Tuesday, March 28, 2006

JUNIORS! can you people please please PLEASE take good care of yourselves :( especially since wango isnt around this period of time!!

JEANNE take care of that arm!
JIAYI take care of that leg!
you guys are the most injury-prone batch ive ever encountered o.O
and just weeks before comps.
sigh, its such a waste, because i would have so loved to see you guys go out there again this year and do that routine.

:(

things are so screwed up.

come on come on, bring back nanyang's glory days, double golds. you can, if only you want it enough.
do you?



ive missed eileen. or someone who assumed the role of a captain like eileen, our ahma. (where have you been by the way?) i dont think anyone's quite risen to her standard. someone who isnt afraid to be hated, in christl's words. i remember how she yelled and how she compelled us to do things we so hated. but at the end of the day, its nothing but respect that we had for her. and when it was all over, looking at the big picture, we realised how everything she did was for our own good. because that was the year we bagged the double golds, swiped the individuals, all so effortlessly. call me arrogant, but it was true. and i remember that time we were sec2, and kim was smiling through her tears as she welcomed us back into the crowd after we competed cos she was just so damn happy. and i want to experience those emotions when i watch the juniors up there this year. give me good reason to.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 22:05

Sunday, March 26, 2006

hm. took this off lei's blog. i hate bio spa :( and everyone should go watch failure to launch! it was absolutely hilarious. chick flicks are healthy and therapeutic.


You chose CY - your Enneagram type is SIX.

"I am affectionate and skeptical"

Questioners are responsible, trustworthy, and value loyalty to family, friends, groups, and causes. Their personalities range broadly from reserved and timid to outspoken and confrontative.

How to Get Along with Me
*Be direct and clear.
*Listen to me carefully.
*Don't judge me for my anxiety.
*Work things through with me.
*Reassure me that everything is OK between us.
*Laugh and make jokes with me.
*Gently push me toward new experiences.
*Try not to overreact to my overreacting.

What I Like About Being a Six
*being committed and faithful to family and friends
*being responsible and hardworking
*being compassionate toward others
*having intellect and wit
*being a nonconformist
*confronting danger bravely
*being direct and assertive

What's Hard About Being a Six
*the constant push and pull involved in trying to make up my mind
*procrastinating because of fear of failure; having little confidence in myself
*fearing being abandoned or taken advantage of
*exhausting myself by worrying and scanning for danger
*wishing I had a rule book at work so I could do everything right
*being too critical of myself when I haven't lived up to my expectations

Sixes as Children Often
*are friendly, likable, and dependable, and/or sarcastic, bossy, and stubborn
*are anxious and hypervigilant; anticipate danger
*form a team of "us against them" with a best friend or parent
*look to groups or authorities to protect them and/or question authority and rebel
*are neglected or abused, come from unpredictable or alcoholic families, and/or take on the fearfulness of an overly anxious parent

Sixes as Parents
*are often loving, nurturing, and have a strong sense of duty
*are sometimes reluctant to give their children independence
*worry more than most that their children will get hurt
*sometimes have trouble saying no and setting boundaries

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 17:06

Friday, March 24, 2006

blocks are over (: but then again its just one other exam over, many more to come. SIGH.

watched v for vendetta. natalie portman is so hot, bald or not. and i wanna watch all her shows. someone says i watch movies for the star power, well good stars choose good scripts, dont they? and the show was very sad :( haha i dont really know why, but i just felt so so sad. sigh. sad, but very very good. i wanna buy the vcd :D

training was unsatisfying :( partly because our night training was cancelled. went to watch the juniors jump. sigh. i think i need to be fiercer! or else jeanne wont be scared of me :( i really hope they will be prepared in time for comp.. i worry. and then poo came but mr lee was going to close the gym! so we pleaded with him to let us just do one routine. synchroed our ztao (: with our houzhi added in. but since they changed the tramp the rhythm is kind of different.. so it wasnt perfectly in sync. sigh i hope this isnt going to be the last time we synchro.. ever. sji's the only gym with two tramps but poo wont come if wang is here! and i doubt he'd go away anytime soon since comp is nearing. we mustmustmust add in all our other flips :D and synchro c to b to adiv. haha we've only succeeded in doing that once before, its time we started training up our stamina. sean thinks we'd thrash everyone if we sent in a team from WANG'S GYM. confident eh. haha but its hard not to be, with two individual gold medalists in the team. whee. haha its funny sean said many things today that were meant to boost our ego. but since we arent like HIM, our heads could still fit through the door.

