Friday, May 28, 2010

EUROTRIP PART THREE HAS JUST BEGUN! (:

this holiday i've set out to conquer a whole new different part of europe (: now i'm in Munich, waiting for the rest to arrive! was kinda scared of navigating around from the airport to the hotel all alone, looking absolutely vulnerable with my backpack and camera bag and tripod bag and all. but i'm safely now in the hotel lobby :D kinda proud of myself actually! haha finally coming to Germany! after learning German in secondary school as a third language, i've never really managed to put it to good use at all. but now i can barely remember most of the words. but seeing the signs and all that around kinda jolts my memory a little bit (:

anyway, campblueblood has just ended and then i zoomed off to another country! kinda tiring actually. especially after all practices and performances for campblueblood. it was the last time we were dancing Party in the USA! :( so sad. i was still scared as hell doing the front handspring haha, thought i'd slip and fall on my ass. and dismas made me do alvan's gay wayang part for tiktok omg. well, always try new things right haha. and i danced peixuan's item too (: another one of the items that i wanted to do for DU. but i learnt the guy part instead of the girl's.. but still ok i guess (: still LOVEE the song. and after performing, we still had steppers training at like 1am! swear i was going to fall asleep on the stunt haha. the actual steppers performance went SUPERBLY! cant have hoped for more (: my scorpion went up and my partner stunts went up too! yay :D first time doing scorpion for a performance, so of course i am thrilled. but now i can finally let my poor back recover. it's been dying ever since we started training for blueblood.



okay! think the rest are gonna get here in no time (: byebye till mid-June!!!

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 14:50

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

COMMAND

command is one of my favourite events of the entire year. despite how difficult and heartbreaking it may be. command is always sad, and i think no matter what, i'll always cry. because it's about goodbyes, and that's never easy for me. the performances entertaining, yes. but when the quotes start running, and when they all start coming out of their rooms in their kr grey, those moments are the ones that really kill me during command. i remember last time lestie used to tell me that the kr grey is special, and should only be worn on occasions. i used to wear if for trainings and all whatsoever, but i've stopped since. it has begun to mean something more to me than just another one of those hall tshirts.

command this year was especially hard, because you see batchmates commanding as well. and this batch of seniors is always the closest to us i think. including the year3s that left last year. it's the people you have stuck around with in this place for the longest time, the people with whom your journey began with. i felt so sad when joycie hugged us and said "why do i have to be the one to go first..". and it's also especially difficult because you know that a year later, you'd be on that same stage, and that you're going to embark on your final year journey soon. but i take comfort in the fact that so many people that i know and that i am close to are commanding with me, and that's really the best i could ask for. but i'm just not going to think about that now.

block command broke a new record of lasting until 8am, and then we all had our last hall breakfast together. but it felt radically different from the previous few years. i don't know if it's a good or a bad thing, but i guess everyone's got their own take on it. the whole atmosphere was a lot lighter and happier. it definitely feels less tiring, because crying is really tiring actually. it makes the night easier to get through. the block command gifts were really pretty though.

and as command marks the end of term and the semester and all, i cant help but think about the finality of everything. how from this point onwards, everything that i set out to do in hall, is for The Final Time. and it's gotta be absolutely spectacular. hopefully, this will turn out to be the best year yet.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 05:01

"when you're dreaming with a broken heart,
the waking up is the hardest part.."


it was our favourite song, chipbeng and i
we used to always sing along.

i used to think i had no need for these sad songs.
i read the beautifully written lyrics that convey such sadness,
but back then, couldn't feel the sorrow.


i wish i was tired now.
im waiting for sleep to take me.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 04:35

We're all damaged in our own way. Nobody's perfect. I think we are all somewhat screwy, every single one of us.

