Wednesday, June 28, 2006
somethings came flying right back at me yesterday. it was 27th July 2006. the tenth mon-sary. and the much await official anniversary wouldnt come anymore. it hurt. it still does. I dont know what to do. I really dont.
it was fun shopping with ngiam yesterday and accompanying her to dental. I have decided to put braces and my mummy and daddy agreed. I miss daddy so much now. sososo much. when I heard he was on the line with mummy I ran to her room to talk to him. I miss him~ I dont want him to leave again. sigh. he's so busy he forgets to reply my sms and at 8pm he was still working in the canoe factory :(
I hope, when I am angry I would scream, I hope when I am sad I would cry, I hope when I am happy I would laugh, and when I am tired I would rest and when I sick I would be well and I hope when I see daddy I will hug him, I hope this tears in my eyes will dispel and I hope that tears wont greet me for somewhile.
The Beatles - Yesterday
Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away.
Now it looks as though their here to stay.
Oh I believe in yesterday
Suddenly, I'm no half the man I used to be.
There's a shadow hanging over me.
Oh yesterday came suddenly.
Why she had to go she wouldn't say.
I said something wrong now I long for yesterday.
Yesterday love such easy game to play
Now i need a place to hide away
Oh I believe in yesterday.
Why she had to go she wouldn't say.
I said something wrong now I long for yesterday.
I said something wrong now I long for yesterday.
Carpenters - Yesterday Once More
When I was young I'd listen to the radio
Waiting for my favorite songs
When they played I'd sing along
It made me smile
Those were such happy times
And not so long ago
How I wondered where they'd gone
But they're back again
Just like a long lost friend
All the songs I loved so well
Every Sha-la-la-la Every Wo-wo-wo
Still shines Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they started to sing
So fine When they get to the part
Where he's breakin' her heart
It can really make me cry
Just like before
It's yesterday once more
Looking back on how it was
In years gone by
And the good times that
I had Makes today seem rather sad
So much has changed
It was songs of love that I would sing to then
And I'd memorize each word
Those old melodies
Still sound so good to me
As they melt the years away
All my best memories
Come back clearly to me
Some can even make me cry
Just like before
It's yesterday once more
girlwithabroken(: : 20:36
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
girlwithabroken(: : 23:19
me & maple
people can assume what they want of me. shan't be bothered to explain already. I can't help it if you just want to find reasons to hate me or blame me. flam me will you? stop accusing me of what I didn't do. It's not like it doesnt hurt. it's me against the world if I wanted to say no. I just have a clear consceince (bah I can't spell) and I know what I'm doing and was doing and maybe I know what I'll be doing. but it just has to stop. it just stops there. let me show you evidence of a scandal and no strings attached tomorrow. haha. woo~ 2 hours of school tmr only :) hehe. happiness. just maple & me now :))) at least there's no heartache in there.
Lycanthropes and werewolves ain't that much after all :) intimacyZX, ne11y, Fadinstar, HoneyBelle.
girlwithabroken(: : 02:26
Sunday, June 25, 2006
25/06/2006 Maple fun! <3
girlwithabroken(: : 21:47
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.(x2)
there will and can be ten too many things for you to be angry about if you just want to find fault with a person. if you just want to have multiple reasons to hate me, there is nothing I can do. I grant you your wish. think whatever you you want. I hope it wont matter in time to come anymore.
on a happier note. there are a few cutie screen shots.
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.(x2)
there will and can be ten too many things for you to be angry about if you just want to find fault with a person. if you just want to have multiple reasons to hate me, there is nothing I can do. I grant you your wish. think whatever you you want. I hope it wont matter in time to come anymore.
on a happier note. there are a few cutie screen shots.
girlwithabroken(: : 20:28
home for less than an hour. feeling upset couz I'm really hungry.
mos with chuiling and nadia. it was fun. always very happy to see them. I hope the 6 of us can go out again. soon. eating the left overs from my aunt's bbq just now. I didnt attend it though. way too lazy. hmmm. mapled. currently level 53. seems like I'll never reach 3rd job class!
waiting for my hair to dry. shall maple now. soon. :)
mos with chuiling and nadia. it was fun. always very happy to see them. I hope the 6 of us can go out again. soon. eating the left overs from my aunt's bbq just now. I didnt attend it though. way too lazy. hmmm. mapled. currently level 53. seems like I'll never reach 3rd job class!
