the irritating hoe
please for goodness sake some people better butt their arses out of ronald's life please. please bitch, I dont think you have the right intentions when u have a boyfriend and calling your OWN boyfriend's friend every single damn day and telling him whats the weather like on sms, and whether u are late for school or not, and whether you are taking a cab to school or not. you think anyone really gives a damn if you are or not? maybe only the cab driver's pocket. and WHEN you do NOT know the whole story please shut the hell up. why cant I not read his inbox for the 2nd time in 6 weeks? and ronald can read mine anytime we meet? you think although u sent an sms to him, thats still YOUR privacy? quit being selfish man, its always abt you? youyouyou? when u send out an sms, it is no longer for your eyes only, eat that. and eat shit. lauranne please go to hell. dont tell anyone what to do, let alone ronald. and dont ask him "who the hell is she to read my msgs?!". who the hell are to tell who can do what?get a life, for YOUR Christ's sake. better involve urself in more worship dude. look at your sad character.enough. life is great and it takes the bad stuff to make it great, like bad people. heh. going to malaysia for the weekend. with the family, 2 aunts.
girlwithabroken(: : 10:00
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
pride comes before a fall.a doctorate is just a doctorate, what about the professors? if education is the only thing that can define you and you are proud of that is just so sad. govt svc people. oh well! you think everyone knows you and you know everyone.and wrong, you love someone for everything he/she isn't, and love him/her for everything they can't be. not for everything they are and everything they can be.that must be why we never really like good people, right? :D lol.dad got me the new i-mode phone. I like it, its flip, pretty, good camera, good functions. daddy cooked dinner yesterday, 3 types of veggies, a soup and nice pomfret with sauce. going to penang for the weekend, leaving on friday night till sunday (:evidently, I am staring at the clock right now. waiting to drop 6 floors down and run to the bus stop and go straight home. feeling so tired again. I didnt know why I didnt seem to do much work today. :\ hmmm. I finished my report, going to bring it home for my brother to see. I havent read it myself. I typed it all out and didnt read through. just basically whatever I could think of. about 900+ words is in there, got to finish it because of the Malaysia trip. I saved some stuff to write for the next 2000 word report. 2000-3000 words but I'll less than 2100 words. that's the piece of advice from my brother coupled with his lengthy psyc essays. ZOOM! 3 more minutes!
girlwithabroken(: : 13:15
did I really not mean enough, just for you to say "stay"?I need a hug. right now. right here :'(when will I really smile again? tmr? later? the next second?
girlwithabroken(: : 01:45
of course I like familiarity, I am human.
I sense it when I see you.
it's just like I know it.
but it is time for me to move on to the better of.
going to get an MC soon.
I felt really tired from sleeping two hours on saturday night and from tanning on sunday (only got a little colour. need to tan. MORE. and a little swimming. haha. I should sleep more.
I still hate attachment. we interns are transparent, excluded and cheap labour.
this is week 8, 7 more weeks to go. I hope they pass fast. two four days week out of the 7 weeks. labour day n vesak day awaits. or maybe I await them.
girlwithabroken(: : 12:47
yesterday, ronald won the thai boxing champion.today, I am going tanning later. and today I am a loan shark. roar! (: I'm crazy about the song, hero by enrique iglasias. heard it on 95.0FM tmr. but a song is just a song. at least it mean more than the song, always. I slept at 7am, woke up at 1030am. not really that tired yet. I just hope there is still a sun at 2plus!
