Another one day left I will be going to Hong Kong...a trip with my family...from 22nd till 26th...
On 22nd my flight will be at 9.30am...reach there at 1.10pm...almost 4 hours in the flight....and coming back on 26th at 2pm flight...reach here around 5pm...just finished my packing...a roughly pack...tomorrow will double check up see what else to add or pack...
Sigh....today feel very sad and moody....don't know why....I'm suppose to be happy because I'm going for a trip with family but how come it's so different now?....
Maybe I'm missing or heavy hearted to leave my things here....hahahaha silly of me....just go off for 4 days and I'm already feel 'missing = emm sek tak'.....
Sigh...don't know why I really have this kind of feelings....
Sigh...don't know what to write anymore....really out of mood....maybe after I'm back from the trip will update my blog again...hope that time will be more stories on happy stuff....
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Sunday, December 20, 2009
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Confuse Day
Since yesterday I feel very confused....I'm not sure what I'm confused about...
During in the office time I'm OK and normal....still can hang and joke around....but when I'm left all by myself I felt an empty heart....and start to think a lot of things...
Sigh....what happen to me?
Or maybe because something had happen during my birthday's?
Sigh....
Think about it....its really hurt my feeling....though it might a small matter....but if it's done by the one you loved the most the effect will be very different...
Whose my loved one?In my whole life I love my family the most....papa...mummy....and sis....so I will be very sensitive if family issue pointed out...don't ever make fun of my family....no means you will feel sorry for that....
Sometimes I can't understand my own mum....from small till now I still can't 'fix in' with her....chuckle....something is wrong somewhere I think...
With papa...though papa is a very strict and hot temper but still I more close to him....close not in term of chit chatting or share idea or whatever but in terms of heart....maybe because papa more pampered me....whatever I wan he will fulfill for me....well really miss him a lot....
Sigh....
With sis....emm her temper really follow papa....if she's in good mood then you are save....if she really not in the mood even a very small tiny things happen she will definitely give you a 'good' words....even if you didn't do anything wrong also she will give you 'sour' face...
Sigh...and I'm the one always 'kena'....well at home nobody else except me and mummy.....so who else will be the victim then....
Even things like that always happen to me....even how often we argued....I still loved her very much...she the only sister I have in this world.....how bad her temper also she still my sis....chuckle....
With me, she like to share a lot of things....some secret that can't let mummy know mostly she will share it with me....but the other way round I'm really different....myself prefer to share my secret with friends....those I trusted friends....don't know why....maybe I've been trained up to be like this since I'm small....so both of us can consider quite 'kamcheng' though in the middle always appeared a lot of arguments....
Chuckles.....
Talk about temper...emm my temper also not very good in fact....but at least better than my sis....maybe can said that I got half from mummy and another half from papa....middle....I more on soft side....a lot of things I will be very 'cincai'....well there's some circumstances I will not be 'cincai'....I'm an easy going person....just don't take granted on me too much....
Hahahaha...really confuse already...don't know what I'm writing...just write whatever come out from my mind....funny...
Well don't know what to write already....suddenly my migraine attack...think just pen off here now....will blog again when there's some good stories to share out....
Adiosss...
During in the office time I'm OK and normal....still can hang and joke around....but when I'm left all by myself I felt an empty heart....and start to think a lot of things...
Sigh....what happen to me?
Or maybe because something had happen during my birthday's?
Sigh....
Think about it....its really hurt my feeling....though it might a small matter....but if it's done by the one you loved the most the effect will be very different...
Whose my loved one?In my whole life I love my family the most....papa...mummy....and sis....so I will be very sensitive if family issue pointed out...don't ever make fun of my family....no means you will feel sorry for that....
Sometimes I can't understand my own mum....from small till now I still can't 'fix in' with her....chuckle....something is wrong somewhere I think...
With papa...though papa is a very strict and hot temper but still I more close to him....close not in term of chit chatting or share idea or whatever but in terms of heart....maybe because papa more pampered me....whatever I wan he will fulfill for me....well really miss him a lot....
