Monday, February 28, 2005
Five for fighting - Alright
I took her leaving like I did before
I turned around and I asked for more
And she didn't even mean a thing to me
I left my spirit at the chapel door
I sailed around 'til I lost the war
And you didn't even think to send a thing
But I'm alright, alright, I feel alright
I never been better in my life
You know the score
I'm just fine, I'm fine, feeling fine
A regular sawed-off valentine
That nothing more
I hit my head upon the chamber door
And all the marbles rolled on the floor
And all the psychos in the ward start screaming....
I took her leaving like I did before
I turned around and I asked for more
And she didn't even mean a thing to me
I left my spirit at the chapel door
I sailed around 'til I lost the war
And you didn't even think to send a thing
But I'm alright, alright, I feel alright
I never been better in my life
You know the score
I'm just fine, I'm fine, feeling fine
A regular sawed-off valentine
That nothing more
I hit my head upon the chamber door
And all the marbles rolled on the floor
And all the psychos in the ward start screaming....
girlwithabroken(: : 15:04
someone pleaseeeeeeee go out with me. feel so lonely again... zzzzzzz... ask me out. I'm really bored....
girlwithabroken(: : 12:04
work work again today. the first time i made so many drink within two hours. by the time i finished my head was spinning. running a temperature again right now. i dont know what to say... I dont know what happened. but please dont cry my friend, uve always been there for me since the start till now and I hope vice versa too. will await your call. thanks for your great support. so sry to always bother u...
girlwithabroken(: : 00:02
Sunday, February 27, 2005
I went out with Sien and his friends yesterday after meeting him. he drove me and kenneth from yishun to his house, returned the car then cabbed to town. I think I've decided to learn driving. I'll start taking the theory when I stop working. dropped at heeren! but I didnt let them go to Spin's. I dont want them to think I feign my illness. rotted at coffee club with a strawberry smoothie and a disgusting cake with cherries. waited for giap, alex and alex's ex gf. wanted to catch a movie but all the shows were 12am++. rot in the arcade then played some game. hmmm, the one with the discs, me n sien won alex and kenneth man. yeahhh. but I'm a lousy defender! went to bishan after that to eat dinner at 9+. they went to chris's house to get some stuff then cabbed home again. ohh, saw eleanor too, ken's gf. I really like her name alot!
going to work soon. choked with phelgm!!! :(
going to work soon. choked with phelgm!!! :(
girlwithabroken(: : 14:26
there was a great massacre on the field, the battle field.
everything was still for now, regaining it's reverence.
the sight of bloodshed haunted the minds of survivors.
gushing wounds, fallen men, broken weaponary.
body counts would only resume after dawn.
families were left without breadwinners.
both countries threaded on eggshells.
a make it or break it situation.
show me what's this fighting for.
the phases of war
the faces of war.
by: me.
everything was still for now, regaining it's reverence.
the sight of bloodshed haunted the minds of survivors.
gushing wounds, fallen men, broken weaponary.
body counts would only resume after dawn.
families were left without breadwinners.
both countries threaded on eggshells.
a make it or break it situation.
show me what's this fighting for.
the phases of war
the faces of war.
by: me.
girlwithabroken(: : 12:14
Saturday, February 26, 2005
wahh. my head painnnn. I cant sleep... fever for almost the whole day but i braved it and met him! lol. I didnt take my medicine couz I was afraid I'd become to drowsy to even talk to him. just got home awhile ago. ouch. staying online so I can talk to jacq. I miss him.
girlwithabroken(: : 23:24
we just wanted each other to be happy. it's the hundreth day but not counting anymore...
but it's alright... I blame myself for everything... most of the time I feel terrible couz of my low self esteem.
sj: im sorry, im so useless. but thanks for being there tho we're oni classmates... great to have a friend like u. see u in an hour. what the hell! u driving me later! wait i die. lOL.
pork: thanks.. i love u alot. thanks for wanting the best for me. I know u hate me couz I'm flirt... I dont really care anymore... it wont be overboard I guess...love u...
someone catch me couz I'm falling... plz...
thank you illusion, thank you fraility, thank you consequence.
but it's alright... I blame myself for everything... most of the time I feel terrible couz of my low self esteem.
sj: im sorry, im so useless. but thanks for being there tho we're oni classmates... great to have a friend like u. see u in an hour. what the hell! u driving me later! wait i die. lOL.