Johnny Depp

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 03:52

Monday, May 24, 2010

PULAU TIOMAN RETREAT

the weekend after DU, i ran away to tioman for a few days of sun, sand, sea and compressed air (: went diving again with my sister and her boyfriend, and ivankoh! love adding new dives to my dive log, and recording all my underwater stories! the most exciting thing about this trip is that i did underwater photography for the first time! my sister warned me not to get too excited and stuff because people tend to get super tense and hyperventilate when they take photographs underwater, and they'll get a really bad migraine back on land. but i think because she warned me, i made sure i regulated by breathing and all, so i was fine! (: thankfully. but underwater photography is no easy feat man. for one, im super afraid i'll just sink and get pierced by one of those horrible sea urchins that are all over the seabed.

u know how i absolutely LOVE photography, so i was super thrilled when my sis brought her underwater camera for me to play around with! i was damn happy that i could take photos of all that i chanced upon underwater so that i can share it with others that werent there to see it! but of course it was a very simple camera, nothing fancy. and i was super envious when i saw all these diving enthusiasts with their hugeass underwater dslrs with strobe lights and all. coool. and one thing i like about diving is that, you realise that even the unlikeliest of people are great diving enthusiasts. like at night, the uncles will sit around with their macbook pros in the dining hall, comparing all their underwater photographs. and they are the ones with all the pro equipment, the big cameras and flashes. and their photographs are really damn nice! makes me feel sad to look at my own, but im satisfied enough still (: but wow, just looking at their photos leaves me in awe! the richness of the colours is amazing. only with the flash, do you truly realise how colourful the underwater world is, because everything is tinted greenish blue in our eyes due to the light and all. and it still amuses me how these uncles look so tech-savvy with all their gadgets and equipment.

other interesting things that happened during this trip was that my dive computer went into decompression sickness! so it refused to allow me to dive anymore and went into lockdown for the rest of the day :\ cos apparently i ascended to the surface too quickly. but i felt finee. so i just couldnt record the rest of my dives on the watch. boo. we tried to stick it underwater using one of those sausages, but to no avail. and the reason why i ascended so quickly was because i needed to pee super duper badly. and its simply impossible to pee in a wetsuit i swear! even back on the surface i couldnt pee! i thought that there was something anatomically wrong with me or something. so i had to endure a bumpy boat ride back to shore, when i immediately dashed for the toilet. haha. ive never felt so constipated in my life! such a horrible feeling :(

on this trip, i met turtles (my favourite!!), cuttlefish, black-tipped shark, barracudas, batfish (my friend! cos it followed us around for quite a while).. haha cant quite remember the rest. took photos of most of them, but they are all stuck in the memory card because i cant find the right transfer device. sigh. and i realise i dont like night dives at all. it's really an abyss of darkness and since im scared of the dark, it's absolutely no fun at all! we did a shore night dive, so when we surfaced, there was no boat to pick us up! and we actually drifted wayyyyy far out from shore. so we had to backpaddle all the way back, it felt like a marathon seriously. the only redeeming factor was the blanket of stars that was above us, illuminating the whole sky. it was gorgeousss.

even though all i've been to is Tioman, it has still showed me a really amazing underwater world. every dive is different, even if i've been to the same place twice. my sister said i have to accumulate 50 dives before she will take me to the maldives with her :D :D some day i will get there (:


after our final dive of the weekend!


favourite kitkat icecreamm :D

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 05:54

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Fervore!

this year's DU definitely feels more special and personal than the other two ive taken part in. Fervore feels like our baby, we were there right from the start, and we saw it through all the way till the end. being part of the dance comm, and organising such a large-scale concert (yes it might only be on a school level, but that's about as large as it gets for me) is an amazing experience. i'm so glad that at least once in my life, i've gone through this, i've put up a concert and seen and heard everything that goes on behind the scenes. and at the same time, met all kinds of people, seriously ALL SORTS of people, u'd be amazed! i really got to see another side of DU, beyond the dazzling stage lights, the glamorous makeup and costumes, the stage and the audience, the actual performance. it wasnt easy, thats for sure. but every step of the way, i felt so excited and in anticipation for what was to come.

from the very start, meeting to brainstorm for names in all sorts of funny languages for which our concert will be called, and finally arriving at Fervore. meeting up with the various dance chairs in what we thought would be a tense and uncomfortable situation. having to give up our third show due to a majority vote much to our dismay :( working around difficult dates like chingay and hall prod to find a date and venue for our concert, and having to push our concert all the way to april! meeting with nipuna and jaycee where they gave us the whole lowdown of whats going to happen next and after that and after that and after that and wow. haha. i thought that meeting was really interesting because they told us about what to do and what was going to happen and all and it was a real eye-opener! then going around to the various halls for the preview, and getting ourselves into all sorts of sticky situations :S