Sigh....
With sis....emm her temper really follow papa....if she's in good mood then you are save....if she really not in the mood even a very small tiny things happen she will definitely give you a 'good' words....even if you didn't do anything wrong also she will give you 'sour' face...
Sigh...and I'm the one always 'kena'....well at home nobody else except me and mummy.....so who else will be the victim then....
Even things like that always happen to me....even how often we argued....I still loved her very much...she the only sister I have in this world.....how bad her temper also she still my sis....chuckle....
With me, she like to share a lot of things....some secret that can't let mummy know mostly she will share it with me....but the other way round I'm really different....myself prefer to share my secret with friends....those I trusted friends....don't know why....maybe I've been trained up to be like this since I'm small....so both of us can consider quite 'kamcheng' though in the middle always appeared a lot of arguments....
Chuckles.....
Talk about temper...emm my temper also not very good in fact....but at least better than my sis....maybe can said that I got half from mummy and another half from papa....middle....I more on soft side....a lot of things I will be very 'cincai'....well there's some circumstances I will not be 'cincai'....I'm an easy going person....just don't take granted on me too much....
Hahahaha...really confuse already...don't know what I'm writing...just write whatever come out from my mind....funny...
Well don't know what to write already....suddenly my migraine attack...think just pen off here now....will blog again when there's some good stories to share out....
Adiosss...
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Happy Birthday to myself
Its 12am..happy birthday to myself then...
This year like usual, my birthday I go through is like a normal day...quite sometime I didn't really have a good celebration....after since dad is not here anymore....
Last time when dad here we often celebrates our birthdays....mum will cook a good meal....then sure there will have one cake to cut....if mum's or dad's birthday, I and sis will share money to buy present....and if sis or my birthday mum usually the one to buy the present for us....really miss the moment....now all will only left as memories....sigh...
Well...nothing much to blog today...though it's my birthday and I supposed to be happy but tell frankly my heart is empty right now....and unhappy....emmm maybe I miss the moment so much...
By the way...would like to thanks to all my friends those who send cards and sms to me.....thanks for remembering my birthday....I really appreciate it....
Love ya all...
Friday, November 27, 2009
Relax Day
Yesterday slept at 4 am...thanks to the coffee I drank...what I've done for the whole night?well nothing much also..just upload few songs to my blog ipod...suppose I've upload lot of songs but don't know why only few been saved after I've try many times..sigh...at last just give up...maybe will try again sooner or later....really not so familiar with it yet....
This morning woke up at 7 am plus...send some msg out then sleep back till 9 am wake up...nothing much I've done today also...whole day stay at home and watch my CD....
After so long I think today is the most relax day I have....just spent my whole time watching my favourite CD....no means my day will fulfill with works and works...Sunday also sometimes got to accompany my mum go to kl...
Tomorrow got to work....what a boring day....really thought of taking sick leave...but cannot as tones of works awaiting for me...and the most important task is I got to get ready salary for staffs...headache when I got to check all their claims,allowances and leaves....sigh....arrghhhh....really wanna to throw all the works into rubbish bin...
Can I? wakakakaka....
Well thinks that's all for today....eyes feel bit tired already....if got free time I will blog again....
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This morning woke up at 7 am plus...send some msg out then sleep back till 9 am wake up...nothing much I've done today also...whole day stay at home and watch my CD....
After so long I think today is the most relax day I have....just spent my whole time watching my favourite CD....no means my day will fulfill with works and works...Sunday also sometimes got to accompany my mum go to kl...
Tomorrow got to work....what a boring day....really thought of taking sick leave...but cannot as tones of works awaiting for me...and the most important task is I got to get ready salary for staffs...headache when I got to check all their claims,allowances and leaves....sigh....arrghhhh....really wanna to throw all the works into rubbish bin...
Can I? wakakakaka....