pork: thanks.. i love u alot. thanks for wanting the best for me. I know u hate me couz I'm flirt... I dont really care anymore... it wont be overboard I guess...love u...
someone catch me couz I'm falling... plz...
thank you illusion, thank you fraility, thank you consequence.
girlwithabroken(: : 16:22
Friday, February 25, 2005
i have really bad headache for the whole day. it's night time now and it makes me feel worst. sickness always get worst in the night. lethargic and really tired even though I didnt go to school. I'm really tired but I can't sleep... Again. the countless number of times already. might stay back on monday to support the volley ball team, and learn some new stuff from them. I dont wanna disappoint my team really. or pull them down. all are pretty much good except me. body aches, muscle aches, headaches, fever, cough and flu. !_@)@#($&@((!
girlwithabroken(: : 20:36
Thursday, February 24, 2005
I’m really feeling very horrible now. Listening to my music on the ipod and staring at the queue numbers to see the doctor. Tried to see the Chinese doctor but it closed early. Maybe the doctor’s sick himself. I think I really made my manager angry. Maybe I should just quit and prevent myself from giving her more trouble. Feeling really really really very very lousy right now. Sick and injured. I can’t even think clear. But oral communication class was good, sports and wellness was fun too. had a match and my team lost 3 games, the other team lost 2 games. the doctor said the bruise was bad but no internal injury, slight fever, bad flu and cough. been zombying my way home for the past week already.
I REALLY FEEL VERY BAD. SORRY CANICE! I myself dont want to be sick!!! I dont want to be injured either!!!!
I'm so sian couz school's stupid and health sucks and my physique sucks. I hardly attend lectures and when I do I snooze away. I barely know what teacher is teaching. I dunno stats! should I stay at home tmr? or should I work? or should I go to school?
NSFU2 is so fun man! I wanna play again! yay
alvin chia! my fig sucks okay. n aroon also. hmpffh. im fat. dont talk to u all. im no digital girl. ROFL.
girlwithabroken(: : 22:36
I'm so super sian right now. I really dont feel like performing lor!! my teacher just showed me how good he was. I really dont feel like doing anything. sianz. sososo sianz. demoralised more like it. the class is ready to keep their laughter for me. index number 9. argggh. having cough fever n flu right now. still hafta stay back for captain's ball and volley ball. aroon just told me not to laugh! haa in front of the whole class. got my ipod shuffle yesterday and it was fun working with rosa, rachael, martin and misli. martin is so stupid lor. i shared with them my damn bloody lame and racist jokes. hehehe. so bad. but I'm really tired now. saw sien's friends in the canteen just now and saw santos. met pork hedz and janis for lunch. tried out pork's acoustic guitar. haizz. speech how?? !&^@)!(*@# I dont wanna feel so lousy!!
okie over already. i gave it my best shot already. haha. later i'll ask teacher how I faired. but I barely followed what i wrote down. haha. yay at least they said I did much better than usual. as in i didnt giggle and stuff like that. only stupid LUA sieN JING dun look at me with that stupid face. make me laugh. ZZZ. stupid idiot. i feel so much better already couz everything is over!!
okie over already. i gave it my best shot already. haha. later i'll ask teacher how I faired. but I barely followed what i wrote down. haha. yay at least they said I did much better than usual. as in i didnt giggle and stuff like that. only stupid LUA sieN JING dun look at me with that stupid face. make me laugh. ZZZ. stupid idiot. i feel so much better already couz everything is over!!
girlwithabroken(: : 13:14
Monday, February 21, 2005
new hairdo!
a picture speaks a thousand words. too tired to blog these days. just got home. went out with my parents. they wanted xw along but they didnt tell me earlier alright. met him on sunday. so happy. hmm. going to do my oral comm speech already. wanna go out with porky tmr. haha. might meet geewee on thurs.
girlwithabroken(: : 23:26
Saturday, February 19, 2005
my day sucks... me and jacq really didnt enjoy the fun fair and I didnt go to mr tan's hse in the end. the only thing i was looking forward to was the chance of meeting him and my bed and catching up with all the people I've missed for that one year. saw wangting, yichuan, deepti, yijun, vicki, yuansheng, shaun, bee chun, marcus bla bla bla... cud memorise jacq's exam time table for the next whole week. might crash her school... since I have the badge already.