i want to train. theres not much time left. but then again, there will never be this point in time when ive jumped enough. i wish trainings dont just get cancelled like that all the time. its not the first time this is happening. plus sean and i were so excited about today's training! cos poo was coming and we were getting all high about it. how disappointing. poo said somehow this year we dont get the tramp to ourselves anymore. with so many many people. i wish wang wouldnt train so many schools. is it really all about the money? he doesnt even have enough time in a week to let each school train separately. gosh. whats going to happen when intensive training starts? which should be very very soon? we went to venezia to hang out since our night plans were disrupted. and talked over icecream (: HAHA good times, good times. we always end up reminiscing. so many many things. like how christl always loses at scissors paper stone with sean. and jon and ella winning the synchro competition, their reward two cans of green tea. getting punished for taking too long a water break. TEN ROUNDS just a week before comp :( but then ten rounds werent all that much at that time. haha. wang used to be alot stricter, scarier, effective last time. but also a whole lot more fun. when he conducted his silly little competitions between sji and ny (which we mostly win HA), blasting the music or hitting the tumbltrak like it was some drum to distract us (which doesnt really make sense cos normally theres this tense silence during comps). split us into two teams to play pt games, but we always came in at the same time so that neither team had to be punished. he seemed to enjoy teaching, there was the passion. now its.. just a job.

so much happened over the past few years. i fear that twenty years down the road these are just going to be hazy memories. i dont want to forget all these little details. i dont think im going to be so affected by the "ending of my career" on april 20th. after all i've been through it once before. and dealt with it. not very well(SOBFEST!), but still. i remember one week before comps in sec4 the fourofus huddled on the floor of sji crying because it seemed so inconceivable the notion of it all ending. but no matter what, im just going to have to pick up the pieces. and life goes on.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 22:30

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

jiejie disapproves of my being a surgical nurse. haha its the only way i can think of studying biology and medicine without wasting six years of my life. i think. she says why must you follow in my footsteps! nursing in singapore will never be treated as a true profession in the next ten years! something like that. damn cool lar she worked in operating theatre helped in delivery of babies. and i do think its quite fun. but she says fantasy and reality is two very different things. you think florence nightingale and wow how noble blahblahblah but in reality its no fun at all.

OHWELL. no matter (: she says that i can follow her on her trips with her doctors to go help the poor/sick people! ive always wanted to do that. which is partly why i wanted to learn medicine cos i thought they wont bring you along without background in medicine. i'm one step closer to one of my dreams! haha but she says i must know how to chi1 ku3. and shes going to put me on probation make sure i know how to wash clothes wash shoes wash plates. HA she underestimates me ive done all that before! except washing clothes. so maybe after As i can really start flying all over the place. jaja just came back from moscow and OHMAN im so envious i wish i could travel the rest of my life.

she wants to reward me with a trip to malaysia to play fireworks if i get two As for blocks. please tell me how its possible to get two As for blocks :( haha actually i think she was just using it to help me convince my mommy to let me go. but sigh she should have thought of something easier to achieve! shes going to japan tomorrow. i was always scared to go there cos of earthquakes :( I WANT TO TRAVEL. everyones flying except me. some are flying away permanently :( ella might be moving to australia! okay actually i kinda knew that was going to happen since a few years ago. but it never really registered. cos at that time after As seemed so far away. sigh. people are going so far awaaay.


