Monday, March 27, 2006
you recieve less presents and less presents on your birthday and for christmas.
you recieve more and more insurance greeting cards for chinese new year and for birthday.
oh oh.
spoke to eunice ngiam on the phone for more an than hour just. we feel we're getting old! and alot alot alot is going to change soon. just soon. meeting her up tmr. I cant wait. I miss so many people and I feel lonely alot. i wonder if work is making me feel more of it or I've always felt so :(
loner.
spent the evening supermarketing for some dumpling skin, meat and instant noodles. made the little small dumplings and fried them already. ready to give them away to the hungry! hope siew can come with us tmr for dinner and shopping. I have not smsed her yet. lots of work to do at work, typing, scanning, documenting basically admin-ish. didnt get to meet jacq today, she felt feverish so maybe ill see her before this week ends or maybe next. workwise, I hope I can finish up the typing tmr and Irene's okay and work's okay for all the other colleagues and interns. met nic on sat and well Im glad he's good as well as the cute retriever. lilin wants to study animal-related course too! whee!! will get to talk to gerald soon and Im sure he's okay too.
spoke to miss ngiam for one and a half hours. spoke to gerald for forty minutes and jacq for a halfie. wheeeeeeee. ronnie for halfie too.
nicole has prettier teeth. (:
I hope shuzz will feel better and happier and I'll be there for her! :)
ron is bitter-sweet and strange.
you recieve more and more insurance greeting cards for chinese new year and for birthday.
oh oh.
spoke to eunice ngiam on the phone for more an than hour just. we feel we're getting old! and alot alot alot is going to change soon. just soon. meeting her up tmr. I cant wait. I miss so many people and I feel lonely alot. i wonder if work is making me feel more of it or I've always felt so :(
loner.
spent the evening supermarketing for some dumpling skin, meat and instant noodles. made the little small dumplings and fried them already. ready to give them away to the hungry! hope siew can come with us tmr for dinner and shopping. I have not smsed her yet. lots of work to do at work, typing, scanning, documenting basically admin-ish. didnt get to meet jacq today, she felt feverish so maybe ill see her before this week ends or maybe next. workwise, I hope I can finish up the typing tmr and Irene's okay and work's okay for all the other colleagues and interns. met nic on sat and well Im glad he's good as well as the cute retriever. lilin wants to study animal-related course too! whee!! will get to talk to gerald soon and Im sure he's okay too.
spoke to miss ngiam for one and a half hours. spoke to gerald for forty minutes and jacq for a halfie. wheeeeeeee. ronnie for halfie too.
nicole has prettier teeth. (:
I hope shuzz will feel better and happier and I'll be there for her! :)
ron is bitter-sweet and strange.
girlwithabroken(: : 21:55
is it's time up?
times up and the referee blows the whistle.
times up and you go back to heaven.
the skinner you become, the more those micro organisms work through you.
I still love you the same. my little hamster. just stay a little while longer :(((((((((
I slept alot through out the weekend but it wasnt really rest. it was really sleep, sleep. dreamt so much i didnt feel rested. sitting back and waiting for my driving test date in end of july. long long time to go. hope once a fortnight revision will suffice. dota time..
times up and you go back to heaven.
the skinner you become, the more those micro organisms work through you.
I still love you the same. my little hamster. just stay a little while longer :(((((((((
I slept alot through out the weekend but it wasnt really rest. it was really sleep, sleep. dreamt so much i didnt feel rested. sitting back and waiting for my driving test date in end of july. long long time to go. hope once a fortnight revision will suffice. dota time..
girlwithabroken(: : 00:14
Monday, March 20, 2006
sosososo tired. feel so tired. why isnt it here yet? hmmm. I am ending work in 5 minutes and I cant wait to collect my spectacles and go home and sleep till the next day 8 am. work's usual. pretty monotonous. try to pic up something new when I can. handed up my report and attendance sheet today. slept only 3 hours yesterday. I really should get some sleep. now I have got to talk abt my non-existant acnes. I went for facial with ngiam yesterday and the woman put the anti-acne mask for me. where are my so called acnes? they are non-existant. and just today, a giant painful acne looking pimple popped. please dont mess up my face more than it is already messed. I just need sleep. and during extraction, she removed partial black heads leaving trailing little tails which are going to grow back and become black heads again. geez. you increased the price and u do an imcomplete job. woman, we're never going to go back there ever.
its six. time to go! I bought nice pants yesterday. woooo. I thought they were purple, but they're brown I just realised.
its six. time to go! I bought nice pants yesterday. woooo. I thought they were purple, but they're brown I just realised.
girlwithabroken(: : 17:48
Friday, March 17, 2006
I want to school as much as I can school. for that is the place, where I feel there is less divide btw pple. the lesser the better. negate it.
10 hours till my day ends. 2 driving sessions later.
