont come true anymore... I dont know why Im still recollecting all these. maybe I still miss you very very much. seems like you still care? couz you know who Im hanging out with. at least I know you're doing so fine. =[ iMu. iLu.
yesterday was a great day! i miss my dad so very much still. heart pain when I saw him walking in the gates of immigration. =[ or should I call it today. but still, staying at the airport the whole night exchanging words. this shows we arent made up of the so-usual kind of thing. not physical. not superficial. not crushes. not companionship. not attachments. but the possession of understanding. way of communication. strings of thoughts. eye to eye. lip readings. mistique. unique. antique, fantastique.
fuck. you. screw. you. better treasure before she's gone. screw you when I see you on monday. kick your ass. selfish immature asshole is you. not her. we'll see who'll be on their knees when she's long gone. ^^
sometimes just dont blame me. think myself deserved a chance and other deserved a chance too. Id wait if you didnt give me that darn confirmation or be so strong on your decision. now blame it on your own very selfishness. wanted it this way uve just got to let it go.
pms,I miss my dad. well just got off the line wif xtie. one hour of bitching. wahaha. funx. hmm girls have all the reason to pms? coz of bad hair days, time of the month blah blah. and we still have to climb mount everest every early morning esp when it's bloody 8am. block 76. yay! sf's going to sch w me! yay! she's such a sweetie. that eunice ar, talk to me half way then away mode. lol. went out w my brother and I didnt go to church, didnt go for bbq.
it's just me right? the low self esteem me. when would I start thinking that Im better than anyone? or am I just that lowpoke again.
yesterday was a great day! i miss my dad so very much still. heart pain when I saw him walking in the gates of immigration. =[ or should I call it today. but still, staying at the airport the whole night exchanging words. this shows we arent made up of the so-usual kind of thing. not physical. not superficial. not crushes. not companionship. not attachments. but the possession of understanding. way of communication. strings of thoughts. eye to eye. lip readings. mistique. unique. antique, fantastique.
fuck. you. screw. you. better treasure before she's gone. screw you when I see you on monday. kick your ass. selfish immature asshole is you. not her. we'll see who'll be on their knees when she's long gone. ^^
sometimes just dont blame me. think myself deserved a chance and other deserved a chance too. Id wait if you didnt give me that darn confirmation or be so strong on your decision. now blame it on your own very selfishness. wanted it this way uve just got to let it go.
pms,I miss my dad. well just got off the line wif xtie. one hour of bitching. wahaha. funx. hmm girls have all the reason to pms? coz of bad hair days, time of the month blah blah. and we still have to climb mount everest every early morning esp when it's bloody 8am. block 76. yay! sf's going to sch w me! yay! she's such a sweetie. that eunice ar, talk to me half way then away mode. lol. went out w my brother and I didnt go to church, didnt go for bbq.
it's just me right? the low self esteem me. when would I start thinking that Im better than anyone? or am I just that lowpoke again.
girlwithabroken(: : 22:59
Friday, December 03, 2004
working really sucks, it really does. and I really think Im a pushover. dont know how many times they will "belle... do this." blah blah blah. wah kao. 4 stations in the shop and Im doing the job of 3. where did everyone go when orders are called out? no one responds right? so I do the sandwich, to the cold drinks, to the hot drinks and then serve. wth! cheap labour! lol. siannn.
will be sending my dad off tonight then staying over at the airport. geewee came to look for me at my work place when I was super black faced! lol. but I still met her after work and she gave me my belated present. pendant's super nice, thanks so much! she got to meet xw too. hmmm. after that I went to meet xk, vicious and jy just to say hi. then look for my dad to have lunch. whee... supposed to meet randell together w christie but ... well. err he was out of contact n my deaarr was so damn tired. hee... so we didnt meet for lunch. cant wait to see the cornroll braiding thing on her head. hee. i think thats how u spell it. lol.
wahaha! opio and beef are telemarketers! anyway I think they make good ones. Ber's the IT dunno what shit thing. hahhaa. so cute! I got to go! bye! 1am flight and dinner to catch. no popeye's potato, i think its kind of too late by the time we reach there. die die die die. sadddddd. wonder whose going for the gathering tmr? if I dont go then Im as usual, anti social. gabriel cooked spaghetti! wow. k really gtg. tired still. I'll bring him along if I go I think. LOL.