I DID A (relatively) GOOD JIANCHA TAO YESTERDAY :D

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 23:51

Sunday, March 19, 2006

i don't know what to make of everything you tell me anymore. silly naive, gullible me. i feel like ive been taken for a ride. you've been lying about so many things. for fun. i cant tell the truth from ur fabricated stories now. UGH.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 01:02

Saturday, March 18, 2006

i've got a piece of the old nanyang trampoline net (: the one that we've jumped on for three years. sentimental value! THANKS OLLY! today we sat at the tumbltrak and snip snip snip. i tried digging the sji one out of the cupboard but it looked diseased and filthy. oh but what do u expect from a gym that sweeps all their dust and rubbish into the spongepit which we all flip into.

i screwed up my qianzhi180 today :( ella said eee so ugly. great way to break for the weekend. for the first time this week i dont have to wake up early tomorrow. BEAUTY SLEEP.

start enjoying your tao because ten years later its not the medal you are going to remember.
i forget that sometimes. but with comps so close, how not to worry? which is why i didnt really wanna compete in the first place, because it was taking my fun out of training. ohwell theres no use saying this now. so yes, start enjoying your tao girl. i miss doing synchro routines with poo. poo come back to sji please. ditch rj. i miss playing bdiv cdiv ztao and playing scissors-paper-stone the tramp way. i dont know how im just going to stop jumping after april 20th. how do u just. stop. its like cutting a part of me away. and taking up dance is not going to be able to fill that gaping hole where gym should be.

ella feels its impractical, my dream of having a trampoline in my backyard. humour me, please. im halfway there okay! ive got quarter of a tramp net (:

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 02:06

Thursday, March 16, 2006

i'm a happy girl today (: i forgot what it feels like to be happy, lately. and its something worth blogging about cos its a welcome change. despite getting zero studying done today, im glad i sacrificed study time to do the things that i did.

TRAINING TODAY. seems like everydays all about training isnt it. but i actually left training feeling rather good, and accomplished. because i did more than ten taos today.. without flying or feeling like im spinning totally out of control. and only shi bai-ing a few :D maybe its just that rattan tramp that gets my moves in order. ohwell. monday night i was preparing for bed when suddenly i was hit by the realisation that comps was in a month. a month is too little time, i think. and i was just paralyzed with fear by that realisation and since then its been non-stop panicking. so feeling better about my routine does alot for my mood. and my nerves. see, a good start to the day already.

and after training was lunch with the juniors at pizza hut (: haha pigging out time. its been awhile. lately ive been seeing them close to everyday, something i dont get nowadays. poo and i realised how big they are now. it seems that they get to sec2 and stop growing. to us, they are always stuck at sec2, for some very odd reason. haha but we both agree. and then at lunch they were talking about obs and graces camp and what jc next and wow. the littles ones are suddenly all grown up. haha i really hope theyd still continue in jc, so i can go back and teach them and thats probably the only chance i'll get to see them. sigh. hopefully they'll miss it enough. i did. renyi did. and voila look what happened. and after this year it would be odd visiting, i think. because we're only left with jeanne jiayi olly's batch, in a sea of strangers. whoopee.

meiying is intent on a gym concert. HAHAHAHAHAHA. and the seniors will be special guest performers. lets see where shes going with this. she does sound oh so hopeful. and determined, so perhaps it will materialise. hahaha im still so amused.

and then poo and i changed THREE buses to get to ella and christl's church. one hour with the teammates. that precious one hour. spent watching their churchmates play floorball, so entertaining. spent cycling around the empty carpark, the adrenaline rush down the slopes down down down over and over again. i do like how relatively close-knit their church people are, the messy but cosy clubhouse which is actually just a room and the frisbee, floorball sessions. haha what fun.

while poo headed for training, we actually made it for dance lesson! a little late, but at least we got there. finally. this journey took about.. three years? hahaha. and halfway through the lesson holycrap we are in the wrong class. these are the pros dammit! there were people in the class who were there on scholarship. so definitely not beginners. haha christl and i were grabbing each others hands anxiously throughout dance haha cos its just.. um.. a new experience. haha but i love watching them dance they are all so damn good. man, what does it take to get to that level. initially i actually thought, what the hell are these people that talented? beginners class is so difficult, so fastpaced. and people actually get it? haha but the people are super nice.. at the end of class we were talking to them. people coming and saying hey im your nanyang senior! and we realise that HEY there are quite a lot of ex nanyang seniors, and a lot of ex-gymnasts too! haha so its quite cool. i quite like jazz (: but everythings gotta be shifted back to after april 20th. ive got enough on my mind till then.