I wish.
for piles of chocolate, and to not feel lonely.
10 hours till my day ends. 2 driving sessions later.
I wish.
for piles of chocolate, and to not feel lonely.
girlwithabroken(: : 12:56
Thursday, March 16, 2006
I state to decline, only to spare your affiliation - christianity and YOUR god.
please do not superimpose ur beliefs on me nor question me about what I believe and why I dont believe. I do not wish to comment because you highly associate yourself to this topic of the conversation. I'm only being slightly consiencious. I said thanks, assuming that you will not question me further. it only bothers me because you are/were my mentor back then.
people get hurt because they associate themselves with things n groups. as such, my dad told me and it IS true. if a person said girlguides suck, i get hurt, because my ego gets hurt and the association of me with guides is because I used to be a girlguide. and I get unhappy. but I dont have to. everyone has their views and opinions, and it took a long time for me to learn to respect these and in turn respect others. that day in game, my friend was saying malaysians suck, I didnt get angry, although I am a halfie, because I dissociate myself from the word, malaysian. I dont deny I am one. I dont have to think of it this way, because it is just one person's statement and one person's POV. i just mind my own business. I have enough things to thing about and I rather occupy my mind with something more productive.
had sushi buffet yesterday. very good for me. wasabi is a natural antibiotic and so are onions, garlic and chilli. 200 days mark. haha. i enjoyed. and I bought him abercrombie slippers.
I feel heaty again. and my flu hasnt gone away after many weeks. can't wait to meet eunice and the rest this weekend because it's some birdy's birthday!
please do not superimpose ur beliefs on me nor question me about what I believe and why I dont believe. I do not wish to comment because you highly associate yourself to this topic of the conversation. I'm only being slightly consiencious. I said thanks, assuming that you will not question me further. it only bothers me because you are/were my mentor back then.
people get hurt because they associate themselves with things n groups. as such, my dad told me and it IS true. if a person said girlguides suck, i get hurt, because my ego gets hurt and the association of me with guides is because I used to be a girlguide. and I get unhappy. but I dont have to. everyone has their views and opinions, and it took a long time for me to learn to respect these and in turn respect others. that day in game, my friend was saying malaysians suck, I didnt get angry, although I am a halfie, because I dissociate myself from the word, malaysian. I dont deny I am one. I dont have to think of it this way, because it is just one person's statement and one person's POV. i just mind my own business. I have enough things to thing about and I rather occupy my mind with something more productive.
had sushi buffet yesterday. very good for me. wasabi is a natural antibiotic and so are onions, garlic and chilli. 200 days mark. haha. i enjoyed. and I bought him abercrombie slippers.
I feel heaty again. and my flu hasnt gone away after many weeks. can't wait to meet eunice and the rest this weekend because it's some birdy's birthday!
girlwithabroken(: : 14:05
Sunday, March 12, 2006
you are my only one.
went out with jacqy after work yesterday. it was serious fun alright. thinking abt it makes me lighten up. (: we had swensens for dinner. fried mushrooms which sylvester introduced the last time we went there. the exact same outlet. 2 fish baked rice, and a strawberry soda for her with a scoop of ice cream on top. and she treated me to my cooling tea too. its a birthday present :) went to her place after that and we play mahjong in the form of cards. like paper cards! hmm. and monopoly. hahahhaa. omg she went to jail about 7 or 8 times. it was really fun. I never really knew how to play it. well basically the more we own (monopolise) the better and richer! haha! and it was great seeing that gerie was doing good too. (:
I left her place at about ten plus. and headed down to jln kayu. whee. I almost missed the stop. the 1st time i went there yanrui sent me there. hmmm. I didnt eat anything because my throat was really bad. I went to see the doctor again today. I didnt get antibiotics. I felt like I needed pain killers. all the phelgm choked up in my swollen throat. it was so painful. if not i would save the trouble of going down to see the doctor. hmm. I still cant really talk now. not much voice. yet a certain somebody still wants to scold me. heh. joyce asked us to go china black yesterday but it was abit late! hmm and plus the stupid sore throat.
no one can make me angry, if i choose not to be.
I dont want to be. so I always TRY take a deep breathe and just let it go.
no point seriously.