girlwithabroken(: : 11:31
finally the week is over. happy with a slight tinge of disappointment. it's weekend but... weekends are the only time... hmmmm. maybe I think too much. went out with nadia chuiling and neighbour aft work. I was pretty late. I was asked to wait for my manager for quite long and ended up "we'll discuss this next week." but she wants me to finish the products catalogue next week. with not a single idea with those public health products I have to finish it by next week. I dont have the templates for the front page n last page. but I figured, I'll unbind the copy I have, scan at high quality, adobe and change the picture and reprint it for the distribution to the overseas visitors to the company next week. going to be quite busy.another 8 weeks to go. I'm really counting down. this is week 7. the thought irks me totally. barely half way through yet drained, lonely. have lots to tell abt it. if anyone wants to listen abt the interesting stuff I found out. haha.0100 hours right now. going to be 12 hours before I next see the light I hope. I hope time slows for the weekends. maybe pause me in a moment that I'll be so happy in. :))) enjoyed my day though, had carl's Jnr and potebello I DUNNO HOW TO SPELL THAT! mushroom burger. haha. chatted quite abit. talked to my brother when I reached home, showed him the new top I got.
girlwithabroken(: : 00:56
see this if you're really bored or in need of entertainment or feeling gay as free as me :)http://www.colinandkero.blogspot.com/ahbeng and gay, has got to be those guys I saw that day at long john's. screw.going to OT today because I'm gonna wait for my brother to pick me and to make up for the many times I came late to work :Dstill waiting for my brother. did quite abit of work since I came in today. have stopped napping ever since i started sleeping at least 5 hours a day. haha. feel like putting braces for my upper teeth, I hate them. eww. hope my brother will bring me for pastry soup later. or maybe some food which I crave for. hungry already!huffalump. purple elephant!
girlwithabroken(: : 12:58
for friendship's sake, please stop pouring your cold water on us :SIt really isn't very nice.cooked porridge for the family's break fast tmr. chicken, carrots and cabbage! ;)
girlwithabroken(: : 00:27
recalling last saturday at long john silvers plaza singapura, this bitch ass ah beng. heh.I was sitting down I didnt realise the cleaner with his trolley was trying to get past me then.the bitch just said "jian3 fei2 la4!" meaning lose weight. upon realising he was refering to me I turned and glared and said what the fuck man?went back to his seat. told his friends, all of them stared. after going off they also stared.come beat me up or come nearer to me, I'll scream molest and harrass. DIE BITCH. you'll be the most uneligible bachelor for all times, hopefully 50 years or pure singlehood and impotency awaits you. or started right that moment you were so rude to a girl.while playing dota that day with my friend's brother, his friends weren't nice too. picking at every mistake everyone makes. sometimes you guys, just have stfu. everythign will be so much sweeter.omfg, nowadays, people have no ettiquette to just say please or excuse. UNGENTLEMEN! disgusting.35 minutes to fly home time. whee!but it's okay, for every bastard out there are always nice people that make it up along with a nice movie last friday, tristan and isolde. :) with nadia, eunice, chuiling and janis! and a meal at long john's silver.
girlwithabroken(: : 17:24
I dont know what to study after I complete my degree. I dont know which university I want to go to yet. and I wonder which university will accept me. and if I dont get in I want to be an air stewardess for maybe 2 years if I can get pass interviews and selections. ahhaha. if I have a chance to continue studying I'll studying mining sciene or mining technology. THEN, I can be a gold digger. mine all those walking-gold-mines. heh :))) that's utter bullshit. let's see... chips, maggi mee with egg, salad and green tea for lunch. and maybe a kit kat bar. :DI have very high expectations of myself. not exactly arrogant but the past tense of can is can't. I'll just study whatever I'll study, on assumption that I study what I like, I'll be happy, do my best and I dont worry if i can get a job or not, or how much money my degree or honours will bring. please sgeans should have less worry abt finding a job.