most things arent for me to choose. and if I could I'd never pass up the chance... but well, circumstances and moods change. I understand and it's okay. since when was it not okay...? most of the time I'd rather keep mum. and we could remain, unaffected.
most things arent for me to choose. and if I could I'd never pass up the chance... but well, circumstances and moods change. I understand and it's okay. since when was it not okay...? most of the time I'd rather keep mum. and we could remain, unaffected.
girlwithabroken(: : 19:17
yay! new hairdo. but without styling I seriously look like ive got a bad hair day. hmmm. well.. thankie jocelyn for accompanying me today! I did it at klearcut at far east! the lady who did it for me was great! ten years or experience. and she thought me how to spike my hair. there were two other guys who were really cute, one with ash grey hair and another whose just charming looking. haha. working tmr from 4-11pm. hope my hand wont fail me :p wonder when I'll be presenting for oral com couz I cant remember my index number at all! zzz! gotta email teacher soon, i dont even know his name man.
I cant tie my hair anymore! the pony tail looks so scrawny. haha. wonder what canice will say anyways. bought the bed head wax too. :D I'll miss him since he's gone to the army, never really that close but I think he's great and full of crap just like me. handsome sweet and senstive. take care...!
met sarah w. on the way to meet xw. then met ken too! and ken's friend. he was going to meet jocelyn. what a great coincidence. he's also one helluva great guy and so is jo so they make one greatttttttt couple. yippee! meeting jacqualine in a couple of hours and some guy from her class also going, his name is lawrence. janice and jocelyn at four plus. going to mr tan's house to bainian. 15 odd people going. it's been a long time since i've seen all of them. hope she's going... oh... I wanna get Ipod shuffle! my dad will get it for me I think... he's in m'sia now so I'll be seeing him on monday. I end school early so I can meet him I hope! then in a few days from then he'll be gone to China again. wont see jer on sunday but will see mart. great family really... :)
I cant tie my hair anymore! the pony tail looks so scrawny. haha. wonder what canice will say anyways. bought the bed head wax too. :D I'll miss him since he's gone to the army, never really that close but I think he's great and full of crap just like me. handsome sweet and senstive. take care...!
met sarah w. on the way to meet xw. then met ken too! and ken's friend. he was going to meet jocelyn. what a great coincidence. he's also one helluva great guy and so is jo so they make one greatttttttt couple. yippee! meeting jacqualine in a couple of hours and some guy from her class also going, his name is lawrence. janice and jocelyn at four plus. going to mr tan's house to bainian. 15 odd people going. it's been a long time since i've seen all of them. hope she's going... oh... I wanna get Ipod shuffle! my dad will get it for me I think... he's in m'sia now so I'll be seeing him on monday. I end school early so I can meet him I hope! then in a few days from then he'll be gone to China again. wont see jer on sunday but will see mart. great family really... :)
girlwithabroken(: : 09:15
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
been quite tired to blog or think these few days. school's great as usual with my great friends around. hehe. watched him play rugby again today. met shihong to get the economics notes for xianwei too. hope it helps you dearie. =) thanks shi hong! great to see you again! went for dinner with his friends. I felt quite bad, somewhat intruding... well maybe couz I nv done this before. haha. but I think his friends are great.. :D
went home with liyana and did the interview with runni and grace and my grp members today. hilarious man. think my IS people will laugh their asses off. haha. when they see the video clip that is. met ivy too in nanyang jc. saw zhixian, hoot woon and benajmin too. :) long time no see guys!
my hand's a little better for now... havent planned with days to work next week! just got off the line with him. I think I'll be using nokia 6230 because my dad got it. from where i dunnoe.. haha. he said he found it. -______- im so unmotivated to work/study. there isnt really any phone I want at the moment so I wont be getting any.. supposed to meet my dad at plaza sing but i went to sun plaza. i was that tired I guess... still feeling lethargic. how to cure insomnia? might not go for my sports and wellness tomorrow too because my hand still is injured. hope I can get an mc for today and tomorrow. but i'll still go for oral com... I THINK. haha! guitar tomorrow, must go practise soon.
went home with liyana and did the interview with runni and grace and my grp members today. hilarious man. think my IS people will laugh their asses off. haha. when they see the video clip that is. met ivy too in nanyang jc. saw zhixian, hoot woon and benajmin too. :) long time no see guys!