I use the word try because it isnt easy.
and I cant say I never lose it.
that's why my dad has such a good temper. no one can make him angry if he chooses not to be.
so much to be learnt and applied. :\
went out with jacqy after work yesterday. it was serious fun alright. thinking abt it makes me lighten up. (: we had swensens for dinner. fried mushrooms which sylvester introduced the last time we went there. the exact same outlet. 2 fish baked rice, and a strawberry soda for her with a scoop of ice cream on top. and she treated me to my cooling tea too. its a birthday present :) went to her place after that and we play mahjong in the form of cards. like paper cards! hmm. and monopoly. hahahhaa. omg she went to jail about 7 or 8 times. it was really fun. I never really knew how to play it. well basically the more we own (monopolise) the better and richer! haha! and it was great seeing that gerie was doing good too. (:
I left her place at about ten plus. and headed down to jln kayu. whee. I almost missed the stop. the 1st time i went there yanrui sent me there. hmmm. I didnt eat anything because my throat was really bad. I went to see the doctor again today. I didnt get antibiotics. I felt like I needed pain killers. all the phelgm choked up in my swollen throat. it was so painful. if not i would save the trouble of going down to see the doctor. hmm. I still cant really talk now. not much voice. yet a certain somebody still wants to scold me. heh. joyce asked us to go china black yesterday but it was abit late! hmm and plus the stupid sore throat.
no one can make me angry, if i choose not to be.
I dont want to be. so I always TRY take a deep breathe and just let it go.
no point seriously.
I use the word try because it isnt easy.
and I cant say I never lose it.
that's why my dad has such a good temper. no one can make him angry if he chooses not to be.
so much to be learnt and applied. :\
girlwithabroken(: : 02:43
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
I wish, this is my last. breath.
when I have the courage, I will.
waterfalls
I still am not happy. whether I'll go to work tmr depends on my health, don't even know if I hope to be better. my mother wants to give my A math book to some stupid boy called vincent, who I was supposed to tuition and his mum called me exactly at the time supposed to start and told me he was too tired. wtf. waste my time, so why shud I give u my book which costs 20 bucks? heh. 20 bucks cant buy back my whole day wasted. she thinks its wrong i called him stupid.
my medicine makes me very drowsy. sigh. I dont understand, they said the labs are totally confidential, yet they told my friend she can go to the lab next week. I'm in biomed, why did they put me in Human Resource? and my friend studies plant they put her in Aqua. and my friend who studies Aqua, they put her in health science. and all doing admin. and I dont know. it's going to be dullsville if I cannot go to the laboratory and do work. sigh. i wonder is flunking this whole module more worth it, and learn sth more the next time round or what?
tired. drained.
when I have the courage, I will.
waterfalls
I still am not happy. whether I'll go to work tmr depends on my health, don't even know if I hope to be better. my mother wants to give my A math book to some stupid boy called vincent, who I was supposed to tuition and his mum called me exactly at the time supposed to start and told me he was too tired. wtf. waste my time, so why shud I give u my book which costs 20 bucks? heh. 20 bucks cant buy back my whole day wasted. she thinks its wrong i called him stupid.
my medicine makes me very drowsy. sigh. I dont understand, they said the labs are totally confidential, yet they told my friend she can go to the lab next week. I'm in biomed, why did they put me in Human Resource? and my friend studies plant they put her in Aqua. and my friend who studies Aqua, they put her in health science. and all doing admin. and I dont know. it's going to be dullsville if I cannot go to the laboratory and do work. sigh. i wonder is flunking this whole module more worth it, and learn sth more the next time round or what?
tired. drained.
girlwithabroken(: : 14:59
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
dear blog,
I hate attachment. I will not get to do any lab work at all as they claim it is confidential. yet they make us sign a 10 page long confidentially form and they dont trust us still. I wish to learn sth new during attachment and not do admin all day long. I hope my lecturers do something. If not I definately will flunk my attachment. I have nth to say for reports and I am not enthusiastic as I spent my whole day. I seriously want to learn sth bio-related. today Dr Kuah told us that we will never touch the labs. so it's admin everyday. I scanned documents for 2 hours long and filed for the whole morning. I need a miracle. someone please recruit me. ngee ann please do sth. we are the guinea pigs of this company, we are the 1st batch to be attached there. :(
I have MC for 2 days... yet I am still upset. I rather get no pay than learn nth.
broken.
I hate attachment. I will not get to do any lab work at all as they claim it is confidential. yet they make us sign a 10 page long confidentially form and they dont trust us still. I wish to learn sth new during attachment and not do admin all day long. I hope my lecturers do something. If not I definately will flunk my attachment. I have nth to say for reports and I am not enthusiastic as I spent my whole day. I seriously want to learn sth bio-related. today Dr Kuah told us that we will never touch the labs. so it's admin everyday. I scanned documents for 2 hours long and filed for the whole morning. I need a miracle. someone please recruit me. ngee ann please do sth. we are the guinea pigs of this company, we are the 1st batch to be attached there. :(
I have MC for 2 days... yet I am still upset. I rather get no pay than learn nth.
broken.
girlwithabroken(: : 21:41
today's my first day of attachment and so it is for the half of the cohort. I'm in human resource department. honestly, I dont know what I'm doing there but first lesson was photocopying! and getting files from the storeroom, filing and lunch. the people in my dept are really nice. 1 guy and the rest are all ladies! we're going to order lunch tmr because the weather's so bad. I've got a bad flu and headache now. nonetheless going to say something about my first day. my officer in charge was late for 40 minutes. so most of the morning we just sat around. there are 4 of us! and 3 from ngee ann and 1 from singapore polytechnic. the person that gives me work to do is this nice nice lady called Vy if im not wrong, she's vietnamese and have studied in Singapore for 3 years already. Another girl called faline, she really reminds me of xueling. also very nice, she studied Chemical Engineering in NP last time i THINK. hahah. and Ching hui, I didnt really talk to her but also nice and another who gave us things to do while we were waiting, I just know she's a sporty gym-person. Dr Kuah is nice too! snacking in during meeting time, and Jerry!
