Wednesday, June 30, 2004

today we had one of the most fun trainings that we haven't had (in a way) since last year june. hahahaha. he's got new and wacky ideas about how he can "test" us. neheheh. and poor meiying was up there alone! haha. then javier added an extra jump so it was counted as fail.. but wang didnt see! so he pretended he hadnt done his routine and went up again??! hahahaha. so funny! it's pretty useless though because wang would obviously know something was fishy. heheheh. but it gave us all a good laugh. haha. then oscarthegrouch was doing his adiv routine and we thought of how last year if we didnt siammm he would have landed right on us. heheheh. the few joys of training intensively during the june holidays.

muscle ache is killing me. it's been so long since we've done frog jumps i almost forgot how it would feel like the day after. and it's probably the last time we're going to be doing frog jumps. heheh. i think the juniors need more pt. tsk. ache ache ache can i chop off my legs? i told christl that her life was precious until next friday. hahaha. should have seen her face :D

i walked past two stalls of my yummylicious roadside icecream and i couldnt get any! im sad :( i loooove roadside icecream!

and i lost my nike bottle. AGAIN. for the second time. im kind of praying that tomorrow i go to school and i miraculously find it on my table or people in the school were honest enough to leave it on the canteen table. how could i be so forgetful?! apparently i hadnt learnt my lesson from the last time. gah.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 21:06

school has started its only the second day and im already deprived of sleep and falling asleep during classes. ss test today was bad partly because the two lessons before that i was falling asleep i was still in a state of unconsciousness when i took the stupid test. gah. test on the second day of school is such a nice "welcome back".

my dad wants me to stop watching tv completely till after o levels. i think he has gone crazy. that's a little bit extreme? at least to me it is because i dont think i would ever have the self discipline :S i need to start studying.

everyday training continues for this week and the next and then it would be all over. one thing to yay about is that we can finally concentrate on studies. today training was very tense somewhat. he kept having those tests and he threatens stuff like 10 rounds of frog jumps. i think he has reached breaking point and he slapped everyone with at least 5 rounds of frog jumps. im just afraid that this would affect the next few trainings. no matter how aa u say my routine is it actually isnt? i can feel it deproving with each training and im scared. it's becoming increasingly unstable gahh i don't know what to do. i don't want to disappoint.

sobfest has apparently begun. sigh. it's always this period. i don't want to see you do this to yourself you know? because we all know what's going on what you're going through why can't you just let us in? ok so maybe i was a little bit emotional today but everyone else was too. after training our juniors gave us sec4s a letter of "encouragement" somewhat. haha. was really very touched :) was so sweet of them. made me feel so guilty for being so harsh on them in the past month but i guess we didnt really have a choice. ahhh!! i'm going to miss them :( thank you meiying jiayee jeanne xiaozhu lingying and yining!!! love you~! yining wrote a 'dedication' to each of us on her blog too. haha. remember our "date" on the 8th june 2005 okay?

its been a week and my room is still four walls. the contractors are slacking!! i want my room :(

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 00:08

Sunday, June 27, 2004

its just one more day till school starts and i'm pretty much dead considering the amount of work that have yet to be done. but funny enough i'm not the least bit worried. and that worries me. lately my internet has been down thanks to the brainless contracter that pulled out the telephone wire.

mm.. tuesday we had the hotel room stay at the hyatt :) it was great! haha. wenyi and peibei went for the linkin park concert while me and mel painted the town red! haha. not really actually. we just walked and took gazillion neoprints but it was fun. then we went out till three plus before returning to the hotel and watching the match between italy and iforgotwho. wenyi went gallivanting with a special someone till 5am! tsk. then we all squeezed onto the king sized bed and freaked ourselves out about ghosts and shadows and all that. haha.

and im sad that england is out! :( beckham made a huge blunder.

this whole holiday has whizzed past so fast. maybe its the everyday training. i cant believe it's actually been three weeks. heheh. but training has become less draining and the synchro routines at sji are a lot of fun :) now it's just two more weeks left to competition. less than that actually. and i'm pretty freaked. as i am every year. and with the realization that the june holidays are soon coming to an end i've been having pretty weird mood swings during training :( every time this year i always feel like that. except that this year is just so much more worse. i hate myself for being like this. gahh. never mind. i don't know how to say this i bet no one is understanding a word of this. it seems a few weeks away from work has robbed me of writing abilities. haha.

i pray that everything will be okay.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 01:26

If We Hold On Together

Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith hope and glory
Hold to the truth
In your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams
Will never die
Dreams see us through
To forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