my entire weekend before the concert was spent camping at UCC.. those two days were probably the most tiring and stressful days in the entire dance comm term i swear. waking up way early to go open up the place and unlock the dressing room doors, waiting for the dancers to come and do their blocking.. with all sorts of screwups in between.. and then handling like 450dancers on sunday night for the tech run. thank goodness for michelle i swear. she's like our beacon of light. she's the best stage manager we could ever ask for! (: OHYES not to mention befriending our newest best friend during the entire length of the concert, that made things SO easy for us. being ON TIME, and PROFESSIONAL hahahaha omg. i guess our daily bitching sessions could count as a form of stress relief! haha. but i guess its an essential part of the entire experience haha! and then our DU tshirts came and our programme booklets came and laying our eyes on them and actually seeing them in front of us was a huge relief.. as we ticked off the things to be done on the checklist, everything just seemed to be falling in place.

when concert day came, i felt like i could settle back into the dancer role again. sort of. because most of the technicalities were all settled and done.. putting on makeup backstage, warming up with the dancers, having peptalks and receiving gifts from the choreos, drinking alcohol (terrible right! haha) tsktsk and doing the yam seng haha. listening to the ipod and going through the moves (which caused me to lose my ipod because i carelessly left it on the floor just before we had to get on stage).. changing in between items was CRAZY. because my items were just two items apart! i was like pulling off my shirt even before i was in the girls dressing room hahaha but of course with another top underneath heheh. initially i even had to change make up, but it was seriously impossible because i barely have time to breathe between items. and it's absolutely no joke when Party In The USA was the second item. need to conserve all the energy i can you know? haha it's the craziest dance ive ever done i swear. when we did all the moves without blocking for the first time, we almost died. and it got better with practice, but barely. and then with blocking, it didnt get much easier either because of all the shuttle runs, and going down and coming back up omg. and of course, the front handspring. i wish i could do a roundoff backhandspring like dismas had wanted, but unfortunately my ability falls short of that :( but anyhow, it feels awesome dancing it all the same (:

i'm really happy with both my items this year (: even though if i could i would have done like all. haha as usual, being greedy. but i wouldnt have chosen any other two for sure (: 2-1 was full of depth and emotion and it felt like it meant something. i could feel the dance as i was dancing it, i could connect with everyone else on that stage as we went through the motions. and that was exactly what kriss wanted from all of us. all the improvisation, feeling one another, connecting, flowing. i remember a few of us got goosebumps when we watched ourselves on video for the first time.

during the second show, i was feeling a little sad, a little emo that it was all going to be over. the last time we're gonna dance these items, in such fashion. with the props, the lighting, the costumes, the discipline. and during the curtain call, there's the overwhelming sense of relief that we managed to pull the whole thing off, and the wistfulness at how it just passed us by so quickly. as we stressed over all the nitty gritty details, and rushed in between tasks, the whole concert just seemed like a blur. and when BFF came on stage to give me my flowers and pillow that the krdancers bought for us, and when she put her hands together and bowed to me i just felt so sad. because it was her, and because this could be our last DU together and because i thought she was going to cry too. and a mixture of emotions, with DU concluding and all. then i couldnt stop the tears and i know it was terribly unglam being in front and all for the curtain call when we're all supposed to be jumping and high and crazy, but i couldnt help it! and when the curtains finally fell, our dance comm just huddled together and cried before we joined everyone else in the phototaking frenzy and celebration. and then as i watched final years, it struck me that the next time the curtain falls in front of us, it would be the end of my performing years :(

thankyou everyone for coming to watch Fervore (: and for queuing up for the tickets because we didnt have enough to pass around.. thank you for caring to come down, because this means so much to me. in all my 6 years of gym competitions, and 2 years of cheerobics, and 3 years of DU, this DU was the first time i ever asked my mom to come and watch me. during competitions, i was always afraid of the added pressure, so i always told them never to come. and i guess ive just sorta gotten used to them not being there. but this time i did want my mom in the audience (: and she's so funny because she just left after the concert and said that i didnt remind her to wait so that we could take photos :b as if this sort of stuff needed reminding! in retrospect it might be funny, but i remember feeling quite disappointed that night :(

and then as usual, we came back to kr and headed for the dance studio.. danced the dances again, danced older dances like alvan's seniors performance which never gets too old. im surprised myself that i can remember the moves. watched as the year4s sat together and talked, about all that had been since they stepped into this place. just looking at them made me feel sad, their passion for dance is so strong. and is this where it all has to end? could there be any other way? and coming back to dance, will never feel the same.

