Wednesday, February 20, 2008

i am now blogging @ euniquee.com

please relink and remind me to link u up too!
ciaos :)

Sunday, September 23, 2007

i can't believe that u think that i caused u a heartache.
would i be someone like that.
you known me for years.
i really care a lot for you
weren't you able to see or feel it.

i still cant believe u told me that.











your daughter'd never do such a thing ok.
it hurt.

Thursday, September 13, 2007

well, praising or whatsoever dosen't really help.
nice muscles?
good grades?
keep it up?
good?

well.
it dosen't matter who says it except me


its all just biased to you thought what im saying is the truth.
maybe i shall just emply people to say it to you
i suppose it'd be much better.


well, keep up ur grades.
keep up ur muscles, their nice.
keep up ur love.




choose to believe it or think its biased.
whatever.



goodnight
night
night



giddiness.

well, so it seems after so long, i don't know u at all.
that's sad for me.

how sad.

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

wow hey i havent been here since national day.
ok ive been studying and slacking around. it has already been the start of the 1st week of holidays and wow friends arnd me are all desperate looking for jobs. why so desperate? i ask. i ain't anywhere close. maybe because i come from mars and im not supposed to belong in singapore. wierd huh. they all say its just cos i don't need to. whatever it is but i just don't understand why anxious over jobs when u're just 17 and supposed to be having fun. maybe i understand a lil. but never all. maybe i will not be able to fully understand in my whole life ever. i mean ok if ure really poor and need to help support ur family its okay i understand. or u want ur own pocket money cos u don't wana get it from ur parents cos u're old enough and getting money from them makes u feel bad. ok. maybe these reasons are enough to support. so lets see. since all my friends are working their asses off. what am i to do? work to? no man. why waste my sevenTEEN grinding my ass off in somewhere i dont belong at this time. hmm. who else ain't working. contact me and we shall go out and have fun huh. since there's like no need for us to work. so let just have some fun while we're young and not w8 till we get old and we really gota work our shits off whereby we dont even have time for fun then. hmm. im bored.

i walked in tt dumb air of shoes one whole day tdy till both toes have blisters. pain. knw what. i tink its better for girls to go shopping themselves rather than to bring guys who will only sulk or give bored faces while walking around. i mean well, girls accompany guys to go shop their stuff but why cant guys accompany girls to shop their stuff. is it that tiring. so far only my own guy can endure such "tiring" shopping trips with me. most would just either w8 outside shops while girls look at their stuff and of course, it comes together with that why the fuck am i here kind of expression. well, if u're just tired of walking around or shopping just go back home. its nice enough to knw that u're bored over girls stuff but u still cme along to accompany. however, with such a decision made. why those faces. lol! nvm. at least guys nowadays find themselves stuff to do when girls are shopping. EAT! or shop their own stuff.


but its really sad tt girls don't complain while shopping with guys u knw.
but it turns out untrue the other way round.
are girls stuff that boring or what.
jealousy due to having a flat chest, not enough for a bra?
oh man.



anyway ive been buying many things lately.
happy? like duh~
how am i gona spend my next 6 weeks? or 5?
staring at my comp? nah. ill just get everyone out and PLAY.
ppl like me myself and i.

Thursday, August 09, 2007

there something seriosuly wrog with my health lah.
oh god man. ow long more am i gona live.
when am i gona see that doc.
when
whats he gona do to me.
wat.

Sunday, August 05, 2007

my poor meimei =(

Saturday, August 04, 2007

so i end up having to sound like a depressed shit.

its early now.
i sat up all night thinking if i deserved that.
did i really deserve it.
was what i said really menacing or maligning.
maybe so.

its all because i din't know how to put words properly. and i made things sound like it has nothing to do with me, but just me being put into such a situation. the main victim.

come to think of it. if i really asked properly. and put words correctly to its exact meaning. would this still be the outcome.
was i really asking for something impossible.
was a really expecting too much or possibly forcing something to happen.
did i really use force. did i force? was i forcing?
i dont think so. i felt to me, that it was more of me wanting a hand to hold on to.
and yet sometimes true meaning and words won't come out but were left hidden inside.
so was this the cause.

all i thought of was that i merely wanted something badly which in the end when i got nothing, i had a bit of complain. sheesh. so why would i even wana complain. was i wrong for that? was i wrong to ask for something that i really wanted during that time? just for that time only. just for that once. and did i deserve such a big reaction for wad i wanted. did i deserve to be thrown in a corner made just for me to sit and think about what i done wrong..

what i done wrong... what did i do wrong... what...
in all, was that really what i deserved..

was what i asked for childish... or ridiculous... or impossible to accomplish...


after all that rewinding.
i came to a point where i felt that it was just me.
i asked for something in an unpolite manner.
no. i think i did not even ask. no, it was, i didn't dare to ask for it..
so i ended up hinting at it

but ended up having failed at my hint i got sad,
and put it across in a way that i had actually asked for it. which i hadn't.
and i end up getting myself into such a mess.

such a mess..
a mess..