my hand's a little better for now... havent planned with days to work next week! just got off the line with him. I think I'll be using nokia 6230 because my dad got it. from where i dunnoe.. haha. he said he found it. -______- im so unmotivated to work/study. there isnt really any phone I want at the moment so I wont be getting any.. supposed to meet my dad at plaza sing but i went to sun plaza. i was that tired I guess... still feeling lethargic. how to cure insomnia? might not go for my sports and wellness tomorrow too because my hand still is injured. hope I can get an mc for today and tomorrow. but i'll still go for oral com... I THINK. haha! guitar tomorrow, must go practise soon.
girlwithabroken(: : 21:20
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
I'm really happy right now. for the past two hours. there was this great delievery boy that delievered 17 great roses. but it's really the thought and the effort. after rugby and napfa and dinner with his friends he still came down, popped out. and I wasnt allowed to walk him to the train station. spoke to him for about half an hour. I havent finished doing his other 2 presents couz my hand is still injured. gave him stuff from CK, huge card and pillow casing with his name drawn with fabric paint.. still more to go. I feel bad, think he spent a bomb on my stuff and meal. but it's really sweet of him.my right hand that is. constantine on sat wasnt really that nice but was great couz he was beside me. ahahahhahaha. :D love ya babe. does xianwei look like my brother!? mart thought he was. haha. christie had a great date! I'm so happy for her. happy for sienjing too! she accepted him and.. ahaha. you really did spend a bomb! u might as well propose la hoh. happy for joce too. ken's one great boy. hope u like the guitar!!
xtie, pam and pork came over to my place for lunch. it's been a long time since we've gone out to rot again. my dad cooked a great lunch and we watched minority report. I didnt really watch it couz I want to watch it with him. hehe. another long day tmr, 9-5. work on wednesday and captains ball aft school on thursday. maybe meeting andrew and company on friday!
xtie, pam and pork came over to my place for lunch. it's been a long time since we've gone out to rot again. my dad cooked a great lunch and we watched minority report. I didnt really watch it couz I want to watch it with him. hehe. another long day tmr, 9-5. work on wednesday and captains ball aft school on thursday. maybe meeting andrew and company on friday!
girlwithabroken(: : 00:10
Sunday, February 13, 2005
going to work soon already. already not feeling tired anymore.
the indifference...
unforgiven lies.
the indifference...
unforgiven lies.
girlwithabroken(: : 08:57
Saturday, February 12, 2005
yay!!!!!!!!!! so happy! i got my first string for my guitar! and I can practice already! ave been practising for the past one hour. going out to meet jireh. i really really missed you. and andrew.
girlwithabroken(: : 13:15
I dont know why... I havent been sleeping well for the past four nights already. not like there's something on my mind but why. don't really feel like eating either. hmmm how come how come. is it because I'm not used to sleeping on the floor? I wake up every two hours, like erm, 1+am, 4+am, 5+am (to talk to him on the phone), tried to sleep at 6 again but woke at 8+, and now.. given up trying to sleep. my eyes look terrible but. and I die during every lesson on the table or smth. and disappear from every lecture there is to attend. lol, but it's stupid math... arghhHhH. looking forward to today... really. going out with him to fish n co the glass house and constantine because we're not going out on valentine's day. maybe edd and his friend is coming along too. it'll be fun... more the merrier. haha. my special place...
and my mum wants me n him to be over at my aunt's place to eat lunch... but I rather he rest than go over... he slept at 5 plus. i havent seen dennis, melvin, kelvin, xiaopei, gary, aunt nelly, evangeline in a long time. melvin's really good looking and built now, water polo player from acjc and acs and now still in nus water polo, f math boy. tomorrow I'll be working then going out with liyana and hidayat.
and my mum wants me n him to be over at my aunt's place to eat lunch... but I rather he rest than go over... he slept at 5 plus. i havent seen dennis, melvin, kelvin, xiaopei, gary, aunt nelly, evangeline in a long time. melvin's really good looking and built now, water polo player from acjc and acs and now still in nus water polo, f math boy. tomorrow I'll be working then going out with liyana and hidayat.
girlwithabroken(: : 10:20
Thursday, February 10, 2005
watched him sleep for a long time yesterday. he's an all condition gear, sleep anywhere anytime anyway. well he searched my room for his presents. arghhhh. luckily the 3/4 done present wasn't there! but I wouldn't be able to finish it by valentine's day... just completed decorating one of his presents, one more to go. and oh... believe me, he's as lame as he is when he's with me.. but, i dont mind at all. starting to enjoy it.. rofL.