at the end of the night, when most have left and it was just left with a handful of us sitting on the dance studio floor, alvan said a few things to me. and the seriousness of his tone and his expression gave me quite a shock. i felt like whining and squirming out of the situation, but he seemed dead serious, it almost scares me. and bide told me "i feel so happy for you. because you still have one more year left. remember every time you step into this place, treasure it." and it made me feel so sad, because it has finally come down to this one last year. and bide asked all of us "what is your biggest regret?" i dont want to have any regrets, but i dont know if i have the courage to step out of my comfort zone as well. so i left the dance studio that night with a heavy heart, and plenty to think about.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 04:48

Saturday, May 22, 2010

and now i'm going to begin on my barrage of overdue posts,
just because these moments are worth remembering (:



BEACH FIESTA!

went with some of the kruggers on a lazy saturday morning for beach fiesta! the morning started off pretty badly because we had like half the team there! was so excited to finally be playing beach touch again (glorious memories from the year before) but at the same time abit stressed because we sent in an all-girls team when the minimum requirement is one girl on field at any point of time. haha. but we made it all the way through to the semis! and we played the winning team so i guess they were a worthy opponent. haha the most shiok one was the last qualifying game before the semis, which was the deciding match and we came from behind to win! (: (: haha yay awesome work people! thanks shaunteh for coming down and saving our asses when we had no guys and like two people down.

after the whole thing was over, we went to play beach volleyball! haha plenty of hilarious moments i remember. i still distinctly remember the one where congwei was like trying to taunt cos he thought the ball wasnt gonna go over the net, and in the end it did! and just landed on him haha ouchh and everyone just fell to the sand with laughter. was so tired halfway through i just lazed around in the sand while meibao fell asleep beside me! we almost wanted to sneakily pack up and leave without her, but in the end she woke up halfway while we were keeping our stuff. plan foiled!!


the early risers


kruggers! (:


everyone that came (:




hugbuddyy


meibaoo!


i love how healthy being on the beach makes me feel. all the running around and playing sports. and i miss playing beach touch! even though i must admit last year's waikiki was really crazier. haha i remember we just got high on our own even after we got kicked out in the early stages, playing by ourselves with no subs cos it was just 5 of us. and we played till we really got tummyaches from laughing. i still remember! good times good times (: hope that we can organise another one again soon, i know tong and i have tried for the last two consecutive sundays but we failed miserably :( when school reopens perhaps! have high hopes for touch this year (: (:

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 18:32

Friday, May 21, 2010

muscles aching,
battered and bruised,
but it all makes me feel so alive!

all the exams and holidays have made me such a lazy blob, finally doing constructive stuff. like putting my body to work. instead of succumbing to an inherent lack of discipline and utter laziness.

put my cheer shoes on again today! (:
makes me feel happy just walking around in them.
but my first stunt today ended in such disaster!
im sorry bases! omg, seeing the two of them clash in front of me then squatting at the side with their heads bowed down for longer than usual was NOT a good sign. and then seeing jingjie's bloody lips, and then deo's cheek being slit open as if by a very sharp knife. all these blood and wounds on the mats gives me the heebiejeebies i swear. weili was like "i can totally feel your goosebumps!" dont know how thats possible, but yeah GOOSEBUMPS.

quite excited about the blueblood cheer routine. but im also scared that i cannot accomplish it. sigh, why does my liberty suck so much :( sorry eden and edwardooo. need to do so many times so that i can practice! tiring you guys out, my bases! but deo's right, im secretly glad that i can finally do all these stuff in the routine. but at the same time, there's that lack of confidence. i hate it when MY stunt fails :( rawr. ok nevermind. shall just train hard hard hard! (:

with all these practices everyday, i feel as if we're having our own campblueblood. our training camp for campblueblood. hurhur.



sidenote: someone's finally coming home tomorrow! (:

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 01:07

Thursday, May 20, 2010

amber died.
the cut-throat bitch in House died :'(
so why do i feel so sad!
she was so horrible while she was alive.

wilson: why is it okay with you?! why aren't you angry?!
amber: that's not the last feeling i want to experience..

i don't think i've ever cried watching House. he always made me laugh. these two episodes have got to be the best of House yet. two very emotional episodes. everyone was so vulnerable, everyone was thrown off their axis. its insane. what a season finale. i'm still kind of left in the lingering sadness.



amber: i'm tired. i think it's time to sleep.
wilson: no, just a little longer..
amber: we're always going to want a little longer..