Well thinks that's all for today....eyes feel bit tired already....if got free time I will blog again....
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Nothing much to do Day
Today feel like writing and writing....just have a cup of nescafe....so think I can 'tahan' from sleepy for couple of hours....
Sigh...tonight nothing much to do....read novels don't have the mood yet....luckily I found out a good web for chatting together with radio...a good and nice web....thanks to mama aka kak apple who introduce me this web....at this web I found out many friends and almost all my time been fulfill....until a stage I will feel a lost feeling if didn't visit it for a day...
RilekFm thanks for being here...hope RilekFm will forever grow up and up....no matter how I will always support you... "gambateh"....
Yesterday held an internal audit....actually started on Tuesday...so boring...and fed up...being an internal auditor not an easy job...more harder than being an accounts exec....sigh...got to study all the sop....clauses...and got to familiar with all the system...sigh....talk about it I already feel dizzy....so forget it...don't wanna to ruin my mood in writing....hehehe...
This Sunday will go to cut my hair...quite some time didn't take care of my hair well...just let it grow longer and longer...until it's easily fall...end up got so many complaint said always found my hair everywhere...same with my Myanmar worker....will complaint every time when they clean up my office....wakakakaka....out of my control eh...what I can do if my hair wanted to fall...don't ask me to pick it up and glue it up back at my head huh.... ^_^"
Latest photo taken yesterday during internal audit....will upload a new hair style photo if available....hehehe...
Tomorrow is a public holiday...Raya Haji...so I would like to wish for all my Malay friends Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha....wishing you all always protected by God and happy always...and praying for all my friends those that 'balik kampung'...wishing them safely reach hometown and safely come back here....
Think that's all for today...though I'm not sleepy yet but I'm out of idea what to write....maybe I will update again for tomorrow activities....
Take care...
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Thursday, November 26, 2009
Happy Belated Birthday Sis
After so long didn't update my blog....suddenly today feel like to blog again....maybe cause now I feel boring...lonely and nothing much to do...
Before that would like to wish my beloved sis Happy Belated Birthday which fall on 18th November...forgot to post it here during her birthday...this year can't celebrate with her cause she didn't come back....her company send her to US for one month on training purpose....quite missing her...thought we sometimes always got argument but no matter how she's the only sister I've....I love her so much deep in my heart....
When rethink about it both of us really in two different world and character....she more on independent and act like a boy character....and I'm more on dependant and more in soften character...maybe cause we grown up in different place and situation....
Anyway...sis..I love you so much...happy birthday...wishing you happy always and stay healthy forever....
Now only I realised we don't have many photo just both of us...nevermind...next time I will make sure we take more photo together ya... Love ya my dear sis...
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Blur Day
Quite some time...nope I think almost 2 months I didn't update my blog...till the day 'someone' reminded me on this only I realised I got a blog left out...
Nowadays I more active in Face book....from there I found out a lot of lost contact friends...from primary school classmates till my college classmates...so happy to get contact with them back and meet them up...missing the moment we are sharing together last time....
Sigh...
2 months...not a short period but during these 2 months so many things happened to me....
From broken heart to my mum admitted to hospital...
Broken heart....
The feeling is so hurt...even till now the feeling is still strong in my heart...no suitable words for me to describe how's the feel is...only those feel it before will only understand how hurt it is...
I don't know why all this happened and how it's happened...maybe people said no more 'yuen fan' then how tight you hold it, it will still can disengaged...
The only way for me to do now is forget the past...what is past is past...now I got to head up for my future...concentrate more on my works and family...or maybe I will head up to further my studies...maybe all this will help me to forget all the unhappy moments....
But till now I still didn't' found the mood of study....sigh....maybe my age getting older and the mood become more lazy....
Sigh...
What should I do? Really don't know...