almost took over jeremy's shift just now but in the end he thought better not before me and him get killed by our manager. ahaha. but i like mid shift! I'll be working on sunday then meeting pork and dayat after that... celebrate valentines day! will be staying at home today couz my mum's cooking and my relatives are visiting us. haha.
the immensity in your eyes,
made me fall,
into an ocean of you.
dont let me drown.
again, it made imperfection perfection.
beautiful look.
almost took over jeremy's shift just now but in the end he thought better not before me and him get killed by our manager. ahaha. but i like mid shift! I'll be working on sunday then meeting pork and dayat after that... celebrate valentines day! will be staying at home today couz my mum's cooking and my relatives are visiting us. haha.
the immensity in your eyes,
made me fall,
into an ocean of you.
dont let me drown.
again, it made imperfection perfection.
beautiful look.
girlwithabroken(: : 14:16
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
chinese new year seemed quite boring up till now. haha. hope it'll be more fun. argh. i didnt get to meet him today and hmm my cousins asked how come I didnt bring him. well i didnt ask... haha. happy chinese new year everyone! will be seeing him tomorrow afternoon although I'm not sure if I can...I'll try I'll try. jeremy's such a funny person! glad to have such ppl working with me... haha. will be working with him and martin next sunday! and angel or cuz. hehe.
girlwithabroken(: : 22:15
Monday, February 07, 2005
wahh tired. going to sleep very soon. went town with pork and met peili after that then met my dad. walked in town for 11 hours. haha. going to get the SE k500i/k508i. out of stock at the moment so I guess after chinese new year! yipee! hope he gets the same phone as me. hmmm. the feeling's so special nowadays... anyway tmr I end school at 12. wheeeeee. bought heelies from hush puppies, some stuff for him (hope you will like it! ), fabric paint, guitar strings, guitar stand, foot stand! cant wait to be grade 5! I'm going to work hard!
ohh i miss 1M05 ! anyway! happy new year girls and guY! hehe. =X
ohh i miss 1M05 ! anyway! happy new year girls and guY! hehe. =X
girlwithabroken(: : 21:02
that song's really nice. anyway I think I'm back in my normal head, as in the way I think. still working on the thing for him! way past 10 hours of doing it. well I've got a couple more days to go only. :( im dying to go swim again tmr. pork can't, xtie can't. jan is sleeping I think. haha. jeremy's gng to treat me a meal every single time i catch him smoking. whee. I'm glad everything is fine and settled already. smiling to myself is something weird, but I did that at the dinner table. I cant help! I'm in glee! haha. and I'm commited! for the first time! i think. hehe. my sleeping hours are upside down again. yay! hope can really form a band. yay! take up more of my time please. I'm super free.
thank you for the strength. thank you for the people you've put around me.
thank you for the strength. thank you for the people you've put around me.
girlwithabroken(: : 00:49
Daniel Bedingfield - I can't read you
I'm never shy but this is different
I can't explain the way I'm feeling tonight
I'm losing control of my heart
Tell me what can I do to make you happy
Nothing I ever say seems to come out right
I'm losing control of my heart, yeah
And I wish that I could be
Another better part of me
Can't hear what you're thinking
Maybe if I just let go
You'd open up your heart
But I can't read you
I wish I knew what's goin' through your mind
Can't touch you, your heart's defending I get left behind
Can't reach you
I wish I knew what's going through your mind
Can't touch you, your hearts protecting
I get left behind
I like you so much I'm acting stupid
I can't play the game I'm all intense and alive
I'm losing control of my heart
I'm not supposed to be this nervous
I should play my hand all cool and calm
I can't breathe
I'm losing control of my heart (yeah yeah yeah)
And I wish that I could see
The other better parts of me
Feel this fire I'm feeling
Then you'd see me in control
And baby then you'd know
But I can't read you
I wish I knew what's goin' through your mind
Can't touch you, your hearts protecting
I get left behind
Can't reach you, I wish I knew what's going through your mind
Can't touch you, your hearts defending
I get left behind
I wish that you could see
A better part of me
Feel this fire I'm feeling
Then you'd see me in control
And baby then you'd know
But I can't read you
I wish I knew what's goin' through your mind
Can't touch you, your heart's protecting
I get left behind
I can't read you
I wish I knew what's going through your mind
Can't touch you, your hearts defending I get left behind
Can't read you
I wish I knew what's goin' through your mind
Can't touch you, your heart's protecting
I get left behind
I can't read you.