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 03:16

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

my Honours year is going to SUCK.
my final year is getting screwed over by my fyp.
i'm miserable :(

this final year doesn't look like it's going to be everything that i would have wanted it to be.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 01:58

Sunday, May 16, 2010

"this guy wasn't pandering, he was nice without any aspirations or personal gain. im thinking genetic defect."

-Gregory House

oohman, i love House! he makes me laugh like no other! for someone so miserable, he sure makes plenty of other people happy :D

anyway yesterday i went for a movie outing with my parents! haha its always so hard looking for movies that my dad would appreciate, but mostly as long as its chinese and reasonably good, or like action-packed movies, he would enjoy! so i booked them for lunch and an afternoon of ip man! OMG it's like the best chinese movie i've EVER watched i think. like seriously. there was this whole flood of emotions during the movie, i couldn't stop crying which is damn stupid but i really felt alot alot alot for the movie! it made my heart swell with pride for the Chinese i swear. even though there's all the stereotypes of the East vs West and whatnots but STILL. wonderfully done i swear. and donnie yen totally owned the role! and loved the little touch at the end when they brought the small bruce lee in heehee so adorable. MUST WATCH MUST WATCH!

and the day before hugbuddy and i went into the world of PIXAR! we havent been to the science centre since like primary school or something so it was quite a nice blast to the past! unfortunately we couldnt take any photos inside the exhibition. well it's all pretty cool ESPECIALLY the strobe light thingamajig. shucks i can't remember what it's called anymore but it's SO COOL. haha geeks for a day! then we photowhored outside with monsters inc. (just about the only things we can take photos with as proof of our being there), and were exasperated by the inability of people to take proper normal pictures. haha it's just totally weird and we just cant get it. haha. there was this guy that took like half the photo worth of ceiling whiteness and totally cutting off half our bodies hahaha.


TICKETS!




one of the better photos those strangers managed to take



having fun with the toys :D











planning for europe is stressing me out abit. because its so hard planning for others since what i want to do may not be what they want to do. or what i think is the most cost effective or efficient may be otherwise to others. SIGH. i just hope that i'm being common sensical about everything. if not i'll just feel totally stupid for wasting time and money :(

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 23:02

Saturday, May 15, 2010

finally days when i can sleep in a little longer! with the gig the past few days, we've been waking up real early for practices.. well the gig was rather fun but as usual the crowd was atypical and difficult to excite :S i screwed up some steps, but oh what the heck. we only practiced for like 1day!

scooping at dempsey yesterday was.. so surreal. it was a day of the laojiaos, mostly. but as much as that is rare, days like that do come by occasionally. what was so exceptional about the night was, seeing unclesam back at the pos as we shout our orders down the line to him, ivankoh behind the dipcases helping us with the little things even if he can't scoop, decked in his corporate attire and all. seriously, like a flashback to years ago! today debbie and i realised that we've been working at dempsey for four years already, and that's how long we have been friends. and she thought it had only been two or three years. hahaha. and we could possibly only have one more year in this place. but maybe i'm ready to move on.

it was so nostalgic, just looking at crew of last night. i havent seen unclesam in the store since he came back. and then we sat at the back during dinner break for longer than we should. haha but so reluctant to leave the table. and then sharyn came by and asked "keith wants to know who's going for supper?" and samcheong replied "if unclesam is going, we're all going!" hahaha such biasness. and as we lapped up our usual newton prawn mee, watching meiqi's antics got us all laughing uncontrollably. hahaha. and after a trip around singapore i only got home close to 6am! sigh. if only workdays could always be like this, even if the icecream was unusually hard and we were all perspiring, and the crowd never seemed to stop coming. it was one of the most tiring shifts in a long time, but also one of the most enjoyed.


and then i skyped with sammyboy in the morning till like 7plus am haha. so rare that i manage to catch him online, like finally. camwhored like crazy, yes even over the internet but its really funny. i miss the almost best friend. he like disappeared into his crazy cooking world but he says everyday is like an exam so i guess that must be pretty stressful. on top of that, falling into the river of love HAHAHA so exciting :D hope that we can meet up in nyc and then i can meet the babeee and hope she doesnt end up hating me like all the other ex-girlfriends (: but she seems nice and matured enough woo score sammy!


meet, the many faces of the almost best friend.


and Mr. Sad Finger Man!