Souls in the winds
must learn how to mend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears
All away
Words are swaying
Someone is praying
Please let us come
Home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams
Will never die
Dreams see us through
To forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

When we are out there
In the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark
We'll feel the light
Warm our hearts
Everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams
Will never die
Dreams see us through
To forever
As high
As souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and I

haha.. this is just so appropriate now (:

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 00:11

Saturday, June 19, 2004

yesterday i came home to find my bedroom reduced to practically nothing. it's four white walls and a window. haha. it looks so plain. it's quite sad actually. after all i have lived in that princess-y room for 14 years now. haha. it's okay i've got pictures to remember how it used to look like :D and it now looks so big and spacious it even echoes. surprisingly the room is actually clean. i thought it would have been filled with debris and dust and all that. i really hope the contractors move fast and get it done fast. because the rest of the house is cluttered with cardboard boxes and trash bags. the amount of things i have.. tsk. i stayed up all the way till 3am the night before packing everything away into the boxes. it is such a tedious process. and in the process i unearthed so many things: the macs happy meal toys i have one whole bag of them.. my huge stack of enidblyton books.. even my baby teeth!! hahaha. the tooth fairy never came apparently :( anyways it's over and done with (: finally. i cant believe i really am renovating my room! after procrastinating for so long i kinda thought that this matter would be left hanging for a very long time.

i lost sleep over gym last night. i kept thinking about all the different ways i could screw up :S stupid.. i know. gahh. i really am worried. especially since each training is getting more and more slack. sighh. i hope this is a good year.

england won last night :D

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 02:08

Monday, June 14, 2004

i'm clearing the things out of my room now. or at least attempting to. i seem to never get anywhere. because i keep digging out things that i've long forgotten about and then they just bring back a flood of memories :) then i don't know if i should keep it or i should dump it or i should recycle it or i should give it to the less fortunate. i've got different trash bags for different purposes. haha. this is SUCH a tedious process. i hate it. i wish i could leave everything the way it was. sigh. i realise i have so many things. all safely stashed away in one corner or another. and my soft toys. gosh there's so much. haha. and so many of them are dirty and tattered and torn they're all still so cute. they look so ridiculous! haha. like the brown dog with the puppydog eyes and the orange monkey with limbs too long for its body and a nose missing and the pink mouse and the rabbit wearing a white tee that says hollywood. and i want to keep every single one of them. but gahh there isn't space. and i'm really sad. because i don't want to give them awayyy. help.

the designer just came around just now. and we've finalised everything and he's going to start work this wednesday. which means i have to clear everything out by tomorrow. it's like mission impossible. hai. i'm going to say goodbye to the room that i've had for what.. 14 years? gosh that sure is long. haha. it's just such a little girl's room. so princess-y and pink. hahahaha.

planned on studying this afternoon at j8 with ella and christl. we spent the first two hours basically walking around and doing nothing. then we went to macs and saw juniors and seniors and talked. and then we settled down to do work. i only managed to complete say.. 8 questions before i had to leave. productive aint it? and i think we're going to do it again this friday. haha. we're such a perfect study group. but at least we're not all falling asleep. :D

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 23:54

i just watched braveheart. it's so sad. i like the show. it reminds me a lot of the last samurai. the battle scenes and all that. anyway i think it's a good show. people then were so barbaric. they were throwing cabbages and goodnessknowswhatelse at him as he was brought out to be executed. you'd wonder how can people be so blind. he was probably the only one worthy of respect compared to the other significant roles. and the "king" of scotland was such a coward. a failure as a king he betrayed his own country. oh well at least he finally was enlightened. ooh and i never knew mel gibson had such nice blue eyes. or was it just contacts? probably not.

which reminds me i have to do a movie review on "life is beautiful". the movie that clh stole my break for. *scowl*

i feel so lost without training. haha. it's just weird to not be training today. and tomorrow. and it's just three more weeks. only three more weeks of gym. seeing that it's highly unlikely that i would continue gym in a div. sighh.

actually. i think you have a very sad life. sometimes i really do feel sorry for you. genuine sympathy i'm not being sarcastic.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 01:51