I wish I knew what's going through your mind
Can't touch you, your heart's defending I get left behind
Can't read you
I wish I knew what's goin' through your mind
Can't touch you, your heart's protecting
I get left behind
I'm never shy but this is different
I can't explain the way I'm feeling tonight
I'm losing control of my heart
Tell me what can I do to make you happy
Nothing I ever say seems to come out right
I'm losing control of my heart, yeah
And I wish that I could be
Another better part of me
Can't hear what you're thinking
Maybe if I just let go
You'd open up your heart
But I can't read you
I wish I knew what's goin' through your mind
Can't touch you, your heart's defending I get left behind
Can't reach you
I wish I knew what's going through your mind
Can't touch you, your hearts protecting
I get left behind
I like you so much I'm acting stupid
I can't play the game I'm all intense and alive
I'm losing control of my heart
I'm not supposed to be this nervous
I should play my hand all cool and calm
I can't breathe
I'm losing control of my heart (yeah yeah yeah)
And I wish that I could see
The other better parts of me
Feel this fire I'm feeling
Then you'd see me in control
And baby then you'd know
But I can't read you
I wish I knew what's goin' through your mind
Can't touch you, your hearts protecting
I get left behind
Can't reach you, I wish I knew what's going through your mind
Can't touch you, your hearts defending
I get left behind
I wish that you could see
A better part of me
Feel this fire I'm feeling
Then you'd see me in control
And baby then you'd know
But I can't read you
I wish I knew what's goin' through your mind
Can't touch you, your heart's protecting
I get left behind
I can't read you
I wish I knew what's going through your mind
Can't touch you, your hearts defending I get left behind
Can't read you
I wish I knew what's goin' through your mind
Can't touch you, your heart's protecting
I get left behind
I can't read you.
I wish I knew what's going through your mind
Can't touch you, your heart's defending I get left behind
Can't read you
I wish I knew what's goin' through your mind
Can't touch you, your heart's protecting
I get left behind
girlwithabroken(: : 00:17
Sunday, February 06, 2005
we went to the family's house before going to dinner yesterday. and oh my, 6 cars. 3 mercedes. one of it was an SLK 3200 - my dream care. a van, a 7 seater and a BMW. 6 cars for 3 people staying in a 23000 sq ft house! ah! woah! but they were very nice people. met mr and mrs koh and their son glenn. they have a pool and a koi pond and a gym and a tv room. funny how people get so many digits in their account book, mine will me $0.12353003942, theirs is $1233509322935398.00. hehe. dinner was great, it was at the RELC, somewhere near town. met him after that, my parents and brother drove me over.
went bugis with janice and jocelyn today. was fun! although we three were really tired. as in really tired. they bought me a top, my belated gift. love it dearies. thx alot. I'm glad I have you two in my life. fun and loving bunch. ^^ might go to mr tan's house next saturday for cny. this saturday is for my someone special. I cant wait. tired. going to get rest soon.
Lx: not flirt! he tag me first. : haha. LamerX. swimming please. thanks. see you ^^.
please vote for my cute friend! thanks.
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go to page 2, u see t'styler 121 help me vote for a 5 please please
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went bugis with janice and jocelyn today. was fun! although we three were really tired. as in really tired. they bought me a top, my belated gift. love it dearies. thx alot. I'm glad I have you two in my life. fun and loving bunch. ^^ might go to mr tan's house next saturday for cny. this saturday is for my someone special. I cant wait. tired. going to get rest soon.
Lx: not flirt! he tag me first. : haha. LamerX. swimming please. thanks. see you ^^.
please vote for my cute friend! thanks.
http://www.radioactive.com.my/vote/view.asp
go to page 2, u see t'styler 121 help me vote for a 5 please please
u need to register but it will only take 5 mins of ur life please
girlwithabroken(: : 18:52
Saturday, February 05, 2005
sj: u diam lar. haha. dun always force me to say love instead of like. shaaaaaaaaduuuuupppp. haha! shadddddddduuuuuuppppppppppp :D if not bread will fill ur mouth. rofl. please dont go fight some bastard... not worth it. u scold the shitttttttttttttt out of him will do lar! ahahha. yeah n rob the malaysia banks for me thx. i wan bubble gum.
geewee: im okay already. give me abit more time! :D thx i love u too.