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 23:53

Friday, May 14, 2010

as much as i hate to admit it,
i do sometimes feel that pull at my heartstrings,
and wonder how things would have been different
if i had decided to devote my time to bnjs instead.

i've long known that things are different from the glory days,
but it still doesnt keep the wistfulness at bay.
there are all these half-developed friendships,
that never really reach their full potential,
because time was never really spent on them.
which is such a waste i know.

but ultimately, i'm thankful that i still have those that matter,
however few that they may be.
and i keep chiding myself to not be greedy,
because i'm in a happy place still and,
honestly i wouldn't have had it any other way anyway.
i would still have chosen the same.


but there are just these moments, still.



holidays have been amazing so far.
except for the fact that it leaves me so tired and spent,
im more tired now than during the exams.

yesterday, we felt like we stepped into an alternate universe for a little while, breathed in some different kind of air, took in sights very atypical of our usual surroundings. it was so refreshing, and i felt like i took a trip somewhere out of town. i'm so glad for these little discoveries and these tiny little gems, just sitting quietly in the corners of town. and that way, they maintain their quirkiness and idiosyncracies, uncommercialised and untainted by the mainstream. and it felt like time stopped as we wandered those streets, popped into little shophouses, before emerging into the more usual hustle bustle of clarke quay. thanks for the beautiful adventure and wonderful company, stoops and lestie! to many more adventures that lie ahead yes? (:

and then today i stayed in with mel, domesticated as we pottered around both our kitchens- baking cupcakes at hers, then cooking dinner at mine. and then settled in for our usual light-hearted romantic comedy chick flicks and omgggg online shopping. hahaha. insanity! i've missed you sistar, i'm so glad we're okay now (:


and it feels like two weeks will fly by pretty quickly because i've got great company. it doesn't feel like it's going to be all that hard, even though i still look forward to phonecalls at the end of the day, and i still do countdown the days as they slowly pass.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 03:13

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

it's that time of the year again,
when i pack up my life in boxes and bags,
and move it all back home.

i stayed up all night packing, and there is just so much stuff, that can't really fit anywhere. there are so many inessential, frivolous things that i attach sentimental value to that i cannot bear to throw away. perhaps a bit too much. there's no space at home for all these other things, i wouldn't know where they'd go. and honestly, if i didnt go around looking into my things, i probably would have forgotten that they were there. but when you do pick them out and take a good look at them again, it still always has that magical touch that brings the smile to your face. and so i continue retaining all these little thingamajigs, just holed up in boxes stacked up in the corner of the room. i always thought if there was a fire at home, my boxes of letters/post-its/photographs would be the first i'd reach for.

moving out felt a little different this year. i stayed till the very last day, and the rooms next door were emptied of their things one by one, doors stripped of all decorations accumulated over the year. the hallway was empty when i took the last look before i left. it was so quiet. i still remember the last day in year1, i was so reluctant to leave. i remember crying, i remember that picture moment of faithie standing in her room amidst the boxes looking really sad. and the last day in year2, where a few of us spent the night falling asleep in lester's room because it was the last night. and we were there till the end. but there was none of that this year. everyone moved off a little earlier. so i didnt really feel anything, none of that nostalgia or sadness.

but i guess we had a pretty awesome last few weeks together. we had our last showers together (on the 7th floor toilet no less, never too late for new experiences!), our last laundry trip together, and our crazy last slumber party.

and as i packed up my room, i know that this is the last time i can do this, with the comfort in the knowledge that "it's alright. it's just three months and i'm right back where i am." ever since command, everything feels like, it is going to be for the last time.

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 18:21

Sunday, May 02, 2010

i forgot about this song when i lost it during one of those mac crashes. rediscovered it while i was flipping through 8days and saw that they were gonna be playing somewhere in singapore sometime soon. copeland, sounded so familiar.

and now when i listen to it again, it's still one of the sweetest songs.



Brightest by Copeland

If you find yourself here
On my side of town
I pray that you'd come to my door

And talk to me
Like you don't know
What we ever fought about
I don't remember anymore

I just know that she warms my heart
And knows what all my imperfections are

And she said that I was the brightest
Little firefly in her jar

And I just know that she warms my heart
And knows what all my imperfections are

And she says that I am the brightest
Little firefly in her jar

xinyi cartwheeled in the rain at 00:20