I'm slightly disappointed that I'm not doing labwork, and I appreciate labwork alot better. but! everywhere we go, or I go, we have something to learn, whether technical, relations, duties or assignments. I wont waste my time there. I want to learn (: dinner tmr would be a nice! someone please be free!
I miss the usual us already. the company. the noise. the whinings. :( I hope u all enjoyed ur first day, hedz, eunice, porkie, missra, janis! booooooo. and those on hols. :( Im envious! haha. loveeeeees!
mum gave me angpow, for good luck today! hahaha. yay. and my lovely boy brother sent me to work. haha. I'm going to wear 3 quarts tmr and carry an irritating bag.
I'm slightly disappointed that I'm not doing labwork, and I appreciate labwork alot better. but! everywhere we go, or I go, we have something to learn, whether technical, relations, duties or assignments. I wont waste my time there. I want to learn (: dinner tmr would be a nice! someone please be free!
I miss the usual us already. the company. the noise. the whinings. :( I hope u all enjoyed ur first day, hedz, eunice, porkie, missra, janis! booooooo. and those on hols. :( Im envious! haha. loveeeeees!
mum gave me angpow, for good luck today! hahaha. yay. and my lovely boy brother sent me to work. haha. I'm going to wear 3 quarts tmr and carry an irritating bag.
girlwithabroken(: : 00:38
Saturday, March 04, 2006
Monetexams are over. finally. its like the longest, funnest yet most exhausting week. I'm down with a cold but it's not enough to stop me from enjoying before the attachment days start. treated myself well. I played dota for many many many days till six am although it was exam period. that's the fun part. caught up with sw... I havent spoken to him eversince a year ago. awol boy.
anyway I just cooked omelette and I miss shan and shiuan so much suddenly. they thought me the omelette with "cai poh". the perserved salted veggie thingy fried with eggs! it was fun staying over last sunday. shiuan has finally stopped calling me "auntie belle" already. whee. sometimes i think i pass off as a primary school student, the child in me thingy. hahah. i tried frying eggs with mushrooms and cheese and butter but i forgot to season the eggs so it wasnt really nice.
I'm glad this week is over. yet i miss the dota times and the times me and eunice just spend the time after exams stoning. I'm also glad that me, eunice, nadia, janis, siew yuan, chui ling and maybe porkie can make it tmr to MOS. girlies <3.>Jocelyn for dinner. I dunno if ken will be coming along but yah I love that couply-couple. painted my nails just now beacuse I figured my toes wouldnt have the chance to be seen once att starts. covered shoes are a must everyday C; one more thing I miss! me and hedzlyn nudging each other and complaining abt the studyload. wonder when we'll meet up. possibly 5 mths later. or only when there's a bday occasion. like missssra's and eunice's bday. I'm going to give u a hot red thong in return for ur bday present to me and the nice powerpoint slides. so heartwarming :( it's line polytechnic memory lane. the times we were so bored we just took pictures despite knowing it'd turn out unglamourous. :(
I'll bring the camera tmr. so we'll camwhore with big eyebags tmr. right and a BBQ tmr at incog's place. hmmm. but me and eunice will be shopping before that. I hope to get a nice clutch or sth. I'm not going to buy unecessary stuff again. nonoononon. I hope iylia khan is okay already, he was so sian yesterday.
girlwithabroken(: : 03:12
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
today wasn't so good. even before i reached school I had cramps. the paper was okay. the company before the paper was good, the usual, me mirza joyce liyana hedzlyn. after the paper I met eunice at harbourfront centre. it brought back lots of memories when I was walk around there alone. the times we always went to sentosa as a big group and the usual us. it was good fun and the 3 times ago i went there, i think its three, i was cried like a bitch. because one of us were missing. and the 9th time ago i went there. i was with 1M05, it was like the most ideal day, I met new friends and it was 1st april 2005. but it was like a euphoric-nightmare. sometimes when u feel so happy, and at the same time you feel afraid. the fear of losing it. haha... those were the days. (:
Athazagoraphobia- Fear of being forgotton or ignored or forgetting.
Athazagoraphobia- Fear of being forgotton or ignored or forgetting.
girlwithabroken(: : 01:30