Sunday, June 13, 2004

today was our mini test of sorts. haha. ella was saying it's like our tys of gym :S we all had to wear the competition leotard (which by the way i don't quite like :S ) and do the whole walking in and 30sec warm-up. yep. pretty scary. and zhang wanted to go to the extent of being shorts-less as well. guess we've got to get used to it. my my.. only three more weeks. freaking out already man. juniors seem to be taking it pretty easy. we have decided that a pep talk is in order. haii. lest they arrive at the competition arena and get the shock of their lives and actually start panicking under all that pressure and it's too late to do anything about it. and i think with all the yelling and the frustration with the juniors i'm fast becoming the most irritating senior around :D haha. can't be helped though. he told them to train in the afternoon. so they went for training. and then he banned the b div from training at sji from now on?! what the hell. that guy is unfathomable. i don't understand from what i've heard. it's just so ridiculous. and they didn't even do anything wrong? i just hope he regrets it and asks us to go train because we need to train everyday. or else.. let's not even go there.

went to sentosa while the rest went for training :D ok bad girl. but its a class outing and ive been missing so many class outings because of gym. got there and swam in the sea for a while. so funn!! haha. they were trying to strip leexinyi of her fbts. tsk. but i don't like saltwater! ickk. then we went to play basketball with some guys there. haha. hey we were actually winning! except that there was five of us and three of them? yeah. but it's all in good fun. and i miss playing basketball!! can't stand it. haha. we used to play it every week and now it's like.. not at all. gah. yeah was hoping to get a tan but i spent such a short time there :( so sad to say i'm still tan-less. unfair!! so many of them got burnt like a red lobster because they were there since 11am?

then it was the four hour long german play at night. ohmygoodnessgraciousme. it was so long there were two intervals. the first part of the show was an hour and a half i couldn't take it i was falling asleep. physically tired marrr. with all the training and the playing. and i had absolutely no idea what the hell they were doing and talking about!! i was comforted that there were subtitles. till i realised the subtitles were in shakespearan language with all the "thou" and "thee" and i didn't understand!!! bahh. but then it started getting interesting so it wasn't that bad. just that at the end he took such a long time to kill desdemona and himself i was itching to get out of my seat already! it's like.. just kill yourself and get it over and done with man! haha. i guess i can't fully appreciate it because i don't know the significance of a lot of things they used. and i don't understand why the director would use this here and make him do this at this point of time. heck i haven't even read the book! but it's a.. new experience. hahaha. saw ellllllla. and she said her dad was snoring she had to nudge him!! heeheehee~ it ended at 12am. was like.. half-dead by then. oh well. i must learn how to appreciate such stuff :D apparently the indian couple next to me couldn't take it anymore they left during the second interval! hahaha.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 01:51

Saturday, June 12, 2004

the past few days have simply been training and training every day so there wasn't much to write about is there? dad got pissed that i'm doing homework while watching tv and demanded that i never do that again. fine then. i stopped doing homework altogether. bet he's really happy about that now.

watched harry potter and prisoner of azkaban today :D finally! after weeks and weeks of just talking about it. and the best thing is i watched it for free. because jiejie had these free tickets and she detests watching movies (i think she's weird too i don't understand her sometimes) so i got her tickets! haha. but problem was i didn't read the book so i was huh-ing throughout the movie not understanding and i made a lot of wild assumptions. haha. and they've all grown so much it's quite funny. haha. and i didn't know that the guy playing prof dumblesomething (i shall not even attempt to spell his name) passed away! i was wondering how come he grew so scrawny :S so i anyway i think it was great! dont know why some people think it wasn't very interesting. heh.

i was reading the papers.. the life section of course.. and i decided that othello was a great play and made a spur-on-the-moment decision to watch it. so mum asked jiejie and jiefu to watch it with me. and just about an hour and a half ago ella told me that her parents told her that it was in german. 0_0 great. i've gotten myself into quite a fix. we are going to sit through a four hour long play in german. hallelujah. we might as well be reading a storybook since all we'll be looking at is the subtitles. and the best thing is that i think my sister doesn't know. someone tell me how i can break it to her gently? :S i think she just might kill me. haha. yelp.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 01:23

Tuesday, June 08, 2004

i remember during the midyears we wanted a good laugh and decided to play a prank on someone. then we were wondering who to pull the trick on. and i suggested a certain xxx *grin* but germaine replied "don't want larh. i don't want to give her the impression that we actually give her any attention." hahahahahahahaha.

last day of school today! i think the school is really silly. just because we had a public holiday last wednesday we had to make it up today so that we'll have extra lessons for a full week. ok whatever man. haha. mrs soh let us off practically an hour early today though. and we had nothing to do so it kinda defeated the purpose. finally the holidays are actually starting. somewhat. at least we don't have to go to school anymore and wake up at 0630 every morning. but there's still the pile of homework waiting to be done and the constant reminder that these three weeks are going to be soooo crucial for studying etc.