waiting for my hair to dry. shall maple now. soon. :)
girlwithabroken(: : 06:17
Thursday, June 22, 2006
I have just realised to my horror, that I do not possess the softcopy nor the hardcopy of my second interim report. and now, I can't really continue with my final report. sheesh. and I emailed myself the wrong copy of the report I was doing. arghghghgh. so the words are all missing and I just topped it up anyhow. so now I have about 550 words. I emailed Julia Gandhi for my second interim report. I HOPE AND PRAY I can get it back. so I dont have to wreck my brains and think about the stupid time I had at work then. stuuupid me. I hope she mails me back tomorrow. or IF she even has it still. she's in the states now though. this is really a cross fingers situation.
went shopping after going for the final year project talks today. and yes I got a dress, top and under-tops. and the day before I got a pair of jeans and slippers. and I have been eating like a cow nonetheless. and I am hungry again now! looking forward to later, but not the library talk of course. going to the beach again. oh yea. it always is relaxing and happy to be there. wheeeeeeee. dead tired. will sleep by 0130hours. I hope I can. when I actually finally sat down to do the report, it apparently "disappeared", my sheer blurness and carelessness. lose myself one day :( I enjoyed my day today. hugs jan, hugs ngiam :) hugs pork, mirza, hedzlyn, eileen :)) shufang, and peihua. mannnnnnnnnnnn. Imma go pig again.
I need new songs, I wanna use my shuffle again but I also need new ear phones. I need to alter my levi's jeans, I need to alter my guess jeans, I may have to alter the dress I bought, I need the sun, I need my slp, I need 3 blankies and 2 pillows and a bolster when I slp, I need to renew my provisional driving license.
BIG BIG FONTS (:
went shopping after going for the final year project talks today. and yes I got a dress, top and under-tops. and the day before I got a pair of jeans and slippers. and I have been eating like a cow nonetheless. and I am hungry again now! looking forward to later, but not the library talk of course. going to the beach again. oh yea. it always is relaxing and happy to be there. wheeeeeeee. dead tired. will sleep by 0130hours. I hope I can. when I actually finally sat down to do the report, it apparently "disappeared", my sheer blurness and carelessness. lose myself one day :( I enjoyed my day today. hugs jan, hugs ngiam :) hugs pork, mirza, hedzlyn, eileen :)) shufang, and peihua. mannnnnnnnnnnn. Imma go pig again.
I need new songs, I wanna use my shuffle again but I also need new ear phones. I need to alter my levi's jeans, I need to alter my guess jeans, I may have to alter the dress I bought, I need the sun, I need my slp, I need 3 blankies and 2 pillows and a bolster when I slp, I need to renew my provisional driving license.
BIG BIG FONTS (:
girlwithabroken(: : 00:34
Saturday, June 17, 2006
totally tired. totally.
girlwithabroken(: : 21:45
Friday, June 16, 2006
EUPHORIA~ is calling me! 15 mins. haha. the 2 ear studs will be today's significance =D and the 4D ticket from mark poh and the present from my 2 other colleagues!
girlwithabroken(: : 17:42
sing a sad song just to turn it around, you say you dont know, you tell me dont lie, you work at a smile and you go for a ride.
I have a banana, muffin and 2 slices of bread on my desk right now. havent felt like eating yet though. been ebaying and late for work. shall continue on my report before i go for japanese lunch! maybe sushi or something. I have to renew my provisional driving license! I MUST remember to do it, at least by end of next week. I cant remember when my driving revision dates are. really really hope I'll pass the 1st time round. will pierce the upper part of my ear later, just for significance. LAST DAY!!! yay! I'm going to be treated reeeeeeeeeel nice today, I think. period. :( ruin my plans for the beach tomorrow, but I'll still go have fun! :D :D
Where is the moment when we need it the most You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost They tell me your blue sky's faded to grey They tell me your passion's gone away And I don't need no carrying on.
I have a banana, muffin and 2 slices of bread on my desk right now. havent felt like eating yet though. been ebaying and late for work. shall continue on my report before i go for japanese lunch! maybe sushi or something. I have to renew my provisional driving license! I MUST remember to do it, at least by end of next week. I cant remember when my driving revision dates are. really really hope I'll pass the 1st time round. will pierce the upper part of my ear later, just for significance. LAST DAY!!! yay! I'm going to be treated reeeeeeeeeel nice today, I think. period. :( ruin my plans for the beach tomorrow, but I'll still go have fun! :D :D
Where is the moment when we need it the most You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost They tell me your blue sky's faded to grey They tell me your passion's gone away And I don't need no carrying on.
VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PATRICK! :) *throws colourful pretty confetti*
girlwithabroken(: : 09:47
Thursday, June 15, 2006
yay! today! I finally finished typing all the contacts for the aqua database! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! I havent got anything to do at the moment. for like the first time! I am so happy! so so so so so happy! euphoric. time pass really slowly today! maybe because I'm really really sleepy. I slept only 2 hours. I cant deny I'm not thinking about what happened yest. but for now, attachment-end matters the most to me! online shopping for new clothes and a belt and maybe a dress. seeking for opinions! :) I didnt meet Nic last night, I think he was really tired. life's good! daddy's coming back in a week or two, my hammies are fat, I have great mp3s on my handphone, I have nice friends, and I am seeking nice new purse.
I'll be meeting up with some friends later. I think it'll be great fun. minus my eyebags, my specs and my 4 pimples and sheesh, secret, only one person realises. I totally forgot about the meeting at the cafe today, totally. have work to do again. argh.
I NEED A HUG :(
today's add-on.
I am going to run off from work in 10 minutes. I havent had anything to do for quite long. and maybe tmr i can complete another 1000 words for my report. making it HALF-done. so super hungry again now, whats with me and eating so much and feeling empty in one hour. YES, TANNING ON saturday makes my week. and of course I wanna wanna wanna so wanna meet my eyecandy. that's a lie, just a busy friend with hectic schedule and all. but then again maybe u arent free again! I think I have just asked questions where by someone cant answer and is keeping uber quiet. ah fuck your that slut alright. stupid boys, what do u all use to think? brain? highly doubt so. cut off all ur heads.
excited about later on. (: pamper me couz im upset right cin? hahha. I wanna pierce the top part of my ear, top left would be prefered if not it'd hurt like hell when IF i still do talk on the phone. I wanna put braces too, just thinking if its really necessary. thats if i have a bite problem. wanna know if I can do a tongue stud too. woot. running of in... 4, 3, 2, 1.
I'll be meeting up with some friends later. I think it'll be great fun. minus my eyebags, my specs and my 4 pimples and sheesh, secret, only one person realises. I totally forgot about the meeting at the cafe today, totally. have work to do again. argh.
I NEED A HUG :(
today's add-on.
I am going to run off from work in 10 minutes. I havent had anything to do for quite long. and maybe tmr i can complete another 1000 words for my report. making it HALF-done. so super hungry again now, whats with me and eating so much and feeling empty in one hour. YES, TANNING ON saturday makes my week. and of course I wanna wanna wanna so wanna meet my eyecandy. that's a lie, just a busy friend with hectic schedule and all. but then again maybe u arent free again! I think I have just asked questions where by someone cant answer and is keeping uber quiet. ah fuck your that slut alright. stupid boys, what do u all use to think? brain? highly doubt so. cut off all ur heads.
excited about later on. (: pamper me couz im upset right cin? hahha. I wanna pierce the top part of my ear, top left would be prefered if not it'd hurt like hell when IF i still do talk on the phone. I wanna put braces too, just thinking if its really necessary. thats if i have a bite problem. wanna know if I can do a tongue stud too. woot. running of in... 4, 3, 2, 1.
girlwithabroken(: : 15:05
I knew today would hurt. but my stubborness just made me have to see things for myself. for that moment, I felt blank. I wasnt angry, I havent felt angry even just yet. I just felt lost and silly and I needed to get out of there. but I had to see it for myself, get over it and get stronger. I saw it coming, and I even knew who it would've happened with. defile my observance. seeing and looking are just two different things. it happened anyway.
it was still a great day. seeing yuan, seeing my sec sch friends, seeing 2 alvins, my sec sch friend alvin, denghui and canoe polo alvin, knowing daffy who needed to borrow my ID and santos, some liq room regular, met the birthday girl Mich, and another girl called Diane, talked to joyce arriola too and rena. the dumbest thing I did was lose the credit card. I really have no idea how it dropped out of the black clutch joyce passed to me to pass to rena. sigh. I am really sorry for it :( time to get some shut eye, real soon. I'm so sorry once again.
please not again, please not again. must it be reoccurant?
it was still a great day. seeing yuan, seeing my sec sch friends, seeing 2 alvins, my sec sch friend alvin, denghui and canoe polo alvin, knowing daffy who needed to borrow my ID and santos, some liq room regular, met the birthday girl Mich, and another girl called Diane, talked to joyce arriola too and rena. the dumbest thing I did was lose the credit card. I really have no idea how it dropped out of the black clutch joyce passed to me to pass to rena. sigh. I am really sorry for it :( time to get some shut eye, real soon. I'm so sorry once again.