girlwithabroken(: : 11:22
I am a ROBBER
because, this is the fifth silver chain/necklace I broke in one year. on a wear-basis of less than 5 days, it will break. argh. I can rob people of their necklaces because even when I change my clothes I can break them. just imagine :( sigh. daddy got it for me, one was my mum's and one was from yicong. kept all the pendants nonetheless. ROBBER INSTINCTS and ROBBERLY skills.went for dinner with Nadia and Eunice and we had thai ala-carte. 3 people, 6 dishes. haha! but I think it was pretty worth it! had good fun though we were all tired after sch and work. I bought a top from top shop and a necklace from there. I hope I dont break this one :( it's kind of a favourite. shall bring maggi mee to work to micro wave and eat. will save me 10++ this week. better than saving nothing. maybe an egg to go along too.attachment... :( really tired. one episode of L word and a nose mask will make my day, plus good food and nice people and... :)))
girlwithabroken(: : 23:15
I swear... one day I really will get caught. yesterday was throwing my reciepts out of the window, today cotton wools. anyway I have stopped watching L word for awhile because Glen is over at my place, my sister's friends. I think he didnt realise I was in my boxers. they look pretty alright still. I'm glad he is well now, he made friends with my sister when they were in hospital. he is the son of my daddy's friend, mr koh. the one with 4 people staying in the house and having 7 cars instead. well, that's alot of washing to do. can't wait to go out with the girls later, chuiling, nadia, eunice and janis. not sure if anyone else is coming along but they didnt get back to me anyway. tristan and isolde makes our day, from the producers of lord of the rings, and plus great company. was supposed to go to the beach today though.
girlwithabroken(: : 14:02
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
I better trying to pick little fights with any guy friend of mine. went to MOS on sat with nadia, chuiling, siewyuan, yinghui, Janis. it was alright, just that, i was emo-emo. it was chuiling's bday at 12 am that saturday night :) gerald seem to remind me of someone who just disappeared from my life then. I only realised yesterday why I was dissed with for no apparent reason. I am getting out of hand. asked him to go away for nothing. oh, saturday we saw the saddest face ever. hahahahha. it was raining, and I could just imagine the sad pathetic face but really it was so funny. although I really cannot empathize with it. haha.yawn. another 1 hour twenty minutes till lunch time, super duper sick of work. went to carls with eunice on monday. beef cheese fries always makes mondays a huffalump. I could just fall asleep staring at this moniter screen, bored to tears. machine work. bought a red top on monday, and eunice got pretty green heelies and a red polka top. today I am going to sleep twelve hours. hopefully i have the money to cab home so that I can get more rest. I woke up last night because nic called and told me he found my zagro tap card in the car yesterday. spoke to gerald abit yesterday. and have nice dinner with janis, appetizing our unsatiable craving a little. but I really am eating alot, after eating I slept, I woke up and fried nuggets, watched L word abit, talk to gerald abit, dotaed one round. I couldnt wait to sleep. just felt so not-myself for counting 4 days already. hope swimming on friday will "wake" me up. haha.met nic on monday after eunice left. not to mention I waited for him an hour plus for him and his friend to
girlwithabroken(: : 10:26
kaleidoscopic
adj : continually shifting or rapidly changing
ka·lei·do·scope
A tube-shaped optical instrument that is rotated to produce a succession of symmetrical designs by means of mirrors reflecting the constantly changing patterns made by bits of colored glass at one end of the tube.
A constantly changing set of colors.
A series of changing phases or events: a kaleidoscope of illusions.
"some people say that my vision breaks all rules and is wildly kaleidoscopic"
desparately trying to keep my mind intact. I just dont feel myself, maybe I'm too tired, im lacking reasoning in myself and I just feel weird. like, as if my body and mind worked without chronology, i couldnt say my mind and body worked independantly. it would sound like pure redundance. maybe rest is what i need. rest, not sleep. it's so hard. decided to do something worthwhile with my time. reading a book by richard branson, learn a couple of wouds. this book has a pretty engaging story, autobiographies does it. meeting janis for dinner! yumyum. and duck rice on sunday. hoho. never be replaced FOOD. :) getting off work soon. a walk to the toilet will do the 13 minutes peace. and a few pages of the book. facial will be postponed till the neighbours stop feeling tired. haha.