im probably going to regret this indulgence in a few days when i realise that i have no time to finish studying. but for now, im just content (:


That's When I Love You by Aslyn
When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love you
I love you
Just that way

To hear you stumble when you speak
or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you endlessly

And when you're mad cause you lost a game
Forget im waiting in the rain
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie, it made you cry
That's when I love you
I love you a little more each time

And when you can't quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
That's when I love you
I love you more than you know

And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you give when you show up late
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what

That's when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn the more i love
The more my heart can't get enough
Thats when I love you
When I love you
No matter what

No matter what


omg the lyrics are so damn cheesy. hahaha but its a nice, happy song (:

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 01:23

dearest (poo and juniors)

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 01:20

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

ooooh the excitement on jumping on a new trampoline.

wheee sji got a new tramp net. haha not as funn as the nanyang one, but it will do (: i like jumping on cloth again. instead of the stupid squeaky tramp. and tomorrow i'll be jumping on the boingy nanyang tramp! i hope i can make it back in time (:

todays training was nerve-wrecking :( but today was the first time this year that i lian my whole tao i think. which is SOMETHING WORTH CELEBRATING. though it was such an awfully painful process. you would think we would have gotten used to his methods by now. but NO he never fails to scare people. okay maybe not people, just me :( before i even set foot on the tramp he merrily announced bi3 sai4 but helloooo i havent even jumped and never even lian my tao before today! and i flunked the first one. hahaha and did a really shitty second one. omg i cant believe that can even be considered a tao.

I CANT STAND DOING SHITTY TAOS OVER AND OVER AGAIN.

which was basically what i did all morning. screw up after screw up after screw up. ella's been trying to convince me otherwise that my tao isnt really as bad as i honestly do think it is. but i dont know.. the fact that my body spins so out of control so easily now irks me. its like i dont have that basic control such that even when u screw up the routine you are able to bring it back in order. which i used to have. and hence im pissed off at the current level of fitness that my body has been reduced to. plus i dont even beng jiao and today i discovered i dont even bing jiao. omg. what is wrong with me. give me back my basics.

i wish we had more time. at the end of comps last year i had planned on stabilising and then "beautifying" the routine this year. instead of feeling so unsure about everything like last year. i dont want to go to comps again with so much uncertainty in the routine :( but it seems like we never progressed much since last year. we've been stagnant at the same point. in fact, we're only just beginning to climb back to that level. we were talking today. how from sec1 to sec2, or sec3 to sec4, when we had the same routines, we could feel that vast difference a year had made. how much more confident and how much nicer our moves were. but it seems now that just doesnt happen anymore. we cant improve. AHHHHH.

i hope its just a phase. positive thoughts.




this is a conversation i wish could go on forever. because we have gone past the superficial chat to talking about something more substantial. it seems its always late into the nights we get more, serious? and this is what ive missed from the.. june holidays, was it? when we stayed up past four just talking talking. and even if our interaction was just limited to these late night chats, while in real life we brush past each other with mere his and byes i feel this is enough.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 01:40

Monday, March 13, 2006

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Xinyi!

1. Banging your head against xinyi uses 150 calories an hour!
2. The colour of xinyi is no indication of her spiciness, but size usually is.
3. Humans share over 98 percent of their DNA with xinyi.
4. Wearing headphones for an hour will increase the amount of xinyi in your ear 700 times.
5. Early thermometers were filled with xinyi instead of mercury.
6. In Ancient Egypt, people wore glittery eyeshadow made from the crushed shells of xinyi!
7. You share your birthday with xinyi.
8. Xinyi cannot burp - there is no gravity to separate liquid from gas in her stomach!
9. Research indicates that xinyi will be attracted to people who have recently eaten bananas.
10. Finding xinyi on Christmas morning is believed to bring good luck.

