Yan's Blog

So I have been working with Sienna on these wooden puzzles that Vicki has given us in May. There are four puzzles with 12 pieces each. I have been playing with her few times a week when Hailey is down for a nap. Today, she really wanted to play with the puzzles, but I had to get meals ready in the kitchen, so I told her that she can play with them but mommy won't be able to help until I was done with cooking. So I left her playing by herself for awhile and by the time I went back to check on her, she had separated all of the pieces into 4 piles and completed 2 of the 4 puzzles on her own. I was so pleasantly surprises and proud. Later on, she finished the remaining puzzles as well, then took them all apart and put them back in the box. What a smart girl. I guess whenever we thought we were just kidding ourselves every time we push our kids to do something beyong their age (ex. the puzzles are for kids 3 and up), our effort does pay off later.

Now I can't wait to start Hailey with all of the Glenn Doman number cards and word cards. hehe. She is only two months old right now. What a crazy mom I am!!!

I am going out for lunch with couple of my girlfriends today since I don't have to find a sitter (Sienna is still out of town with Jeremy). We are going to eat at this Indian restuarant in town for two reasons: one, I am turning 30 this week, two, Jeremy does not like Indian food any way.

I still can't believe that I am going to be 30. It's crazy how time has flown by so quickly since my college graduation. Between getting married, work, then kids one after another, I feel like that I have been on this super fast high way and has not taken much time to reflect my life. Now I look back, I am just so happy that I married the person I did, feel so blessed to have two beautiful children with Jeremy, and am glad I don't have to go back to school to finish my college degree after the kids are all grown up like some of the other moms do.

I think the biggest thing between my last 6 years of married life and my single life is that I have learned to complain less and enjoy more. It feels good to be able to build up a family instead of tear it down. I love being a wife and a mother now. Of course it wasn't always like this. I remember how sad and resentful I was when I first had kid. All I could think of was when I would be able to go back to work. I had a hard time adjusting to motherhood. With all of the mundane daily cleaning, cooking, laundary, grocery shopping, feeding, changing, crying babies, it was far from what I imagined how motherhood would be like. But now I look at it as a service to my family and learn to love it because it makes me happy that my husband has a well cared home to come back to after a day of hard work. Just knowing that my children had a good day or bad day, not being abused by someone I don't know much about at a daycare, it makes me happy and feel secure.

As a stay-at-home mom, I no longer receive the recognition from the world as when I worked as a project engineer, nor do I receive that good size pay check for being good at what I do. But my husband loves me and appreciates what I do for the family, and my kids love me and give me hugs and kisses (I guess it's their payment to mommy). That's priceless.

So I am older now, and no longer a "twenty some year old". But I am happier than when I was in my twenties. Overall, I think I am on the right path toward greater happiness and deeper bond with my husband. "Yeah" for 30. I embrace you!

Jeremy took Sienna to MT for a week during this 4th of July holiday. It's kind of nice that I get to now spend some one on one bonding time with Hailey without having to take care of Sienna as well. But at the same time, I miss having everyone here at home terribilly. It's relaxing and lonely at the same time, if that's possible.

The past couple of days has gone by rather quickly. I have been reorganizing my closet and the kids closets to put away things (such as my maternity clothes and the clothes that the kids have out grown or out of season) and getting rid of thing that we don't or won't use any more. I am definitely the opposite of a "pack rat". It's just nice to have less stuff and more space. I just love to have an organized space to live in.

ok, got to go, Hailey is crying now.