please not again, please not again. must it be reoccurant?
girlwithabroken(: : 05:05
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
hmmm. I am confused, lost and drained. I think I have to stop thinking, just do my work for the next three days. after all it's been three months, somewhere inside still hurts. and I am not ready. I dont want another fail odds higher than working out relationship. yes I am sorry, I wasn't good enough, I am sorry that I can't be the one, I am sorry I can't be there to see you smile anymore, I am sorry because I broke you, I am sorry for being with you even though I was gonna go away next year. it's not like it didn't hurt as much for me to make a decision. as much as you put in, I did too. not gg to go on comparing anymore because it'll be a selfish act. I never really thought I was of any calibre.
was about to order shirts from threadless.com but the website was down. I called Jan just now but already asleep I guess. get well soon (((: hmm.. i found my IC! yay.
might to to phuture tomorrow with siewyuan and jiaen and cousins. saturday liquid room as usual, and great big cheers to those who'll finish attachment this friday, 16th june. a day to commemorate for me. haha!
was about to order shirts from threadless.com but the website was down. I called Jan just now but already asleep I guess. get well soon (((: hmm.. i found my IC! yay.
might to to phuture tomorrow with siewyuan and jiaen and cousins. saturday liquid room as usual, and great big cheers to those who'll finish attachment this friday, 16th june. a day to commemorate for me. haha!
girlwithabroken(: : 01:24
Monday, June 12, 2006
havent been blogging for quite awhile.
I dont know.
I think I have changed quite alot. but that isnt the matter for now. enjoying life to the fullest now! anyway attachment will end in about 92 and a half hours time to be very exact. and whatever I expected to happen the moment I start attachment came. but it's almost over now. and I am happy. so many other things I can and should and want to be happy about. my nice pretty friends, especially the girls :) , the entertainers on saturdays, my korkor. slept 2 and a half hours on saturday, now my eyerings are officially opague right now. but that's okay, spent the whole weekend with eunice and saturday night with the pretty ladies. met alvin up for 10 minutes and after that we hopped from Liq room to mos then back to meet siew and jiaen.
I didnt bring my handphone to work today! might go back home to get it and change to slippers during lunch break! my brother uploaded the songs for me, THEN, I left it at his com while playing maple this morning. gonna go to punggol again for the consultation, to see whats right/wrong. hehe.
thanks janis for the song. :) and eunice for the avenge7fold song. :)))) the SIGHT was heartwarming, SO PLEASE KEEP IT UP. I'll be the happiest girl for you! yay~ :D you know what I mean. :D
my toe is bruised. I am cursed with the "step on my feet and toes-look". ow.
I dont know.
I think I have changed quite alot. but that isnt the matter for now. enjoying life to the fullest now! anyway attachment will end in about 92 and a half hours time to be very exact. and whatever I expected to happen the moment I start attachment came. but it's almost over now. and I am happy. so many other things I can and should and want to be happy about. my nice pretty friends, especially the girls :) , the entertainers on saturdays, my korkor. slept 2 and a half hours on saturday, now my eyerings are officially opague right now. but that's okay, spent the whole weekend with eunice and saturday night with the pretty ladies. met alvin up for 10 minutes and after that we hopped from Liq room to mos then back to meet siew and jiaen.
I didnt bring my handphone to work today! might go back home to get it and change to slippers during lunch break! my brother uploaded the songs for me, THEN, I left it at his com while playing maple this morning. gonna go to punggol again for the consultation, to see whats right/wrong. hehe.
thanks janis for the song. :) and eunice for the avenge7fold song. :)))) the SIGHT was heartwarming, SO PLEASE KEEP IT UP. I'll be the happiest girl for you! yay~ :D you know what I mean. :D
my toe is bruised. I am cursed with the "step on my feet and toes-look". ow.
girlwithabroken(: : 09:14
Thursday, June 01, 2006
why some people just, dont-care? it hurts. it just does. cant help but think about it for this moment, and as a matter of fact. why? aren't we friends? weren't we friends?
friendship may this word is non-existant due to the different world we're living in now. and so are many other words and things. oh well...
just happy eating the NY chocolate and looking forward to the end of everything when I will leave for China for a week.
friendship may this word is non-existant due to the different world we're living in now. and so are many other words and things. oh well...
just happy eating the NY chocolate and looking forward to the end of everything when I will leave for China for a week.
girlwithabroken(: : 14:13