I am interested in - do tell me aboutherhimitthem

hahahaha this is super duper cute. ripped it from yining (: i like number nine.

just came back from watching huangcheng. and i think the stories this year have a lot more depth. leaving me HUHH-ing. but i still think its super.. touching. the bonds they have formed these past three months.. the memories they'll take away with them. its been long since i felt like i really belonged somewhere, or with a certain group of people. haha hwachong has nothing much to offer. at least to me. haha. maybe thats why nanyang is still so unforgettable till now. oh this is bad. im switching back to the i-hate-hwachong mode again.

whoops im sorry for that awfully awkward moment back then. though it was fleeting i feel bad that i forgot. twice. because, once upon a time these dates mattered to me. when these people mattered a whole lot more to me too. but how far we've drifted since then. haha i wouldnt want to even be stuck in the same room with you for more than five minutes for fear of staring and awkward silences. i do remember the little funny things that you've said to me before. i remember you lying about the bus stop so that we could walk a little bit further. i remember. haha and by the time i realised the bus stop lie, those days were long gone.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 01:45

Friday, March 10, 2006

i have been jumping on a trampoline for half my life.

woo. thats a nice new perspective ive never looked from. hahaha. ella just casually mentioned it today. and OHMAN half my life ive been jumping and gymming. maybe thats why ive loved my life thus far (:

and maybe thats why im still stuck below 160cm. GYM STUNTS GROWTH.

just a random happy HAPPY post because GP IS OVER and its the so-called holidays and im elated (:

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 23:16

Thursday, March 09, 2006

hello hello. where has my time gone? i have no time to do anything. i have no time to meet up with the people i so dearly miss. i have no time to ever finish doing my work. i have no time to study for the stupid retarded block tests that begin tomorrow. i have no time to clean up the mess in my room that is starting to piss me off. where has all my time gone?! give me back the past few weeks that have just slipped through my fingers.

im sorry classmates for breaking down and freaking you people out and causing some chain reaction thing today. but i just couldnt take it anymore and that was just some sort of release. but all's good now. at least better. it always feels a lot better to get some things out of the system. which is why when we got back home i felt like buying a carton of eggs and throwing it at some wall. i want a nice white wall that i can doodle all over. and then when im done filling it up with my angry scrawls i shall be happier (:

im beginning to think, hey so what if i fail, its only blocks after all. and sooner or later, hey so what if i fail, its only As after all. which is not supposed to happen. i dont want to waste the last two years of my childhood (what childhood?). i keep finding excuses for myself, and then i realise shit no its time you start bucking up when its already too late. and right now there are just so many things to worry about i find it hard to concentrate :( there are comps (which is actually whats worrying me the most) and school, among other nitty gritty things.

mel and i wanted to head to the admin office today and get one of those forms that allow you to drop out of school. HAHA. wishful thinking, dream on girl. as much as you would love to do that, you know you never really would. we talk about it all the time but never ever came close. i wish i never gave my parents a reason to expect this much from me, not that im saying its a lot. but why cant i just be this less than average student studying in an average school getting less than average grades? maybe then my parents would begin to realise that there is actually life outside of school and results.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 23:16

Sunday, March 05, 2006

my sister looked absolutely gorgeous yesterday. she must be one of the most beautiful brides i've ever seen. the other one would be my oldest sister of course (: they say a woman is at her most beautiful on her wedding day.. i couldnt agree more. i loved her gowns, especially her traditional chinese costume/gown which she specially made such that it was so classy.

and yeah yesterday plus today was a whole lot of fun. the tea ceremonies, the dinner, the stayover. caught up in the excitement of it all, i didnt feel something tugging at my heartstrings. or maybe ive just become numbed to that feeling of.. loss, would you say? haha or perhaps it was because there were so many people around all the time, and by night i was too tired to think about these sort of things.

the afternoon of today was spent in the hotel room all day with my sister and her friends. it was like being gassed cos of all that smoke! ugh. i wish theyd stop killing themselves, slowly but surely. i realise that almost 90% of their friends smoke. which saddens me because i.. erh.. want them to live longer. haha that sounded weird. but yeah. haha i really enjoy being in the company of my sister's friends. theyre really funny, especially when they are drunk. its so amusing to watch them trip all over themselves and mutter gibberish. but they really do watch out for me. theyre like all the brothers ive never had. heh.