eileen: robbbbbbbbbbbbbbb isssss sweeeeet. both of you lar. haha. hugs! jiayouuuuu. Im almost okay liao, as cranky as ever. hehe. thanks.
hedz: heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. hugssssssssssssss. :D :D :D :D
kira: thanks boy. haha! you take care! dont upset! smileeee! and cheery!!! :D
i couldnt sleep the whole night! and my mother scold me till I get out of bed. attempted to sleep at 4am. i woke at six. some ARsE smsed me and woke at eight plus when zr smsed me! haiya! dont care liao!!!! anything!! my guitar string snapped. sad. i need to buy a new bridge and strings. OH YEAH IM GOING TO HOTEL TO EAT N MEET SOME RICH PERSON WHO WILL BUY ALL THE INK IN INKTAGE. zzz. scully he doesnt use canon or epson. but my dad said he has 6 or more printers in a single office. my dad's distributer... mr marplan? smth liddat laa.. my eye bags so deep! hardly slept for the past few days. yessssssssssss i am crazyyyy. but it beats keeping quiet. i got cough. zz. must change the stupid bedsheets n wipe my fan and sweep my floor. aiyeerrrrrrrrrr .
i wish that you would step back from the ledge my friend - jumper by third eye blind
geewee: im okay already. give me abit more time! :D thx i love u too.
eileen: robbbbbbbbbbbbbbb isssss sweeeeet. both of you lar. haha. hugs! jiayouuuuu. Im almost okay liao, as cranky as ever. hehe. thanks.
hedz: heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. hugssssssssssssss. :D :D :D :D
kira: thanks boy. haha! you take care! dont upset! smileeee! and cheery!!! :D
i couldnt sleep the whole night! and my mother scold me till I get out of bed. attempted to sleep at 4am. i woke at six. some ARsE smsed me and woke at eight plus when zr smsed me! haiya! dont care liao!!!! anything!! my guitar string snapped. sad. i need to buy a new bridge and strings. OH YEAH IM GOING TO HOTEL TO EAT N MEET SOME RICH PERSON WHO WILL BUY ALL THE INK IN INKTAGE. zzz. scully he doesnt use canon or epson. but my dad said he has 6 or more printers in a single office. my dad's distributer... mr marplan? smth liddat laa.. my eye bags so deep! hardly slept for the past few days. yessssssssssss i am crazyyyy. but it beats keeping quiet. i got cough. zz. must change the stupid bedsheets n wipe my fan and sweep my floor. aiyeerrrrrrrrrr .
i wish that you would step back from the ledge my friend - jumper by third eye blind
girlwithabroken(: : 13:50
my.. he is sensible. im one of those guilty of reading his blog.
"u'll find someone better like i did...someone more meant for u..someone different, someone that will replace how u once felt..but of cos it doesnt just come like that..."
i'm the one upset yet i'm the one who has to start talking first... I'm still being the one that initiates the care n stuff... never felt this way before... somewhat feel like I'm doing too much. first time ever... feeling the unworth of it... hahaha......... im here to share ur life...
can I call you? see how la.
are u happier w/o me? I dont mind.
why...? do u still... me?
"u'll find someone better like i did...someone more meant for u..someone different, someone that will replace how u once felt..but of cos it doesnt just come like that..."
i'm the one upset yet i'm the one who has to start talking first... I'm still being the one that initiates the care n stuff... never felt this way before... somewhat feel like I'm doing too much. first time ever... feeling the unworth of it... hahaha......... im here to share ur life...
can I call you? see how la.
are u happier w/o me? I dont mind.
why...? do u still... me?
girlwithabroken(: : 02:37
Friday, February 04, 2005
and sorry if i sound so.. F-ed up to anyone. or say something retarded. maybe I mean it. you'll never know. my phone's off. my msn's away. hahahahahhaa........................................
girlwithabroken(: : 01:48
put me to sleep. that's all the words I have to say. I didnt want to depressed her so I stopped replying her sms. no one could help me. and I can't help myself. everyday the tears will fall. everyday I wished I wont see the pink ceiling when I awake. every day I wish to shun and be shunned. I only bring distraught to people around me. I could never make anyone happy. the days have made me colder. I dont feel like talking anymore. the tears just flow freely everytime I speak other than "can I have your order?" I really understand why gab felt like that. I feel like locking myself up. money didnt matter anymore. people didnt matter anymore. family didnt matter anymore. hopes were bleak, feelings were numbed. I'm not going to school.. not at least for the next one week and tomorrow. I really want to be alone. till I find something that shows me that I am a hope. that I am not a disappointment. that I wont fall. if not, just get lost from me. get away... stay back... I'm worthless. proven and garanteed. always.
girlwithabroken(: : 01:35
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
you still care so much after so long.