will be sending my dad off tonight then staying over at the airport. geewee came to look for me at my work place when I was super black faced! lol. but I still met her after work and she gave me my belated present. pendant's super nice, thanks so much! she got to meet xw too. hmmm. after that I went to meet xk, vicious and jy just to say hi. then look for my dad to have lunch. whee... supposed to meet randell together w christie but ... well. err he was out of contact n my deaarr was so damn tired. hee... so we didnt meet for lunch. cant wait to see the cornroll braiding thing on her head. hee. i think thats how u spell it. lol.
wahaha! opio and beef are telemarketers! anyway I think they make good ones. Ber's the IT dunno what shit thing. hahhaa. so cute! I got to go! bye! 1am flight and dinner to catch. no popeye's potato, i think its kind of too late by the time we reach there. die die die die. sadddddd. wonder whose going for the gathering tmr? if I dont go then Im as usual, anti social. gabriel cooked spaghetti! wow. k really gtg. tired still. I'll bring him along if I go I think. LOL.
girlwithabroken(: : 20:38
I'd like to take a backseat right from here.
girlwithabroken(: : 08:40
Thursday, December 02, 2004
I actually thought people like you were prehistoric. although this is just the beginning, I've been proven wrong. got up at 0545hours today. so tired right now. but im ever happy :) ever smiling. except at work. haha. that's damn biased of me! hmm, went to olio dome wheelock's for lunch! soooo nice! asparagus didnt taste as bad as I thought anyway! medium rare steak was nice! and the pot of english breakfast tea which took 20 long minutes to brew, carrot cake, crab bisque soup, seaweedy soup, grilled chicken, mashed potatoes! mouth watering savourrrr... :)
my dad's leaving for china tmr. 12am flight. I'm going to be so lost once again. :( I'll miss him alot. really. everytime he leaves my eyes rain. downpour. cats and dogs. Im working midshift tomorrow! 1000 to 1400 hours. sian, I'm the barista, and tmr is latte special day or something. adding on the queues of drinks that's inline for me to make. arghhh. met xianwei together with christieee and edward in the evening. shopping today was not that fruitful. but fun! might be staying over at the airport after sending my dad off. might... hmmm. going to start reading the book "the power of nice" soon. soon. soon. saw janet in orchard too. wheee... significant call of the day would be late today. Im uber tired but I'll still wait.
MD: hmm? u are...???
cabbage: hee. only for you to understand sweetttt. :) thanks!
dom: i still do? seldom. busy with work. school's starting on monday! argh! u still have a month to go! so unfair. :(
ting: thankie! see u on monday! u take care too! i linked you liao :)
my dad's leaving for china tmr. 12am flight. I'm going to be so lost once again. :( I'll miss him alot. really. everytime he leaves my eyes rain. downpour. cats and dogs. Im working midshift tomorrow! 1000 to 1400 hours. sian, I'm the barista, and tmr is latte special day or something. adding on the queues of drinks that's inline for me to make. arghhh. met xianwei together with christieee and edward in the evening. shopping today was not that fruitful. but fun! might be staying over at the airport after sending my dad off. might... hmmm. going to start reading the book "the power of nice" soon. soon. soon. saw janet in orchard too. wheee... significant call of the day would be late today. Im uber tired but I'll still wait.
MD: hmm? u are...???
cabbage: hee. only for you to understand sweetttt. :) thanks!
dom: i still do? seldom. busy with work. school's starting on monday! argh! u still have a month to go! so unfair. :(
ting: thankie! see u on monday! u take care too! i linked you liao :)
girlwithabroken(: : 23:18
Wednesday, December 01, 2004
the moon was obliterated by the dark clouds. at least this was what i observed when I was strolling home. caught the show Polar Express at westmall just now. my efforts to wake up at 7am was wasted. could have saw you earlier but! why was there something called NTUC? maybe sembawang was better of rural as it was. hehe :) got 3 more minutes to blog before i make the significant call of the day again. gosh~ im working at 7am tmr. got to be up by 545am. arghhh. going to sakae sushi buffet after work. wheeee! a much needed eating get away. everyday is a get away when it's spent with you. 1/2 my hols for you. :) sluttie, sweetie, bitchie, cutie, sexie, hottie. lol. :D
2E2 2001 and 4E1 2003 : gathering this saturday at 5pm at wangting's place. :D
2E2 2001 and 4E1 2003 : gathering this saturday at 5pm at wangting's place. :D
girlwithabroken(: : 23:57