theres just this warm feeling inside when i see all the good friends that have given a hand in the wedding.. basically all the xiong dis and jie meis. i wonder how many people i know now will be these important people for me years down the road. one of the brothers, vincentkorkor, has known my jiefu for seventeen years. that is long, ever since they were primary five. its so difficult to sustain a friendship made way back in primary school, when we were young and less sentimental. so i thought it was quite.. sweet.


i kept a really pretty red rose from the wedding. put it in a glass of water when we got back to the suite, and then hung it on my bag when i headed out today. but now its just a bald stalk with its crimson petals in the rattan basket on my desk. i wish flowers could last forever. they are such pretty things, and its just depressing watching them wilt and die :(

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 02:38

bliss.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 02:33

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 02:32

my sisters. and thats the gorgeous "chinese" gown.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 02:30

my pool shifu!

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 02:29

the empress dowager.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 02:28

the first.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 02:27

the second.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 02:27

the third.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 02:26

jiefuuu.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 02:25

my cool hair!

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 02:24

im so reluctant to wash it off :( i like the frizz.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 02:23

wheee CAKE! hahaha.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 02:22

the red rose

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 02:21

what was left of my flower. haha mel im not blaming you or anything (: it would have died anyway.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 02:21

Thursday, March 02, 2006

i finally got a feel of the new nanyang tramp today. it's been a long time since i've jumped on a good trampoline. with all the tramps starting to rip apart. its quite different from any other tramp ive jumped on before, the strips of cloth are thinner. its looks so holey now, as compared to the old one. and its so damn effortless jumping on it it really does feel like flying. exhilarating. it boings you up damn high and the moves just felt so RIGHT. haha i love the new trampoline! i want to steal it.

and the juniors moves looked good too. maybe cos of the sudden height gain. but i do hold high hopes for them this year. they just need more confidence in themselves, and more faith in their routines. hear that, jeanne? many new faces in the gym today, and WHOA the sectwo floorers are super duper zai. they were training qiankong on the low beam! and landing it. what the hell.. they are only sectwo! so i think comps in july would be really exciting to watch. and the new female coach was there. which just added to the sea of unfamiliar faces. sigh. but i think she is pretty funky. hope she doesnt leave in less than two months time. wang wasnt at training today. could it be that he was on a date?! omg. its just so hard to believe. hahahaha.

and whee no surprises for guessing. ella and i never made it to dance! hahahaha. silly girl had some muscle ache thing and almost died when the tchs wang was helping her massage. apparently all these china coaches know a thing or two when it comes to injuries. haha thank god wang never did put me through these things :S

im starting to acknowledge the fact that my gym career is ending. again. haha its funny cos just two years ago i was saying the exact same thing! at least last time i had adiv as an option, which i didnt think i would take. but somehow it doesnt bring as much sorrow as it did two years back. i guess its cos the people arent even really here anymore.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 21:07

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

results, results. i think most of the seniors did well (: it was nice seeing the seniors again for the first time in months. heh though we never really were that close to them, i have missed them somewhat. i missed watching that clique of five sitting at the railings every morning. they were amusing to watch. all the guys looked vastly different from before, most of them hiding under their caps. haha. i wanted to take a last senior-junior class photo with them. we never really had a complete one. but DAMMIT my camera ran out of battery the minute i switched it on :( what luck.

ohboy. next year this time.. HMM.

im going to learn lyrical/street jazz with ella! i think. we're supposed to go check the place out tomorrow evening haha i hope nothing will go wrong within a span of 24 hours. because at the rate that we've been going, theres a high chance something might crop up. haha for the record, we've been talking about dance classes with the teammates since two/three years ago? i cant even remember. but i wonder if nows a good time to start. id probably have to start paying myself, 'cause my parents are just going to think im wasting my time and distracting myself from the number one priority: studying. ugh. but i think after comps, theres suddenly going to be so much free time on my hands im not going to know what to do with it. im not prepared to slide straight into mugger-mode. no thank you. in fact i doubt i'd ever reach that level of mugging. such that my world revolves around my books and my notes. theres just so much more to life than all this crap :( so i guess taking up something new will fill up all that time which training used to occupy. and it will prevent me from disintegrating into an unfit blob. wheeee.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 23:29