I'm grateful. but it leaves me in greater ponder.
I wish it worked last time. but. it's. vast past.
I'm grateful. but it leaves me in greater ponder.
I wish it worked last time. but. it's. vast past.
girlwithabroken(: : 21:35
i loathe living with the feeling that the person I love so much just doesnt care. been feeling like that for the past one month already.i love living the lie. the lie that keeps my chin up. maybe sw's using the phone, maybe you're busy, maybe you just dont have time, maybe you're asleep, maybe you're studying, maybe you're tired. but maybe... you just dont bother. my dad could see --- the sad look on my face. maybe... you only did love them, that's why you could be nice n caring. or maybe I'm not as good. why do I still bother... why... why... why!?!?!? I sms you because I still care and want to try... but what's the point now...
even though CTs are over I'm not having a good time. I wish I could work and forget everything. make the pain go away. stop the tears from flowing. I always wished it was you who cared... but it's anyone but you... all the time. :'(
sj: thxx. dont worry. I'm not a big girl lar. still kiddish. and I cry alot. I'm weakkk. u drink more water also. I'll keep alive till ure back. :(
13: u were caring. thanks. although i've been so bad. glad you forgave me.
even though CTs are over I'm not having a good time. I wish I could work and forget everything. make the pain go away. stop the tears from flowing. I always wished it was you who cared... but it's anyone but you... all the time. :'(
sj: thxx. dont worry. I'm not a big girl lar. still kiddish. and I cry alot. I'm weakkk. u drink more water also. I'll keep alive till ure back. :(
13: u were caring. thanks. although i've been so bad. glad you forgave me.
girlwithabroken(: : 21:05
my gum still hurts. it's been 4 days. somewhat swollen. hmmmm. the exactly below the tooth. I'm feel so stoned today. been staring into space for the past one hour although I'm supposed to be studying. dont enjoy picking up her phone calls. ask me if I'm studying so I just said NO. ask dumb questions. as in, it doesnt sound logical alright. sony ericsson T630, is that good or is it another one of SE's laggiest creations. mmm. I think I'm quite dead for IPC. going out with my dad right now then meet christie and pork already and maybe twin. :D
girlwithabroken(: : 10:02
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
you make me laugh. and really LMAO.
girlwithabroken(: : 22:47
think I'm crazy. I miss him so much I'm sad. ohhhh really crazy. hate this feeling but I cant fight it. and oh, i always wait for your calls. so I do wait... right? heez. please please wednesday thursday past fast please.
dont know what phone to buy... guess I'll buy the phone he likes so he can use. tired, have been doing the thing for him for the whole afternoon even when he called and jacq came over to visit me just now. she's still very much the same! I miss her alot alot. saw her family at sunplaza too. ate moss with my dad just now. and the biscuits I was trying to make, the recipe didnt work very well.. arghh. gave jacq a few photos n a top, she loves my hammie very much. it's so fat. and gerie, she's even prettier now! and she's a relief teacher! :D wooottt. read 12 pages of IPC the whole day. really rot my life away.
I didnt know why my manager scheduled me to work today. supposed to be thursday. I guess it was another miscommunication. hope Ben can do the closing for me. lolz. working on thurs n sunday. time please past faster.
dont know what phone to buy... guess I'll buy the phone he likes so he can use. tired, have been doing the thing for him for the whole afternoon even when he called and jacq came over to visit me just now. she's still very much the same! I miss her alot alot. saw her family at sunplaza too. ate moss with my dad just now. and the biscuits I was trying to make, the recipe didnt work very well.. arghh. gave jacq a few photos n a top, she loves my hammie very much. it's so fat. and gerie, she's even prettier now! and she's a relief teacher! :D wooottt. read 12 pages of IPC the whole day. really rot my life away.
I didnt know why my manager scheduled me to work today. supposed to be thursday. I guess it was another miscommunication. hope Ben can do the closing for me. lolz. working on thurs n sunday. time please past faster.
girlwithabroken(: : 22:22