girlwithabroken(: : 17:38
oh my goodness! my blog has been tagged by someone who thinks I did her wrong last month. oh my firstly, u got ur wrong facts right. it was last week. not last month, better think before you type and get ur facts right before you point the finger at me and accuse me of anything. better find out the TRUTH because I ain't the shield for anyone. such a pity. got my blog address because u were friendstering me through someone else. right? better scram.indefinately, today was a darn boring day. going to meet eunice later. cant wait but her present isnt done up yet. she has already ended work. its only quarter pass four.
girlwithabroken(: : 16:01
nous vous saurions gré de se casserautrefois les gens sont simplement ingrats, mais il prend tout le type de personnes pour faire ce monde aller autour de bonnes gens de prises avoir de mauvaises personnes autour, prend de mauvaises personnes pour avoir de bonnes gens autourkindly please fuck off. sometime people are just ungrateful, but it takes all type of people to make this world go round. takes good people to have bad people around, takes bad people to have good people around.If I do not wish to reply ur msg. dont ask me why, couz I think ure just a waste of my 5 cents. haha. I'd like to get some rest before tonight. girls night. it will be fun. colour code and all. spent the day on the phone with nadia and putting together the bed. much carpentry. I'm aching all over now. the instructions were not good, the labelling of screws were wrong. and it just wasnt good, it wasnt from Ikea thats why. argh fustrated with it just now but its done now, my sister is using it. :) did jigsaw, finished the borders and some parts of mickey! MOS tonight, and chuiling's birthday I cant wait really. going to be so much fun. will be meeting Janis before we head down to town. hope to keep this chapter of my life on replay mode. another year to go, and again we move our separate ways. going to meet edmund in town to talk abt his company, mediacorp apparently and then meet yinghui and siew to cab to clarke quay.oh yeah and dont talk to me abt lovey dovey couple shit. not for my ears only ;) unless u can promise u will nv pangseh.
girlwithabroken(: : 17:58
it's a sleepy morning again! but well it's a friday shalala. hahah. finally man. anyway eunicengiam is very rude, she just removed her comment section in her blog, and before that she removed all her tagboards and links to prevent blog surfing. haha! you say me and janis and we cannot reply couz there's no comment section. its like we have no say! WOMAN! :P :P I really hope u can come on sat. will be fun with BYEBYE and all. hahaha. all the erractics.will be going to the beach tmr for tanning. cant wait cant wait. supposed to donate blood but i think I'll die when I bake in the sun there after. haha. I wanna get navel piercing maybe! but! I need to start exercising. or like now shopping is my only exercise :D hungry. lunch time is in half an hour. finished my work for awhile. have to get back to doing work soon. maybe aft lunch :D I AM a bum. hungry already, hope can get some good food and maybe some rest tonight. I definately cant go for the chalet already, because I've taken MC 2 times alreaduy. feeling bad already. MMMM.
girlwithabroken(: : 11:34
had loads of fun these 2 days. worked, met siew and some others for dinner, went off to watch munich with ronnie. movie was not bad, slightly gruesome. but good! steven spielburg film. took an mc on wednesday, I felt damn shitty when I woke up. slept less than 4 hrs for the past 5 days already. met jacq in town, we got a sweater each, i bought a maroon, pullover, hmmm could be work as a top just like tt too. hmmm she got a red one with three stripeys. haha. bought 3 other plain tops, so that they can match the skirts I have. pink black and white. ate at pastamania, not to mention the headache. went to see the doctor near my place. offered 2 days mc but I said it was okay.
went home to rest for an hour or so. went out to meet janis to head to town together. I think I was the last person to know that China Black has closed down. maybe its because of their soap tasting diluted drinks. so me jan and chuiling headed to gotham instead for drinks. 3 glasses. all wasnt really nice. vodka orange, vodka ribena, "raspberry" vodka ( they just added more ribena). haha. happened we walked out and we met royston and his friend, eugene. took a cab down to zouk. met nadia and siew yuan there. was quite fun but I didnt know why Jiaen didnt go yesterday. hmmm. was very fun actually. hmmm. still aching from yesterday. going to have a good dinner and head home for some rest if not maybe supper (: time to zoom off very soon.