On the puasa days my mum suddenly sick badly...that time I really out of my mind...don't know what should I do...that time brought my mum to many clinics but still her conditions is the same...in and out go here and there....until one day I bring mum to this clinic and this doctor immediately write a letter and admit my mum to Hospital Serdang...and my mum stayed there for almost one week....but still for me its a relief as even admitted to Hospital but my mum's condition is getting better and better...at least all my tiredness are worth...
Here I would like to thanks to all my friends that are supporting me all the while....although you all cannot read what I'm written here but still I really appreciates you all concern....and I feel lucky that when the moment I'm sad, hurt, betrayed and all the unhappy moment I got buddies to support me and be with me all the while...Thanks...
Today is blur day because yesterday I just take a 2 hours nap....nowadays too many works in office....rushing to close my accounts....checking all those pending claims....arrange shipment....take caring production....and I also got work part time accounts in other's company.....arggghhhh when think about it I will gonna to be crazy....but when think about it if the condition like this are more better for me as I will have no time to think those unhappy stuffs...hehehe...better hor if like this...
But when is the time for me to study then?
Sigh....
Got to rearrange again the schedule....
Well think gotta to pen off here...it's time for me to go for part time job already....
Sigh...bit lazy actually....with this blur condition...but got to force myself go for it as last Saturday I skip it because I need to accompany my buddy so called 'mom' to somewhere to settle her things....
Huarrgggghhhhh so tired....
Hope today can get my payment for this part time job...if today I got the money I promise to treat my mummy a good meal....lalalala....praying for it...
Hope I will got time to blog here again...
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Nowadays I more active in Face book....from there I found out a lot of lost contact friends...from primary school classmates till my college classmates...so happy to get contact with them back and meet them up...missing the moment we are sharing together last time....
Sigh...
2 months...not a short period but during these 2 months so many things happened to me....
From broken heart to my mum admitted to hospital...
Broken heart....
The feeling is so hurt...even till now the feeling is still strong in my heart...no suitable words for me to describe how's the feel is...only those feel it before will only understand how hurt it is...
I don't know why all this happened and how it's happened...maybe people said no more 'yuen fan' then how tight you hold it, it will still can disengaged...
The only way for me to do now is forget the past...what is past is past...now I got to head up for my future...concentrate more on my works and family...or maybe I will head up to further my studies...maybe all this will help me to forget all the unhappy moments....
But till now I still didn't' found the mood of study....sigh....maybe my age getting older and the mood become more lazy....
Sigh...
What should I do? Really don't know...
On the puasa days my mum suddenly sick badly...that time I really out of my mind...don't know what should I do...that time brought my mum to many clinics but still her conditions is the same...in and out go here and there....until one day I bring mum to this clinic and this doctor immediately write a letter and admit my mum to Hospital Serdang...and my mum stayed there for almost one week....but still for me its a relief as even admitted to Hospital but my mum's condition is getting better and better...at least all my tiredness are worth...
Here I would like to thanks to all my friends that are supporting me all the while....although you all cannot read what I'm written here but still I really appreciates you all concern....and I feel lucky that when the moment I'm sad, hurt, betrayed and all the unhappy moment I got buddies to support me and be with me all the while...Thanks...
Today is blur day because yesterday I just take a 2 hours nap....nowadays too many works in office....rushing to close my accounts....checking all those pending claims....arrange shipment....take caring production....and I also got work part time accounts in other's company.....arggghhhh when think about it I will gonna to be crazy....but when think about it if the condition like this are more better for me as I will have no time to think those unhappy stuffs...hehehe...better hor if like this...
But when is the time for me to study then?
Sigh....
Got to rearrange again the schedule....
Well think gotta to pen off here...it's time for me to go for part time job already....
Sigh...bit lazy actually....with this blur condition...but got to force myself go for it as last Saturday I skip it because I need to accompany my buddy so called 'mom' to somewhere to settle her things....
Huarrgggghhhhh so tired....
Hope today can get my payment for this part time job...if today I got the money I promise to treat my mummy a good meal....lalalala....praying for it...
Hope I will got time to blog here again...
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