crucial not only for academics i guess. competition is coming up. faster than i can ever imagine. and no, there is no AA routine no jam. what printer was it again? hahaha. come to think of it we are horribly crappy you know? what with all the AA and the gardens and backyards. hahaha. but this was what made training so fun two years back during this period. i still remember the trainings then! like how oscarthegrouch came flying back onto the mat we were sitting on just a second ago and how we thanked our lucky stars that we decided to remove ourselves before he really did come crashing down on us. but now there is just so much tension in the air everyone's standing around staring vacantly into space worrying about their routines and the next time they're up. or at least that's what's going through my head. i don't think i'll ever reach a point where i will be confident enough to do anything. i remember you asking "why are you always like that? always no confidence in yourself". haha. i have no idea. maybe that's just the way i am. so anyway the next few weeks are going to be hellish. training and studying training and studying. training everyday and studying everyday. and i cant complain because i know i need it. i just hope wanglaoshi will lighten up a little and actually treat us like human beings.

zixi said "mindpower is a very powerful thing. if you believe that you can do it, you can do it." hmm.. thanks for all the encouragement man. :) haha. and from the rest of you teammates too. haha. i'm always going "oh no i'm gonna die i'm so scared" and they're always there to go "no you'll be okay you'll be fine". haha. its becoming a routine already but i really just cant help it. :S

i wish you guys will stop telling me what to do. i may regret in future for not listening to your words of wisdom. but right now i just need a break and you're depriving me of it.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 00:13

Sunday, June 06, 2004

clh really pissed me off that day. i have never had such disrespect for teachers, not even for wanglaoshi. but then again she does not deserve our respect. b*tch.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 00:53

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xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 00:50

Saturday, June 05, 2004

yesterday i went to the lord of the rings exhibition with jiejie :D it's very niceee. there was this silicon figure of boromir in the boat after he died? and it looks so real!! goodness. there were so many things there we spent 5 hours simply looking at all the things. then they showed the making of the trilogy and andy serkis (playing gollum) is damn good!! he can speak gollum just like that. how the hell did he discover that voice! nicenice~ they had all the costumes that the people used too. they had legolas' bow and arrow and quiver there too :D oh and they spent ages on make-up for the people too. there was this uruk-hai warrior person that killed boromir? yahh.. he had to go to the place to put on makeup at 10pm in the night and they will spent 11hours on it so that he'll be ready the next morning. craziness right!! 11 hours simply on makeup. *faint*

training is getting increasingly physically and mentally draining. thanks bobo for coming back to visit us today :) you gave me reassurance for me to try the routine :D haha. i think i feel comfortable with a sort of older senior around. excluding wanglaoshi of course. haha. today i gave the juniors a wakeup call.. or at least tried to.. and as i counted off the days that we have left to competition.. i got my very own wakeup call :S this is a worrying situation we have here.

im too tired to do anything and i feel like im falling sick and i feel like a pig. somebody save me :(

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 17:17

Wednesday, June 02, 2004

i'm so bored. i've played just about every single game there is on the computer from freecell to minesweeper. that is as pathetic as it gets. i need to get a life *cringe* hahaha. seriously man.. there's nothing to do on the computer and nothing to do at all at 1am in the morning except sleep which pretty much isn't on my mind right now. how?

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 01:07

i've been feeling grouchy today and it's one of those days when people say you got up from the wrong side of bed. so i'm sorry to anyone out there who tried to speak to me and i just bit your head off :S just feeling lousy that's all.

training today was.. basically freaky. after not doing houkongchuai even on the mat for a million years he just made us do it on the trampoline without even allowing some practise first. gahh. i was that close to breaking my neck. and i was so irritated by him.. at the way he was training us. at how pointless it is. yes we have to be pushed to do well but not that hard. our juniors weren't used to that you know. and i hope i remember the feeling. of that last routine i did today. i wish i could just program it into my thick head. how easy that would be. :(

thanks a million for all those empty promises. while maybe to you it's just a casual remark but i actually took it seriously? yahh. and since you've already decided don't bother making up for it later.

oh i'm looking forward to friday! janicejiejie will be bringing me to the lord of the rings exhibition at the science theatre.. and then we're going to her house for a movie marathon. heehee~ exciting. and guess what? im going to watch with my oldest sister (who is already 30) brother bear and looney tunes. hahaha. how intellectual eh? but sometimes you just need a night of trashy movies and chips to lighten up and relax :)

everyone was shocked with my shorter hair. hahahaha. it's funny the reaction i get from different people. funny how they were all more devastated than i am!!! relax man it'll still grow. hahaha.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 00:20