girlwithabroken(: : 10:46
wheeee. i cant wait. another 12 minutes before I end work. a fully charged ipod to accompany me while im doing my work is good. I wanna get the other 4000 songs from patrick. i havent been in touch with music. geez. old yet fantabulous sounds still though. I'm already hungry before leaving work. didnt eat much for lunch. :( wasting my money again. I forgot to ask for fish instead of pork. hate pork. love my pork. ;))) joyce is having a party next next week and she hopes all of us can go. free flow hopefully. haha.had a very bad headache this morning till now. all effects of the lack of sleep. darn. better catch up tonight so maybe I'll not dota, or maybe I'll watch L word today. looking forward to donating blood next week and tanning at the beach on saturday :D travelled to and fro town with Jacq yesterday. ice age 2 was darn cute. kept me pretty occupied because there was some one calling the ACORN a CHESTNUT. the only resemblence of both is the colour. one grows in the grown, one grows on trees. I tried correcting her. oh I love the show couz there were mammoths n pirnahs, how thrilling and adorable. going to town to get eunice a pressieee. sorry its so late my dearie dear. ;) off work, NOW. i think I'd like to watch Haffalump. the purple elephant show. HAHA.
girlwithabroken(: : 17:41
something I should really always remember. things shouldnt start, because once they do they all come to an end. no start means there can be no end. I should be doing something with my life. work, donate blood, exercise, rest more, make more friends.give me a hug, give me a hug. thanks for all the concern I'll be strong. I have a new blog.
girlwithabroken(: : 14:34
WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?
WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?
WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?somebody tell me why. hold me and tell me the answer.
girlwithabroken(: : 00:52
Colour Full Spools
we have to lose everything before we stand to gain everything.
left patricks house at like 12 plus in the afternoon and went home. I took the bus to punggol. at least I realised a few stops BEFORE reaching Punggol. haha. this is so me... always taking the wrong sides. went home to rush my report before going out with my sister and mommy to pick my cousin and her husband to go to my aunt's place. I ate some food and fell asleep. I think the new contacts I got for trial was good. its 160 bucks. I think its reasonable. I was quoted 180 by my old optician. I am getting old! because at 18 your eye sight gets slightly better by abt 75 - 100 I think. have an artical to write regarding the topic Artifical Organs but I didnt have time to get the format of the article just yet.went to Swiss Hotel to see my sister play at the lounge. I lost my wallet at raffles city toilet. it was damn dumb thing to do. I realised halfie later. and I walked up and down there for 1 hour becuase there was no one to help me, no concierge and no security guards! suddenly the bank. called me, and call connected the police to me. some one returned my wallet to outram park police station. I really really thank the person. if not i would have lost 4 membership cards, 2 atm cards, IC, PDL and ez-link. argh. thank you so much. I felt generous yesterday because I was supposed to be 300 bucks poorer than I was. but thanks to the lady. thank goodness. there are still really nice and honest people out there. thanks for showing me something. :))) something different.went clubbing at Liquid Room yesterday. me and siew missed eunice. ;( one less person to boogie. hehehe. saw my secondary sch mates, arif and alif. it was fun, I only reached there at 1 plus. haha. I missed the free drinks. so I got a tequila shot and vodka redbull. I liked both of the drink/shot. saltish, sourish and hot. jiaen was there too. she's still as cute, ying hui went too. we havent decided on wednesday yet. haha. and the nice bartender helped me keep my jacket. after we left we walked to seven eleven to get drinks for the sake of rehydration and left in cabs.many people's birthdays. these 3 days, 31, 1st and 2nd. it's tasha's bday, kenneth chng's, yauting's and geraldho's. I hope all of you girls n guys had a greatttttt time. I owe eunicengiam a present. sorry lady. I have yet to go down to town to get it. :))) at least I know its something she really wants. I tried searching for a bag but nothing really that nice while I was waiting for Jacq on friday.
girlwithabroken(: : 20:09