Come On

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don’t belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don’t know what it’s like
When nothing feels alright
You don’t know what it’s like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you’re bleeding

No you don’t know what it’s like
When nothing feels alrightY
ou don’t know what it’s like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I’m happy
But I’m not gonna be ok!

Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don’t know what it’s like
What it’s like!

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life

rubber ducky talked to his rubber ducky at 5:19 AM

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

That's What Friends Are For

by Jess Ica

Together we've been through everything,
Some good times and some bad.
Some things have made us happy,
Others made us sad.
But no matter what has happened,
Through our tears and our mistakes,
You've always been here for me
To fix my heart before it breaks.
We've gone from heartaches to headaches,
Gone from fights to fears.
But I've always seen you by my side,
To pick me up and dry my tears.
Through rain or sunshine,
Whether it may be wind or snow,
I can always count on you to be there
Wherever we may go.
Even through our different troubles,
The won'ts the can'ts the will's,
You'd travel any distance,
Mountains, roads or hills.
Announcements or secrets,
Whatever they may be,
I'll always be here to lend an ear,
You can always count on me.
We've shared our secrets with each other,
And it continues going strong.
We've stayed best friends through decisions made,
Whether they be right or wrong.
As our lives change back and forth,
From one thing to another,
We will always stay in contact,
Best friends forever.
Through the years we've grown so close,
And I wish for hundreds more.
But if you need help then I'll be here...
Because that's what friends are for.

rubber ducky talked to his rubber ducky at 9:16 AM

I SAW Eternity the other night,
Like a great ring of pure and endless light,
All calm, as it was bright ;
And round beneath it,
Time in hours, days, years
Driv'n by the spheres
Like a vast shadow mov'd ;
in which the world
And all her train were hurl'd

rubber ducky talked to his rubber ducky at 8:46 AM

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me
You might think I don't look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
I'm attached to you
I'm weak
It's true
Cuz i'm afarid to know the answers
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life i've waiting
This is true

You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak
It's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know u met me?

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you

All my life i've waited
This is true
I know when I go I'll be on my way to you
The way thats true

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life
I've waited

This is true

rubber ducky talked to his rubber ducky at 6:19 PM

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

Hey rubber ducky. Been kinda long since I told you something. Well most of the times I tell you stuff because they are worth mentioning. It's pointless if this is just a diary. It's pointless if it's just a record of what happened during each day.

Okay, now back to my story. It all started when I was taking a cab home. Nothing much, didn't really expect much out of the day, didn't really expect... an inspiration...

Okay so I hopped on this cab, the cabby greeted me and we're off...

The cabby was a nice man, great with his language. I came in with an intention to just listen to my player and wait till we've reached. Yet he kept rantling on...

"JC?"

"Yea..."

"Great! Gotta study hard alright?"

"Guess so..."

"JC is a very big leap, soon you'll be in University. Gotta work hard!"

"I'm not sure... Things are so... different in JC... people don't seem that close anymore...Things don't seem that warm anymore..."

Without a single pause... he just said

"Who cares! Don't be hindered by your emotions. You can do alot of things if you take away those emotional barriers inside you!"

Actually that wasn't the point. The point was, he said something else...

"... Nothing is impossible. I see that you have big aspirations. You want to be a scientist eh? Work hard. Opportunities are abundant. Seize them. You want to earn big eh? Then work hard first. You know, It's good to have ambitions! It is always good to dream! But first, start small. Start by working hard for now. Start by studying hard! Only then can you fulfill your big ambitions. I see you have a bright future ahead! You're only 17, you have a big future ahead of you! I tell you, now isn't the time, start small first. Once you've hit above 20, then that's the time you fly! I've been around for 45 years already. Time I've settled down. Can't fly anymore. But you still can. You have a bright future ahead of you. You've told me your dream, and I know with your ability you can make it happen. I'm sure of it. Always remember, think big, start small..."

Before I left the cab, he patted my head.

The cabby's name was Liew.

You know rubber ducky, we're mere strangers, yet he could believe in my dream. Such a short period of time, and yet he was sure of my ambition. It was really amazing. Somehow that got me to think. Come to think of it, I've realised I've always been dreaming big. I've always wanted to be a multi-millionare and stuff. Haha, funny dream. But I've always hoped I'll make it big one day in the future. But I realised, that for now, I'll have to work hard, prove to the world that I can make it in anything that I do. I'll prove to the world that I can make it. In time to come, I'll make it big. But for now, I'll work hard. From this day onwards. I promise you, rubber ducky. I promise you, Lord...

Nothing is impossible, with the Lord...

Thank you Liew for your inspiration, thank you rubber ducky for listening to me.

Thank you Jesus, for having faith in me.

I shall never disppoint you all...

rubber ducky talked to his rubber ducky at 4:21 AM

Saturday, January 01, 2005

When you're close to tears remember
Someday it'll all be over
One day we're gonna get so high
Though it's darker than December
What's ahead is a different colour
One day we're gonna get so high

And at the end of the day remember the days
When we were close to the end
And wonder how we made it through the night
At the end of the day
Remember the way
We stayed so close to the end
We'll remember it was me and you

Cause we are gonna be
Forever, you and me
You willAlways keep it flying high in the sky
Of love

Don't you think it's time you started
Doing what we always wanted
One day we're gonna get so high
Cause even the impossible
Is easy when we got each other
One day we're gonna get so high

And at the end of the day remember the days
When we were close to the end
And wonder how we made it through the night
At the end of the day
Remember the way
We stayed so close to the end
We'll remember it was me and you

Cause we are gonna beForever, you and me
You willAlways keep it flying high in the sky
Of love

rubber ducky talked to his rubber ducky at 7:09 AM